Moxie's 60-Day Check in
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Moxie's 60-Day Check in
I'm restarting. Too many vacations and NWS. I'm shooting for 60 days starting tomorrow. I don't have any celebrations or special events coming up so I am all set to do vanilla No-S.
Day 1: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2&1/2
L: Salad with cheese & ranch
D: Two pieces of Ezekial bread & almond butter
Tortilla chips
Thank goodness for NoS. Today I woke up feeling fat and yucky. Before I would have immediately chosen some diet (probably randomly on my way to work), would have hated what I was eating and become even MORE depressed because I felt deprived and would be binging at this very moment. Instead I'm going to do some reading for work and go to bed.
After dinner I really wanted to keep eating but then I said "You can have WHATEVER you want for breakfast tomorrow! Anything at all! So there's really no need to eat right now."
And that was that.
B: coffee & 1/2&1/2
L: Salad with cheese & ranch
D: Two pieces of Ezekial bread & almond butter
Tortilla chips
Thank goodness for NoS. Today I woke up feeling fat and yucky. Before I would have immediately chosen some diet (probably randomly on my way to work), would have hated what I was eating and become even MORE depressed because I felt deprived and would be binging at this very moment. Instead I'm going to do some reading for work and go to bed.
After dinner I really wanted to keep eating but then I said "You can have WHATEVER you want for breakfast tomorrow! Anything at all! So there's really no need to eat right now."
And that was that.
Day 4: Success!
B: coffee and 1/2
1 piece toast & 1 hb egg
L: chips & cheese
D: Champagne
I got fired yesterday right before my lunch break. So after dealing with all that I didn't end up being able to eat my 2nd meal until about 5pm, so I didn't have dinner. I wasn't hungry at all though (which I suppose isn't surprising!). I thought briefly about making it a S-day & having some ice cream, since surely being fired is a "Special" day but decided I didn't really need it. Instead I reached out to supportive friends and family, had some good long talks, bought a bottle of champange to toast my freedom from a job that made me miserable and went to bed early. It was a good day.
B: coffee and 1/2
1 piece toast & 1 hb egg
L: chips & cheese
D: Champagne
I got fired yesterday right before my lunch break. So after dealing with all that I didn't end up being able to eat my 2nd meal until about 5pm, so I didn't have dinner. I wasn't hungry at all though (which I suppose isn't surprising!). I thought briefly about making it a S-day & having some ice cream, since surely being fired is a "Special" day but decided I didn't really need it. Instead I reached out to supportive friends and family, had some good long talks, bought a bottle of champange to toast my freedom from a job that made me miserable and went to bed early. It was a good day.
Day 5: N-Day Success!
B: Bottled frappucino
L: 1 piece pizza
3 garlic rolls & marina sauce
S: yogurt
D: vegetarian chili w/ rice & wasa crackers
english muffin with butter
I am going to the grocery store tomorrow so that I can try to stay on No-S now that I am not working and my schedule will be erratic. It will probably be a little more erratic, I'll see how it goes. May be more like 2 meals. I just want to at least stick to no snacks and no sweets on N-Days. I'm a little bit nervous. But I think since I'll be waking up earlier, after coffee I might just feel comfortable during the day with 2 meals.
B: Bottled frappucino
L: 1 piece pizza
3 garlic rolls & marina sauce
S: yogurt
D: vegetarian chili w/ rice & wasa crackers
english muffin with butter
I am going to the grocery store tomorrow so that I can try to stay on No-S now that I am not working and my schedule will be erratic. It will probably be a little more erratic, I'll see how it goes. May be more like 2 meals. I just want to at least stick to no snacks and no sweets on N-Days. I'm a little bit nervous. But I think since I'll be waking up earlier, after coffee I might just feel comfortable during the day with 2 meals.
Day 8: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2
yogurt
L: salad with cheese and ranch and turkey
D: cheese and crackers
I am exhausted and stressed and weepy. I really wanted ice cream. I wasn't even hungry for dinner because I had a late lunch but I ate it anyway to stay on habit and protect me from bingeing. Now I'm too full. Ugh. I just want to go to bed.
B: coffee & 1/2
yogurt
L: salad with cheese and ranch and turkey
D: cheese and crackers
I am exhausted and stressed and weepy. I really wanted ice cream. I wasn't even hungry for dinner because I had a late lunch but I ate it anyway to stay on habit and protect me from bingeing. Now I'm too full. Ugh. I just want to go to bed.
Day 12: S-Day Success!
