Well I guess I'll update here, although not with news I'm too happy about.
I have had a terrible week or two. It started with being sick, not having my internet connection for about a week till this Tuesday, and then morphed into one of the most emotionally draining and upsetting weeks, due to some personal things which are happening (or to be more accurate *not* happening) in my life now.
So I'm afraid to say that for the whole last week I've been totally awol from my HabitCals and know I've put on at least three pounds if not more, over the past two weeks, due to extreme sadness and stress.. I tossed most exercise as well sadly.
Today I'm back on the saddle tho, and it's funny, and very surprising, that I felt as if I hadn't checked my HabitCal for a month, and when I looked back and saw it's only been about a week. I put failures for NoS and Exercise except on S days, just assuming they were failures, and I left my "No eating at night" HabitCal, blank, because honestly, I can't remember past last night, how I did. It's a total blur.
Regardless of how I feel and whether I fail or not, I am going to mark my HabitCal's everyday. I am also going to start in September, with a small pocket sized daily minder type calendar, which I will mark once a week, based on my online HabitCal's, with Green and Red marker. If I end up having problems with my connection ever again, I'll at least have a running hard copy backup at home.
Even seeing a whole week of red days, makes me feel better than nothing. That not seeing anything, really put me through a psychological hoop, as if I had completely thrown in the towel. Very disheartening.
It's a bit like being in denial too.
If I am at least marking my calendar, it's a sign that I'm not giving up, just in a slump of some sort, and hopefully a short one.
I did a little dumbbells this morning and a few crunches and I'm forcing myself out the house pretty soon, to do some laundry (which has for the first time in months of being good, started to pile up) I have my period next weekend, so I'm just glad that I've got back on board today, because between pms, and normal water retention/mood problems etc, I think being off track with NoS would totally make this week hell.
Gonna really try to up my water and eat lots of healthy food this week and stay away from processed stuff as much as possible.
Have a good weekend friends.
Hopefully I'll have a more upbeat post sometime in the near future.
Glad to have a nice group of people I can trust, to share with.
Thanks for listening!
Debs
