Hi Everyone
Posted: Sat Aug 23, 2014 2:12 am

Signed in and had a good read of the boards tonight to TRY and motivate myself and get back into the groove. I have been flagging reds for so long now that there must be hundreds of bulls queueing up to get me outside my house!
One of the things that sticks in my memory vividly about my last sustained No S period of compliance when I shifted my first stone was that I felt better mentally. I am sure that low fat eating plans make me get depressed and really affect my mood. I also had more energy to do stuff and not just sit around all day doing nothing. More energy to do stuff = do more = more activity in general living = better weight loss.
I think I am suffering from the summer holiday blues. Don't get me wrong, I love having my daughter round the house while school is out, but routine goes out the window, there are more days out, special visits made, more trips to do fun things like tomorrow the theatre, and today a trip to McDonalds with DD and my little niece and I have felt sucked in. mu daughter is 9 and an only child so it can all get a little intense as I have to be Mum and playmate ALL the time! I have had other kids round to play more and she has gone to friends a few times but I am feeling really drained and remembering vividly why I gave up teaching!
I so desperately need to get back on track. Being off track permeates negativity into every area of my life as I am a complete all or nothing person. Wish I wasn't but have to accept and work with it.
However, on a positive note to finish! I have mentally committed to exercising on N days when my daughter goes back to school. I will drop her at school in the mornings and immediately, I will pop one of the countless exercise DVD's into the machine and move. As a young child and teenager I would dance to pop music in the living room believing I was the next Kylie Minogue or something every single day for about half an hour and it made me feel so much better in my head. If I don't do a DVD and am not in the mood to exercise I will fool myself and I will do half an hour dancing on one of the four dancing Wii games we have here.
I also really got into housework before. Shocking for me but I thought about how women were slimmer and had roast potatoes cooked in goose fat etc and the answer was three meals a day, no snacking, hard work cleaning the house every day. I started doing what I called the Victorian housework routine. So, I mopped my wooden floors each day rather than once a week etc. I only seem to clean the house to a daily routine outside school holidays and it gets done erratically when my daughter is off school but not to a routine. God I need structure in my life or it all goes pear shaped.
Anyway, sorry about the rambling. Hope you are all well. Will be about more as I try to get myself back on track.
Anne