B: Bottled frappucino
yogurt
L: 1 piece white pizza
3 garlic rolls, marinara sauce
D: potato soup & tortilla chips
Ice Cream!
These meals didn't make me feel very comfortable- a little too much food. And I really just ate the ice cream because I could, not because I wanted it. It wasn't really worth it.
B: Bottled frappucino
yogurt
L: 1 piece white pizza
3 garlic rolls, marinara sauce
D: potato soup & tortilla chips
Ice Cream!
These meals didn't make me feel very comfortable- a little too much food. And I really just ate the ice cream because I could, not because I wanted it. It wasn't really worth it.
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yeah, I find myself doing this sometimes tooAnd I really just ate the ice cream because I could, not because I wanted it. It wasn't really worth it.
Blueskighs
www.nosdiet.blogspot.com Where I blog daily about my No S journey
Hi Blue! Yeah, I'm definitely starting to notice that some food I think I want is not what my body really wants. It just doesn't have the same thrill now that the "excitement of deprivation" is taken out.
Day 13: S-Day: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2, yogurt
L: 2 pieces of Ezekial & almond butter
D: lentil soup & tortilla chips
1 piece wasa with almond butter & apple butter
S: Amy's spinach and feta pocket
Wow, I didn't really take advantage of my S-day at all. I ate a lot but not a lot of sweets. Hmmm....I'll see how this affects me during the week.
Day 13: S-Day: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2, yogurt
L: 2 pieces of Ezekial & almond butter
D: lentil soup & tortilla chips
1 piece wasa with almond butter & apple butter
S: Amy's spinach and feta pocket
Wow, I didn't really take advantage of my S-day at all. I ate a lot but not a lot of sweets. Hmmm....I'll see how this affects me during the week.
Day 14: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2
2 veg sausage patties, english muffin
L: 3 wasa crackers with almond butter & apple butter
D: 1 piece pizza
3 garlic rolls, marinara sauce
I haven't been eating salad because I didn't buy cheese for it. I had decided that I shouldn't be eating cheese and instead should be eating turkey. Well, now I'm just not eating any salad (meaning no vegies) at all because just eating turkey depresses me. So that wasn't a good decision! Off to get cheese tomorrow!
B: coffee & 1/2
2 veg sausage patties, english muffin
L: 3 wasa crackers with almond butter & apple butter
D: 1 piece pizza
3 garlic rolls, marinara sauce
I haven't been eating salad because I didn't buy cheese for it. I had decided that I shouldn't be eating cheese and instead should be eating turkey. Well, now I'm just not eating any salad (meaning no vegies) at all because just eating turkey depresses me. So that wasn't a good decision! Off to get cheese tomorrow!
Day 15: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2
L/D: spinach artichoke dip & chips
1/2 pulled pork sandwich, baked beans
1/2 mini corn muffin with butter
bite ribs & macaroni & cheese, coleslaw
margarita
My schedule was off that day & I did eat a bigger meal (although probably would all fit on one plate easily) but it wasn't a binge and I wasn't over stuffed so it's a success in my eyes.
Day 16: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2
L/D: salad with beans and ranch
2 beers
My stomach was not right that day and I was really not feeling up to eating much. Hopefully today I'll get back more on track with the 3 meals. It's just been a crazy time with interviewing and feeling stressed- which always affects my stomach. However, for me, as long as I'm eating meals and not bingeing it's a success!
B: coffee & 1/2
L/D: spinach artichoke dip & chips
1/2 pulled pork sandwich, baked beans
1/2 mini corn muffin with butter
bite ribs & macaroni & cheese, coleslaw
margarita
My schedule was off that day & I did eat a bigger meal (although probably would all fit on one plate easily) but it wasn't a binge and I wasn't over stuffed so it's a success in my eyes.
Day 16: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2
L/D: salad with beans and ranch
2 beers
My stomach was not right that day and I was really not feeling up to eating much. Hopefully today I'll get back more on track with the 3 meals. It's just been a crazy time with interviewing and feeling stressed- which always affects my stomach. However, for me, as long as I'm eating meals and not bingeing it's a success!
Day 17: Failure
B: coffee & 1/2
L: 1 piece pizza
3 garlic rolls, marinara sauce
D: About 500 almond m&ms & mini pb cups
Later: shredded cheddar & english muffin
This has not been a good week and today was not a good day. This morning I had to break it off with a man who I love very much, and who I believe loves me, because I wasn't going to ever get what I wanted from the relationship and the bottom line is that we're not on the same page- not going in the same direction. I am devastated.
