Posted: Fri Jun 01, 2018 12:49 pm Post subject: Bean&Sprout
Vanilla No S:
29 3001020304 05 06 070809 10 1112
27 28 293031
01 - 40th birthday!
03 - 40th birthday celebration at work!
28 - Memorial Day
Reflection on the month:
This is probably my fourth run at No S, and it appears to have finally clicked! In my time away I experimented with extended and intermittent fasting. Through my fasting practice, I learned much about hunger--how it comes in waves, which can be ridden out, that it is not an emergency, and that just about everything tastes better when you are good and truly hungry. I also learned that regularly missing supper with my family because I'm fasting is not something I'm interested in doing long-term. I also followed an LCHF/Keto diet. This also isn't something I'm prepared to do long-term.
My N days were mostly painless. Unlike prior attempts at No S, I didn't restrict the sorts or quantities of food, other than a very straightforward no to sweets, seconds and snacks. My S days weren't wild, but they weren't very satisfying. I found myself snacking because I could, not because I was hungry. I ate "whatever I felt like," but that was much less pleasurable than my 2-3 meals on a normal N day. The restrictions led to greater pleasure.
For June, I am going to edit my plates a bit, aiming for more vegetables and some fruit to complement the other, richer foods on my plate. I am also going to reflect on my S days. I'm not going to add rules to my S days, but I do want to mark S days I found satisfying and pleasurable vs. S days in which a permasnacked myself away from the enjoyment of an otherwise licit S. For June, an orange S day means that it left me feeling off. A yellow S day means that I was left feeling pleased with it.
Despite a relaxed approach to the content of my plates, and my unmoderated S days, I lost six pounds in May. I commit to following No S for the remainder of 2018.
Summary of Month:
Red days - 0
NWS days - 3
Pounds lost - 6
Orange S Day = Unsatisfying
Yellow S Day = Satisfying
S day reflections:
02 - Parts of the day were very satisfying. My morning was a bit too snacky, so when we went to the first of two parties, I didn't eat anything (didn't feel hungry). I sipped on a glass of sangria. It wasn't a sit-down dinner, so people were eating in shifts. My abstention didn't cause any awkwardness. The second party, was OK food-wise, but I ate more than I should have. I also ate it quickly because I was caring for Sprout (4 month old daughter). It didn't register as a meal (though it certainly was, calorically), so when we got home, I snacked some more. Not awful or bingey, but still just blah. I only did it because I "could."
03 - I ate too many cookies and just was generally snacky. The only meal I had was dinner, and that was spent listening to Bean protest the shape of pasta chosen with much vigor. Rotini was not acceptable. She only wanted "skabetti." Faced with a mother unwilling to boil two pots of pasta for one supper, she ate a pear and strawberries for dinner. Once Bean and Sprout were down for the night, and kitchen chores had been completed, I had some quark (meh) when I should have just gone to bed.
09 - I made cookies for a party on the 10th, and they just didn't turn out. I have no idea what I did, but they just did not look right. I decided to buy cookies for the party and ate too many of the rejects. I also had my leftover Thai food, even though I wasn't hungry. I ended up making myself feel ill, between the extra Thai and the ugly (but still tasty) cookies.
10 - Again ate too many cookies. I did well at the party. Had a mini-binge before the end of my S day--snacking, even though I wasn't even a bit hungry. Again, made myself feel ill. It wasn't worth it at all. Yick.
05: Seconds at dinner. I skipped breakfast earlier in the day, and so I fooled myself into feeling entitled to seconds. I would have been fine without the extra salad and bread.
Last edited by Bean&Sprout on Tue Jun 12, 2018 3:08 pm; edited 4 times in total
It sounds like you may be being a little hard on yourself on s days. The advice I was given was get the green days solid, then worry about the s days. That said, like you, I find once I start snacking, it’s hard to stop. So I wait until at least afternoon on my s days to have a snack. _________________ Merry
I appreciate the input. I'm approaching this from a perspective of gentle curiosity and observation. If I start to feel nutty about my S days, I'll stop grading them.
My concern with my S day eating has more to do with modeling good eating behavior for my daughters (well, the four-year-old, anyway - I'm pretty sure the four-month-old is more interested in her toes). I work during the week, so we really only have dinner together. On the weekends, they see my whole day of eating, and I want them to see me making reasonable choices. Before No S, most of my poor eating behaviors were during the week, trying to make sure they didn't see the bad choices. (Typing that out, I see how sad that is).
I just read Simmstone's post in the No S Vs. Weight Watchers thread, which encouraged three to six months of basic No S before attempting any advanced practice. I'll mull both of your words over this week before my next S days.
6/12/18 - Failure: Seconds at dinner, sweet after (stale cookie - ugh), snack before bed.
Something interesting happened during the course of my failure. As I was having my seconds and my sweet, I paused to decide if it was worth the red report. I decided it was, and continued on. At this, a bit of WTH crept in, and I was mentally gearing up for a binge ("I'll have some Cheezits, and maybe some more cookies. Some toast?"). I finished up my evening chores, grabbed the box of Cheezits, had a few, and thought, "This isn't worth it." I put my snack away and went right back onto plan. No drama, no recriminations, no regrets, really, just the knowledge that this wasn't what I wanted or how I wanted to live. I can't imagine that this will become my new normal without effort, but this is the first time in my life that I have abandoned a binge, just discarded it, as if it didn't matter.
I skipped breakfast today because I got up too late, and did fine with my one (full) plate. I anticipate more of the same with dinner. I expect to end the day fully in the green.
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