Linda's daily check-in

Counting carbs/calories is a drag. Obsessive scale stepping is a recipe for despair. If you want to count something, "days on habit" is a much better metric. Checking off days on a calendar would do just fine, but if you do it here you get accountability and support. Here's how. Start a new topic in this forum called (say) "Your Name Daily Check In." Then every N day post a "reply" to that topic as to whether you stayed on habit. A simple "<font color="green">SUCCESS</font>" or "<font color="red">FAILURE</font>" (or your preferred euphemism if that's too harsh) is sufficient, but obviously you're welcome to write more if you want. On S-days just register that you're taking an S-day. You don't have to do this forever, just until you're confident you've built the habit. Feel free to check in weekly or monthly or sporadically instead of daily. Feel free also to track other habits besides No-s (I'm keeping this forum under No-s because that's what the vast majority are using it for). See also my <a href="/habitcal/">HabitCal</a> tool for another more formal (and perhaps complementary) way to track habits.

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Post by lpearlmom » Mon Jul 01, 2019 5:29 am

Pretty good day but a little overwhelmed with how much i have to do this week.

Break: fruit salad
Snack: cauliflower w pesto,
Lunch: veggie sandwich, 1 quinoa cookie
Dinner: chipotle salad
Dessert: 1.5 quinoa cookie

Feels great to be eating light & healthy again.
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Post by Allisonmeg » Mon Jul 01, 2019 10:23 am

Good morning Linda, great to see you! :D

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Post by automatedeating » Mon Jul 01, 2019 2:13 pm

Welcome back home! Nothing like piles of (probably sandy) laundry and gobs of camping gear to put away! :lol: :roll:
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Post by lpearlmom » Tue Jul 02, 2019 3:49 am

Thanks Allison-you too!!

Auto: yup and I need to get everything washed and ready for the girls because they go off to camp this Sunday. I’ve also just got a ton to do this week with appointments and a vigil I’m planning at a local detention center.

Well today I went in to get my crown put back on and they told me I actually needed a root canal. Oh joy! They did it right there and then. Nobody likes going to the dentist but I get this weird ptsd thing in a dentist chair where your whole body freezes up. My therapist told me the name but now I can’t remember. Anyway it’s stressful but I got through it without a panic attack at least.

Doc picked up my meds and brought me dinner so I think we’re good. I just needed to have a couple hours to myself. Introvert problems. Plus rosebud is sleeping at her bffs house tonight so all is peaceful. 🧡

Break: ww avocado toast, 1 egg, berries
Lunch: large smoothie, fruit
Dinner: falafel 🥙, lentil 🍲
D: 2 quinoa 🍪, tea

Exercise: 30 mins weight
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CW: 172
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by Candace » Tue Jul 02, 2019 6:31 pm

Ah, the dentist. I hope they make you comfortable. My dentist's motto is "We Cater to Cowards". Once, I got my eyebrows waxed and then went to the dentist to have a root canal. I can honestly say the eyebrow waxing hurt more, due to the measures my dentist takes.

I hope you enjoyed your quiet time.
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Post by lpearlmom » Tue Jul 02, 2019 8:58 pm

It’s not specifically dentist but being trapped in a chair esp if a man I don’t know is working on me which was the case with the root canal. Past trauma related. But agreed the pains not bad. Just the shots and having to keep my tiny mouth open for long.
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Post by Candace » Wed Jul 03, 2019 12:39 am

My apologies for making light of the dentist thing!
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Post by lpearlmom » Wed Jul 03, 2019 2:24 am

Np Candace. You didn't know!

Today was busy but good. Getting a handle on the laundry pile & been sticking to my plan. As much as i dislike the whole diet industry and the whole fat phobia stuff, I also know that Im happier when Im thinner so I have to play the game to some respect.

Break: avocado toast, 1 egg, fruit salad,
Lunch: blue sky smoothie, 2 breakfast “cookies”, fruit
Dinner: chili veggie dog, chips & guacamole
Dessert: 1 froyo cup
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Post by liveitup » Wed Jul 03, 2019 2:39 am

Sounds delicious! At a restaurant nearby, they put a couple drops of sambal oelek on their avocado toast. It is so good! When I don't want it that spicy, I'll even just do a pinch of seasoned salt on it. It's amazing how something so simple can be so delicious.
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Post by automatedeating » Wed Jul 03, 2019 1:35 pm

Avocado on toast is one of my favorite meals of all time.
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Post by Octavia » Wed Jul 03, 2019 10:07 pm

Me too! :)

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Post by lpearlmom » Thu Jul 04, 2019 7:35 am

Yes avocado toast is great! At least we can all agree on that. Maybe avocado toast will unite us all and bring about world peace! No but seriously its a staple around here. I usually top it with tomato, a fried egg and truffle salt. My kids like it with a little Vegemite.

Today was good. Sweetpea and i got in a big fight last night and she ended up being grounded today. Heartbreaking because her bf came home from vacation today and she hasnt seen him for 2 weeks. We worked it out though and she can see him tomorrow.

I had lunch with a friend and then got my face waxed. The lady told me my skin was dry and i needed to exfoliate. Well yesterday my eyelash lady told me the same thing. Why do ppl in this field always feel the need to give unsolicited advice? Geesh. Of course, I did run out and buy a $60 bottle exfoliate. Sigh

Im trying to get my body used to eating less food then its been used to recently. Hopefully it doesn’t backfire on me. Now i just need to get back in the exercise mode. I want to bike but its just so dang hot.

Break: latte
Lunch: greek salad w nf dressing, fruit
Chai (mistake-reflux)
Dinner: bowl of coconut sweet potato soup w kale, rice
Dessert: 1 chilly cow
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Post by lpearlmom » Sat Jul 06, 2019 5:51 am

Ugh, so full! Tonight was Doc’s bday so I made him his favorite zucchini noodle lasagna with garlic bread and bundt cake for dessert. Everything was delicious but I overdid it. That’s okay. Im feeling grateful for my family. We had such a nice time tonight and DH genuinely loved his present (a fold up kayak). He’s usually much better at gift giving then me so this made me really pleased.

Only downside to today is that my weight is up even more. Sigh. Doc suggested i go back on IF but without getting so extreme. I just don’t know. Theres no good answers. I wish I could be naturally thin or one of those ppl that take to intuitive eating and learn to accept their larger bodies. Being in the middle sucks which is where most of us our I guess. Maybe doc is right although not sure if id lose weight without the extreme part.

Anyway enough of that. Tomorrow we have to get the girls packed up for their two weeks of camp. What to do with all that free time? I have plans to declutter the house & maybe lie by the pool for a bit. Boy am i boring! ☺️

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Break: fruit, latte
Lunch: chips w/ vegan queso
Dinner: zucchini Lasagna, garlic bread, wine
Dessert: bundt cake, ice cream
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Post by Kathleen » Sat Jul 06, 2019 12:16 pm

Hi Linda,
We all have to find our own way. Dr. Fung says he has one meal a day on several weekdays. I figured out that I binge eat after restricting that much. I went back to a 7 hour eating window because I did lose weight slowly (about 1 pound a month), was much more relaxed about eating, and found that I preferred foods that are better for me. Almost two months after returning to IF. I am still having lots of Trader Joe’s coffee ice cream and have only lost 1.6 pounds and that was before the July 4th holiday! Still, this is where I landed. Life is better when you aren’t obsessed about food. My best wishes to you. It must be hard to have your weight rise but that is the first step to finding what works for you. Enjoy your time the next couple of weeks!
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Post by automatedeating » Sat Jul 06, 2019 2:26 pm

Happy Birthday to Doc!

Also, very exciting about the girls' camps! I remember back when you were deciding about those - I bet they will have so much fun!

This time alone will be so great for you, after the (cozy) closeness of camping and all the changes of summer. It may be just the thing you need right now!
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Post by Candace » Sat Jul 06, 2019 4:47 pm

Here's to enjoying your free time! Camp is often a wonderful growth experience for kids. I know it was for me, as a kid. And I'm betting it was a nice break for my parents and siblings as well.
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Post by lpearlmom » Tue Jul 09, 2019 5:50 am

Omygosh just wrote a long post and accidentally deleted it. 🤦🏼‍♀️

Basically it was how ive been doing 19/5 but plan to not get carried away it this time. I looked pretty great at 150-155 lbs. its crazy how im always trying to get to a lower and lower weight no matter how much i weigh. I dont think im going to get my weight down there again but would be nice to get back to the 160s.

Kathleen: life is definitely better when you’re not obsessed with food and its a relief not to think about food for 19 hrs a day. Whether or not theres anymore magic to it then that, i dont know but really thats plenty.
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Also, very exciting about the girls' camps! I remember back when you were deciding about those - I bet they will have so much fun!
Yes, auto—im so glad we decided to do it! I really needed the break. I did feel a little weird this morning. The house just seemed so quiet and i was really missing the girls but then realized it was a good time for reflection. Also, really good for doc and I. We dont fight much but when we do, it’s often about the girls. And i know he feels left out sometimes because so much of my focus is on them.

Thanks Candace, they really love camp plus all that fresh air and exercise is good for them. Its too hot in AZ for much of that right now.

Tonight Doc & I went out to dinner and then i went with him to pick up a PA system he bought off of craigs list. It was nice to spend time together.

I cant believe im fasting again y’all must think I’m crazy (you wouldn’t be entirely wrong).

20/5
Break-fast: 1/2 bran muffin, fruit, “coffee” with oat milk
Snack: couple handfuls of raw cashews
Dinner: 2 veg enchiladas, skinny margaritas
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Post by automatedeating » Tue Jul 09, 2019 3:37 pm

I'm not at all surprised you are fasting again. It was a good fit for you for a long time. I'm sure you have learned so much about what works from you, and what kind of things derail you, etc. Maybe the ultimate difference is when we do something because of how we feel when we do it, rather than with the primary purpose of weight loss.... I mean, I know you want to lose weight, but I also know you've mentioned many things that are good for your head space, too. Which leads me to - you are not crazy, you are human. I spent an entire hour bawling in the counselor's office on Monday because I felt conflicted over my desire to have more animals and what that means about my dysfunctional self. I was kind of embarrassed but my counselor kept reassuring me that it was OK to have so much emotion over something that seems insignificant to a lot of people. So actually, maybe we are all crazy, which is also human. :-)
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Post by lpearlmom » Wed Jul 10, 2019 5:30 am

Thanks for your understanding auto & hugs about the dogs. I think it’s beautiful you care so much. My dogs bring me so much joy. I get it.

Yeah, I think our motivations make all the difference. Right now it is just about feeling better so maybe thats a step in the right direction. I can’t believe how much better I feel both physically and mentally. Physically because Im not eating all the time and mentally because aaaahhhh headspace! And really a five hr window is perfect.

Why did I mess with it? Probably too much time spent in fasting groups and pressure tondo more and be thinner got to me. Well Im not on anymore fb fasting groups and have unsubscribed to all Fasting podcasts. Just going to remember the rule “eat within 5 consecutive hours” and try not to mess with the magic.

It’s nice having peace and quiet with the girls at camp but it’s also hard. Im forced to think about stuff that Im usually to busy to worry about. I miss them a bit but know the time apart will do us all some good.

Im meeting with a couple friends for coffee tomorrow but im annoyed at my one friend. She has this habit of texting me bad news at all times of the day and she just kind of dumps all her stuff on me without ever really taking an interest in me. She texted me Monday morning at 730am to tell me about some stabbing that took place on the 4th of july. How exactly did she think this little nugget would benefit me? She knew Id been driving all day the day before and that it was my first day without the girls. Did it ever occur to her i might want to sleep in? Nope. Or that id want a peaceful day? Nope. Ugh, she texted me today about some guy running for office ir something. I didn't even respond. How to you deal with these one sided friendships? Im so done.

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Break- watermelon, 1/2 bran muffin. Handful nuts, sf latte
Dinner: vegan lasagna soup, wine
Dessert: 1 chilly cow cup
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Post by lpearlmom » Thu Jul 11, 2019 3:01 am

Omgosh, so funny that I was talking about appetite Correction yesterday because I was hit hard with it today. I could barely finish my dinner and felt absolutely stuffed even though it was just an average amount of food.

Today was pretty good. I started to get a little overwhelmed with thoughts of the future but calmed down and just made a plan. I can feel my anxiety lift a bit . I made a list of things im grateful for and that helped too. I need to do that more often. Maybe ill include it in my check in.

Im not getting as much done as i hoped but i did go buy some cute office supplies for organizing my office area. Im reading Taming the Paper Tiger. Hopefully it’ll help. Mostly its just nice to have a drama free house. Waking up and going to bed when i please is heavenly!

My friend just doesnt get it. It’s okay. I like her but need a break. She texts me pretty much daily... it’s just too much!

19/5
Break-bran muffin, tea, grapes, 1 tofu spring roll, couple cashews
Dinner: Beyond Burger, chimichuri potato salad , 1/2 glass wine (couldnt eat it all)
Dessert: 1 chilly cow

Im not weighing right now because Im feeling really good and thats all that matters. Why ruin it?

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1) air conditioning
2) a happy, secure marriage
3) access to plentiful and a variety of delicious food.
4) healthy, beautiful children
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Post by lpearlmom » Fri Jul 12, 2019 4:30 am

Today was good. I went through some of my paper piles but still have a lot to do. Im definitely moving slowly but thats okay.

Tomorrow I'm volunteering for a vigil at the ICE detention center they're holding downtown. Disgusting the treatment these immigrants are getting. Even the ICE agents are struggling to follow orders. All very sad but we have to take stand. If not now, when?

Anyway, Ive got a busy day tomorrow to get ready. I guess Ill need to drag myself out of bed before 8am.

I went a little past 5 hrs tonight because i wanted to sip my sangria while i was floating in the pool after dinner.

19/6
Break-bran muffin, grapes, potato salad, 1 tofu spring roll (i was hungry!)
Dinner: 2 vegan tacos, horchata
Dessert: small glass sangria

Im feeling really good and I know carbs get a bad rap but personally they make me feel great. I really think it’s the simple carbs that are the issue for me at least. Jut my 2 cents.
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Post by cedar » Fri Jul 12, 2019 7:45 am

I love carbs too Linda, they satisfy me. You're right, it's the right carbs and/or what they are eaten with.

Good luck with your busy day tomorrow.

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Post by automatedeating » Sat Jul 13, 2019 4:35 pm

Love these couple of posts and seeing you finding your rhythm again. And that grateful list! :-)

Ha - eating too many carbs get a bad rap, not eating enough carbs gets a bad rap, eating 6X a day gets a bad rap, eating 1X a day gets a bad rap, it's like no matter what works for us, we are guaranteed to have naysayers. Onward with self-experimentation and marching to our own drummers!!!! :-) To infinity and beyond!
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Post by lpearlmom » Sun Jul 14, 2019 5:57 am

Auto: for sure, we gotta just do what works. Maybe Id actually lose weight if i could do low carb but it’s not sustainable for me. Also, hard to do as a vegetarian.

Last night was amazing! Every time i go to a protest or vigil, i feel so uplifted and hopeful. It’s very energizing. Highly recommend. Of course Phoenix was the only protest out of hundreds to get outta hand. Leave it to us! 🤦🏼‍♀️

I’m feeling chubby today and decided to weigh. My weight is up—ugh! I do remember though that iIt’s normal to gain when starting IF and that most ppl don't lose anything till after about 3 weeks. Also, a little harder to stick to a 5 hr window on the weekend but trying not to stress about it. I need to just keep on keeping on and try not to focus on my weight too much.

Everything is so quiet, calm & clean around here without the girls. Doc & I decluttered the bedroom and i deep cleaned our camper today. I also went through some paper piles. I do miss them though. They give me a sense of purpose . I guess it’s a little peak into empty nest syndrome.

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16/8
Break: nectarine, few bites of various things—soup, hummus, rice, cheese
Snack: sf chai
Dinner: pho, tofu stir-fry, boba

Hopefully i can start exercising again soon. Really need to be used to fasting though or it’s tough.

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Post by oolala53 » Sun Jul 14, 2019 4:12 pm

I've been off the No S site for quite awhile. It has really affected me that we don't get email alerts of thread updates anymore. (But I also needed a break from eating stuff,and I'm so fragile in my own eating right now that I just didn't want to keep writing about it. Though I will probably do an update on my check in thread soon.) I know you had asked me for some clarification on something I said, but I think it's probably a moot point now. It sounds like you've gone through a cycle and are at a different place. I have to say I'm a little surprised that you are totally off IF sites, but I"m also impressed. It takes a lot to be willing to face the time that will be freed up by making such a change. Your political action work seems like a great alternative, though I think you always managed to get that in even before. I hope I said all that right! I sometimes step on toes when I mean to compliment.
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Post by lpearlmom » Sun Jul 14, 2019 5:53 pm

Thanks oolala! All sounds great and just glad you’re okay. I was about to drive to San Diego and search you down.

I really get needing to take a break from the boards if it’s too much so please don’t feel obligated to keep posting (till you’re ready). We just wanted to make sure you’re okay.
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Post by lpearlmom » Tue Jul 16, 2019 5:31 am

My weight is exactly where it was when I started Fasting. It’s almost as if this is just where my stubborn body wants to be yet I’d be lying to myself if I said I’m okay with myself at this weight.

Yet I was reading today that thin ppl are not happier then fat ppl and that in fact it may be the other way around. In fact when i was at my highest weight it was one of the few times in my life I didn’t experience depression. But I did feel unattractive and embarrassed. I think our desire to feel lovable and desirable beats out everything in the end.

Anyway, ill never stop wanting to be thinner but hopefully i can accept myself at a more reasonable weight for my body type. Right now I’m just taking it one pound at a time.

177.3 lbs 🤦🏼‍♀️
13/4
Break: açaí bowl, chai
Lunch: veggie sandwich with avocado 🥑 and hummus, watermelon 🍉

Exercise: walked 5 miles
:twisted: SW: 210 lbs
CW: 172
GW:160

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Post by Candace » Tue Jul 16, 2019 1:08 pm

lpearlmom wrote:
Tue Jul 16, 2019 5:31 am
My weight is exactly where it was when I started Fasting. It’s almost as if this is just where my stubborn body wants to be yet I’d be lying to myself if I said I’m okay with myself at this weight.

Yet I was reading today that thin ppl are not happier then fat ppl and that in fact it may be the other way around. In fact when i was at my highest weight it was one of the few times in my life I didn’t experience depression. But I did feel unattractive and embarrassed. I think our desire to feel lovable and desirable beats out everything in the end.

Anyway, ill never stop wanting to be thinner but hopefully i can accept myself at a more reasonable weight for my body type. Right now I’m just taking it one pound at a time.

177.3 lbs 🤦🏼‍♀️
13/4
Break: açaí bowl, chai
Lunch: veggie sandwich with avocado 🥑 and hummus, watermelon 🍉

Exercise: walked 5 miles
Linda, the feelings you're expressing are so similar to mine that it's eerie. I feel like my body just "wants" to be at a weight that's 10, 15 or so pounds higher than where I'd feel attractive. At times I've been a lot heavier than that, as well. When I'm heavy, feeling self-conscious in my body just colors everything I do. I totally agree that our desire to feel desirable beats out almost everything else. It keeps coming back even though my life is fantastic and I don't lack for anything. I'd say I accept myself at this weight, and I do, but that doesn't mean I stop trying. I don't know if thin people are happier, but I know that when I'm thin, the lack of self-consciousness is freeing beyond expression. I did give up last year in June, and during the 11 or so months that followed, I gained at least ten more pounds. I eventually decided in late April that for health reasons I was going to cut out sweets completely. I mostly succeeded, and several pounds came off. I didn't weigh myself, but my clothes fit better. Anyway, all that is to say that even when I despaired of ever becoming "thin" again, my health could eventually motivate me to make a positive change. I felt a lot better after being off sugar for about a month. It sounds like your food is very healthy, so congratulations on that. As my grandma would have said, if you don't have your health, you don't have anything. Big hugs.
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Post by lpearlmom » Wed Jul 17, 2019 5:24 am

Candace: it’s a constant struggle isn’t it? It’s almost impossible to grow up in diet culture and not want to be thin or thinner. I wish I could be a Body Positive/Intuitive Eating success story but i just don’t have what it takes. I think being motivated by health is good. I guess my reflux is better when i don't overeat but other than that my health is pretty good so it comes down to wanting acceptance I guess.

Today was good. Im able to get so much down without my girls home but Im starting to miss them. The house feels a bit lonely without them here.

I was so hungry today and kind of ate a lot.

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Snack: part of a chocolate bar
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Post by lpearlmom » Thu Jul 18, 2019 12:25 am

I had a relaxing day today. I went walking with my friend and then out for coffee. She was really surprised that I had re-gained all the weight I lost from fasting & said she couldn’t tell. That made me feel really good as I assumed it was obvious to everyone.

Doc came home early and we went to an early dinner. I was so hungry. Im guessing id be less hungry if Id stick to clean fasting but Im stubbornly sticking to a little creamer in my fake coffee. Gin would be appalled. ☺️

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Dinner-salad, bread, 3-4 pieces of wood fired pizza (so good!) , 1.5 glasses wine
Dessert: sf chai

Exercise: walked 5 miles

Grateful for:
1) Friends that I can be myself around
2) Being able to go out for a nice meal with my husband.
3) A cozy, quiet evening at home.
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Post by Candace » Thu Jul 18, 2019 11:48 pm

About your friend being surprised: I bet you just look good whatever weight you're at :).

Sounds like a good day. Time with friends is wonderful. And the occasional pizzafest. Oh yeah.

I often think about things I'm grateful for after I get into bed for the night. It helps me relax and go to sleep.
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Post by automatedeating » Fri Jul 19, 2019 1:54 pm

I definitely am not any happier at my current weight than I was when I was bigger. However, I do like being thinner, and it provides touch-points of good feelings from time to time. But it doesn't sweep away any other things about life.
I just had an aha! Losing weight is like having a clean house - it feels good and it's a positive thing for our self-image, but it is NOT WHO WE ARE. It doesn't define us, or determine our value, or show anything about the true Essence of our soul (if you believe in souls, that is).
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Post by lpearlmom » Sat Jul 20, 2019 4:34 am

Awww thanks candace, thats really sweet. I actually dont feel too badly at this weight.

That is interesting auto. I know youre mostly focused on health issues which s probably more motivating then trying to fit into a certain size jeans.

Today was easier to fast because i cleaned fasted but once i start eating, its hard to stop. We went out to dinner tonight and my meal just wasnt very satisfying (rice and veggies) so I made doc take me to get froyo afterwards. I got a huge bowl but im sitting here still wanting something more to eat. Im not sure im ever going to be in the right mindset to lose weight Again. I just want to eat.

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Dinner—shared appetizer (goat cheese & bread), rice & veggies, shared bread pudding. Sangria
Desser: large froyo

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Post by cedar » Sat Jul 20, 2019 10:49 am

Haha..Gin is definitely all about the clean fast!! :D

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Post by automatedeating » Sat Jul 20, 2019 2:25 pm

Linda, I'm sure your increased appetite is just a passing thing (even if "passing" means several months!). I always eat more in the summer and gain weight!!! I feel like a bear getting ready for hibernation.
Hang in there with your basic boundaries but reasonable restrictions, just like you're doing.
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Post by lpearlmom » Sat Jul 20, 2019 11:44 pm

Yup cedar—she’s downright militant about it!

Thanks for the support auto but i woke up this morning and was like nope, i just cannot do this anymore. It just doesn’t feel right and feels too chaotic. I re-read the NoS book and was like duh, why did i ever stop? It just makes so much sense. Fasting might work for awhile but eventually it’s going to backfire on me again.

I know thats not the case for everyone but i have to be real with myself. Not to say that ill never try it again but for now I just want the simplicity and sanity of vanilla NoS. I know it’s not going to make me as thin as I’d like but Im going to just have to but my vanity aside and make having a healthy relationship with food a priority.

I do think S days were my downfall in the past and that having some kind of structure in place will increase my chances of also dropping a few pounds. Right now Id be thrilled to lose 10 lbs.

Anyway, here’s my plan for now:


Break—smoothie or avocado toast with egg and/or veg sausage
Lunch: veg sandwich with sun chips OR aj salad OR sushi
Dinner: small plate of whatever im fixing for family
Glass of wine okay but not every night. Cocktails on weekends only.
Sf tea latte okay but chai on weekends only & no more than 1/day.

Exercise: walk 5 miles/day plus 15-20 mins weights 3-5 times/day. Start biking when it gets below 100.

Weekends:

Sat-breakfast (normal)
lunch-smoothie,
dinner out
dessert okay (small plate),
samples okay.

Sunday: special breakfast—bagels, pancakes, waffles etc then small plate for lunch and dinner. Saucer size for dessert.

Restaurant: weekends—anything goes; weeknights—stick to one plate & no desserts.


I just really need some structure. We shall see! Im shooting for 21 days & if Im not losing i may adopt auto’s latte only breakfasts during the week.
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Post by Candace » Mon Jul 22, 2019 2:09 am

Best of luck, Linda!

I've found that the structure of No-S is lending a sense of calm to my thoughts about food. I was ready to try something different, and even though I haven't lost any weight, I'm still happy I'm doing it.

You'll be a badass for exercising that much! Please be kind to yourself, especially in this heat. We're all different, but I would have to add additional exercises or miles by increments, or else I would be prone to injury or backlash from frustration.
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Post by lpearlmom » Mon Jul 22, 2019 3:59 am

Thanks Candace!! The 5 miles/day walking is just my total steps for the days so hasn’t been too hard. Half the time I just do laps in my house while watching Netflix. 😊 I haven’t done weights in awhile but I would like to add it back in.

Omg last night I had so much anxiety thinking about the future (money, college, health, retirement etc) and couldn’t sleep. I really need to figure some things out so I can stop worrying so much.

Funnily though my girls came back from camp today and I instantly felt more at peace. They keep me grounded and in the moment. They look tan and happy and they had a great time. I’m really happy we decided to send them. Was a great experience all around.

Boy I’ve eaten a lot the past few days. Looking forward to sone moderation.

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Lunch: banh mi veggie bowl
Snack: 2.rosemary chocolate chip cookies
Dinner: teriyaki mushroom bowl
Dessert: 3 cookies 🍪, glass milk

Exercise: only made it to 3 miles today :/
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Post by automatedeating » Mon Jul 22, 2019 2:25 pm

Oh, I'm so happy your girls had fun and that you felt more peace once they returned.

I'm sorry about the anxiety. That sucks, but thankfully it lifted the next day.
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Post by lpearlmom » Tue Jul 23, 2019 5:40 am

Thank you auto. The break was good but am really happy to have them home again.

Today was so good. Man, do I miss the sanity of NoS. Intuitive eating was an extreme in excess and IF was an extreme in restriction but NoS is that perfect balance right in the middle. I just hope that’s nit a lesson i have to keep learning but just taking it one day at a time for now.

I cannot believe I went clothes shopping today of all days. I’m at the highest weight ive been in awhile and just had a weekend of a lot of overeating. I managed to squeeze into the largest size (size 12) at Nordstrom but realize I could be headed towards plus sizes again soon if I don’t get a handle on things. I feel like i ate very reasonably today so hoping this will continue and my weight will get to a reasonable place again.

On the upside, Rosebud had orientation today for her new school and it went very well. She even made some friends already. Yay for my little academic star. So proud of her. She was very cuddly today and wanted lots of back scratches while we were watching tv. Im glad she still needs her momma.

Break: mango smoothie, almond milk chai (i allowed it)
Lunch: teriyaki veggie bowl
Dinner: pasta with corn and chard

Exercise: walked 5 miles.
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Post by JJW » Tue Jul 23, 2019 12:32 pm

I can totally relate to your observations on IE and IF as I have had similar experiences with them myself (although I never really lost much weight with IF or gained much with IE - I’m really stuck at this weight :roll: ). No S does seem like a sane, balanced approach and I am looking forward to giving that a try for a change and developing a healthy, sustainable eating pattern!

