Another Newbie Hello
Posted: Tue Feb 18, 2014 8:47 pm
Hi, I started No S yesterday (but had a mess up).
I started writing a background post in a word doc, but it became unreasonably long, so I will try to give you the condensed version:
I have a big problem with moderation. I tend to fluctuate between extremes. I am 5'6", and have been as low as 120 lbs and as high as 170 lbs, but I think my natural healthy weight is in the mid-130s.
I've had trouble with secret eating, including picking up fast food on the way home and disposing of the evidence, boredom snacking, and "procrastineating." In August of 2010, I was 148 and decided I wanted to get back to 130. I started on a diet and was down to 135 by mid-October and switched to calorie counting from the fairly strict (on weekdays) diet to lose the rest. I became a little obsessed with it all and having a semi-popular blog on tumblr didn't help the obsession. (I've since started over with my blog.) I was down to 127 (my new goal weight and the lowest my husband thought was good for me to go or I might have never stopped) and maintained between there and 134 up until Sept. 2012 when we adopted our son. At first I lost even more weight because I was up all night and couldn't seem to eat enough, but by November, I had started all the bad habits up again. Actually, they hadn't stopped, but the excessive eating habits I mentioned earlier were balanced out by restrictive eating a quite a bit of exercise, and I fooled myself into thinking this was a balanced way to live.
At the start of 2013, I had read Intuitive Eating and wanted to get it a try, but never moved out of the stage of letting myself eat what I want without guilt into the stage where you honor your hunger and fullness signals. Plus, the food guilt never went away.
Yesterday I weighed in a 151, but I'm not going to use my weight to track my progress because that can vary based on too many factors. I'm going to use my waist measurement (at the smallest point). Yesterday it was 28 1/8" and my goal is 26 1/2," slightly bigger than I was during my latest obsession period. I just want to go for something that's sustainable without all the madness.
I started writing a background post in a word doc, but it became unreasonably long, so I will try to give you the condensed version:
I have a big problem with moderation. I tend to fluctuate between extremes. I am 5'6", and have been as low as 120 lbs and as high as 170 lbs, but I think my natural healthy weight is in the mid-130s.
I've had trouble with secret eating, including picking up fast food on the way home and disposing of the evidence, boredom snacking, and "procrastineating." In August of 2010, I was 148 and decided I wanted to get back to 130. I started on a diet and was down to 135 by mid-October and switched to calorie counting from the fairly strict (on weekdays) diet to lose the rest. I became a little obsessed with it all and having a semi-popular blog on tumblr didn't help the obsession. (I've since started over with my blog.) I was down to 127 (my new goal weight and the lowest my husband thought was good for me to go or I might have never stopped) and maintained between there and 134 up until Sept. 2012 when we adopted our son. At first I lost even more weight because I was up all night and couldn't seem to eat enough, but by November, I had started all the bad habits up again. Actually, they hadn't stopped, but the excessive eating habits I mentioned earlier were balanced out by restrictive eating a quite a bit of exercise, and I fooled myself into thinking this was a balanced way to live.
At the start of 2013, I had read Intuitive Eating and wanted to get it a try, but never moved out of the stage of letting myself eat what I want without guilt into the stage where you honor your hunger and fullness signals. Plus, the food guilt never went away.
Yesterday I weighed in a 151, but I'm not going to use my weight to track my progress because that can vary based on too many factors. I'm going to use my waist measurement (at the smallest point). Yesterday it was 28 1/8" and my goal is 26 1/2," slightly bigger than I was during my latest obsession period. I just want to go for something that's sustainable without all the madness.