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Counting carbs/calories is a drag. Obsessive scale stepping is a recipe for despair. If you want to count something, "days on habit" is a much better metric. Checking off days on a calendar would do just fine, but if you do it here you get accountability and support. Here's how. Start a new topic in this forum called (say) "Your Name Daily Check In." Then every N day post a "reply" to that topic as to whether you stayed on habit. A simple "<font color="green">SUCCESS</font>" or "<font color="red">FAILURE</font>" (or your preferred euphemism if that's too harsh) is sufficient, but obviously you're welcome to write more if you want. On S-days just register that you're taking an S-day. You don't have to do this forever, just until you're confident you've built the habit. Feel free to check in weekly or monthly or sporadically instead of daily. Feel free also to track other habits besides No-s (I'm keeping this forum under No-s because that's what the vast majority are using it for). See also my <a href="/habitcal/">HabitCal</a> tool for another more formal (and perhaps complementary) way to track habits.

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Post by ammara » Fri Aug 08, 2014 9:26 am

Am just starting.

Days 1 and 2 were Successes! And not too taxing
One more day to an S day.

Want to do a 21 day challenge initially.

Going to take people's advice and not worry about my plate size for the 21 days. Am also going to not worry about the level of eating on S days. Haven't had one yet.... I am a bit of a worrier.

Will check in tonight
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Post by ammara » Fri Aug 08, 2014 6:24 pm

Day 3 Success

Looking forward to first S day tomorrow

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Post by eschano » Mon Aug 11, 2014 8:30 am

Very wise decisions and welcome!
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Post by ammara » Mon Aug 11, 2014 10:32 am

Was away at the weekend for both s days.

Didn't feel like snacking at all.

On Saturday had 3 meals - but they were big and take outs.
Had fruit in between.

On Sunday again 3 meals. But did have some cookies that I had wanted during last week.

Felt good not to feel guilty. Although I had to remind myself not to....

Had fruit juice in between which I have always avoided but enjoyed. Had it without guilt.

This now is beginning to feel doable.

Day 5 today. OK so far.

So nice to be able to eat a plateful. Think I was really restricting before then eating lots of snacks because I hadn't eaten my meal properly.

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Post by Skelton » Mon Aug 11, 2014 10:42 am

ammara wrote: Think I was really restricting before then eating lots of snacks because I hadn't eaten my meal properly.
This is an astute observation and one that I'm sure is true for many people.
Nice to 'meet' you ammara.
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Post by ammara » Mon Aug 11, 2014 6:45 pm

Didn't find it too hard to have no snacks after the weekend.

Success today.

A friend has invited me for morning tea next Wednesday. Not sure how to cope... Want to see her and can't just socialise on the weekend. Don't want to blow it... I suppose I could make it an S day. Should I do that at the drop of a hat? Got a few days to think about it.

Thank you for the welcomes.

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Post by Skelton » Mon Aug 11, 2014 7:06 pm

You'll get different opinions about how to handle the morning tea.
I think I'd make the tea itself an S Event, rather than making all of Wednesday an S day. so treat the time you're with your friend as S, but as soon as the meeting is over you're back to an N day.
That's what has worked best for me in the past. As I said, others will have different views. It's worth posting your question on the main board for more input.
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Post by ammara » Mon Aug 11, 2014 8:38 pm

That's a way to think about it that I hadn't considered. Thanks Skelton

Does that mean I don't count it as an S day? Or I can team it up with another S event - that feels a bit dangerous!

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Post by aspencer27 » Mon Aug 11, 2014 9:40 pm

Here is how I do an S Event. On the first Tuesday of the month, our office has birthday cupcakes. I'll let myself eat one cupcake (my S Event). I record that day as Yellow - S Event. If I have seconds, sweets or snacks any other time during the day, I'll record it as a FAIL.

The other thing to think about is fitting social events into NoS. Can you have your tea without any sweets? Can you make it so any nibbles you have are part of your meal? It probably has small plates, so maybe allow yourself 2 plates before considering it seconds.

I am trying to focus on the more social aspects of going out to try and fit in social events during the week and not blow my N Days. It's tough, and sometimes things are just S-Event worthy, and I will record a fail with no regrets! :D

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Post by ammara » Tue Aug 12, 2014 8:28 pm

Day 7 - success

Made it through a week...

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Post by ammara » Wed Aug 13, 2014 1:32 pm

For some reason I was particularly hungry yesterday so I made my plates slightly heavier.

Today I realised why - am coming down with a bit of a sniffle.

I usually blow it completely on any diet at this stage and binge.

Until now I haven't really struggled with no snacks in the morning but today by 3 hours after breakfast I was feeling quite hungry. Breakfast no different to usual. So went with what is suggested in the book. I had liquid refreshment. I had a glass of 100% fruit juice - which probably was good for me anyway. Am proud that I haven't blown it and glad that I had bought a couple of juices that I liked last time I shopped. - don't usually drink juice - always avoided it because of the diets I was on.

There's still the rest of the day to get through...

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Post by ammara » Wed Aug 13, 2014 6:24 pm

Rest of the day - had a heavy but one plate (piled a bit) plate. Feeling like I want more. Going to have a hot chocolate milk drink... Hope that is okay...

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Post by ammara » Thu Aug 14, 2014 8:00 pm

Today was ok. Feeling a bit less on the edge. Lunch was a bit heavy but a success otherwise. Looking forward to the weekend

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Post by aspencer27 » Thu Aug 14, 2014 8:15 pm

That is an all-around success! Nice job with your green day, the weekend is getting so close!

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Post by ammara » Thu Aug 21, 2014 6:27 pm

OK day 16. Was ok today - success. But had to 'manage' myself. Woke up feeling particularly rubbish. Headache, iffy tummy (probably thanks to the binge yesterday ) but because I knew I wasn't feeling good and also that I am apt to lose it completely and begin a several day long binge I took more care to look after myself. Had to have some juice midmorning. Otherwise made it through with herbal teas twice.

Have been feeling a little off for several weeks now and I am sure it is because I have lost my exercise habit over the last two months. Had been doing about 2 and a half hours of walking a week and two gym classes (one hour of yoga and one of bodybalance) a week. Then my routine was interrupted and I haven't been able to get back on track. I felt so much fitter and healthier and had a lot more energy. And now try as I might I can't seem to start again.

I think I should start small again. I am not as fit as I was so can't start from where I was. Need to sort myself out.

One more day and then the weekend!

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Post by aspencer27 » Thu Aug 21, 2014 9:31 pm

Great job getting back on track. That is the hardest part of NoS, and you did it!

For exercise, I find that the classes really help me get back into it - the time is set, and even if I don't try that hard in the class, it still pushes me more than if I don't try at the gym on my own.

Definitely start small - all you have to do is a little bit of exercise today, you can do just a little bit! You'll get back in no time.

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Post by ammara » Fri Aug 22, 2014 6:15 pm

Thanks aspencer27 for the encouragement.

Today was a success but hard.

I am still not feeling so well. Must have a bug. Wanted to snack so many times today. Only managed not to with liquid refreshment. Juice once, a milky drink once, 2 cups of herbal tea. It was touch and go - but I made it.

Exercise - I decided that when I woke up I would go straight out of the door and go for a walk - without thinking - just do it. Only did 10 mins but enjoyed it. Put my coat on over my pyjamas (just looked like jogging bottoms underneath). Been reading the book "the first 20 minutes" which says that most of the benefits of exercise happen in the first 20 mins. Thought if I get in 20 mins each day I would total almost the recommended 150 mins a week. But will build up to it. Will try to build the habit first ...

Weekend tomorrow!!! Enjoy every one!

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Post by ammara » Thu Aug 28, 2014 7:28 pm

Made it through 21 days with one extra S day. Not calling it a fail....

I think I have the 3 meals with no snacks down. The one plate is also happening.

Had a few difficult days when I made my plates heavier and took juice or milky drinks if I felt I was going to lose it. Maybe I have a strategy for getting through the days/ triggers that make me lose it. I would like to think I now have some options I didn't have before...

