Justine's Getting Serious

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Tue Mar 10, 2020 11:21 am

I have been half heatedly doing no s, which looks like no s all day and then bringing on what ever I can get my hands on after dinner out of habit.

Today I start again with firm seriousness. I will check in every non-s day in the morning by 6am about the day before. I will update the weekend days on Monday morning. Even though Friday is a weekend day in our home(4 ten shifts) I will be doing vanilla no s.

Last, I want to start doing shovelglove again. I really enjoyed it in the past, but I am having trouble finding a good daily spot for it. I will figure that one out soon hopefully.

Sammybunny711 · Post by **Sammybunny711** » Tue Mar 10, 2020 8:57 pm

You can do it, Justine! I believe in you!! I am overcoming a bingeing habit as well. I know we will be victorious. <3

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Wed Mar 11, 2020 11:18 am

Tuesday was a green day. No surprises or problems, went for a long walk instead of bringing on junk after dinner yesterday.

Sammybunny711 · Post by **Sammybunny711** » Wed Mar 11, 2020 12:45 pm

Good on you for taking a walk instead of giving into the binge. That's a great strategy!

automatedeating · Post by **automatedeating** » Wed Mar 11, 2020 2:14 pm

Yes, great job on the long walk!

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Thu Mar 12, 2020 11:01 am

Wednesday was green.
I ate a big salad along side my bowl of soup for dinner because I knew I would be hungry after the soup, and I wanted to steer off a bread and butter binge.

It worked. I did get shovelglove done, it was harder than I remembered. I also got over 19,000 steps, so not bad.

automatedeating · Post by **automatedeating** » Thu Mar 12, 2020 2:26 pm

Over 19k steps! Yeah, I'll say that's not bad.

Sammybunny711 · Post by **Sammybunny711** » Thu Mar 12, 2020 3:01 pm

Daaaaang 19k steps is fantastic!! Good on you!

lpearlmom · Post by **lpearlmom** » Fri Mar 13, 2020 6:00 am

Wow, how many miles is that?

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Fri Mar 13, 2020 7:32 pm

Fitbit says my 19,000 is 7.6 miles.

Thursday was another green

Not much to report, I did shovelglove and got 15,500 steps. Overall a good day.

Sammybunny711 · Post by **Sammybunny711** » Fri Mar 13, 2020 7:37 pm

Way to go!!

You've got this!

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Sat Mar 14, 2020 12:53 pm

Friday was Green although I really thought about eating something in the evening after I came back from my ridiculous grocery shopping trip. stress and emotions are definitely a trigger for me but I did okay

I did not shovelglove yesterday, we were very busy. But I will do it today, even though it's supposed to be an s day.

I'm going to try to limit my weekend s's to what I'm calling s events, so basically no secret eating, no binging, if I'm going to have an s it will need to have a good reason for it.

automatedeating · Post by **automatedeating** » Sat Mar 14, 2020 2:14 pm

People around here described going to the store yesterday as "July 4th meets Armageddon". Still no toilet paper, paper towels, or Dino nuggets around here.

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Mon Mar 16, 2020 10:17 am

This weekend was ok, I had a few s (snacks mostly although yesterday I had some seconds.) I ended the weekend 2 pounds up from where I started but that is not bad.

Today will be my HARDEST day. Returning to no s on monday is always hard for me. Also with the school closing I am going to start working part time from home, and so I am pulling my 3 year old out of preschool as well. So homeschooling my 8 year old will be hard now that the three year old is with us, keeping the little on occupied and trying to work during quiet/nap time, is going to put a lot of stress on me, I think.

Sammybunny711 · Post by **Sammybunny711** » Mon Mar 16, 2020 11:01 am

Hang in there! That does sound very stressful, but I hope it all works out!

automatedeating · Post by **automatedeating** » Mon Mar 16, 2020 2:54 pm

Ugh. This forced time with our kids is going to put a bunch of people in the loony bin by the time this whole thing is over.

I feel for you Justine. I hope you're able to at least get out of the house for a walk once a day (without any children)?

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Tue Mar 17, 2020 10:27 am

Haha, actually we were planning on bringing him home from daycare once the adoption went through. My kids are my LIFE, I just had not planned on doing it this abruptly.

Yesterday was a green day, got 18,500 steps, with one long walk with the kids and the dogs and a ton of silly dancing with the 8 year old.

The stress was not too bad, school is going to be a challenge with the 3 year old, but we got through, and have put together a good schedule to do school with both kids, my part time work, and get the house chores done. It was actually kinda relaxing to work from home and not have to go to work.

Here is to another green day and no stress eating!

Sammybunny711 · Post by **Sammybunny711** » Tue Mar 17, 2020 12:18 pm

You've got this!!! I'm glad you had a great, productive day.

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Wed Mar 18, 2020 10:26 am

Not much to say, yesterday was Green, although I had some impulse to eat. I resisted it, and it was fine.

16,000 steps yesterday but no shovelglove.

The stress of what is going on in the world hit me hard last night, I have a bent towards anxiety and this is really got me worried, but I did not eat. I am trying to hold a solid front for my 8year old, as she also tends towards anxiety, but sometimes it is hard.

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Thu Mar 19, 2020 11:27 am

Yesterday was green. Got over 25,000 steps, including my walk and a TON of home organization.

All of my organization stirred up a ton of dust, which has caused me to have some chest congestion, and I am totally freaked out, but I will not eat that stress, because "if hunger is not the cause, eating is not the solution."

Sammybunny711 · Post by **Sammybunny711** » Thu Mar 19, 2020 2:02 pm

Ooo I've never heard that phrase, but it's totally true! Hang in there!

