Everyday Systems

I had an S-day yesterday that I started off with sweeter and richer food than normal. Then I didn't really get hungry again the rest of the day, though I chose to eat a reasonable dinner and have some ice cream. I was barely hungry this a.m. Ate relatively light around 9 a.m, snacked on a few tablespoons of peanut butter, which I rarely eat, at various points in the afternoon and am only now, at 8:35 p.m. started to feel the slightest pangs of hunger.

Anyone else lose his/her appetite on S-days after eating sweets? It may sound like a good thing to some, but remember that most binge-ers don't overeat because they're hungry, so not being hungry doesn't stop them from gobbling. I was okay today, but I've had trouble in the past because I like to eat, and start to resent it after awhile if I don't feel like eating for too long. I know, sounds crazy, but that's why I'm here! I very much like that I get hungry for my meals on N-days.

just to clarify my wonderment: I am sure I have eaten fewer calories, although that is not our focus, today, than I do on my N-days. completely unintentional. I would never plan to eat so little, even back when I was counting calories. But I just have no desire to eat. I guess I should just quit questioning and accept that it's normal among the non-problem-eater population. Except that it isn't as if I've forgotten to eat.

Enough perseverating. I've still got student essays to tear my hair out over.

I don't know that I think about it so much, but I have plenty of days (not only S days) when I'm just not hungry. I also have days when I know I'm eating enough and I'm still starving.

I woudln't worry about it too much. Everyone goes through different phases. Perhaps next week you'll eat alot on your S days. It will probably balance out in the end.

I was surprised to find that the N day habbits got ingrained in me really really quickly (I've only been no S ing for 3 weeks). My first S days I was kinda nervous but after one really big meal with a huge dessert I found myself eating as if the rest of the weekend was N days-not on purpose I assure you! This last weekend, I thought to myself "yippee S days, I can eat whatever I want!" But I found that I had to actively remind myself that I was allowed to snack (but realized I didn't really want to) and only ate one sweet (which I used to gorge on). It's a very strange feeling.

I'm a newbie which doesn't give me much experience in these things but I think it's okay to let your body adjust to the new routine for awhile before you start worrying about it.

Yeah, I had that this weekend too. I had the sweet that I'd been waiting all week for, my very favorite ... cheesecake. I was DYING for it ... my mouth was watering, I mean I really WANTED that cheesecake. I'd been dreaming about that cheesecake for THREE DAYS. But I ate about half a piece, and found it sickeningly sweet, and never finished the rest.

My only real indulgences this weekend were some yogurt covered pretzels and half a glass of sweet tea (mixed with unsweet, because it tasted too sweet).

I'm not sure exactly what that means, especially since I should have been ravenously hungry for sweets, if you know what I mean. I didn't even want chocolate.

I choose to look on it as a good thing, and hopefully an indication that my attempts to retrain my palate and tame my sweet tooth are working.

I just hope that I don't rebound this week and feel "deprived" because I didn't finish the cheesecake. Oh well, if I do, then it gives me something to look forward to for the weekend, doesn't it?

Laura L.