The only thing that makes me feel that maybe it's not a real 21 days is that for the last 5 days I have had really bad toothache, antibiotics, the works. Didn't feel like eating (this never happens when I am ill - I normally go the other way bingeing like there's no tomorrow )

The biggest negative (and I don't feel as down about this as I would normally ) is that i haven't lost much. 2lbs.

I feel much more in control around food. I feel I could live this way.

When after 2 weeks I had lost 2 lbs in the first and put it back on in the 2nd, I started looking at the make up of my plates - and decided that I was eating too much, and too fast.

Decided to try this - have been doing it for the last 5 days.

Really slow down and savour my food (lots of inspiration from the tachew discussion ). Did this by taking mouthfuls half the size or filling my fork half as much.

Have really small portions of 3 or 4 different foods. The theory being that one only really enjoys the first few mouthfuls.

Might sound like a lot of food but the portions are small. For dinner today I had a small salad first, then a piece of toast with an egg made from 1 omelette. Then a few grapes. All fits easily on one plate although I am finding that having the different 'courses' on separate small plates makes it feel like more.

Really enjoying the variety, and I think this interest is helping to make my portions half the size. Am spending some time and effort to make the small courses as tasty as possible - don't know how this is going to work when I go back to school on Monday (am a teacher )

Am enjoying eating like this so we will see...

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Post by ammara » Thu Sep 11, 2014 1:56 pm

5 weeks in

Lost 4 lbs

Am so much more in control of my eating. And really enjoying my food. My S days are a bit out of control but I am choosing the best things for them.

Have struggled so long with my weight and never succeeded to keep it off even if I lost it. This I am sure has seriously impacted my confidence. How can you keep trying lots of different things for the same problem and fail again and again and not feel bad about yourself?

I feel like a small seed of confidence has been sown and has started growing. I feel like if I can do this maybe I am strong enough to tackle other areas of my life...

Getting the habits down first and not worrying about plate size initially was key. But then I felt I had to look at what was on my plate and how I was eating it. Small mouthfuls, slowly savoured, with 3 or 4 different things seems to be working for me.

Here's hoping I can stick with this long term. At this moment I feel I can. Because it's not long until the next S day and I am ready and armed with the most delicious cheese cake!

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Post by eschano » Thu Sep 11, 2014 3:11 pm

A beautiful post ammara. Congratulations on your 21 days! (I missed that post) and your continued success. I'm also glad you are feeling better.
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Post by aspencer27 » Thu Sep 11, 2014 3:20 pm

That's such a wonderful outlook. Glad to hear you are savoring and enjoying the food more. I think that is still an area of focus for me. I have some wild S Days, too, and some S Days where I enjoy the extra treat(s) that I get. I don't really enjoy the wild S Days, and it's a habit that I really want to break. But, for now, I'm just focusing on the Vanilla NoS habits and tracking. Keep up the good work!

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Post by ammara » Tue Sep 23, 2014 6:46 pm

Not a good day today.

Worn out and emotionally stressed. Had a very full plate for dinner and a couple of drinks - a juice and a milky one - to avert a binge.

Have been quite stressed for the last two weeks. Emotionally drained is how I feel today. does anyone feel that when they are stressed the pounds are harder to shift. Maybe my body is saving its energy to deal with the effects of the stress on my body. Why would it make the effort to burn fat. Alternatively maybe i am just eating too much....

I did not binge. Should be grateful for that.

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Post by oolala53 » Tue Sep 23, 2014 8:53 pm

Have been browsing and saw your post about having made it 21 days. Congrats!

I know it sounds impossible, but try for a few months at least not to be focused on the weight loss. It really takes a lot longer, and usually some success, stumbles, and rebalancing, to feel like the commitment to habit and moderation is truly building. I've seen so many people lose faith because they felt that weight loss wasn't quick enough. Consistent moderate eating has many benefits besides weight loss. Even a "diet' will not always yield predictable weight loss. I"m not saying you won't lose, but it will be more of a byproduct of stabilizing appetite.

