new to the forum, not new to no s
Posted: Sun Sep 07, 2014 2:23 am
No S was my New Year's resolution for 2013. Overall it was a success. I’ve suffered from disordered eating of some form or another for as long as I can remember with the main issue being binge eating. My foremost goal with No S was to free myself from my anxieties surrounding food and eating, but I also wanted to lose weight. By fall I had lost 50 pounds and was truly enjoying food for the first time in years without thinking about it much. It was wonderful. Then I went through some stressful times and started having more red days. My response was to add more restrictions on top of vanilla No S. Classic mistake. I lost close to 20 more pounds, but I was undereating and that led to the yoyo effect. I kept losing and regaining. At the start of 2014 I stopped No S-ing completely. I stepped on the scale this morning and was surprised to see that I have kept off the 50 pounds I lost with vanilla No S. Still I’m not happy with the way I’ve been eating or feeling this year. Some days are moderate, but mostly I just alternate between overindulgence and overrestriction. I’ve been bingeing a lot lately and that feels truly horrible. I hope that returning to No S can give me some relief once again. We shall see.
