Everyday Systems

I'm worried I'm going to start bothering people over in General Discussion soon, so figured I could use a thread of my own

Today is Day 10 and we'll call it a
SUCCESS,
although only by the skin of my teeth and with some virtual plating.

Part of me is bound and determined to make it straight through to day 21 with no failures, and another part thinks doing that will entail making myself entirely crazy by then.

The crazy-making comes from (a) weighing myself too often (I've always been a frequent weigher, but it's only now an issue with the whole New Plan thing making me even more vigilant about it), and (b) too much junk food this week. I'm in this cycle of quasi-rebellion where I react to not being able to have things I want (sweets and snacks) by loading my meals with other "bad," but technically allowed, food, which then backfires because even though it's "allowed," too much junk food makes me feel icky. Which puts me in a bad mood which makes me even less happy about not having the snacks and sweets I'm used to. This was a lot easier last week when I was eating healthier meals.

I too use to have a problem with the scale. I asked my husband to hid them, he did and I feel one more thing is gone that I use to obsess about. Better food choices are best for all of us. We just have to get to a place where we really want those good things to eat. I know I am working on it but we all have years of bad habits to change.
Hang in there you are doing great!!

Day 11

FAILURE

I tried playing around with the timing of my meals and it didn't work out, leading to snackage between lunch and dinner. *sigh* It's almost a relief to have that first red day, though, since I wasn't struck down by lightning or anything

Back on the wagon tomorrow.

Day 12 was a SUCCESS.

And today is an S-DAY, so I think it's failure-proof.

S Day, again, of course. Although these have been a couple of "idiot S days" for sure. No one needs 7 cupcakes in 2 days But soon the idiocy will be out of my system and the weekends will probably get better.

AND...on the plus side, in between the overeating failure on Thursday and my weekend S days, I had a day of totally normal, on-habit behavior. I didn't tell myself I "may as well" mess up for a second day in a row. That's actually kind of a big deal for me, so despite everything, there's a victory for this week.

Congratulations Jd4, You have the right attitude. Last week I blew it Wed night, then Thursday night oh then Friday night. This after 23 days for straight success. I did overeat on my S days but tomorrow I will be back on track. I refuse to give in to the old habits of failure, anger and quitting. Nope not me this time. I know this can work long term, it just makes sence. Have a great day tomrrow

Yep, no more quitting in anger!

Yesterday, which was Day 15 was a SUCCESS. It was surprisingly easy to get "back on the wagon" after the weekend.

Today I took a NWS day because it was Ben & Jerry's free cone day (silly, I know, but it's a tradition/brings back good memories and I'd been looking forward to it since well before No S). I was having a pretty normal day except for the ice cream, but then I drank a bit too much coffee and aggravated my acid reflux. Since it was already an S day and I'm not a great fan of pills, I tried to use food to help (certain foods supposedly help absorb acid), which technically would count as 2 small snacks. Didn't work, ended up taking medicine anyway. Lesson: lay off the coffee.

Day 17 SUCCESS.

We had a day off from classes to study for a big exam tomorrow, and I was worried about how it would go because I'm used to snacking through these study days. It turned out well, though. The structure of having discrete meals, of getting hungry then eating then being full then getting hungry again, was actually kind of reassuring on an otherwise unstructured day. I had to politely decline a lot of snacks and sweets offered by the friends I was studying with, but nobody made a big deal of it.

Yesterday, day 18, was also a SUCCESS.

Day 19 was a SUCCESS.

20 and 21 are S DAYS, so the hard part of getting to day 21 is over! I've had one red day, one idiot weekend, and we'll see how this weekend goes but I think it will be okay. Next goal is 21 days on-habit, which will be 12-ish days from now.

Yay, day 21!

This weekend has been pretty decent. I had one "emotional eating" moment on Saturday, but all it amounted to was one fast-food ice cream thing, and I've done a heck of a lot worse than that before! Today I spent what would normally be my lunch and dinner time at a friend's house, watching tv, snacking, and having dinner with dessert. I could have eaten a few less chips or a little less dinner, but I didn't honestly go overboard and it was really nice to feel I didn't have to monitor and/or feel guilty about every bite. This is how S days should be, in my opinion.

I'm taking a hiatus from posting and from strict No S-ing for a few days. My grandmother passed away unexpectedly yesterday, and my brain can't handle anything extra right now. My interest in food is diminished, so excess isn't a big issue and I'm definitely not falling all the way back to permasnacking, but I'm not really holding myself to the rules either. A string of red days it is--that's life.