Second Verse, Not Quite the Same as the First
Posted: Wed Sep 07, 2011 1:12 pm
Today is my two-year anniversary of starting NO S. You can read my far more inspirational first-year testimonial here: http://everydaysystems.com/bb/viewtopic.php?t=6745
My second year has been much different than my first, and not in a good way. I've tended to blame it on stress and change - a new house, an unexpected death, the beginning of menopause, an injury to my walking partner. But the truth is - that's just life, isn't it? Things happen. The truth is that I eat way too much on S days. I rarely post or use HabitCal. I don't exercise. The truth is that I've lost any sense of urgency. I read my first year testimonial, and how I listened to the song "One Last Chance," and I remember playing it over and over and over. I had an overwhelming sense that something had to change, and it had to change now. That's gone.
Do I sound like an engaged, committed No S'er? I am not. But the silver lining in my little black cloud is that I'm still a creature of the habits I developed during my first year. I eat three meals a day with no snacks or sweets. I think I had only five failures during the year. In terms of weight - I weigh 0.2 pounds more than I did a year ago, so my total weight loss is at 65 pounds. I know that maintaining that weight loss is an accomplishment.
I have not had a weight loss goal on No S. I have always told myself that I wanted to eat and exercise moderately, and that I would be happy with whatever weight I ended up at. My disappointment with myself is because I am not living in moderation. Just writing this down makes things a little clearer for me, and maybe that will help.
Please don't let my problems discourage you! I hesitated about posting, but I always think the truth is best.
My second year has been much different than my first, and not in a good way. I've tended to blame it on stress and change - a new house, an unexpected death, the beginning of menopause, an injury to my walking partner. But the truth is - that's just life, isn't it? Things happen. The truth is that I eat way too much on S days. I rarely post or use HabitCal. I don't exercise. The truth is that I've lost any sense of urgency. I read my first year testimonial, and how I listened to the song "One Last Chance," and I remember playing it over and over and over. I had an overwhelming sense that something had to change, and it had to change now. That's gone.
Do I sound like an engaged, committed No S'er? I am not. But the silver lining in my little black cloud is that I'm still a creature of the habits I developed during my first year. I eat three meals a day with no snacks or sweets. I think I had only five failures during the year. In terms of weight - I weigh 0.2 pounds more than I did a year ago, so my total weight loss is at 65 pounds. I know that maintaining that weight loss is an accomplishment.
I have not had a weight loss goal on No S. I have always told myself that I wanted to eat and exercise moderately, and that I would be happy with whatever weight I ended up at. My disappointment with myself is because I am not living in moderation. Just writing this down makes things a little clearer for me, and maybe that will help.
Please don't let my problems discourage you! I hesitated about posting, but I always think the truth is best.