Hi friends!
I am posting to just nip a major stress eating pattern in the butt (I know it's bud, but butt seems more appropriate for a weight loss group..
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For the past two weeks I've been going back into eat at night mode..
And last S weekend I ate way too many sweets, and just too much quantity...
This weekend has been much worse... I am just reacting to the stress of not having made any sales for over a week... And we have this snowstorm today, so I bought a few comfort foods which I now really regret... Yes they are allowed on S days, but I'm not getting a "treat" when I simply over eat and eat from stress... I know the mindset involved in a sucessful S day...
Actually... I could pretty much eat almost the same foods, on any S day but not feel bad because normally, it's still somewhat self limited...
The real killer is going back to the night time munchies...
Was so disappointed in myself this morning... I told Richard how I was mad about it and felt upset that I've gone back to stress eating... I said, that if it happens again I have to just find some other way to deal with my feelings, like have a glass of water and maybe try to meditate instead of eat stuff... You know what he said?
He said, "Mom you could wake me up and talk to me if that would help"
What did I do in my past life to be so lucky to get this kid in my life!!!!
I know I always mention him, but he constantly surprises me with these wonderful moments... He is just the best ever!!!
I'm blessed tenbillion times!
So I post this in a bloated and uncomfortable state and I'm definitely going to put an end to this behavior...
I think part of me is also overeating because, in some weird way, my mind feels like there won't be any more food this week, because of money.. That sounds crazy doesn't it? It's totally irrational, but I notice that this pattern has existed before... Of course we won't starve, but it's like I'm loading up while the food is here..
Thanks for listening guys!
On the good side, I realize that until this week, I hadn't really eaten at night since I posted those pictures of Reinhard as the "Fridge Sentinel", which seems like a good run of days for a very very engrained habit...
And I feel ten times more uncomfortable than in the past so I have a better body consciousness about it all, instead of being numb...
I'm really happy that even when I have a bad patch here, I know I can just get right back on track... I'm not weighing myself till I do get back on track for a solid run of days, or weeks.... I know that I've been doing half of the exercise I was doing before I left the club, since I only have Yoga once a week with Larry, and haven't tried out others yet, since I've been promoting, and that had to take priority this week... Winter!!!!!!
RAH!!!
Also, on the good side, I didn't let the impending storm and cold weather yesterday keep me from handing out all of my flyers... I must have given out about 80 of them in the past few days... I didn't just randomly hand them out... They only went to people who talked to me for a few moments and seemed interested in massage... If someone walked by me and didn't even make eye contact, I didn't even try to engage their attention... Please cross your fingers that I get even a ten percent response from this promotion... That would take care of all my bills this month... I'm really enjoying promoting in this way... I also found out that the manager who booted me out from the club, so rudely, ended up transferring out of that location just last week! LOL...
When the weather warms up enough that will be an ideal place to set up my chair and keep on promoting with free chair massages...
It's the exit of a supermarket, which is in a glass atrium... So not really outside, not really inside.
Hey.. This was a long post.. Hah.. I just needed to talk, and get back on track...
I'm sure that I'll get *plenty* of exercise later today... We have about a foot and a half of snow outside and a really long driveway... You could park four cars in this driveway...
Thanks guys!
Hope you are all happy and healthy and having a great weekend!!!
Peace and Love,
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