After 23 days I feel totally in control - I have not screwed with the formula at all and I don't have to think about it other than to daydream about what I am going to eat for the next meal. I feel better, I look better, my attitude with food is better and more enjoyable. Why would you give that up? Do you think your son will follow your direction?
Hi Sandy!
I'm so happy for you that you feel totally in control
I think you misunderstand me completely, as you said at the beginning...
I'm not planning on giving anything up or "screwing" with any *formulas* (heh heh...) and I'm certainly not giving up on NOS, so I really have to correct you there, since you totally assumed I am dropping out or something... LOL...
I'm just saying that I'm not going to pay such close attention...
I too feel that three meals a day has become my norm.. I've been doing this since August 2004... It's just that I'm really trying to focus on putting my mental energy on lots of other stuff, mainly work but some other more creative endeavors too, such as writing music, so I want to see how well I do with my habits alone... Also, thanks for your concern about my son! He is doing great!!!
But at some point in his life, he will have to just trust himself and his habits with or without me... I of course, intend on continuing to influence him in a good way, though...
We are partners in crime!
Hey Galemarie and Reinhard,
Thanks for your encouraging words (and caveats! LOL...)
Yes Reinhard, this will certainly put my habits to the test, and it will be a kind of "New Years" taking stock of sorts...
Hey, I really don't plan on backsliding... Just trying to do this more on an auto-pilot mode... Anyway, isn't that sort of the whole point of these habits?
I'm going to make an analogy here... Not sure if it's the greatest, but whatever...
I went to school for massage for 16 months at one of the most prestigious massage schools in the country, the Swedish Institute of NY...
We learned soooooo much, but for the first year of practicing, I felt nervous with nearly every client who came in, that I'd do the right things and "know" what to do, etc....
I felt like I was thinking through the massages and it often took me a good 3/4 of the session just to be able to calm my mind and be present with the person in the room...
This was almost like having an agenda that was keeping me from tuning into my client...
I have recently been able to "leave my mind" and all that learning, which of course I am still thrilled I have, and wouldn't trade for anything, as I feel very competently trained and ready to help treat a multitude of conditions with massage, in both Western and Eastern modalities, and simply tune into the person on "Auto massage mode"...
In other words: I am finally trusting that my work is going to be healing, and I am now able to really connect with people in a way I couldn't before, simply because I was "In my head" instead of in my heart and hands...
I have had feedback from some recent clients who visited me in my early days of practice and it's been very complimentary...
Andywhoooo,
Back to my diet habits...
It feels like the only habit I still might have to contend with at this point is
possibly seconds, but I'm not really even worried about that one...
Galemarie, I totally agree that it's very important to be very aware of your eating habits in the beginning... If you stick this out, it just gets easier as you go, but we all have "those days" too, occasionally...
So officially, even with a stressful week and one Haagen Daaz slipup, and a bag of chips too, I am only up half a pound from about a week ago????
I weigh 206... I must have weighed 230 when I started last year!
So see you in about three weeks!
Incidentally, since I decided to try and find more clients and work, I have had three private clients schedule massages in one week, and I am looking forward to an interview for a clerical position in a doc's office for two days a week, tomorrow... If I get that, it should certainly lower my stress levels as for the past two months, massage has been totally dead at the club, and everyone was away, so I never knew where my money would come from and I was, pretty much freaking out nearly every day over the smallest expenses (like food and our electric bill!!!)
Cross your NoS fingers for me that I get this part time job!
Peace and Love,
Deb