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Fri Mar 20, 2020 1:02 pm

Yesterday was Green, today is going to be tough. My husband is still working, and he works 4 tens, so Friday is the start of our weekend. That means he is at home lounging all day, and all of the structure I built, is out the window.

I am still in anxiety mode, and this is hard, but I keep going.

@sammybunny711,
Thanks for your support, knowing that someone is reading keeps me a little more accountable. Stay safe and healthy.

automatedeating · Post by **automatedeating** » Sat Mar 21, 2020 1:58 am

Jussie -

That means he is at home lounging all day, and all of the structure I built, is out the window.

I know you are frustrated - but when I read this I laughed out loud. I have SOO had this happen with my family. Frustrating!

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Sat Mar 21, 2020 11:10 am

Yesterday was green, but I was right about my husband and the lounging. I thought about snacking with the rest of them, but I stayed strong. I am down 5.5 pounds as of this morning, from 2 weeks ago when I decided to get serious.

Only 14,000 steps yesterday, and a ton of anxiety, but I will keep putting one foot in front of the other and moving forward.

Soprano · Post by **Soprano** » Sat Mar 21, 2020 9:46 pm

Well done on your loss

Jx

oolala53 · Post by **oolala53** » Sun Mar 22, 2020 6:30 am

Hi, and welcome! You sure picked a time to start! Actually, you did, as systematic moderation is a GREAT way to counteract stress. You seem to be doing well, but in case things get rough, I humbly suggest you rehearse thinking, "Whew, I got terribly stressed, so OF COURSE I stuck to my eating plan. I feel so much better when I just tough it out." Habits are great, but sometimes, it takes the right thinking to make the habits happen.

automatedeating · Post by **automatedeating** » Sun Mar 22, 2020 11:32 pm

Hopefully your anxiety will ease a bit. Just a little breather from it can make life seem so much easier.

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Mon Mar 23, 2020 11:05 am

It was a pretty s filled weekend. Time to get back on track, Mondays are always the hardest.

automatedeating · Post by **automatedeating** » Mon Mar 23, 2020 10:36 pm

Good luck today!

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Tue Mar 24, 2020 11:52 am

Made it through another green Monday, after dinner last night I started rationalizing more food, but I caught myself and managed to stick to my no s rules, even though it was hard.

automatedeating · Post by **automatedeating** » Tue Mar 24, 2020 3:26 pm

Congratulations! I hope you have a delicious breakfast this morning.

oolala53 · Post by **oolala53** » Wed Mar 25, 2020 6:08 am

Sticking to the rules when it feels hard is what really seals this as a habit.

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Wed Mar 25, 2020 2:16 pm

Last night dinner was delicious oh, I almost talked myself into having seconds but I didn't.

Right now I really want a snack, but I know lunch is at 11:30, and that's just over an hour. I can wait.

automatedeating · Post by **automatedeating** » Thu Mar 26, 2020 4:02 pm

You can do it!

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Thu Mar 26, 2020 9:38 pm

Yesterday was tough, not so much the eating but everything else. I did taste my homemade beans when they finished cooking to make sure they were done, but only a tablespoon so I am not calling that a snack, but I do need to be careful with letting to many bites and tastes take over.

As for everything else, I am going through some rough family stuff along with this quarantine. It all caught up to me last night and I broke down. I did not eat, in fact I went for a walk instead, but my husband came home from Dollar General with 50$ in junk food, including my fave, a VERY big bag of peanut M&Ms. They are in the back of the fridge for an s day, but it is hard. If things get too tough, I will be tempted to reach for them.

I need to chop up another round of mason jar salads, I guess that needs to happen tonight.

automatedeating · Post by **automatedeating** » Sat Mar 28, 2020 1:37 am

Peanut M&Ms are a major temptation for me! Good luck with that!

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Sat Mar 28, 2020 12:17 pm

I am swapping yesterday and today as an s day. I went down to see my grandfather (at his request) and he is famous in his community for his baking, so I planned to have yesterday as an s day. Today will be a regular n day. I did not use my s event as a reason to continue snacking or overeating though. Just one cookie and one Brownie.

I feel a lot of anxiety over going down to see him, he is 85, and although very healthy, at high risk. But he is living his life without anxiety and he wanted me to come so, it is hard.

automatedeating · Post by **automatedeating** » Sat Mar 28, 2020 3:29 pm

That is hard! I know it can be sad to not see loved ones, but scary to visit them and potentially increase their risk. How neat that is he is a baker!

automatedeating · Post by **automatedeating** » Sat Mar 28, 2020 3:30 pm

BTW, I've never swapped S days. I say just make your weekend normal for S Days. It gets weird about switching. Honestly, I've never seen anyone on the boards use that mod successfully. Maybe you'll break the mold, though.

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Wed Apr 15, 2020 10:16 am

I am back after a disaster of a time. I lost all of the progress I had made, and I am back to day 1.

automatedeating · Post by **automatedeating** » Wed Apr 15, 2020 2:58 pm

We are all really at day 1 in this life, right? We only have this moment, not the moments in the past or the ones coming..... We can certainly learn from the "disasters" as you put it, but it's all good. You'll make good choices today!

jussiemariee · Post by **jussiemariee** » Thu Apr 30, 2020 10:06 am

Yesterday was the first green day since the stay at home order was issued.

I realized I HAVE to tell myself NO! Not any form of maybe, a strict unequivocal NO!

automatedeating · Post by **automatedeating** » Sat May 02, 2020 7:02 pm

Well congrats on that very pretty green day.