I also finished editing my book on Monday- after writing and working on it for 5 years. I made the decision to take some time while I'm unemployed to try to find a literary agent and actually follow that dream. Well today I started that process and I had all sorts of computer problems and printer problems and I just got so overwhelmed with the enormity of trying to make this happen. It just seems like the likelihood of ever getting an agent, let alone getting my book published, is so small that I wonder if it's even worth it. I have made a commitment to doing it but I am feeling so discouraged and weepy about the whole thing. It also doesn't help I'm sure that I think TOM is coming very soon. I'm just exhausted. In order to get an agent I will have to take some time away from the job search and in the meantime I am running out of money.
So I decided to have a total pity party tonight for 3 (me, the m&ms and the pb cups) because I am 37, single, unemployed, broke and following a dream that will probably never materialize.
Haha! Yes, I'm feeling VERY sorry for myself. So I guess I'll just go to bed and start fresh again tomorrow. 3 meals, exercise and working on the agent search.
B: coffee & 1/2
L: 1 piece pizza
3 garlic rolls, marinara sauce
D: About 500 almond m&ms & mini pb cups
Later: shredded cheddar & english muffin
This has not been a good week and today was not a good day. This morning I had to break it off with a man who I love very much, and who I believe loves me, because I wasn't going to ever get what I wanted from the relationship and the bottom line is that we're not on the same page- not going in the same direction. I am devastated.
I also finished editing my book on Monday- after writing and working on it for 5 years. I made the decision to take some time while I'm unemployed to try to find a literary agent and actually follow that dream. Well today I started that process and I had all sorts of computer problems and printer problems and I just got so overwhelmed with the enormity of trying to make this happen. It just seems like the likelihood of ever getting an agent, let alone getting my book published, is so small that I wonder if it's even worth it. I have made a commitment to doing it but I am feeling so discouraged and weepy about the whole thing. It also doesn't help I'm sure that I think TOM is coming very soon. I'm just exhausted. In order to get an agent I will have to take some time away from the job search and in the meantime I am running out of money.
So I decided to have a total pity party tonight for 3 (me, the m&ms and the pb cups) because I am 37, single, unemployed, broke and following a dream that will probably never materialize.
Haha! Yes, I'm feeling VERY sorry for myself. So I guess I'll just go to bed and start fresh again tomorrow. 3 meals, exercise and working on the agent search.
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hey hey heyIt just seems like the likelihood of ever getting an agent, let alone getting my book published, is so small that I wonder if it's even worth it. I have made a commitment to doing it but I am feeling so discouraged and weepy about the whole thing.
it's incredible that you have completed your book! you have already done the "heavy lifting" of WRITING IT .. do not let yourself down on your agent search ... btw if you know anything about astrology, mercury is retrograde so don't take those computer and printer problems too personally mercury goes direct, june 20 so hang in there and continue that agent search!
Blueskighs
www.nosdiet.blogspot.com Where I blog daily about my No S journey
Oh, thank you Jill, Blue & Fkwan for checking in! Seriously your responses & support made my day.
I am feeling a little better and have gotten a lot of work done. I'll just keep walking through I suppose.
Fkwan - in answer to your question, my book is fiction and takes place in the UCLA fraternity/sorority system. It's sort of an "Oh how the mighty do fall" tale. Here's my silly little log line:
We sacrifice to maintain reputation
We sacrifice to maintain love
And obsession can destroy it all...
LOL! Yes, it's dramatic. But I've had a great time working on the book overall. I just really now want to take it to the end of the process, no matter what the outcome. THAT I have no control of.
Thank you all again!
I am feeling a little better and have gotten a lot of work done. I'll just keep walking through I suppose.
Fkwan - in answer to your question, my book is fiction and takes place in the UCLA fraternity/sorority system. It's sort of an "Oh how the mighty do fall" tale. Here's my silly little log line:
We sacrifice to maintain reputation
We sacrifice to maintain love
And obsession can destroy it all...
LOL! Yes, it's dramatic. But I've had a great time working on the book overall. I just really now want to take it to the end of the process, no matter what the outcome. THAT I have no control of.
Thank you all again!
Day 18: Success BUT BARELY...
B: coffee & 1/2
yogurt
L: salad with beans, cheese and ranch
D: chips & cheese
1 wasa with almond butter & apple butter
Time goes really slow when you're heartbroken. I felt like I was waiting around most of the night, hoping I would get tired so I could go to bed. I definitely ate too much at dinner but I'm calling a success because I didn't binge and it was a finite amount with no going back.
