Sold my diet books today
Posted: Wed Jan 07, 2009 10:22 pm
Today I de-cluttered.
I have a cabinet under my nightstand and it holds my Diet books. I don't like to have them out because they are embarrassing. They all represent failures, things I tried and could not be successful with. Yet, I held onto them for years, the 3 Hour diet, the No-Grain diet, the South Beach Diet, the 3 Day Diet, the Atkins Revolution, the Beck Diet, The Blood type Diet. All shoved into a dark cabinet along with Weight Watchers materials from 4 distinct attempts. It represents a lot of money and time and frustration. It's also an anchor, one that I was not ready to cast off... until now.
What I knew but had not accepted yet was that these were not my failures, these diets were flawed, I was set up to fail somewhere along the way. I simply could not live my life excluding entire groups of food or counting all day long or seeing foods as "Bad" or "Good". I made a good go of it , almost 6 months on South Beach, several good lengths of time with the WW Core plan. I learned things from all of them.
As I put them all in a BIG box, I just shook my head, I've been doing this for 8 years now, since my second child was born and I am 20 pounds heavier than I was then, for all the frustration and tasteless unsatisfying food I've eaten, where am I? Worse off than before.
Today I carried them to used book store and ended up with 75.00 in credit, I bought a beautiful cookbook, Monet's Table, and few books for the kids and I still have plenty of credit left for more.
My cabinet of shame is empty. My No S diet book is on a shelf. I feel no embarrassment talking about it or describing this common sense way of eating. I feel such peace, no head-games, no question of willpower, I'm disallowed for snacks, its a Wednesday. That is all. If I stay 235 pounds for the rest of my life but can feel sane and not be in a constant state of self-immolation. Well then I'll be a happy girl with some great cookbooks.
I have a cabinet under my nightstand and it holds my Diet books. I don't like to have them out because they are embarrassing. They all represent failures, things I tried and could not be successful with. Yet, I held onto them for years, the 3 Hour diet, the No-Grain diet, the South Beach Diet, the 3 Day Diet, the Atkins Revolution, the Beck Diet, The Blood type Diet. All shoved into a dark cabinet along with Weight Watchers materials from 4 distinct attempts. It represents a lot of money and time and frustration. It's also an anchor, one that I was not ready to cast off... until now.
What I knew but had not accepted yet was that these were not my failures, these diets were flawed, I was set up to fail somewhere along the way. I simply could not live my life excluding entire groups of food or counting all day long or seeing foods as "Bad" or "Good". I made a good go of it , almost 6 months on South Beach, several good lengths of time with the WW Core plan. I learned things from all of them.
As I put them all in a BIG box, I just shook my head, I've been doing this for 8 years now, since my second child was born and I am 20 pounds heavier than I was then, for all the frustration and tasteless unsatisfying food I've eaten, where am I? Worse off than before.
Today I carried them to used book store and ended up with 75.00 in credit, I bought a beautiful cookbook, Monet's Table, and few books for the kids and I still have plenty of credit left for more.
My cabinet of shame is empty. My No S diet book is on a shelf. I feel no embarrassment talking about it or describing this common sense way of eating. I feel such peace, no head-games, no question of willpower, I'm disallowed for snacks, its a Wednesday. That is all. If I stay 235 pounds for the rest of my life but can feel sane and not be in a constant state of self-immolation. Well then I'll be a happy girl with some great cookbooks.
What a real weight off of you