Glad you’re daughter’s orientation went well! Can’t believe it’s that time of year again. My son is in college now, but he still lives at home, so we don’t have quite the same “back to school” routine as we did before and I miss it!

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Post by Candace » Tue Jul 23, 2019 1:31 pm

Congratulations on getting into the size 12. I'm a 14 myself at almost any store. When I was thin, I was a 10. Personally I just hate how variable the sizes are. I hate being at this size because if I go shopping, there's usually two items in my size, and they're both black. Then if I go to the "women's" section, the size 14s are not even close to the ones in the non-women's section. It's frustrating.

I'm glad you're liking No-S. I don't know much about Intuitive Eating, but I have a strong sense that my body would intuit that it needs chocolate chip cookies every day. :mrgreen:

Nice job by your daughter! I bet it's a source of pride that she's making friends and doing well.
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Post by automatedeating » Tue Jul 23, 2019 3:24 pm

Cuddles with Rosebud! :-)

Can you remind me, are Sweetpea and Rosebud at different high schools? Sweetpea at the art school and Rosebud at the math & science school?
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Post by lpearlmom » Thu Jul 25, 2019 4:53 am

JJW: NoS really does feel like the only way out of this madness. Sorry you’re stuck, but hope things start moving again for you soon.

Candace: believe me, it’s a TIGHT 12 but i figure since Im at a such a high weight for me right now, it’s bound to come down a little with some moderation. At least thats what I told myself when I bought the dress. ☺️

Auto: Good memory. Yup, sweetpea is at the Art school still and Rosebud will be starting the science school this year. They’re both downtown (about 30 mins away) and about 5 mins away from each other so we will make it work but it’s not going to be easy.

Holy crap Im exhausted! Been getting up at like 5 am everyday this week to take Rosebud to her freshman orientation and then running around all day. I’ve been sticking to NoS and feeling good. Ive also been getting my walking in everyday except today for like the last 10 days. I was just too beat.

Im so excited for Rosebud as her new school just seems amazing. They’ve really got everything in place to help kids become well rounded & successful ppl.

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Lunch: 1/2 veggie sandwich, sun chips, watermelon, coconut water
Dinner: quinoa thai bowl, mango with yogurt, glass wine
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Post by Octavia » Thu Jul 25, 2019 8:23 am

Hi Linda,
Hope you’re well. Great to hear about Rosebud’s school! My own DD is off on a residential dance school this week - seems to be enjoying it, her only complaint is the food! Today, DH will be out for the day and with DD away, I actually have the house to myself for an entire day. We’re due to have the hottest day of the year so far, and I am looking forward to doing my own thing.! Luxury!

I’m struggling with the no weight loss thing myself. A month ago I seemed to be quite low, but have inexplicably put on a few pounds which are sticking around. Our bodies are more stubborn than we could ever believe! I’m tempted to do some other, crazy, non-No S intervention. But where will that lead? Probably nowhere...

Yet vanity keeps calling...

Anyway, sounds like you’ve been incredibly busy recently! Hope you get a bit of me-time soon.
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Post by automatedeating » Thu Jul 25, 2019 2:22 pm

A whole week of orientation? That DOES sound impressively organized - I am amazed.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed you can have some sort of carpooling help, although with the girls at the two separate schools, the logistics of that are already boggling my mind. Does the little dog (Tessa?) like to ride in the car on all these outings?
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Post by lpearlmom » Sun Jul 28, 2019 8:08 am

Thanks for stopping by Octavia! I hope you enjoyed your quiet time. Yeah the extreme stuff either way just leads to unhappiness for me. NoS with a little tweaking is really our best bet for happiness and health i think.

Auto: it is a pretty great school. So many great opportunities for her. No, we don’t take tessa in the car as shes a bit crazy and i hate to leave tikka all alone but it would be nice to have the company. Maybe we can train her.


Oh boy what a day. Doc & I are on a weekend getaway with another couple. Its a beautiful spot in Tucson but doc went to this by appointment only guitar shop and spent an incredible amount on a guitar. It made me nauseous just thinking about it. I mean we could have a really nice vacation or even buy a used car for that amount. But it’s a piece art really and he loves it and well he works so hard and well it’s a done deal anyway. Deep breath.


And on top of it sweetpea is housesitting for our friends and she’s very stressed out because the dogs were barking at her and then she felt sick and boy i don’t think she’s quite ready for all this responsibility. I will feel better when we get home tomorrow. Sigh, i hope i can sleep tonight with all this going on in my head.

At least my eating and exercising has been good. I didnt weigh friday but will next week. Ive been shooting for 12,500 steps/day (5 miles) and have been hitting that most days with np. Mostly i do laps in my house while watching Netflix on my ipad. It’s becoming a real habit. I actually look forward to it. Today i got up at 5am and walked on the treadmill at the gym for an hour. Okay going to try to sleep.

Break: chia pudding and avocado toast, chai
Snack: guacamole and chips, grilled peppers, glass wine
Dinner: thai food
Dessert: popcorn, candy

Exercise: walked 8 miles.
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Post by Octavia » Sun Jul 28, 2019 4:24 pm

Amazing work, Linda! Staying focussed on good habits while your mind is full of stuff. I need to learn from you. Also, I’m feeling inspired by your recent re-commitment to basic No S...maybe with No S being such a long-term thing, we are bound to have phases where we move in and out of it, are more compliant or less. But if we keep on coming home, the good habits will just keep on strengthening.

Hope sweetpea is coping OK. Being left alone with responsibility is always a bit of a shock at first. I bet she’s done a great job.

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Post by lpearlmom » Mon Jul 29, 2019 6:08 am

It’s true Octavia. It’s probably makes sense that most of is won’t stick to Nos continuously for years on end but many of us are drawn back to it due to it’s simplicity I suppose. I like to think of myself of that stereotypical chic french parisian woman who eats 3 small but delicious meals a day, a glass of wine with dinner and some high quality treats on the weekends. And lots of walking and water of course. It’s probably a mythical creature i have in my mind but it’s something to shoot for anyway.

We drove back today and sweetpea is tired but doing fine. I went over to the house with her for a little bit and we watched some tv. The dogs are very sweet but she’s supposed to put them out at night and they start barking which stresses her out. It’s a good experience for though and im proud of her for seeing it through.

Doc is being so funny. He’s feeling a lot of guilt and basically kissing my behind and doing anything i ask. He told me I could buy a really nice purse too. I told my mom and she think Im being too lavish. I told her about the time my sisters boyfriend’s mom bought her a Louis Vuitton and she said well you dont have Mrs. so and so to buy you one and i said no but i have Dr husband to do it. I swear she acts like we’re living on the streets. Anyway we shall see.

Tired 😴

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Lunch: bagel with cream cheese, fruit
Snack: cheese and crackers
Dinner: pho, soring roll, boba

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Post by Candace » Mon Jul 29, 2019 2:02 pm

You are kicking ass.

Sorry about the weird family dynamics. Sometimes all you can do is shake your head, smile and nod, and then put it out of your mind. Maybe not quite in that order :) .
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Post by automatedeating » Mon Jul 29, 2019 3:09 pm

What a weekend! So where did Rosebud spend the weekend? :-)

I think your nice purse is a reasonable trade-off for his fancy guitar! :-)
Sexy and I often do that - I buy something special and then he does, or vice versa.

I bet now that it's over Sweetpea is pretty proud of herself. She did it!
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Post by 3squaremeals » Tue Jul 30, 2019 11:18 pm

Hi Linda, I have also stopped fasting too. I was sick of being hungry and getting so hungry I would binge eat. Today is my first day back on No S and it was so nice to have breakfast. No more torturing myself with fasting, I was only ever able to stick with it for a week before I couldn't take the hunger and would end up binging for the next week. Time for the simplicity of No S. At least with fasting I now know I can handle 5 or 6 hours without eating between meals. Good luck on your No S journey 🙂

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Post by lpearlmom » Wed Jul 31, 2019 3:43 am

Thank you Candace although I had my first fail since i re-started. ☺️

Auto: rosebud stayed at her bffs house. They've been best friends since pre-school so she’s really close to their family. I think it was s good boost to Sweetpea’s confidence for sure. Our neighbor told her she’s her”go to” girl now.

Oh wb square! Sorry fasting didnt work for you either. It’s disappointing but so nice to be back to moderation (and breakfast!) huh?

Today is the first day that i had a fail since my restart but maybe just calling it an S day I think as Im feeling under the weather. Ive really been trying to eat small portions and wondering if that backfired on me a bit today as I was just really craving the feeling of being satisfied after eating instead of still being hungry. Im wondering if other NoSers feel full after eating or if undereating is the norm? Im worried thats the only way ill lose.

Anyway it’s okay, im going to keep on keeping on. I just wish i wasnt sick as I’ve got so much to do. Oh well.