It is hard to imagine that, if you are obese, and you honestly and faithfully keep working with the principles, including, as time goes on, experimenting with what and how much you REALLY need on your plate, in a year, you will not have lost a good amount of weight. In addition, you will probably feel that you can rather easily, comparatively, maintain the loss because what you are doing is very acceptable in terms of "sacrifice." That is worth so much more than an initial big loss and then a painful regain, no?

Alternately, you may by then have become so much more disciplined that if you then feel you really need to do something much more drastic, you will have more confidence that you can in a way that you would never have felt if you had not given this a good effort for so long. So, even if you don't lose a lot, you will not feel you have "failed" if you learned how to negotiate habits.

I don't mean to sound so negative on losing weight. I think you will but not as you have on diets in the past and probably not in the way you consider ideal. Having weight loss not fit our pictures has often been the reason people quit way too early before. I'd hate to see you fall victim to that.
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Post by ammara » Wed Sep 24, 2014 6:53 pm

Thank you oolala53. I am trying not to lose heart. I have only been at it six weeks but I don't think I have ever gone this long without bingeing. Did one day but was able to move on the next day. I have also had a few days when I nearly lost it, but managed to use strategies that fall within nos to get through the hard bit.

You're right, slow weight loss that I can maintain is preferable to the rollercoaster of losing fast and gaining even faster with the total loss of control, depression and despair that went with it. The guilt that went with it was debilitating. Now, I can enjoy what I want without guilt.

The biggest thing, maybe, is that i feel can eat like this forever. It makes sense. It seems doable.

Thank you for your advice. It's good to hear from someone who has been nos - ing for a long time.

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Post by oolala53 » Wed Sep 24, 2014 7:03 pm

I didn't have as much to lose as you, but my loss was very sporadic. I am sometimes bothered by the fact that others were faster and that a few who have been at it a shorter amount of time and are the same height have lost and maintained a lot more than I. Sigh. But then I look at what I would be willing to do differently to achieve that same weight and the truth is not much. I really eat a moderate diet and on some days much less than that. I'm working on getting regular with exercise. I explore tweaking the basics. If that gets me lower, so be it. But I don't have much but cosmetics at stake. If I develop some health conditions as I age, I'd be willing to make more drastic changes and call them my new life. So far, unnecessary.
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Post by aspencer27 » Wed Sep 24, 2014 8:24 pm

Don't lose heart, you are doing great. 5 lbs is such an achievement! Whenever I start to feel down about not losing more, I think about how before NoS I was gaining weight. That makes me realize that even maintaining is ahead of where I would be without NoS.

I definitely believe that slower weight loss is more effective than the quick weight loss - I mean, look at all of the success stories on pretty much every diet who end up yo-yo-ing and gaining everything (plus some maybe) back. This method is so much more sane, too.

Keep up the great work!

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Post by ammara » Thu Sep 25, 2014 1:26 pm

You are right aspencer. It is so much more sane.

I have thought that the weekends are making the weight loss slow. But on the other hand the weekends are what make it easier to nos during the week. If I tried to do it day in day out I wouldn't be able to. And I would be on that fail-guilt-depressed-despairing - desperate rollercoaster again.

I am not gaining and I feel this is doable. Even if I maintain this weight I will have achieved something I haven't before.

Today I feel better. Have managed to incorporate a little exercise into my routine and am enjoying it...

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Post by oolala53 » Thu Sep 25, 2014 6:14 pm

I had raging S days for a couple of years. :( But I now often eat even less- or less often, at least- on S days because I'm more likely to eat out and the food is so rich, it lasts me longer. I don't know if anything could have speeded up the process.

It's really much more about restructuring the appetite so that less food is more comfortable. No weight loss is sustainable unless the process feels enjoyable enough to be worth it. And that is something that is usually worked out over a long period of time.

The time will pass anyway!
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Post by ammara » Thu Oct 09, 2014 7:48 pm

Lost it today. Been on track for about 5 weeks and today I binged.

Normally I would then have days of bingeing - that is not going to happen.

