restarting

gratefuldeb67 · Post by **gratefuldeb67** » Sat Oct 29, 2011 2:32 pm

hi all, i have been awol and not doing very well this year. i don't even really want to go into the details, or start racking up the excuses why.
i've loosely kept track of stuff with habit cal at least, but it's showing mainly failures and sick days for a long time now.
next week i will be reasserting my willpower and trying my very hardest to get back to some sort of strictness. sadly, eating seconds has started to creep back into my life, as well as occasional night time eating. and also, i've been ridiculously sedentary.
anyway, five days a week of 15 mins of exercise, and vanilla NoS is my goal.
i'll post updates weekly in my check in thread, and not allow myself to go completely awol, no matter how depressed i feel... which i'm sad to say, has unfortunately been a lot.

have a good weekend everyone.
peace and love,
debs

Blithe Morning · Post by **Blithe Morning** » Sat Oct 29, 2011 8:19 pm

Welcome back, Deb! So sorry that it was hard times that kept you away but I'm glad you are back.

If being part of this community keeps you on track then you just took a HUGE step in coming back. Well done.

gratefuldeb67 · Post by **gratefuldeb67** » Sat Oct 29, 2011 10:40 pm

thanks anne, i appreciate that.. one of the things that's happening now, and has been affecting me terribly, is one of my closest and dearest friends has recently been diagnosed with bladder cancer.. it's been such a stress and worry. but today i really just decided, that it's not going to help *him* for me to let my health go, so i will just have to find ways of dealing with these feelings of stress and sadness, that don't involve, bad eating habits.
yes, i feel that being part of the community, actively, does really help keep me focused and helps. so i'm very glad to be back and trying again.
hope all is well with you and your family

hugs
debs

determined · Post by **determined** » Sat Oct 29, 2011 11:32 pm

Hi Deb,

I'm back again too...my first username was Howfunisthat. I needed a fresh start to get motivated again. I remember you being so encouraging when I was here a couple of years ago.

I'm so sorry very about your friend, and that you've been struggling. I hope being back here will very encouraging for you.

Hugs...janie

oolala53 · Post by **oolala53** » Sun Oct 30, 2011 3:11 pm

It is so very true that your eating won't help him or anyone. Easy to say, I know, but I do know last year I went through some very stressful times with mostly green weeks and life was better. I've been letting smaller things get to me and it is a pain. Yet not quite enough, I guess, as thoughts of eating stuff I know I'd be sorry I ate are occurring to me right now. But I'm not having anything but coffee for at least an hour.

milliem · Post by **milliem** » Sun Oct 30, 2011 4:00 pm

Hiya Deb, sorry to hear you've been having a rough time of it lately

Sometimes it's hard to concentrate on eating right and keeping healthy when there's so much going on! I know I don't feel much better after I've eaten a load of sugary fatty calorie laden foods though - physically anyway, I often feel a lot worse!! If it wasn't so damn tasty life would be a lot easier

Take care of yourself x

gratefuldeb67 · Post by **gratefuldeb67** » Mon Oct 31, 2011 2:10 am

thank you all!
hugs
deb x

gratefuldeb67 · Post by **gratefuldeb67** » Mon Oct 31, 2011 6:26 pm

i've decided i will start a new check in thread as well, and let my old one sail off into the sunset.. i want to really make a fresh start.

oolala53 · Post by **oolala53** » Tue Nov 01, 2011 1:43 am

Let us know the new name.

snapdragon · Post by **snapdragon** » Tue Nov 01, 2011 2:05 am

Glad you are climbing back onto the horse.
" it doesn't matter how many times you fall, but, how many times you get back up."

gratefuldeb67 · Post by **gratefuldeb67** » Tue Nov 01, 2011 12:52 pm

thank you ooh lala and snap dragon

my new thread is just, "debs 2011 check in".
i'm pleased to say that reasserting myself here, stopped me from eating in the middle of the night last night, and i had a green day for NoS and exercise!

Post by **reinhard** » Wed Nov 02, 2011 2:19 am

Dear Deb,

Best of luck in your new effort and congratulations on a promising start!

I am so grateful for your helpful and supportive presence on this site over the years and I'm hopeful and confident that this round will be successful for you.

My 7 year old daughter has just started using the habitcal for practicing piano, so we're coming at it with renewed interest, too.

Best to you and Richie,

Reinhard

gratefuldeb67 · Post by **gratefuldeb67** » Wed Nov 02, 2011 3:39 pm

thank you very much reinhard!!
i feel very positive this time, and determined not to get waylaid again, and i appreciate having the support from you and everyone here

seven years old!! wow, time flies!! i hope to hear her playing the moonlight sonata sometime soon..

debs xx