Break: ww toast with avocado, peaches
Lunch: green salad, 4 pieces veg sushi
Dinner: 1 bowl veggie stirfry, yogurt, watermelon
Fail: Ate several more bites of stirfry, 1 cookie, small bowl of chocolate chips ☺️

Exercise: none
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Post by automatedeating » Wed Jul 31, 2019 2:11 pm

Linda - I usually feel quite full after lunch and dinner. Actually even after breakfast because it's so much liquid. I feel hungry before the next meal, but sometimes I'm not even sure if it's real hunger or I'm just feeling emotions and looking for food to fix it. And I often want something .... more .... after a meal despite being full. I think it's the part of me that wants to use food to avoid some feeling.
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by 3squaremeals » Thu Aug 01, 2019 4:06 am

I feel the same with the hunger, I think mine is due to my stomach being stretched from binging too much lately. I am hoping after a week the hunger goes away after meals. It is more after lunch that I am still hungry, breakfast seems to be fine.

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Post by lpearlmom » Thu Aug 01, 2019 5:01 am

Thanks for the feedback auto & square. I’m also hoping my body will adjust to the smaller portions.

Today was a bit better although I did eat a big dinner. I was really not feeling well today but had house guests coming so had to pull it together. Oh well, it got me to clean the house at least.


Break: 1/2 ww bagel w/ cream cheese, peaches , moi yogurt
Lunch: bowl of bean soup, piece of toast, handful of sun chips
Dinner: impossible burger, fries, rum & pineapple

So tired.
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by Candace » Thu Aug 01, 2019 2:05 pm

I have only been doing this since June, but when I've already noticed a bit of an evolution.

When I first started, I wanted to make sure the habits "took". So in order to avoid backfiring due to excessive hunger, I tended to over-serve myself at meals and ended up eating until I didn't want any more. Then I put the extra back. I feel best when I eat lots of protein and fat, and try to add veggies to every meal for nutrition and to have a big-looking meal. So basically I keep an eye on the "bad" carbs by eating almost no bread and almost no potatoes, at least when I'm eating at home, which is most of the time. I do eat some of other white carbs like rice (too convenient and cheap to give up rice, plus my husband likes it).

Once I got the three meals a day and no snacks or sweets more or less under control, which was pretty recently, I started attempting to make small changes to what I ate at meals (and what I ate on S-days). This is only within the past couple of weeks. I'm eating a little less fruit at lunch and dinner. I'm learning how much protein and fat I need to feel satisfied-- not overly full-- at meals. I even measured a few times when it came to my go-to foods like chicken salad, so I know how much I'm eating. So I'm probably eating a tiny bit less. Between a little less fruit and a little less protein/fat, I hope I'm cutting out enough to lose weight slowly. I think it's working because my clothes are looser.

I also know I can have milk in between if the hunger really bothers me, and I know that that works, at least for a while, and at least well "enough".

I'm still quite hungry before lunch and dinner. But I think that's just necessary in order to lose weight. Pretty much anything I eat has to be either a high-satiety food like eggs or meat, or a veggie (I try to eat a good amount of those), or a small serving of fruit to keep things a little bit fun. Throw in a couple of drinks a week, and that's all I can eat before I will gain. It sucks having no margin, but I can either suck it up or stay "thick". It's even hard to do something like go out for pho with my friend, because that's mostly carbs and I end up hungry afterwards. But that's just my situation in life.

I'm going to paste this into my own journal as well, but I started it here as a reply to Linda.
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by automatedeating » Fri Aug 02, 2019 1:44 am

Hey, hope you are feeling better soon! I hope you are able to rest a little before the guests arrive!
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by Candace » Fri Aug 02, 2019 2:02 am

I hope you get to recharge soon. I also hope you're not sick. Feeling overtired is so difficult. It makes everything harder.
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Post by lpearlmom » Fri Aug 02, 2019 5:38 am

Thanks for the great feedback Candace! You'd think I’d know how to do this NoS thing after years of doing it but im just not sure if i can lose weight without some serious mods. I also dont even know if i want to lose weight. The feminist/activist/rebel in my says F that but the people pleaser/attention seeker in me says let’s do this! I’m in perpetual conflict really. It depends upon what day it is. Hmmmmm maybe I just need to roll with it & embrace the rollercoaster that I am.

Im feeling mostly better today and it’s nice having our friends here. Im just not sure how long they're staying for. They sold their house and are going to be full time RVers. They needed a place to kind of do some last minute work on the RV and get everything organized so they are parking on our property till theyre ready hit to the road. Doc likes to work on cars and has a big workshop set up for that so he’ll be helping them this weekend. It’ll be fun for a few days but I know ill start to be craving some space after a bit. We shall see.

Break: roll w butter & jam
Lunch: salad with avocado & corn, cup of tomato soup, chai
Dinner: pasta, salad, pizza, chips & guacamole, grapes (wow, looks like a lot of food but tiny portions of each. All fit on one plate. )

Exercise: hope to get back to my walking tomorrow.
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Post by lpearlmom » Sat Aug 03, 2019 3:38 am

Omgosh...ate way too much tonight and definitely did not stick to NoS today. *sigh*

Break: 1/2 muffin, yogurt parfait
Lunch: smoothie, 3 costco samples, sf iced blended
Dinner: chips, salsa, 1/2 veggie burrito, couple bites quesadilla, rice, beans, horchata , Margarita

Ugh, having our friends here is making it harder to stick to the plan. And tomorrow im going out to brunch.
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Post by automatedeating » Sat Aug 03, 2019 2:29 pm

I know it's probably rough on your eating routine to have guests, but I bet your family is amazing at hosting. It's a real blessing for your visitors!
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by Candace » Sat Aug 03, 2019 3:12 pm

I second what Automatedeating said. Any change to your normal routine is going to make sticking to No-S challenging. But sometimes ya gotta do what you can for friends and family. Good luck, try to be as faithful as is practical, and just try to minimize the damage when you go off-plan. Maybe have some "defensive foods" handy? For instance, I happen to enjoy celery, so that could help me if I'm in your situation and everyone else is eating chips. I'd still have a few chips, but I'd start off by eating a bunch of celery first.

Your hosting for these folks is surely a blessing. And blessings should come back around at some point. Good on you.
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by lpearlmom » Sun Aug 04, 2019 6:32 am

Thanks you guys. Today was another day of crappy eating but at least i did get my 5 miles in. I took the plunge and bought my fancy purse. It took me forever to decide & Im still second guessing myself a bit. I bought a brown Louis Vuitton purse with red trim. It’s beautiful but im worried i dont have enough clothes to go with it. Maybe I should have got the plain black one but I already have a lot of black purses. It’s okay. I guess i just won’t carry it with me everyday. Can you tell I’m stressing a bit??

Oh well. I am listening to a really good book called Secrets From My Eating Lab. It’s about why dieting doesn’t work and why obesity isnt the health crisis we think it is and how the best we can hope for is to try to stay at the low end of our set point weight range. The problem is ive weighed anywhere from 115-210 lbs so i have no idea what my range is.

Breakfast: veggie scramble, potatoes (only ate 1/2), chai
Lunch: vegan hot dog, fries
Dessert: fruit, whipped cream, 1/2 piece angel food cake

Exercise: 12,800 steps

Here’s the purse: https://us.louisvuitton.com/eng-us/prod ... 07v#M43553
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by cedar » Sun Aug 04, 2019 8:47 am

Oh I've been wanting to get that book! I might get it tonight on kindle.
You know what, I understand about you not being sure about wanting to lose weight..gets a bit tedious after so many years. I'm pretty sure there is more to life.
Your purse sounds gorgeous, you'll rock it! Xx

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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by 3squaremeals » Sun Aug 04, 2019 11:52 am

Sounds like a good book, might have to read it. It certainly is tough trying to stick to an eating routine with guests!

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Post by automatedeating » Sun Aug 04, 2019 1:41 pm

I'm thinking you need to buy more clothes that match the purse. :-)
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by Candace » Sun Aug 04, 2019 3:50 pm

lpearlmom wrote:
Sun Aug 04, 2019 6:32 am
Thanks you guys. Today was another day of crappy eating but at least i did get my 5 miles in. I took the plunge and bought my fancy purse. It took me forever to decide & Im still second guessing myself a bit. I bought a brown Louis Vuitton purse with red trim. It’s beautiful but im worried i dont have enough clothes to go with it. Maybe I should have got the plain black one but I already have a lot of black purses. It’s okay. I guess i just won’t carry it with me everyday. Can you tell I’m stressing a bit??

Oh well. I am listening to a really good book called Secrets From My Eating Lab. It’s about why dieting doesn’t work and why obesity isnt the health crisis we think it is and how the best we can hope for is to try to stay at the low end of our set point weight range. The problem is ive weighed anywhere from 115-210 lbs so i have no idea what my range is.

Breakfast: veggie scramble, potatoes (only ate 1/2), chai
Lunch: vegan hot dog, fries
Dessert: fruit, whipped cream, 1/2 piece angel food cake

Exercise: 12,800 steps

Here’s the purse: https://us.louisvuitton.com/eng-us/prod ... 07v#M43553
Please don't stress about losing weight. There is more to us than our waistline measurement. Plus, you are walking so much! That sounds very healthy. Even though you say you're eating crappy food, I see veggies and fruit in your log.

Your handbag sounds so beautiful. Just sport it with whatever clothes you're wearing, and enjoy it! A thing of beauty is a joy forever, right? That reminds me of how recently my mom and dad were here and my mom took me for a fancy manicure for my birthday. I was joking that my clothes weren't good enough for my nails anymore, so I'd have to buy all new clothes, after which I would need a new car, a new house, etc. There's a parable about a monk who lived in an austere living situation. He got a nice new robe, after which all his other stuff wasn't good enough anymore, so he overspent his means replacing everything else to get things as nice as his robe.

