Everyday Systems

It has been awhile since I have been on this board. I need the sanity and support for my journey. Since I was last on, we have had a lot of problems with our 15 year old, which led us to kick him out. I know I have been depressed for the last 6 months or so, which has led me to not take care of myself. NO MORE.

I am staying on this site, I am going to learn how to take care of myself. Which means to NOT focus so much on weight loss but to take control of my eating and exercise. I really love to exercise. It makes me feel good so I really need to get back into it. Not to loose weight, but because I really enjoy it. I really feel like NO S is the best tool for me. I am going to focus on me feeling better and not so much what my weight says. One day at a time and NO BEATING MYSELF UP.

Well here we are on a Monday....and I have picked out my breakfast and lunch: Bagel & Banana/Small burger, Chips & applesauce. Not sure about dinner yet.

Planning on doing my run this evening and 15 minutes of Shoveglove. My goals for this week are to do cardio exercise 4 days and Shoveglove M-F.

Hope everyone has a good day. I would love for this time to be the last time that I am starting over.

Monday went well. I did not get my run in, but I am not going to beat myself up over it. Especially since I had my 3 meals today and stayed in the GREEN!!! Feeling good!

Tuesday: Well, considering that I have been up since 4 am I am feeling pretty good. Of course, as the day wears on, I am sure I will start to wear out! Ah well.

I am supposed to run tonight with a friend at 6. I am not a great evening runner. I am much better first thing, but it is really nice to have someone to run with and it gives me the push I need to get my cardio in. I plan on doing my 15 minutes of Shoveglove after work.

Breakfast: Bagel, Banana & milk

Lunch: ???

Dinner: ???

Day 2 back and I am feeling really good.

Wednesday. It is for sure a HUMP DAY for me. I was doing so great until dinner. Then the Hersey Kisses that I had in the freezer were calling to me and dang it, I answered the call. Well I went for a short walk with my son and I feel better after that. I was feeling pretty discouraged after I had a Red day, after only 2 days green, but I will not throw int the towel. This program is AWESOME and makes all the sense in the world.

Going to bed. Marking it and moving on!!!

Monday:

So far, today has been GREAT. Of course its only 7 am, lol. Anyway, I went out of town last Thursday and was a little worried about compliance but you know, I was successful. It was actually kinda easy not to snack. Of course, I did not have any snacks in my hotel room, so that was good.

I waited until Saturday to have any snacks and threw in a little bit of exercise this weekend. I plan on focusing on exercise during my No S days and hope that will motivate me to stay on track threw the week.

I have spent a lot of time this weekend, reading through the board and reading the check in's and questions. It was really encouraging and motivated me to stick with it, even when I fail. My main goal is to get over this "Diet Head" and really accept myself. I would love to feel better physically, but I am not going to go for a certain number on the scale.

Screw, the scale, I care about me! Happy Monday EVERYONE.

Already got my run in: About 50 minutes of cardio

Breakfast: Slimfast Bar and Banana

Lunch: Bagel & Applesauce

Dinner: ??? (Maybe Chicken Fried Rice with bread)

Tuesday:
Well yesterday was a little scary at night. I made it through the day just fine, but I ate dinner way to early and was hungry around 8:00pm. Thats prime snacking time. But I resisted and I am happy that I did.

So today, should look like this:

Breakfast: Bagel/Banana/Milk

Lunch: Taco Bell: 2 Tacos with some chips

Dinner:???

I am not sure about dinner yet. I am running with a friend around 6 for an hour and I was hoping to eat after that. I am not usually hungry right after a run so dinner would be something light, and that is kinda what I am shooting for.

