Everyday Systems

Started No S for the third time on Sunday. Weight: 138 (Gak!)

My hope is that in six months I will have the habit down AND be at my fighting weight of 125. Maybe not. I'd settle for having the habit down and being 132.

But habit, ah, and will power. Short of supply around here. In my notebook I wrote down what I expect from every week of the next 6 months, and it looks like this:

Week 1-3 Extremely hard (training myself to get hungry 3 times a day instead of every 3 hours) but with the benefit of novelty to get me through.

Week 4-6 Extremely hard (seeing small success and feeling better seems the most dangerous time to slip into old habits. I applaud my efforts too early or get scared (yes, I do) of succeeding at all. There's a part of me that wants to fail, for some reason.

Weeks 7-9 Super duper incredibly back breakingly hard (the novelty has worn off and I just want to quit having to have something in my life be so hard)

Weeks 10-12 extremely hard (see weeks 4-6)

Weeks 13-15 Easier

Weeks 16-18 very hard

Weeks 19-21 pretty darn hard

Weeks 22-24 really hard

Weeks 25-27 hard

You get the idea. This is going to be hard for a long time, and for different reasons as I go. But it just has to happen. I have, for the first time in my life (with the exception of being pregnant, which doesn't count) become fat. Not just a little round with no negative health effects, but actually, genuinely fat.

Let's call a spade a spade: IM FAT AND I NEED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. My lifestyle is fat. My weak snacking-for-comfort self is fat.

So here's my commitment: No S for 6 months. I don't see myself losing gobs of weight-- one pound a month would be fine if it is consistent. I mean, that sounds paaaaaiiiinfully slow. Can I really be satisfied with that?

But look, if I'm honest with myself, would I rather be 6 pounds lighter after 6 months or just the same? The answer is, duh, 6 lbs. lighter. If I stick with No S I will be at least 6 lbs. lighter and out of the danger zone again, health wise. It seems worth the effort.

So I'll check in every friday (N days: Sunday-Thursday). See you in 3 days.

Hi Betty,

How have things been going? I hope it's not as hard as you predicted.

Lisa

Make sure your self talk is positive. I talk myself out of thing constantly. Your mind can only keep one thing in it at a time - make it something GOOD!

Yes, I do seem a bit negative. But it's part of facing facts for me. The status quo is not really acceptable any more. And, to me, knowing that something will be hard makes it easier to do, because it's often not AS hard as I think. If I go into something thinking it will be easy, and then it gets hard, I tend to give up

Anyway, week 1 was more or less sucessful. Wednesday WAS hard, though. I was so hungry mid morning and resorted to virtual plating. Then, after dinner I had a small bowl of ice cream. No Binge Failure, then, because I didn't have more, even though my mind was screaming "You've failed anyway, why not go and make yourself a sandwitch."

In some ways, not binging after a failure is more difficult than sucess.

Sunday: Sucess
Monday: Sucess
Tuesday: Sucess
Wednesday: No Binge Failure
Thursday: Sucess

Down one kilo: 62.2 kg
Goal for next weigh in (Feb 15): 61.7 kg

Sun: success
Mon: s day
Tues: failure
Wed: sucess
Thurs: (no Binge) failure

Kind of a spotty week. But I'm spurred on by seeing the scale move. Next week will be a success!

Didn't lose any weight this week, because I got sloppy. Had two failure days, and another day with some funny stuff (had to tend to the kids in the middle of dinner and then came back to it later).

Sunday: success
Monday: success (+ funny stuff)
Tuesday: Success
Wednesday: failure
Thursday: (no binge) failure

Weight: 61.8

Hey, wait a minute, I did lose weight!!!

Goal for next weigh in: 61.4

62.5 KG

Oh Woe! For the first time I didn't lose weight, but gained. I did get a little sloppy this week, but a whole kilo's worth? I know weight isn't supposed to be the point, but it still really bothers me. A motivational downer.

Sun success
Mon success
Tues failure
WEd no binge failure
Thurs success

62 kg

Sunday: S Day
Monday: Failure
Tuesday: Failure
Wednesday: Success
Thursday: No Binge Failure

Not a sparkling week in terms of habits, or weight loss (last week must have been a water-retaining blip.)

Luckily I maintained, now it's back on track, girlie. Next weigh in I hope to be 61.7. It will be hard cause I'll be on vacation.