I really need to make some plans with girlfriends for this week. I think that will help me through this.
B: coffee & 1/2
yogurt
L: salad with beans, cheese and ranch
D: chips & cheese
1 wasa with almond butter & apple butter
Time goes really slow when you're heartbroken. I felt like I was waiting around most of the night, hoping I would get tired so I could go to bed. I definitely ate too much at dinner but I'm calling a success because I didn't binge and it was a finite amount with no going back.
I really need to make some plans with girlfriends for this week. I think that will help me through this.
Most definitely. That's what I miss being out here in the middle of nowhere, the proximity of grrlfriends.Moxie28 wrote: I really need to make some plans with girlfriends for this week. I think that will help me through this.
Good luck. Put the heartbreak in the book.
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Thank you both for your kind words. It really does help so much.
Day 19: S- Day Success!
B: bottled frappucino
yogurt
L: 1 piece pizza, 3 garlic rolls and marinara sauce
D: chips & ranch dip, LOTS of ice cream
beer
The only reason this is a success is because there's no failure on S days. But this was a TON of food for me. I wasn't eating because I was hungry or even wanted food. I ate soley to try to change the way I was feeling. Didn't help much.
Day 19: S- Day Success!
B: bottled frappucino
yogurt
L: 1 piece pizza, 3 garlic rolls and marinara sauce
D: chips & ranch dip, LOTS of ice cream
beer
The only reason this is a success is because there's no failure on S days. But this was a TON of food for me. I wasn't eating because I was hungry or even wanted food. I ate soley to try to change the way I was feeling. Didn't help much.
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Moxie,
CONGRATULATIONS on your SUCCESS
Blueskighs
CONGRATULATIONS on your SUCCESS
Blueskighs
www.nosdiet.blogspot.com Where I blog daily about my No S journey
Thank you Blue! I really am excited.
I am feeling a lot more relaxed around food and finally making some healthier choices. I haven't weighed myself because I don't want to be emotionally affected if the number isn't what I hoped- but I know I've lost weight. I can see it in the mirror. I have been pretty good with the strength exercise (I do Callanetics which is like yoga & pilates) but not so great with the cardio. I'm not going to obsess about it too much though at this point. Callanetics is wonderful and really working well with my figure. I will focus on bringing in more cardio in the next few weeks.
So now, today, is the beginning of my second set of 21 days. I am also going to record Glass Ceiling (this is really something I want to work on as I know I've been drinking too much- nothing serious but too many late nights out with the girls. I really don't have the money or the stamina for that anymore! I would love to learn how to be moderate with alcohol so I want to make this a big focus for the next 21) as well as a personal goal which I'll call HT. I will be taking Friday, 4th of July as a NWS but I think that's all that will be coming up in this set.
Love this plan and love the people on this board!
I am feeling a lot more relaxed around food and finally making some healthier choices. I haven't weighed myself because I don't want to be emotionally affected if the number isn't what I hoped- but I know I've lost weight. I can see it in the mirror. I have been pretty good with the strength exercise (I do Callanetics which is like yoga & pilates) but not so great with the cardio. I'm not going to obsess about it too much though at this point. Callanetics is wonderful and really working well with my figure. I will focus on bringing in more cardio in the next few weeks.
So now, today, is the beginning of my second set of 21 days. I am also going to record Glass Ceiling (this is really something I want to work on as I know I've been drinking too much- nothing serious but too many late nights out with the girls. I really don't have the money or the stamina for that anymore! I would love to learn how to be moderate with alcohol so I want to make this a big focus for the next 21) as well as a personal goal which I'll call HT. I will be taking Friday, 4th of July as a NWS but I think that's all that will be coming up in this set.
Love this plan and love the people on this board!
Day 1: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2
yogurt
L: Salad with beans, cheese & bc dressing
D: Indian lentils with rice
I changed my mind and have just decided to record NoS here. I like this thread for me just being about that. It keeps it easier to manage. The other things I'll record elsewhere.
I was just looking over my old check-in and it's amazing to me how much smaller my meals are now. Especially breakfast and dinner. I still do have a fear of getting hungry- but now that I'm not working it seems more manageable. I think I was afraid of getting hungry at work because I was so miserable and food became an emotional escape. I'm hoping this habit will be really well ingrained before I start my next job.
B: coffee & 1/2
yogurt
L: Salad with beans, cheese & bc dressing
D: Indian lentils with rice
I changed my mind and have just decided to record NoS here. I like this thread for me just being about that. It keeps it easier to manage. The other things I'll record elsewhere.