The book sounds interesting. If there's anything you want to share from it, please do.
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Post by lpearlmom » Mon Aug 05, 2019 5:27 am

Thanks cedar! Im really enjoying it and like that she doesn’t have an agenda. She’s not an obesity researcher nor us she in the haes/IE camp. She’s all about gathering the facts.

I struggle so much with guilt over wanting to lose weight. It seems shallow and anti-feminst. I also struggle because certain fat phobic ppl have tried to get me to lose weight my whole life and I really hate to give in to them but then im i just hurting myself. It’s all very complicated and conflicted in my confused brain. I think i need to give myself permission to want to be thinner. Not that i can actually make myself thinner but itd be nice to not be going back and forth about it constantly at least.

Well i used my purse today and it was great. I wore jeans, brown sandals and a light blue shirt. It looked good and was very functional so i feel happy with my purchase. Auto: i think i might just get a couple things but then not stress about it too much. Candace: makes a lot of sense what you say. We bought our dream home about 5 years ago which was great but we soon realized our furniture was just not nice enough for the new house. Boy, was that expensive. Im not going to worry about but when i do buy new clothes in the future I can take my purse into consideration.

Today was pretty good although I didnt get all my steps in. It’s a little weird doing laps in my house with guests here. I still don’t know when they're leaving. I did get a lot of cleaning done though & our friends took us out to dinner which was fun.

Since I stopped fasting my reflux has been horrible and ive gained so much fat (im up 8%). I also miss the simplicity of it. I wish i could find a way to make it work for me. Sigh. I wish i could just find something that works for me. I feel like everyone else has got it all figured out.

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Snack: 1/2 muffin, fruit, nuts
Lunch: couscous salad
Dinner: couple pieces pizza, Caesar salad, glass wine
Dessert: large boba
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by Candace » Mon Aug 05, 2019 2:00 pm

Wow, the reflux sounds like a pain in the ass. So sorry you're dealing with that. Not okay! Best wishes for removing that particular thorn in your side.

Have you ever worked with a nutritionist? I never have. But maybe if you're having reflux and at the same time trying to eat healthy while doing a lot of exercise, maybe one would have suggestions tailored for you.

Personally I think wanting to lose weight, OR just wanting to be healthy without prioritizing a certain number or look, is all about what's good for YOUR life. I am a big feminist, having had a 20-something year career in a male-dominated field (engineering). Part of not being constrained by societal expectations, for me, is being able to choose whether I *want* to do things that would have been mandatory before women became more in charge of our own lives. So I can choose to go out without makeup (and I often do), or whatever it is that I want or don't want that day. I can also choose to eat more healthily because I want to live longer. Losing weight is a nice and welcome side effect, and frankly, it's motivating. But it's also motivating to think about the fact that I'm 53 and I want to live an enjoyable life until I'm 100.

I'm very sorry that some people in your life have hassled you to be at a certain weight. That outright sucks. I think after working mostly around men for my whole adult life, I've learned that "exactly zero f*cks given" is the best number of f*cks to give.
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Post by automatedeating » Mon Aug 05, 2019 11:04 pm

Linda, so so sorry about the reflux. I know how you battle that. :-(

And omg, I don't think any of us has it all figured out. You are very hard on yourself sometimes. Those inner gremlins try to whisper mean things in your ears. I love you just the way you are. What would you say to yourself if you were one of us? How might you reply to yourself if you were talking to a dear dear friend that felt the way you do? I bet you would offer great compassion to that woman, and have some very wise words for her to bring comfort and inspiration.
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Post by lpearlmom » Wed Aug 07, 2019 5:31 am

Wow, what would I do without you all. You’re the best.
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Wow, the reflux sounds like a pain in the ass. So sorry you're dealing with that. Not okay! Best wishes for removing that particular thorn in your side.

Thank you it sucks! I really think i need a new doctor but hard to fund another one that takes our insurance.

Have you ever worked with a nutritionist? I never have.

I’ve worked with a dietitian, and she thought it might be a dairy reaction but considering I was vegan when i first got symptoms, I find that unlikely. My main triggers are carbonation, caffeine, chocolate, alcohol, tight clothing, citrus and really spicy food in that order. Also eating too close to bedtime is problematic. Ive completely eliminated carbonated drinks and coffee but try to do the rest in small doses. If i could completely eliminate all these things, id probably be medication free. Im just not strong enough.

I'm very sorry that some people in your life have hassled you to be at a certain weight. That outright sucks. I think after working mostly around men for my whole adult life, I've learned that "exactly zero f*cks given" is the best number of f*cks to give.
Love this so much. Especially the last line. That’s exactly the best attitude to have around this stuff, our bodies are nobody’s business but our own. I guess i just feel conflicted because it’s hard to resist the social pressure to be thin and therefore difficult to tease apart what we actually want and what we think we want. I just overthink everything too much but i do feel better when im a bit lighter. Ill never be super skinny again and Im okay with that so maybe that’s a healthy place to be actually.


Auto: you win the prize for making me cry the most on this board. Thank you for your kind words. Sometimes i am too hard on myself. I have to give myself permission to struggle and learn to see the good in myself. Yesterday i posted a gorgeous picture of Rosebud on fb & everyone was saying how much she looks like me. That floored me because I dont see it at all. It made me wonder what other good things in myself I’m blind to.

Anyway, today has been tough. Im reeling from the weekends shootings. I want to move out of this country so badly but easier said then done. Do you think canada would take me? Every time I drop my kids off at school, I worry. I did what I could though. I called my senators, wrote to the Whitehouse, donated to moms demand action, texted my friends that i knew were in pain and will pray and pray and pray we get a new president in 2020.

Eating wise today was better. I decided to delay eating till i was really hungry and ended up waiting till 12:30. My weight was actually down a bit yesterday at about 174. Not bad for a Monday right?

Our guests are still here and its fine but im ready to have the house back. Ive been cooking for everyone and it’s getting exhausting. At least they helped a little with the dishes tonight.
I think they’re leaving Thursday.

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Lunch: chips & guacamole, fruit
Dinner: asian noodle bowl, yogurt bar

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Post by Candace » Wed Aug 07, 2019 4:54 pm

I'm with you on being depressed and anxious about the weekend's events. I can't even imagine what it's like to drop kids off at school.

Personally I have to try and disassociate a bit. I find that taking some small action helps me, whether it's volunteering, giving small amounts of money, or similar. Then I try to avoid the news most of the time.
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Post by lpearlmom » Wed Aug 07, 2019 5:56 pm

I know i do take breaks but Im an activist and am a leader of an Indivisible group so I have to be somewhat engaged and aware.

Thanks for doing your part though. It’s tough either way!
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Post by Candace » Thu Aug 08, 2019 12:57 am

Hats off to you for taking on the leadership position. I know it's not fun much of the time.
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Post by lpearlmom » Thu Aug 08, 2019 4:03 am

Actually when Im in the thick of it, it’s fun or at least exciting & engaging. Ive also met so many wonderful people. It’s been worth it for sure but sometimes I rather not have the leadership role but will stick to it for as long as I can.

I cannot believe how exhausted I am each night. Ive been getting up,at 515 to take the dogs for a walk, then unloading the dishwasher, making lunches and breakfast and then driving the girls to the school. Then I go straight to the gym to work out, then home to do laundry and house stuff for a couple hours then it’s drive the 30 mins again to pick up the girls, home to make dinner and clean the kitchen. I get a couple hrs to relax before bed.

Anyway im not complaining. My body is just taking some time to adjust is all. The good news is Rosebud said she rather just eat the school lunches since they’re free and thats what all her friends do. One less thing to do.

Ssssoooo tired.

Break (1pm): chex mix, yogurt and fruit
Dinner: couscous salad w/ artichoke patties, chips and guacamole, 1/2 boba

Exercise: 13k steps, 15 mins weights

I love our friends but am so ready for them to leave.
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Post by automatedeating » Thu Aug 08, 2019 3:56 pm

How much longer with friends visiting?????? I mean, the uncertainty of their departure date is extremely stressful, I'd imagine. Good luck dealing with that.

My first week back to work/kids to school I am always exhausted as you describe (and if we had visitors at that time I think I'd be over the edge...). Hang in there.

And so glad Rosebud is cool with the school lunches.
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Post by lpearlmom » Sat Aug 10, 2019 5:49 am

Omg, yes I really want my house back and today ladyguest shrunk my favorite top that I cannot replace because nobody carries it anymore. Who throws another persons laundry in the dryer without asking?? I think she shrunk some of Rosebud’s clothes too. I was really disappointed and sad but didnt want it to ruin our friendship so tried not to freak out too much. Well, they moved out of the house last night and mostly living in their rv which is in our driveway... but I still don’t know when they’re leaving, ugh.

Oh well. I cannot believe my weight is up from monday. Im convinced my body is defending this weight with all it’s might. Sigh. Its stupid to even ponder the rightness or wrongness of wanting to lose weight when it’s most likely just a’int gonna happen. I think i just need to mourn the thin ideal and get on with it.
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Post by Candace » Sat Aug 10, 2019 10:31 pm

Maybe you could say you have another family member who needs a place to stay by X date. Slightly evil but justified!

