Back Again
Posted: Tue May 26, 2009 3:21 am
It's been a long couple of months. Seems like this year is taking forever in some aspects and flying by in others.
DH is still deployed overseas, and I am a temporary single mom back in my hometown near both our families. The family support has helped, but as far as meals, lord help me, every meal has a treat except breakfast! And beings as I have 0 will power (common sense?) yes, of course I want a treat, why not 2, I deserve it, right, I mean, c'mon, I do ALL the mom things and ALL the dad things (i already hate mowing the lawn!).
Anyway, my eating has gone completely out of control again, eat eat eat, snacks and sweets. Second breakfasts and second suppers.
Eating is my friend, my stress reliever. Food won't scream at me in a 2 yr old tantrum.
So here I am, October of '07 I was down to 206, only 7 lbs to being out of the 200's! Wasn't that a dream?! Back up now to 229. My original start weight was 245 and I'm not far from it!
It's a struggle for me to find balance in anything these last 3 months. I have till next April before DH comes home again. Things are stressful, especially with 2 little kids. I mean, there are thousands of other military moms out there doing the same thing, I can handle it too, I *can* but I find it really hard to stop doing chores (dishes, laundry, dress kids, make beds, etc etc) and make a healthy meal and eat it all on one plate. I feel frazzled. Family does help some but they have their own lives too.
I have to stop here, there's enough whining. I do NOT want to see 230 on that scale. I have a ton of clothes, but I had already weeded out the size 20's and 22's so now I barely fit into most of my 18s and I am miserable!
I need to commit to myself as much as I have to the kids and everythign else out here I must deal with. I need to take a deep breath and not take things so seriously, I must give time to make healthy foods and a bit of exercise (seriously? I'm exhausted!)
I want to combine the basics of noS diet and Michael Pollan's quote: Eat food. Not too much. Mostly Plants.
It's great being back on board, I hope it will stick this time.![Very Happy :-D](./images/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif)
DH is still deployed overseas, and I am a temporary single mom back in my hometown near both our families. The family support has helped, but as far as meals, lord help me, every meal has a treat except breakfast! And beings as I have 0 will power (common sense?) yes, of course I want a treat, why not 2, I deserve it, right, I mean, c'mon, I do ALL the mom things and ALL the dad things (i already hate mowing the lawn!).
Anyway, my eating has gone completely out of control again, eat eat eat, snacks and sweets. Second breakfasts and second suppers.
Eating is my friend, my stress reliever. Food won't scream at me in a 2 yr old tantrum.
So here I am, October of '07 I was down to 206, only 7 lbs to being out of the 200's! Wasn't that a dream?! Back up now to 229. My original start weight was 245 and I'm not far from it!
![Sad :(](./images/smilies/icon_sad.gif)
I have to stop here, there's enough whining. I do NOT want to see 230 on that scale. I have a ton of clothes, but I had already weeded out the size 20's and 22's so now I barely fit into most of my 18s and I am miserable!
I need to commit to myself as much as I have to the kids and everythign else out here I must deal with. I need to take a deep breath and not take things so seriously, I must give time to make healthy foods and a bit of exercise (seriously? I'm exhausted!)
I want to combine the basics of noS diet and Michael Pollan's quote: Eat food. Not too much. Mostly Plants.
It's great being back on board, I hope it will stick this time.
![Very Happy :-D](./images/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif)