My S Day was scary, uncomfortable and also successful?
Posted: Sat Feb 05, 2011 3:24 pm
I wanted to post about my S day because it was weird, uncomfortable for me, gross, but in a way successful. Here's what happened and you can tell me what you think because I just don't know how to feel about it honestly.
I was pretty hungry when I went to bed last night and because I was thinking so much about my s day for a few days and was looking forward to the idea of being able to eat a bit more or a treat. Actually I may have psyched myself up a bit.
Anyways at 12:30am (technically the next day, Saturday, an S day) I went downstairs and ate a rather large vanilla cupcake with pink icing that I had been eyeing all day. Now you have to understand I love icing more than the cake and I used to binge on this years ago (weird I know). Anyways, half way through I stopped and didn't know if I could finish it but of course I did. It didn't taste all that great and I actually liked the cake more than the icing which was bizarre for me. Then I ate 2 bite sized shortbread cookies with icing which were delicious. For some reason I ate the icing off of the other blue cupcake and a tiny bit of the cupcake. Normally I would have felt so bad about myself and gone on to eat ice cream, chips, more cookies, bread etc. etc. to have a full on binge.
No, I didn't need the extra bit of icing and bit of cake but I DID NOT binge. I felt gross, sick, a stomach ache and wondering what the purpose of S days are because I started worrying about the calories.... BUT then I felt like that craving was out of my system and I can carry on the day with 3 plates. So in a way, isn't this a successful S day because I didn't go wild?
I know it is still early in the day but I feel confident that I really don't need any other treats for the day, maybe not even tomorrow either. I do feel like my habits from the week spilled over to today. I feel satisfied but oddly I want to make my next weekend's treat a little more worthy and yummy because I seem to aim more for quality now than what I used to think was so yummy (ie this cupcake).
Anyways I welcome your input and tell me if you think this can qualify as a yellow S day.
I was pretty hungry when I went to bed last night and because I was thinking so much about my s day for a few days and was looking forward to the idea of being able to eat a bit more or a treat. Actually I may have psyched myself up a bit.
Anyways at 12:30am (technically the next day, Saturday, an S day) I went downstairs and ate a rather large vanilla cupcake with pink icing that I had been eyeing all day. Now you have to understand I love icing more than the cake and I used to binge on this years ago (weird I know). Anyways, half way through I stopped and didn't know if I could finish it but of course I did. It didn't taste all that great and I actually liked the cake more than the icing which was bizarre for me. Then I ate 2 bite sized shortbread cookies with icing which were delicious. For some reason I ate the icing off of the other blue cupcake and a tiny bit of the cupcake. Normally I would have felt so bad about myself and gone on to eat ice cream, chips, more cookies, bread etc. etc. to have a full on binge.
No, I didn't need the extra bit of icing and bit of cake but I DID NOT binge. I felt gross, sick, a stomach ache and wondering what the purpose of S days are because I started worrying about the calories.... BUT then I felt like that craving was out of my system and I can carry on the day with 3 plates. So in a way, isn't this a successful S day because I didn't go wild?
I know it is still early in the day but I feel confident that I really don't need any other treats for the day, maybe not even tomorrow either. I do feel like my habits from the week spilled over to today. I feel satisfied but oddly I want to make my next weekend's treat a little more worthy and yummy because I seem to aim more for quality now than what I used to think was so yummy (ie this cupcake).
Anyways I welcome your input and tell me if you think this can qualify as a yellow S day.