So sorry for your frustrations! I think I'd be losing my damn mind. Especially with the laundry. Did ladyguest realize she had ruined your and Rosebud's clothes?!
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Post by lpearlmom » Sun Aug 11, 2019 6:35 am

I did tell her about the clothes and she was apologetic. I think we’re okay. Im mostly mad at myself for not setting some ground rules down first. This is a lesson i seem to have to keep re-leatning. I tend to reflexively say yes without setting some clear boundaries first and then later Im in too deep and feeling angry snd resentful. Today they said they’ll probably leave Tuesday or Wednesday but that they weren’t positive 🤦🏼‍♀️.

Candace; good idea except that they’re pretty much just living in their rv which is parked in our driveway so wouldn't really interfere too much with another visitor. If they dont leave by Wednesday though, we’re going to have to be honest with them. Or at least I will as doc doesn’t mind them being here.

Boy did i eat a lot today. I realize my period is 3 days late so could account for some weight gain. Who knows. Im so tired of trying to analyze it all.

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Post by 3squaremeals » Sun Aug 11, 2019 11:04 am

Hopefully your guests leave soon, it doesn't sound like much fun. I am the same as you, I say yes to people staying and then when they don't leave I get annoyed but I don't like conflict so I never say anything.

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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by oolala53 » Mon Aug 12, 2019 10:19 pm

Not caught up on everything, but dropping in anyway.

Have to say from my perspective that your guest may have thought she was doing a favor by throwing a few items in with hers in the dryer. If she doesn't have a lot of clothes that need special treatment, she might have had no idea. I bet she feels worse than she let on. But it doesn't change that you are now out a top it sounds like you liked. Phooey!

Oh, this d$%m body issue thing! It is definitely the modern Western white woman's cross to bear, or one of them. Thank you, mass photography and communication! And vested interest$. I'm grappling these days, though it's in competition with other self-judgements.

Have you written about Doc's health recently? I don't want to make you repeat if I should just scroll up.

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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by lpearlmom » Wed Aug 14, 2019 4:01 am

Well, at the crack of dawn they finally left this morning. They brought us flowers, wine , beer and baked goods last night with a sweet thank you card. I think we left on a good note but I’m definitely happy to have the house back! Rosebud was equally happy but sweetpea said she missed them. Thats my little extrovert for ya.

Oolala: boy are you right about this being our cross to bear. I feel trapped by it because there just seems to be no way out. *sigh* Anyway, doc is okay I guess. Everything looked good last time he went to the cardiologist. He’s due for bloodwork so we will have to see how he’s doing with his current vegetarian diet. Thanks for asking!

Today was good but I ate quite a bit. Pms, I guess. I have been fasting a bit but have no idea where im going with this. Boy does my reflux improve when Im fasting so thats my main motivation right now.

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Break-smoothie, popcorn. Nectarine
Dinner-thai coconut soup, , glass wine
Dessert-2 muffins

Exercise: 11,300 steps
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by Candace » Wed Aug 14, 2019 6:24 pm

lpearlmom wrote:
Wed Aug 14, 2019 4:01 am
Well, at the crack of dawn they finally left this morning. They brought us flowers, wine , beer and baked goods last night with a sweet thank you card. I think we left on a good note but I’m definitely happy to have the house back! Rosebud was equally happy but sweetpea said she missed them. Thats my little extrovert for ya.

Oolala: boy are you right about this being our cross to bear. I feel trapped by it because there just seems to be no way out. *sigh* Anyway, doc is okay I guess. Everything looked good last time he went to the cardiologist. He’s due for bloodwork so we will have to see how he’s doing with his current vegetarian diet. Thanks for asking!

Today was good but I ate quite a bit. Pms, I guess. I have been fasting a bit but have no idea where im going with this. Boy does my reflux improve when Im fasting so thats my main motivation right now.

17/5.5
Break-smoothie, popcorn. Nectarine
Dinner-thai coconut soup, , glass wine
Dessert-2 muffins

Exercise: 11,300 steps
Hooray, I'm so happy that you have your house back! Also good to hear that your reflux has improved.
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by lpearlmom » Thu Aug 15, 2019 5:27 am

Thanks Candace! I didn’t fast today because when i got home from the gym, i just really wanted a bowl of cereal. I really don’t know what Im doing right now but will hopefully figure it out.

IF—
Pros: 1) Don’t have to count anything. 2) Helps my reflux. 3) can have a period of grazing. 4) The only thing thats gotten me below 160 (in a long time). 5) can pick at food while I cook. 5) possible health benefits for brain, cancer and inflammation. 6) dont have to eat special foods.

Cons: 1) Lots of hunger during adjustment phase. 2) I miss breakfast sometimes. 3) possible unknown health consequences. 4) Dont like drinking black tea. 5) Can lead to some extreme behavior. 6) can get in the way of social life at times.

NoS—
Pros: 1) dont have to eat special food.
2) easily fits into normal life.
3) Not extreme.
4) no calorie counting.

Cons: 1) start to resent the one plate rule.
2) Sometimes want a little something sweet after a meal.
3) the weekends almost always lead to a lot of overeating for me.
4) only gets me so far with my weight loss.

Intuitive eating—
Pros: 1) In line with my values.
2) not following anyone’s rules just my internal compass.
3) no counting.
Cons: 1) can lead to a lot of weight gain.
2) requires a high level of thinking & constant analyzing.
3) Ive never been able to master it.

Doing nothing:
Pros: 1) not following anyones rules.
2) a nice break from constant thinking about this stuff.
Cons: 1) will probably leave me at my current weight or more.

Well not sure that helped much but something to think about.

Today I did nothing and definitely overate out of frustration.

Break: 2 bowls of cereal with almond milk and fruit.
Lunch: popcorn and chai
Snack: chips and guacamole
Dinner: bowl of curry and rice
Dessert: chocolate chips

Exercise: 5 miles 🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️ 🚶‍♀️
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by Candace » Fri Aug 16, 2019 1:39 am

Hi lperlmom,

I appreciate your listing all the pros and cons of the types of eating you've done and are considering. I just wish we could eat whatever we want, whenever we want it, and never get fat or unhealthy. That'd be nice. {sigh}

I may have missed where you wrote about this earlier, but what do your medical providers say about controlling reflux? I've never dealt with that and can offer nothing but virtual sympathy. I'm really sorry you're dealing with that.

Five miles is a lot of walking. Hats off to you.

About No-S, my main problem is the no snacking part. I don't usually want to eat more than one plate at once. I'm more of a grazer I guess. I want to eat three normal-to-small meals and two or three snacks. On the other hand, I believe it's the lack of snacking on No-S that's contributing the most toward any weight loss I'm experiencing. That is, as long as I'm mostly off sweets anyway. Because, even if I wasn't eating sweets, I was still chubby because let's face it, I was still eating too much to be at the weight I want to be. When I start to resent parts of No-S and feel sorry for myself, I remind myself that I get to eat *three times a day*, and when it comes down to it, that should be more than enough. For most of human history, that was unheard of. By that benchmark, I'm living high on the hog. I even get a few snacks and a sweet or two, two days out of seven. I try to remind myself that from the perspective of most of history, my dietary choices and volumes are an exploding volcano of luxury. If I can't live within that (I tell myself) then ... yeah, something self-critical, yadda yadda yadda. So I basically talk myself into it.

I don't know if this helps, but I hope it at least doesn't hurt.
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by lpearlmom » Fri Aug 16, 2019 5:57 am

Hey Candace, the problem with reflux is the meds help but they have some pretty bad side effects when used long term. You can have surgery but it’s not always effective and can end up causing other problems. Other times it’s very effective though so I guess it’s a gamble. If I could completely cut out all my triggers id probably be fine but I haven’t been able to do that yet. If I could drop about 30 lbs that might improve things but that’s probably not going to happen anytime soon.

NoS is great and reasonable and all that for sure. The issue is that ive been doing NoS on and off (mostly on) for 6 yrs and have just experienced a little burn out. My dietician said that most ppl will start to resent any eating plan that isnt their own—eventually. This is especially true for me because im rebellious by nature. It doesn’t mean that NoS can’t work for me, it just means I have to make it my own. Trying to figure out my own personal take on NoS or IF or more likely a combo of the two is what im currently working on.

Im glad you’re enjoying it though. I did too for a long time. I think it was the first way of eating that ever gave me any peace. I had many many long streaks of green days for that first year of nos but the rebel in me eventually reared it’s head and thats okay because it’s human nature to want autonomy, right? I think part of the problem with trying to follow weightloss plans of ppl who successfully have lost weight is that we forget a key reason they were successful is that they made their plan tailored for themselves. If we try to copy them exactly we lose that important component.

Anyway, boy am I rambling! Today was pretty good although i didnt get in many steps as i spent 1/2 the day at the dealership and the other at an open house for Rosebud’s school. It was fun to see her school. Its just so impressive and i think she will really thrive there. Doc actually was able to come with us so that was a treat and we all went out to one of our favorite restaurants afterwards. Tomorrow’s friday—ysy!

17/8
174.6 well, my weight is stable if nothing else.

Break: packet of cheese crackers, pretzels, handful of popcorn, chai
Dinner: shared: cauliflower tacos, veggie burger, fried guacamole, fries, glass wine
Dessert: 1/2 brownie, 1/2 cookie

Exercise: 2 miles :/
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CW: 172
GW:160

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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by automatedeating » Fri Aug 16, 2019 4:05 pm

fried guacamole? Oh baby! :-) Get me some of that!
I think part of the problem with trying to follow weightloss plans of ppl who successfully have lost weight is that we forget a key reason they were successful is that they made their plan tailored for themselves. If we try to copy them exactly we lose that important component.
Boom! I think this is uber-true.

