Day 2- FAILURE
Mid morning I got home, felt a bit lost as I didn't have any plans and was hoping to walk to my mums. I didn't feel like id eaten enough- maybe my body was objecting to tucking in to my own fat stores, and in the end I ate 1 pain au choc, 1 eat natural bar, a handful of cashews and a small coffee with sugar.
My initial reaction to the lost/undereating theory was "maybe I should do intuitive eating? this isn't working", but on second thoughts, I think I need to review what was happening and actually figure out how to make it work. After all, I told myself that this whole thing is like an experiment that I have to find my way through, If I lose weight and figure out the knots first, then I can decide whether I want to continue.
Come on RUTH! as the brand famously says JUST DO IT.
What I learned: 1. Don't be a giver upper!.. again 2. Remember this is about so much more than eating/not eating- it's about LIFE, so remember to deal with reoccurring problems that always trip you up (like not having plans and feeling lost) 3. Have some tools in the bag for when things don't feel right. A great idea I had for MOVING FORWARD is this: Go with the PLAN today, but if it didn't feel the way you wanted, make adjustments for tomorrow.. So if i'm a bit too hungry in the morning, make some eggs on the side tomorrow. but STICK TO THE PLAN FOR TODAY. 4. Keep motivating. Funnily enough, I remembered an amazing motivation technique from paul McKenna that gets you imagining your perfect body, wearing your perfect clothes and feeling amazing- I'll bring this up often because I forgot about that this morning and its been so helpful, it prob would have saved me.
ONwards and upwards
And I will now act like nothing happened this morning and stick to the plan..

Enjoying food, embracing life.