I can see what has brought this on. Was feeling quite stressed since the weekend and then a little unwell. Don't know which came first. Was feeling hungrier than usual. Just had heavier plates. No snacks, no sugar, no seconds. Then yesterday I started to feel really stressed, I think because I had started to feel quite unwell but didn't realise it. But still no s ed ok.

Today I wasn't working and tried to take it easier. But I binged. At tea time. This hasn't happened for a few weeks. This is only the second time since 6th August when I started. And if I think about it I would usually be eating out of control half of each month.

So I am going to look after myself tomorrow and try and destress and not let another develop.

Wish me luck...

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Post by r.jean » Thu Oct 09, 2014 8:01 pm

Sick days may be NWS days. Sometimes you just need to let the rules go when you are sick and eat what helps you to feel better. The binging probably had to do with your body feeling it needed more than it was getting to fight the illness. I know if I try to restrict myself when I am sick I eventually end up eating everything in sight.
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Post by aspencer27 » Thu Oct 09, 2014 9:07 pm

You are doing great, even with a binge today. Just think of how much further ahead with moderating the binges you are now! It happens from time to time, and in the grand scheme of things, it's not important. Just get back on track now - you can do it!

Also, I agree with taking an NWS day for a sick day, especially if that helps get you back on track without binging for days.

I hope you feel better!

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Post by eschano » Fri Oct 10, 2014 8:36 am

You're doing well! I used to binge for weeks, like you describe it. With NoS it's maximum a weekend but the best benefit is: while I might feel equally bad about the binge as before, I actually eat far less. The excess feels a lot more because of the moderate N days I'm used to now but when I honestly weigh what I eat now on one binge weekend day against what I used to eat on one binge day it doesn't even come close. I bet it's the same for you.

You will likely have binge-episodes in the future but they will continue to be more and more rare and they also will be less extreme. Until you stop having them or as good as (I'm at as good as).
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Post by ammara » Fri Oct 10, 2014 12:34 pm

You're probably right. My body needs more than its getting to get better. Having said that today has been a bit of a rollercoaster food wise too. Trying not to worry about it. Hopefully by the end of the weekend I will feel much better and can get back to nos ing properly. So used to ignoring it if I feel a bit hungry. Didn't see this coming.

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Post by ammara » Mon Oct 13, 2014 8:00 pm

Thursday and Friday fails because of not being well. Saturday and Sunday S days but ate rubbish all the way.

Feel like I have put on half a stone. Some of it will be bloating because of all the sugary stuff I ate yesterday.

Have realised that for the last two weeks I have been quite careless with my plates. Just guessing or virtual plating when there is no need. So I think I have been overeating. Putting it all on one plate means I think more carefully about what is on it too. And eat breakfast properly. Had stopped looking forward to the weekend and s days in the same way because I think I was eating more than I should.

Today was much better - a success. Feeling quite a bit better too. Hope I can do this without slipping back into poor plating habits.

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Post by aspencer27 » Tue Oct 14, 2014 12:53 pm

Good job on getting right back on track yesterday! Getting to the point of not enjoying my S Days has actually been helpful because now I can tell myself (and really believe it) that I want to have something nutritious and good than something unhealthy that will leave me feeling gross the rest of the day.

Good luck with focusing on the plate sizes, that I going to be my next big focus, too, eventually...

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Post by ammara » Tue Oct 14, 2014 9:18 pm

You're right, I do feel rubbish when I eat rubbish. You are what you eat I suppose. Today was a success.

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Post by ammara » Fri Oct 31, 2014 6:48 am

OK. Been in a bit of a state for the last few weeks. Had recurrent low level colds/bugs ending in a few days when I was really ill. Been quite stressed too and both of these things coupled with thyroid issues and perfectionism (beating myself up / guilt) have meant its been a real roller coaster. I realised (I hope I am right this time, I have realised so many things so many times before ) that stress is my main issue. Not knowing when I am, not doing anything about it. Not stress from major events, just constant low level stress. Headless chicken syndrome. Piling more stress on myself like forcing myself to exercise when I am not well to try and boost my immune system. Have to calm down first. Have tried meditation before and have started practising again. Need to implement things slowly so it's not a burden but is doable.

