Thinking of starting... but scared.
Posted: Mon Mar 29, 2010 8:07 pm
A lot of people on one of the other forums I read are into the No S Diet, so I started reading up on it. I like the idea, and want to try it, but am afraid to.
Here's the rundown on me: I'm 5'2.5". (Yes, I'm insistent about the .5. I really am right in between!) I have been overweight my whole adult life, though how overweight has varied. I was at a high point (or maybe I should say a low point) in late 2007, weighing somewhere over 190 lbs., probably close to 195. Then, I went through a divorce. I became so depressed that I lost interest in food and pretty much everything else, and very rapidly shed 30 lbs. without trying, ending up at about 162 at my low point. Obviously that's still overweight for my height, but I sure looked a heck of a lot better. Suddenly everyone was complimenting me. I had given up on weight loss, but once I started getting those compliments coming in, I realized I really wanted to not gain that weight back.
Fortunately I did not stay that miserable. Unfortunately, as soon as I was happy again and food started tasting good again, I started to put the weight back on. I ended up getting back up to about 173 in late 2008, at which point I decided I had to start dieting again. I went on a calorie-counting diet, since that's what had worked for me in the past (temporarily). And I'm still on that now. I've gotten back down to about 166 and stalled; my body really seems to like this weight and is being stubborn about going any lower. Still, the fact that I at least haven't gained all that weight back is still consoling to me. I'd rather lose than maintain, but even maintaining at this point feels like something of a victory.
My current regimen is 1200 calories a day (six days a week). I work evenings and my schedule is to get up at about noon every day and go to bed about 3 a.m. When I get up, I eat lunch, and then I eat dinner about 10 p.m. Lunch is tiny, dinner is medium-sized. I eat an afternoon snack (very small, about 100 calories) at about 5 p.m. and a bedtime snack at about midnight. I also do at least 30 minutes of exercise (e.g. Wii Fit, walking, DDR) five days a week (the other two are long days at work and don't leave time for it). One day a week is my free day on which I can go out to eat with my family or have treats or whatever I want.
I'm not losing on this scheme, I am simply maintaining. That would be all right, if not ideal, but the trouble is, it makes me miserable. Having a tiny little lunch so I can leave room in the calorie budget for an afternoon snack frankly sucks. Two meals a day also sucks, but if I ate three they'd have to be even smaller. And, as a lot of you probably well know, counting calories sucks. I've gotten to where all day I'm crunching numbers in my head so I know what I can have for dinner, measuring every condiment I put on my sandwiches, etc. It feels obsessive and unhealthy. Sometimes I even dream about counting calories, which just can't be a good sign.
So, I would love a diet that did not require me to count anymore. The thing is, I am convinced that if I didn't, I would not maintain my weight. As it is, I get one equivalent of an S-day rather than two (and I budget holidays in as my free days for that week, too, so they aren't extra), and I eat tiny portions of food. Even on this strict-feeling diet, I am not losing weight. If I could actually just put what felt like a real meal on my plate three times a day, even without the snacks, I would definitely be eating more than 1200 calories a day. And two free days plus holidays on top of that? I can easily see myself getting slowly back up to my old awful weight.
So, I want to try this, but am terrified of ballooning again if I do. Every time my weight goes up I feel sad and upset with myself. Still, I am thinking of switching over to No S after Easter. I do think I'd be more than happy with trading my tiny snacks for a third meal. (Although my meals would have to be odd -- like "lunch, tea, and dinner" -- because of my schedule.)
What to do... what to do!
Here's the rundown on me: I'm 5'2.5". (Yes, I'm insistent about the .5. I really am right in between!) I have been overweight my whole adult life, though how overweight has varied. I was at a high point (or maybe I should say a low point) in late 2007, weighing somewhere over 190 lbs., probably close to 195. Then, I went through a divorce. I became so depressed that I lost interest in food and pretty much everything else, and very rapidly shed 30 lbs. without trying, ending up at about 162 at my low point. Obviously that's still overweight for my height, but I sure looked a heck of a lot better. Suddenly everyone was complimenting me. I had given up on weight loss, but once I started getting those compliments coming in, I realized I really wanted to not gain that weight back.
Fortunately I did not stay that miserable. Unfortunately, as soon as I was happy again and food started tasting good again, I started to put the weight back on. I ended up getting back up to about 173 in late 2008, at which point I decided I had to start dieting again. I went on a calorie-counting diet, since that's what had worked for me in the past (temporarily). And I'm still on that now. I've gotten back down to about 166 and stalled; my body really seems to like this weight and is being stubborn about going any lower. Still, the fact that I at least haven't gained all that weight back is still consoling to me. I'd rather lose than maintain, but even maintaining at this point feels like something of a victory.
My current regimen is 1200 calories a day (six days a week). I work evenings and my schedule is to get up at about noon every day and go to bed about 3 a.m. When I get up, I eat lunch, and then I eat dinner about 10 p.m. Lunch is tiny, dinner is medium-sized. I eat an afternoon snack (very small, about 100 calories) at about 5 p.m. and a bedtime snack at about midnight. I also do at least 30 minutes of exercise (e.g. Wii Fit, walking, DDR) five days a week (the other two are long days at work and don't leave time for it). One day a week is my free day on which I can go out to eat with my family or have treats or whatever I want.
I'm not losing on this scheme, I am simply maintaining. That would be all right, if not ideal, but the trouble is, it makes me miserable. Having a tiny little lunch so I can leave room in the calorie budget for an afternoon snack frankly sucks. Two meals a day also sucks, but if I ate three they'd have to be even smaller. And, as a lot of you probably well know, counting calories sucks. I've gotten to where all day I'm crunching numbers in my head so I know what I can have for dinner, measuring every condiment I put on my sandwiches, etc. It feels obsessive and unhealthy. Sometimes I even dream about counting calories, which just can't be a good sign.
So, I would love a diet that did not require me to count anymore. The thing is, I am convinced that if I didn't, I would not maintain my weight. As it is, I get one equivalent of an S-day rather than two (and I budget holidays in as my free days for that week, too, so they aren't extra), and I eat tiny portions of food. Even on this strict-feeling diet, I am not losing weight. If I could actually just put what felt like a real meal on my plate three times a day, even without the snacks, I would definitely be eating more than 1200 calories a day. And two free days plus holidays on top of that? I can easily see myself getting slowly back up to my old awful weight.
So, I want to try this, but am terrified of ballooning again if I do. Every time my weight goes up I feel sad and upset with myself. Still, I am thinking of switching over to No S after Easter. I do think I'd be more than happy with trading my tiny snacks for a third meal. (Although my meals would have to be odd -- like "lunch, tea, and dinner" -- because of my schedule.)
What to do... what to do!