Okay my friends thanks for the kind words.
And for that great quote about waste! SOOOO TRUE and such a thing to remember. I tell my husband that lots b/c he calls himself the "human disposal".
But wasted in the waste can or in my body! Same thing!
Will you still love me because I had a fail last night?!!!
Okay I have a question: do any of you have a big fail and then want to just call it one of your "S" days and only take ONE "S" day on the weekend?
Or do you just give it a red? I just think, "oh I won't need another S day". But whatever. I'll give it its red I guess.
This is how it all went down. I'll paint the picture.
(this is for my own good, not to bore you. i need to mentally figure out my thought patterns...)
First off, I was thinking, "man I'm doing awesome!". And I was.
Green days. Loving them. Feeling hungry for meals! Yahoo!
But in between piano lessons (about 5pm) we always have a couple minutes.
Just enough to make a quick errand. There's a Great Harvest a block or two away. I wanted to pick up a loaf of bread. I rarely buy it ($), but I love their hearty stuff once in awhile for toast, sandwiches.
And my neighbor LOVES their blondies and then I got a brownie for the piano teacher. Just for fun.
No joke friends.... I was driving and holding these treats and literally SALIVATING. Like smelling and tasting and ready to rip them open.
I wasn't even hungry, but my senses were on and I could taste them. I seriously was like, "screw it". This is just too good. This is worth the fail (now in hindsight I wish I HAD eaten one!) only cuz' I failed later on less good stuff.
BUT! Alas! I distracted myself. We hurried and delivered them and went to the library. PHEW.
That night about 6pm I made veggie burgers for my kids. Of course they weren't huge fans (2 out of 3), but I wanted to try a new recipe. I usually sit down with them to dinner and don't eat but chat and help them out (they still need the "one more bite") and my 2 year old needs help too.
So i'm sitting down with food.
I was going to eat later (as I usually do) once I got really hungry, or once my husband got home.
But as I was clearing their plates, I took a bite of the veggie burgers they hadn't finished thinking, "oh this will be virtual plating b/c I"m going to eat this tonight anyways". "I'm just getting started now!". But inside I knew my truth!
That lead to finishing the rest of their stuff on their plates. Not all bad stuff. I had this really yummy homemade creamy dressing that I dipped some cucumbers and turkey in. Then a few pretzels. Just a hodgepodge.
But my friends I AM grateful I haven't kept a ton of JUNK around. Because I started my "over-doing it" on regular fair.
But alas. Then I remember I broke my own cardinal rule: "don't keep S treats in the house"..."get them on the S day". The other day at Target they had my favorite bar marked down (ghiradelli milk chocolate almond sea salt). The efficient self bought it thinking, "perfect for the s!".
So of course I dug into that. Finished it. And how gross that I found some old saltwater taffy (I don't even LIKE saltwater taffy) to chew on. Once again...if I had it, I would have eaten it. Hence, the lack of treats in this house these days!!!
So my friends. That's it. I'm okay with it. And not beating myself up. But just upset that I was consciously choosing this. It's not the end of the world at all. But i did realize my weak point once I picked up those treats to give away from the bakery. How I was 99% close to eating them! HUH? I thought I had this in the bag.
Marked and moving on.
For the record, Wednesday negative qualification:
b: oats
yoga class
l: flat wrap, turkey, cheese, veggies, hummus
RED:
veggie burger
one bun+cheddar
turkey, dressing
pretzels
7 saltwater taffies
1 Ghiradelli (large size) milk chocolate almond sea salt bar.
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