I was just looking over my old check-in and it's amazing to me how much smaller my meals are now. Especially breakfast and dinner. I still do have a fear of getting hungry- but now that I'm not working it seems more manageable. I think I was afraid of getting hungry at work because I was so miserable and food became an emotional escape. I'm hoping this habit will be really well ingrained before I start my next job.
Day 2: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2
yogurt
L: 1/4 of huge italian sub sandwich
D: spaghetti & meatballs
That's my check in for yesterday (Thursday). Today is Friday and I fear it's going to be a tough day. I literally got no sleep and am up about 3 hours earlier than normal. This concerns me because I don't want to get too hungry early and set all my meals back. If I eat dinner too early I get snacky afterwards. Oh well, I'm sure I'll figure it out.
B: coffee & 1/2
yogurt
L: 1/4 of huge italian sub sandwich
D: spaghetti & meatballs
That's my check in for yesterday (Thursday). Today is Friday and I fear it's going to be a tough day. I literally got no sleep and am up about 3 hours earlier than normal. This concerns me because I don't want to get too hungry early and set all my meals back. If I eat dinner too early I get snacky afterwards. Oh well, I'm sure I'll figure it out.
Day 3: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2
yogurt
L: spaghetti & meatballs
D: Beer
Again one of those days where I ate a huge late lunch and just wasn't hungry at all for dinner.
Day 4: S-Day Success!
L/D: Taco Bell cheese/ beef quesadilla
beef mexi melt
nachos
taco
This was sort of spread out throughout the day.
B: coffee & 1/2
yogurt
L: spaghetti & meatballs
D: Beer
Again one of those days where I ate a huge late lunch and just wasn't hungry at all for dinner.
Day 4: S-Day Success!
L/D: Taco Bell cheese/ beef quesadilla
beef mexi melt
nachos
taco
This was sort of spread out throughout the day.
Day 7: Failure
B: coffee & 1/2
yogurt
L: 1 piece white pizza
3 garlic rolls with marinara sauce
D: ice cream
pieces of cheese
I'm very stressed out right now and definitely struggling with emotional eating. Wanting to just tune out from life. I'm still going to post though...I'm sure one day I'll get it right.
B: coffee & 1/2
yogurt
L: 1 piece white pizza
3 garlic rolls with marinara sauce
D: ice cream
pieces of cheese
I'm very stressed out right now and definitely struggling with emotional eating. Wanting to just tune out from life. I'm still going to post though...I'm sure one day I'll get it right.
Thank you sbay! Some days definitely are harder than others.
I'm a little behind in my check-ins...
Day 9: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2
L: Huge salad with cheese & bc dressing
D: Beer
Day 10: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2
1/2 piece white pizza
3 garlic rolls with marinara
L: Other 1/2 p. white pizza
D: 1 3/4 pieces of pizza (plain & veg)
It was definitely a pizza day yesterday! But I actually stopped before just ravaging through whatever was on my plate & getting stuffed. I feel good about that.
I'm a little behind in my check-ins...
Day 9: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2
L: Huge salad with cheese & bc dressing
D: Beer
Day 10: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2
1/2 piece white pizza
3 garlic rolls with marinara
L: Other 1/2 p. white pizza
D: 1 3/4 pieces of pizza (plain & veg)
It was definitely a pizza day yesterday! But I actually stopped before just ravaging through whatever was on my plate & getting stuffed. I feel good about that.
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Moxie,Wow. I knew I could have dessert but opted not to because I was too full. Wow.
COOL
how is that agent search going?
Blueskighs
www.nosdiet.blogspot.com Where I blog daily about my No S journey
Hi Blue! Thank you for checking in! The agent search is chugging along. It's going to be a much longer process than I thought so now I'm just sort of in a groove, working it in between my job search stuff. In some ways, knowing I can't possibly get it done within my original time frame has freed me from a lot of stress.
Day 15: Success!
B: coffee & 1/2
L: salad with cheese, garbanzos & bc dressing
D: 2 pieces of Ezekial with almond butter.
Feeling yuck and bloated tonight. Puffy. This may be because although I've been doing my Callanetics I haven't been doing cardio. I'm going to need to add that back in and see if it makes a difference.
B: coffee & 1/2
L: salad with cheese, garbanzos & bc dressing
D: 2 pieces of Ezekial with almond butter.
Feeling yuck and bloated tonight. Puffy. This may be because although I've been doing my Callanetics I haven't been doing cardio. I'm going to need to add that back in and see if it makes a difference.