Everyday Systems

ok i failed you oohlala53. I just said how you helped me so much with your advice and then I munched as I made dinner and then by dinner I was really hungry (I may have waited too long honestly) and I pigged out.

I mean this is kind of silly. The food does not control me. I make a decision to eat too much of it. I don't know why I did. I think I am assuming, like oohlala53 said earlier, that it will be unpleasant to eat in moderation, but feeling as full as I do right now is unpleasant too. I would have been sitting here proud, satisfied, and comfortable if I hadn't overeaten. Instead I feel angry, guilty, confused about whether to still try or not, and very uncomfortable. You wouldn't believe the noises my stomach is making right now trying to digest it all.

Okay enough ranting.

I am angry that I did this on the very first day. I hate that my first day was a "failure". But it is part of the learning process. Instead of saying okay, my first day is tomorrow, I am saying this was still my first day. Okay I didn't do too great. That's okay. By starting over and over I am insisting on perfection and that will never work. So this is my first day.

All I can do is look forward to tomorrow as a new day.

You didn't fail me, silly pudding!

What you experienced is what is informally known in pyschology circles (really) is the what-the-hell syndrome. You nibbled and then way overate. It's normal! You'll do it until you don't. No S-ers are very familiar with it.

Here we say don't crash the car just because you dented the fender. You will learn this.

You would surprised how effective it is to sip tea while you make dinner. I also keep plain broth around and give myself permission to sip that IF I am really hungry for dinner. No chewing, though. I rarely want to anymore because I just love sitting down and relishing those first few fabulous bites of my meal. I consciously bring to mind how fantastic the food is when I do that, not the image of how good it might taste to pop food in my mouth randomly while I prepare. And it is so true. There is no comparison in the pleasure between random and sitting to eat a meal.

You are also practicing a rookie mistake in that you berate yourself terribly. That subconsciously will make it MORE LIKELY that you will repeat the offending behavior. That is also a pyschology principle. You subconscioully do penance for the misbehavior. Then you are free to repeat your crime. So, the end of your post is how you try to think about mistakes first thing. We call that "mark it and move on."

This was day one. Read the posts I suggested and live day two tomorrow. And find something else to focus on besides whether you get this right or not. You will have loads of time for life with No S.

I really liked the posts you recommended. It was really neat.

I feel better. Definitely won't be snacking tonight! Hahaha I'm no where near hungry! And you are so right about how good food is when you sit down to enjoy it. Sometimes I forget about that and nibble while I'm cooking, but it really is true.

I love that you don't count calories, but plates! The idea just changes your whole mindset.