I'm so tired, y'all. I'm giving this one more shot.
Posted: Sun Jul 13, 2025 11:15 pm
Hi, everyone,
I am now at my very highest weight. I can give you all sorts of excuses. I have struggled in my life with lots of trauma and I've always eaten about it -- either hyper-controling my food in the form of orthorexia (and getting under-weight) or I've over eaten, or I've yo-yo dieted. I'm now 37 at my very highest weight and I can't take it anymore. I want SO badly to get myself under control (without going into orthorexia-mode). My dietitian is trying to get me to eat 3 meals with healthy plating, 1 afternoon snack, and maybe a small dessert each day. I can't do it. If I allow snacking of any kind, I go absolutely NUTS and perma-snack all day.
I tried counting calories, but only made it four months. I can't go back to that world of food-as-numbers.
I'm here to give No S one more earnest shot, because it is literally the last-house-on-the-block for me. I've tried it ALL. And nothing works. I believe No S is true, sane-eating. It's how we SHOULD be eating.
I know that most people who are obese have become that way because they have a history of trauma (not all large people, but many of us). I work very closely with a therapist to address my past-trauma. But I have GOT to get my food, eating, and weight under control. I have a physical in a couple of weeks and I'm terrified about it. I hope it's not as bad as I fear.
I am now at my very highest weight. I can give you all sorts of excuses. I have struggled in my life with lots of trauma and I've always eaten about it -- either hyper-controling my food in the form of orthorexia (and getting under-weight) or I've over eaten, or I've yo-yo dieted. I'm now 37 at my very highest weight and I can't take it anymore. I want SO badly to get myself under control (without going into orthorexia-mode). My dietitian is trying to get me to eat 3 meals with healthy plating, 1 afternoon snack, and maybe a small dessert each day. I can't do it. If I allow snacking of any kind, I go absolutely NUTS and perma-snack all day.
I tried counting calories, but only made it four months. I can't go back to that world of food-as-numbers.
I'm here to give No S one more earnest shot, because it is literally the last-house-on-the-block for me. I've tried it ALL. And nothing works. I believe No S is true, sane-eating. It's how we SHOULD be eating.
I know that most people who are obese have become that way because they have a history of trauma (not all large people, but many of us). I work very closely with a therapist to address my past-trauma. But I have GOT to get my food, eating, and weight under control. I have a physical in a couple of weeks and I'm terrified about it. I hope it's not as bad as I fear.