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On the diet front, I had my first red day today.
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I think Laura gave you some very good advice. I also like the idea of waking up to coffee brewing - mmmmm! Remember, I'm a coffee person like you! You'll get it figured out, I'm sure. Don't spend any more time fretting over the corn cake...see what happened at your evening meal then? You have to *mark it and move on* immediately. Otherwise your diet head will rear its ugly head and the next thing you know, you've blown the entire day. That's been my experience anyway.I like your idea about slowly getting up earlier and earlier, but don't think I can spare the time. I guess I'll just have to go cold turkey and start getting up at seven. It's even been suggested that I put my coffee pot in my bedroom and set its timer so that the scent of coffee will wake me up! Having slept through a husband who snored, an alarm clock stands little chance of cutting through my dreams to wake me up.
Wow! What a beauty! I'm so tickled for you...enjoy a nice looong engagement - every minute of it!Here's a link to a picture of the ring.
Helloooo Buttercreambuttercreampillow wrote: This blog has got to be the worst roller coaster on the board. I'm upI'm down
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I still have my health, I have two great sons, I'm doing well in law school, my parents are still alive and vigorous, I just got engaged to a wonderful man, I have a new and interesting job, I love my sister and I haven't gained a pound since I started No S. There's a lot to be cheerful about--one red day isn't going to derail me.![]()
Hello out there!
Wow, that's quite an accomplishment! A long-term habit changed. You go, girl!buttercreampillow wrote:It's only 8:15, but I'm giving myself a GREEN for today and considering the kitchen closed. Actually, after dinner snacking, although it used to be the bane of my existence, is not really my problem now...
You could turn that into an S-day exercise "treat", you know. Exercise every N day and if you wanna be a slug on the occasional S day, go for it!buttercreampillow wrote:Drove the kids to band this morning, and then came home and went back to bed until noon.I am really embarrassed to tell this on myself. Obviously I'm a glutton (30 pounds overweight) and now I'm admitting to sloth as well. Yuck.
I used to be like your sister - that's how I maintained my weight for years. I describe it now as "an armed truce with food." Very joyless.buttercreampillow wrote: I talk about food a lot on this journal. I like food. Especially now that I can enjoy it happily instead of seeing it as a source of guilt, resentment, frustration and all sorts of unhappy emotions. My sister, who is thin but has to diet perpetually to maintain it, once told me she keeps her weight off by thinking about every bite of food that she puts into her mouth, "This can make me fat." How sad.
In answer to your question, it was KCCC who figured out that overeating was simply a misguided attempt to self-nurture. Her realization really struck a chord with me too because I recognized that I had been guilty of the very same thing. She also practices yoga...relaxing for the mind and body. Recently she posted about finding a three-breath meditation...maybe we need to ask her about that!buttercreampillow wrote: Who on here used the phrase "a misguided attempt to self-nurture?" That seems to be what it is, and I've done it twice now. What I really want and need is to sit down and relax my mind for a little while, not use a big plate and eat to the point of uncomfortableness...
S day tomorrow, but I don't know what I'll have. Every time I think about S days, I imagine eating some wonderful dessert, like a fancy piece of cake, but so far it hasn't happened. I don't have time to bake a great cake just so I can have one piece. I guess I need to go out and get one at a restaurant somewhere.
That is a HUGE accomplishment! Wow!!buttercreampillow wrote:
I am pleased to note that even though this adjustment has been a VERY rough couple of weeks, I only had green days on No S. As bad as I felt, I never thought seriously of eating something to make myself feel better. That is a major change in my habits. Now I just need to figure out some other ways to self-nurture that would make me feel happy and relaxed.
I'm having my supper now, and it's apple, cucumber and plaintain chips. My son said, "That looks like you're on a diet." The difference is that I FEEL like eating this way, instead of being forced to eat this way and resenting it.
Buttercream, I'm with you on this journey. Maybe a tiny bit further down the road, but on very much that same path.buttercreampillow wrote: KCCC, thanks for your encouragement! I'm so happy with No S that I know I'll be eating this way for the rest of my life. Truly, however, I don't know how to do something nice for myself any more. I am so used to treating myself with food. With class and work, I don't have time for manicures or a trip to the bookstore. Eating is just such a fast, cheap treat! I'll just keep thinking about it.
I think this is the perfect description of the mental change. If Reinhard writes another book, this should be the quotation at the top of the chapter about the peace of mind so many people find with this diet.buttercreampillow wrote:...I look forward to each meal as something to enjoy. I don't feel frightened of food, or eating opportunities, or of myself as some kind of insatiable monster barely contained by my own frail willpower.