I loved your list of pros and cons of the various ways of eating.
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by lpearlmom » Sat Aug 17, 2019 5:20 am

Auto: It’s SO good!

Oh boy did i eat a lot today. Didn't get all my steps in either.


17/7

Break (1pm): salad, couple handfuls of popcorn, 5 chocolate fruits, chai
Snack: guacamole & chips, 2 pieces of cheese w crackers
Dinner: cornmeal waffle w/ creamed mushrooms
Dessert: rosemary chocolate chip cookie, glass milk

Walked 3.5 m
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by lpearlmom » Mon Aug 19, 2019 5:42 am

Omygosh been like non stop eating for two days. 😔
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by 3squaremeals » Mon Aug 19, 2019 11:02 am

You and me both! I'm over it, don't know what to do.

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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by Octavia » Mon Aug 19, 2019 4:54 pm

Oh, I just left you a big message then lost my internet connection and it disappeared! :x

I’ll try again! It was a bit of a rambler, just saying that I too have eaten tons this weekend, and am now thinking of spending a fun hour making up new, personalised diet plans for myself! I certainly haven’t got all this sussed out.

Will catch up again later, hopefully when the internet connection in my holiday cottage is better. All the best Linda! x

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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by lpearlmom » Wed Aug 21, 2019 5:43 am

Sorry square. I hope your week is better. :/

Oh dang, i hate when that happens Octavia! I guess there must be something in the air! Im hoping things turn around for all of us soon.

Sooooo after a crazy weekend I’ve thought about what I really want and what is going to be sustainable for me. I’ve decided to try sticking to 19/5 for awhile and see how that goes. It’s a very reasonable and doable fasting regime and I do prefer fasting to sticking to 3 plates right now because like I said, im a bit of a natural grazer. I prefer that over big meals. According to Dr. Bert Herring 19/5 is the sweet spot for like 95% of the ppl he’s worked with and since im not usually an outlier, it should work for me too.

We had a fun weekend but Im having a lot of anxiety and depression so that’s annoying. Im wondering if it’s menopausal related as I’ve seemed to skipped my period this month. Im putting on a brave face though and just ploughing through for now. This too shall pass.

I know it’s a bit crazy to do this considering how often i change my mind but i really want to stick tom19/5 for a year and just see what my body does with that. Im also going to try to walk 5 miles although that’s been tougher since the girls started back to school. Ill give myself 14 days off of fasting total throughout the year. Apologies in advance if/when I change my mind in 4 days. ☺️

Day 2:
19/5

Break: small bag naked popcorn w/ chocolate chips, nectarine, chai
Snack: bowl of couscous salad
Dinner: stuffed bell pepper, small glass of wine
Dessert: handful of chocolate chips

Walked: 3.1 miles

Ill weigh on Fridays but my main focus is feeling good, and habing sanity with my eating. I seem to be able to eat intuitively with 19/5 and theres not a lot of guilt going on. I definitely don’t binge as long as i dont overdo it with the fasting. Ppl talk a lot about food addiction but nobody talks about how restriction can be addictive too. For me it can be a powerful urge. Moderation, moderation, moderation.
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by 3squaremeals » Wed Aug 21, 2019 11:17 am

Thanks Linda. I totally get what you mean with restriction. I am such an all or nothing person and it is hard to just do moderation as I feel I should be being super strict.

I need to just commit to the fasting as I started doing well again, but the daily weighing just stressed me out when the number didn't go down every day, and I ended up saying WTH and eating anything whenever. Weekly weigh ins for me from now on.

19/5 sounds like a great plan, I prefer around that number or 20/4 too.

Sorry to hear about the anxiety and depression, hope you are feeling back to yourself soon x

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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by automatedeating » Wed Aug 21, 2019 1:27 pm

Hey there Linda. How many hours are you in the car every day taking the kids around? Your schedule must be really wild right now; and you really have only had a few days since the visitors left. Add that to skipping your period and I can see why anxiety and depression could be particularly intense.
I hope this week goes well.

Oh, and with your 19/5, is your window like 2pm-7pm or something like that?
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by lpearlmom » Thu Aug 22, 2019 3:19 am

Thank you square. Yeah the daily weighing stresses me out too. If its up, I’m frustrated and discouraged. If it’s down I feel great and motivated but sometimes it can lead to overeating as well if i feel like I now deserve it. Once a week is plenty! 20/4 is really doable too.

Auto: Im in the car about 2-3 hrs depending upon what activities the girls are doing. Crazy right? It really hasn't been all that bad. I like to listen to podcasts on my way to pick them up and I get to hear about their day on the way back before they lock themselves in their rooms for the rest of the night. But yes, ive been too busy and think it kind of got to me. When I cant see any end in sight, i tend to feel really overwhelmed and hopeless. It can sometimes push me over the edge into a depressive episode. I think it’s partly that and partly that I've been having to interact with my sister more than normal as we’re planning a bday party for my mom. Well that and hormones, hormones, hormones. Ill get through it. Oh and yes about 2/230 to 7/730.

Copying your idea auto & made a little template for my check in. Ill see how it goes.

Day: 3

Fasted: 19/5

Off days left: 14

Food:
Break: small bag of skinny pop w/ chocolate pepitas, homemade chai
Snack: watermelon, handful of corn chips
Dinner: kale, quinoa & avocado salad w crackers, yogurt
Dessert: vegan muffin, handful of chocolate covered gummy 🐻

Pounds lost with current regime: n/a
Total pounds lost: 35 lbs

Body fat%: n/a
Body fat lost: n/a

Mood: woke up already very anxious, had a lot of depression but started to feel better in the evening despite fighting with Rosebud. Boy, is she being difficult recently. We made up but then she fought with doc. Teens... 🤦🏼‍♀️

Hunger level: moderate but then ended up eating a lot. I didnt really want that salad and probably should have listened to my body and just had the yogurt that I really wanted.

Miles walked: 5 —yay! I walked on the treadmill and it’s definitely easier to get in more miles that way.

Hoping I’m feeling better tomorrow and that Rosebud is too.
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by Kathleen » Thu Aug 22, 2019 12:02 pm

Hi Linda,

Our youngest just got dropped off at college for Marching Band Camp. We see her again on Sunday morning when she moves into her dorm. Right now, she is in a different dorm because all the band kids are together.

You know what she told me? She said that kids who have their own cars tend not to have a good relationship with their mothers. She thought it was due to having all that time together in the car to talk. Enjoy these years because they end!

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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by lpearlmom » Fri Aug 23, 2019 5:36 am

That makes sense Kathleen. We will get her a car but im not in a hurry.


Today was a little rough. We are doing an eight week Dream Academy every Thursday night with both the girls at Rosebud’s school. It helps prepare you for college by coming up with an individual plan for each kid. They also get 20 hrs of community service and a letter of recommendation when the complete they course. It’s really cool and will hopefully help me with my anxiety regarding all things college but we had 2 1/2 hrs to kill before the course started which let to some grumpiness. It was hot and sweetpea wasn’t feeling well so there was some fighting and we had to find medicine for sweetpea so no homework got done till we got home. Rosebud is still up and trying to get it done. Hopefully next week will go better.


Day: 4

Fasted: 19/5

Off days left: 14

Food:
Break: small bag of skinny popcorn, sf chai
Dinner: veggie burger, fries

Pounds lost with current regime: n/a
Total pounds lost: 35

Body fat%: na
Body fat lost: na

Mood: the morning was really tough. My depression was high and i had trouble getting anything done but i pushed through and by like 3pm was feeling much better. Im worried fasting isnt helping but am hoping my body will adjust. I kinda remember this happening before...

Hunger level: high this morning but when i did eat, i got full v fast.

Miles walked: ? I had joint pain when i woke up so took the day off.


Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I listened to The Hilarious World of Depression today and it actually helped.

Other podcasts i love: Spilled Milk, Dietitians unplugged, Food Pysch, Bag Man, The dropout and any of the Headlong podcasts. Anyone have any other good ones?
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CW: 172
GW:160

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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by Candace » Fri Aug 23, 2019 1:22 pm

Best of luck with the Dream Academy and all things college. I remember being a handful to my parents at that age, though for entirely different reasons. It kills me when I remember how completely ungrateful I was at that age. I'm so grateful now, and tell my parents often, but I bet I deserved to get slapped around when I was a teenager. (They didn't.)
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Re: Linda's daily check-in

Post by automatedeating » Fri Aug 23, 2019 2:16 pm

Linda - my heart aches for you! I hope the depression lifts soon. In the meantime, that is so great that you have found some podcasts to listen to that help you see you are not alone, and I'm glad they made you laugh.
As you know, I listen to lots of podcasts, but most of them are science-y to the extreme (recently a friend told they finally listened to a Peter Attia podcast I'd be recommending (that I LOVE) and she told me she almost died of boredom! - oops). I recently started listening to "Therapy Uncensored" - you might like that.

Candace and Linda - I am starting to finally understand that the nature of being Sweetpea, Rosebud's, Challenger's, or any other kid/teenager is to be ungrateful. ha! That's part of the process. And I think a lot of teens get super-shamed for this, rather than sort of lovingly and patiently held accountable (which is crazy hard, yes?!!!). Linda's gentleness with her girls often gets me misty-eyed. Linda, I love it when you said "we made up" after a tiff with one of the girls. That sort of "break-repair" process NEVER happens for some kids - some are not allowed to even have a break.
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