Today was a mixed day, in terms of eating. It wasn't a really bad or overly unhealthy eating day, but I still ended up eating at night.
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Also, I was feeling pretty low today about my eating and lack of weight loss. I strongly suspect it had to do with the fact that AF should be coming in the next few days. I always get really hormonal around this time.
Part of the problem is that I am also still tracking my calories on My Fitness Pal. I rarely ever get under my calorie goal, and that discourages me. I feel like I am reasonably intelligent, and I am talented in certain things (like playing the clarinet), so why can't I stick to a simple calorie budget? I really want to ditch My Fitness Pal, because I certainly don't see myself tracking calories for the rest of my life. However, I am afraid to give it up.
That is what brings me to No S, and has kept bringing me back off and on, since 2009. I really believe that if the habits of No S became well established for me, then maybe I could lose weight, or at least not gain any more weight. Just to clarify, I have 20-30 pounds to go, to reach my final goal. I will disclose that I currently hover between 150-152, and I want to get down to
125-130.
The other issues that were on my mind today had to do with my reflux, and with my sensitive gut. I know I'm going to have to give up coffee, but I'm going to have to sleep better, before I can do that. I also need to go back to not consuming certain kinds of citrus, like orange juice, because that really aggravates my reflux. In addition, I can't stop thinking about what Eschano, auto, Ursula, and Linda pointed out, about how highly processed carbs and eating late at night can aggravate it. I will certainly keep experimenting with that.
Moreover, I'm going to have to get better about not consuming dairy.
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I've eaten dairy over the past couple of days and, let's just say my gut is VERY off right now. I'm pretty sure I'm sensitive to the casein, since cheese (low lactose, more casein) gives me problems. I think lactose bothers me, too. Anyway, I will definitely try to be better about avoiding it.
This is the end of my long post, but I had a lot on my mind today. I guess my goals will be to keep working on finding ways to eliminate the reflux; find dairy free foods I enjoy, and that will help me to get enough calcium; and to figure out how to construct my meals in a way that will leave me feeling reasonably full, but help me to (hopefully) lose weight.
Here are my meals for today
Breakfast: Green smoothie, cashews, coffee with coconut milk and liquid Stevia (I may end up ditching green smoothies for awhile. I had terrible reflux after breakfast today, and this is not the first time that has happened. I'm sure the culprits were the OJ in the smoothie, and my coffee).
Lunch: Applebee's leftovers (there was a LOT of cheese, in this meal)
PM snack: Healthy ice cream made in my Ninja with a ripe frozen banana, 1 T cocoa powder, and 1 T peanut butter. Yum! I also had 4 Trader Joes banana bites ( I may have to ditch these, except for on weekends. They're a little too good).
Dinner: leftover soup, large piece of bread with DF butter, a kiwi
Late night eating: 2 small bags of veggie crisps, 1/4 C of chocolate chips ( I honestly think part of my problem tonight was that dinner didn't fill me up enough).
Eschano, Thanks!
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Yes, one last day.