Today I'm committing myself to the most hardcore ultra strict version of NoS I can do. I am going to really set my goals high because my very lame half "ssed" attempts at following (or maybe I should say not following) NoS this year, and *NOT* exercising much on N days has landed me at my all time highest weight in my life.
I'm not adding extra restrictions on food, and on S days I'm going to limit myself to two S's per day.
I'm more mad than I am upset and sad, at this point, that I haven't been more proactive and cared more about my own health and appearance to make my best effort to lose weight. I mean, I am going to forgive myself, as, yes, I've been stressed and dealing with lots of personal problems, but after I weighed myself today and saw I am now 250 lbs, I just totally freaked out and a switch went on and an internal voice said, "That's it.. do this now before it's too late!!!"
My 5'2" body is starting to really feel the strain of being this heavy, in all things I do.. even the simplest things like getting in and out of the tub, leaning over to tie my shoes, getting out of bed in the morning..
I swear to God, I feel like I need a crane to lift myself.
Walking up and down stairs is a misery for me, and I can't even feel comfortable *sitting and watching TV!!!* in the evening with my Son, because I'm too fat to cross my legs!!!
I'm so pissed off that I let myself become so complacent.
But I think being pissed off is actually better than being sad and depressed, because hopefully, that will fuel my desire to succeed a bit more.
I hope to lose between 8 and 10 pounds per month, and this is doable if I am 100 percent committed to staying on plan with NoS, and exercising daily.
If I can't lose that much, so be it, but I will attempt it.. I feel I'd rather set my sights a little high, because that will hopefully keep me more focused on trying my absolute hardest, to stay ultra strict!
I'm also doing this to set a *good* example for Richie, as I know that when I slack off, so does he.. I feel I have to take responsibility here for both of us.
Thanks for listening friends!
Have a great week.
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