Side Note: As I was getting ready this morning I looked at my scale. I had a short conversation with myself about how the number does not matter much to me anymore. I just want to get rid of the crazy "diet" brain. This time around, I really want to focus on "me" and feeling better. Especially since things have been so stressful around the house. Part of that is better but I still feel really sad about my oldest son (15) not living here anymore. I know that will get better in time so for now I am just going to keep on

Hey Karen, just wanted to pop in and say hello - I love your goals to focus on taking care of yourself and eating/exercising well! Hope your week is going well

Wednesday:

Today is a success, just for the simple fact that I got up at 5 to go for a run. Which ended up being mostly a walk but hey, I feel great for getting my exercise in! I did weigh myself this morning and my number has not moved since starting but I am actually good with that. Especially since I am feeling VERY PMS'd (Tired, bloated, irritable, well you know) Again, my total focus is on habit and not on the number.

My food today will look like this:

Breakfast: Slimfast/Banana/Milk

Lunch: Bagel & Applesauce

Dinner: Tuna Noodle Casserole-yum yum

I am happy that it is the middle of the week. I can make it 2 more days right? RIGHT. But I do need to remember to take it a day at a time, or else I will overwhelm myself! So, today, is very doable!

Happy HUMP day EVERYONE

"Again, my total focus is on habit and not on the number. "

I could not agree more! I have actually not weighed in about two weeks. I don't own a scale and have to weigh in at my martial arts schools, but my master took his scale home to weigh some bags for the airport--so the scale hasn't even been available, LOL.

Good luck on your journey!

Thanks Sammybunny! It has taken a very long time to get over the scale, but I am getting there.

Yesterday was a fail. Stinking Hershey Kisses. I have decided not to keep any candy in the house as it is just too tempting. And even more so around that time of the month.

However, it was not a huge fail and I did good with my exercise yesterday...so Mark it and move on. Also, I have noticed that Wednesdays are very hard for me and usually when I fail. Wondering if I should make Wednesday and S day and then have 1 on the weekend? Any thought?

Not sure what my meals are today, I am not very prepared today. Going to be busy until this afternoon.

Hi Karen, hmm yes having chocolate in the house can be very tempting!

I think your first thought was the right one - mark it and move on. There's probably a reason that Wednesdays are difficult, but that doesn't mean that the plan should change! My regularly difficult day is Friday, but I've always resisted moving my S day to a Friday as I'm not sure I could manage Sunday not being an S day... However there are some people who have different S days because their days are structured differently (like, they work on Saturdays so want to take S days on days off etc.) and make it work.

Thanks Millie for your advise. I think you are right....I should not start tweaking now. I really want to get the habit down solid and see how I feel. Yesterday was okay, but if I had to be honest, it was a fail.

I had a bagel for breakfast

I had a subway sandwich for lunch with some baked chips

Then right before dinner (which was cereal for me. I LOVE cereal) I had some chips. I am soooooo snacky right now and I know most of it is PMS. I actually did not feel bad about the fail since I did not have as many as I would have normally had, and I stopped. Okay, so moving on.

This morning I am going for a run with a friend. I am not sure how my meals are going to play out today. I have a ton of things to do, a hair appt, meeting with my sons teacher and a fund raiser to go to tonight. I a m going to do my best and I am really looking forward to me weekend.

Have a good day!

So Friday was pretty good for me.

I did not eat breakfast until 10:30 and I was starving. Then by lunch time, which was around 1:30, I had a Veggie Chicken patty and some chips.

Dinner was a Burrito and chips and my sons fundraiser. I did not finish the Burrito. And they had cookies that went with the meal but I stayed away from them so that was good.

Saturday started out with a run and then 2 hours of yard work. I think I finally had some cereal around 1:30. Pretty snacky most of the day, but I don't think I went crazy. I really did not buy many treats to have since I was not craving any particular thing. However, I did make a carrot cake saturday and that was really yummy. I had 1 piece and then a very small piece yesterday. Gave the rest away. And I bought some doughnuts and stuck the remaining ones in the freezer. I feel like I am planning things a lot better this time around.

Today my meals look like this so far:

Breakfast: Slimfast/Banana/Milk

Lunch: Bagel with homemade jam, applesauce and a few chips (Carb overload)

Dinner: Tuna Casserole I think.

Exercise: Ran/walked this morning for 1 hour.
Side note: Even though I have not lost any weight, I wore a pair of jeans yesterday that seemed to fit better than last Saturday.