I have to learn to go easy on myself. I was in a place where I was really enjoying my meals and nos ing really well. I am still not 100% - is anyone ever- but I think I am calm enough and well enough to relaunch.

I was a few weeks ago in a place where I was really thinking about my meals and they were quality, with several different things in them and small portions but satisfying because they were delicious. I was calm enough to really eat slow and savour. Lately I've gone back to inhaling my food, can't seem to eat enough and eat so much at each sitting because I am eating so fast. I know all of - well some of - the things I am doing wrong but seem powerless to change them unless I am calm.

Am going to nos from today with liquid refreshment in between to support my still recovering body.

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Post by ammara » Sun Nov 23, 2014 8:31 pm

Been a rough few weeks-but I am hoping I am back on track. My weekend was not as wild as they have been recently. Both days I didn't have any snacks but had a pudding / after lunch and dinner. I wasn’t as hungry as usual at meals and I was much calmer - i think my calmness and my levels of bingeing/permasnacking are very closely linked.

The week was smoother too.

Thanks to everyone who replied to my wild s days post - it really helped me find a way past the hurdle I was at.

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Post by ammara » Fri Nov 28, 2014 7:47 pm

A decent week. Had lunch with friends today. Had one plate but allowed myself cake afterwards - an S event. Otherwise this week was good. And I seem to be starting to lose. I have made a few changes. Some sweet breakfasts are only to happen on s days and if I stick to 3 meals and no snacks on s days I seem to be able to not permasnack. I buy/bake the things I have been craving all week and have them for pudding after my meals. I have been working on my stress levels too. That I am sure is helping. Looking forward to tomorrow and granola for breakfast, genoa cake and fruit pie....

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Post by ammara » Sat Nov 29, 2014 9:56 pm

Permasnacked! Dad brought round cream cake so all my plans went out of the windows. .... Never mind. An s day...

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Post by ammara » Sun Dec 07, 2014 8:48 pm

S days this weekend not too wild. I took people's advice - i don't have to eat stuff just because I can. I kept to the same pattern as my n days with a few differences. It was much calmer, much saner. Saturday I had a sweeter breakfast than usual and some icecream in the evening. Sunday I lost it a little at afternoon tea but was a much smaller binge than usual. I refuse to feel any guilt. It's an S day. If I can spend them like this weekend I will be very happy.

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Post by oolala53 » Mon Dec 29, 2014 10:54 pm

Hope your holidays went/are going well. Hang in there! Even if things are rough now, it is no guarantee they will remain so.

One thought that has helped me at times is really believing that this is a very fair way to manage food, which has to be done by nearly everyone in a food-rich culture. It's this, likely something harder, or the status quo, which is hardly pain-free.

To paraphrase Brightangel, eating less is hard; eating too much is hard. Choose your hard. :lol:

I, too, am a very anxious person. It can be hard, but every bit of white-knuckling to adhere to the habits, and the extra habit of savoring every bite of food, has been worth it. I spend a lot of my time in between my meals trying to find ways to counteract stress or find fulfilling activities. It's not a party, but the alternative is even worse.

Might it help to know that eating slowly actually speeds up your metabolism? Even calm people can have fast metabolisms!

Your only about a month from six months in. Just 4 1/2 years more to go to reach the gold standard for eating behavior changes!
Count plates, not calories. 11 years "during"
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9/17 22.8 (flux) 3/18 22.2
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Post by ammara » Sun Jan 04, 2015 9:16 pm

Pretty much over indulged throughout the holidays. A string of reds... The complete change in routine, the family around me all the time, little me time.... Also read the book by James Levine about how sitting for most of the day is very bad for health even if you do a half hour of exercise each day. And as usual I went off at the deep end putting in so much light activity into my day that I was shattered by the end of each day and eating like a horse. I agree with a lot of what he says but am useful at implementing slowly and go too far the other way, burn myself out and then give up. Have reigned myself in a bit. Not sure if it's enough. But his research and approach seems sound.

Going to have a fresh start from tomorrow after 2 weeks of chaos. Hope I can get back (habit wise) to where I was...

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