Don't let S days stand for stupid!
Posted: Mon Apr 25, 2005 4:08 pm
Hey all
Oh man! This weekend between my cycle and the family dinner, and the dreaded leftovers of main course stuff and that haagen daaz, I am feeling like someone pumped my belly full of heavy gravy, or something similarly "heavy"... Yuck!!!
I'm pretty disappointed that I didn't exert some tiny attempt at portion control and amount of helpings... I feel temporarilly "stupid!"...
Well my life is a bit tumultuous for the last few months so I guess I'm slipping back to some of my very unhealthy old habits when the stress-ometer goes off the charts for me... I'm so glad I have NoS to lean on, because this is the kind of eating I tend to do, indefinitely when I am in binge mode... It's embarrassing... Well, it took a lifetime to build these "bad" habits, so I guess it's going to take some long term concerted effort to really eradicate them for good.. But I completely believe that can and will happen here
The great news now is that, and sorry for repeating myself here, I landed a nice Summer job, with NY Health and Racquet Club here in town.
For the first three months I will be guaranteed a salary, so long as I give a minimum of six hours per day... Then, it's all commission after that intro period... But hopefully, the belief is, by then I should be able to establish a clientelle... I love massage and wouldn't ever consider stopping it, but after a year of trying to work just for myself, and even for a few other places, I realize that it is a very unpredictable way a earning a living... At least for the next three months, I'll have some piece of mind concerning my income...
Anyway... I am glad to be back to N days, because, quite frankly, NoS really is like the stern yet always loving and supportive "parent" I really need here, to give me some "tough love"... It's pretty interesting that I am actually finding solace in these rules... the whole "pre disapproved" thing, Reinhard, really is so wonderful... No hemming and hawing... I for one know, that if I were on a plan where I had to make countless decisions about "what when why where and how" to pick, prepare, serve..etc... all my meals, during lets say a "low self esteem" or "high stress" week, I would probably do as I did over this weekend, except for X amount of days till my clothes were tight on me again...
That N day boundary is so unbelievably invaluable to people when their willpower is at a low point, it really does help to minimize damage...
It's like "wake up and smell the N day"... LOL...
Okay folks that's enough ramblin' Deb for now.
I am really psyched about our move next week and my new job, so things are looking good!
Oh, also, hayo Mayo! Good to see you and your teeny 4 foot 2'' self is still with us
I almost died when you wrote that you are around 120!
That's how much half my behind weighs! LOL
You little lean spitfire you!
Ah! One more perk of being at that gym, is, they are letting me use the facilities too! I will be checking out those weights and probably swimming every day.. it's a tiny pool, but half an hour of swimming a day will certainly help me get strong and happy
As for the treadmills and stuff,,, sorry I keep hearing you say "That's the dark side!" Reinhard! LOL.. and from the looks on these peoples faces it really seems like they aren't having much fun on those gerbil machines!
Hey, who knows.. If I'm really getting people for massage, I'll probably be getting plenty of work right there...
Here's wishing everyone a great week!
Peace and Love,
Deb
![Very Happy :D](./images/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif)
Oh man! This weekend between my cycle and the family dinner, and the dreaded leftovers of main course stuff and that haagen daaz, I am feeling like someone pumped my belly full of heavy gravy, or something similarly "heavy"... Yuck!!!
I'm pretty disappointed that I didn't exert some tiny attempt at portion control and amount of helpings... I feel temporarilly "stupid!"...
Well my life is a bit tumultuous for the last few months so I guess I'm slipping back to some of my very unhealthy old habits when the stress-ometer goes off the charts for me... I'm so glad I have NoS to lean on, because this is the kind of eating I tend to do, indefinitely when I am in binge mode... It's embarrassing... Well, it took a lifetime to build these "bad" habits, so I guess it's going to take some long term concerted effort to really eradicate them for good.. But I completely believe that can and will happen here
![Very Happy :D](./images/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif)
The great news now is that, and sorry for repeating myself here, I landed a nice Summer job, with NY Health and Racquet Club here in town.
For the first three months I will be guaranteed a salary, so long as I give a minimum of six hours per day... Then, it's all commission after that intro period... But hopefully, the belief is, by then I should be able to establish a clientelle... I love massage and wouldn't ever consider stopping it, but after a year of trying to work just for myself, and even for a few other places, I realize that it is a very unpredictable way a earning a living... At least for the next three months, I'll have some piece of mind concerning my income...
Anyway... I am glad to be back to N days, because, quite frankly, NoS really is like the stern yet always loving and supportive "parent" I really need here, to give me some "tough love"... It's pretty interesting that I am actually finding solace in these rules... the whole "pre disapproved" thing, Reinhard, really is so wonderful... No hemming and hawing... I for one know, that if I were on a plan where I had to make countless decisions about "what when why where and how" to pick, prepare, serve..etc... all my meals, during lets say a "low self esteem" or "high stress" week, I would probably do as I did over this weekend, except for X amount of days till my clothes were tight on me again...
That N day boundary is so unbelievably invaluable to people when their willpower is at a low point, it really does help to minimize damage...
It's like "wake up and smell the N day"... LOL...
Okay folks that's enough ramblin' Deb for now.
I am really psyched about our move next week and my new job, so things are looking good!
Oh, also, hayo Mayo! Good to see you and your teeny 4 foot 2'' self is still with us
![Razz :P](./images/smilies/icon_razz.gif)
That's how much half my behind weighs! LOL
![Evil or Very Mad :evil:](./images/smilies/icon_evil.gif)
You little lean spitfire you!
![Laughing :lol:](./images/smilies/icon_lol.gif)
Ah! One more perk of being at that gym, is, they are letting me use the facilities too! I will be checking out those weights and probably swimming every day.. it's a tiny pool, but half an hour of swimming a day will certainly help me get strong and happy
As for the treadmills and stuff,,, sorry I keep hearing you say "That's the dark side!" Reinhard! LOL.. and from the looks on these peoples faces it really seems like they aren't having much fun on those gerbil machines!
Hey, who knows.. If I'm really getting people for massage, I'll probably be getting plenty of work right there...
Here's wishing everyone a great week!
Peace and Love,
![Cool 8)](./images/smilies/icon_cool.gif)