Lily x's Daily Check In - 21 Day Challenge
Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 2:51 pm
I'm starting again.
Actually, more accurately, I've already started again. I already have 2 days under my belt, Saturday and Sunday (LOL, t'wasn't too hard to do seeing as they were both S days ), and today is Day 3. I'm two meals down and feeling good.
And that's what this WOE is all about, isn't it? Feeling good. Feeling in control.
I wandered away from this WOE the first time around after just a few weeks, frustrated by my lack of progress according to the scales. I should've known better but I didn't listen to the little voice in my head that assured me that all I needed to do was stick it out, to keep going.
So in between, I've tried all sorts of things, going low carb, counting calories, returning to a meal-replacement diet that worked really well for me a few years back - all to no avail. My 'diet-head' doesn't need that kind of encouragement! I just can't cope with food lists, with restrictions, with 'you can eat this but not this' type diets any more. I want to feel normal. I want to have a healthy relationship with food, not the very unhealthy relationship I was starting to have with it, where I'd deprive myself for day after day for anything from three days to a month - and then run screaming into the doughnuts! Enough already. I'm 42. I'm ready for a grown-up relationship with food now, one where I call the shots!
I'm ready, prepared even, not to lose much weight for a while. My number one goal right now is not to put any more on! Don't get me wrong, I have no desire to stay at the size I am, but I'm serene about the idea that it might take a few months to lose 10 pounds. I've done quick fixes before - and the thing I've learned about quick fixes is that they tend to be botched jobs.
T'other thing - I have no intention of using the word 'failure' in this thread. If I have a red day, I'll call it a red day. I'll try to work out what happened to make it a red day and record any conclusions here, but I'm not going to consider my progress in terms of good and bad. In common with a few folk around here, I've been reading 'The Willpower Instinct' by Kelly McGonigal, and one of the things she writes about is the danger of moralising our actions. We're either moving towards our goal or away from it. Moving away from my goal is not inherently 'bad' - it's just delaying the day that I get to where I want to be.
LOL, I think this is enough rambling for one post, so I'm going to sshh now. I'm going to start with a 21 day challenge so I'll be back soon to post about how it's going!
Actually, more accurately, I've already started again. I already have 2 days under my belt, Saturday and Sunday (LOL, t'wasn't too hard to do seeing as they were both S days ), and today is Day 3. I'm two meals down and feeling good.
And that's what this WOE is all about, isn't it? Feeling good. Feeling in control.
I wandered away from this WOE the first time around after just a few weeks, frustrated by my lack of progress according to the scales. I should've known better but I didn't listen to the little voice in my head that assured me that all I needed to do was stick it out, to keep going.
So in between, I've tried all sorts of things, going low carb, counting calories, returning to a meal-replacement diet that worked really well for me a few years back - all to no avail. My 'diet-head' doesn't need that kind of encouragement! I just can't cope with food lists, with restrictions, with 'you can eat this but not this' type diets any more. I want to feel normal. I want to have a healthy relationship with food, not the very unhealthy relationship I was starting to have with it, where I'd deprive myself for day after day for anything from three days to a month - and then run screaming into the doughnuts! Enough already. I'm 42. I'm ready for a grown-up relationship with food now, one where I call the shots!
I'm ready, prepared even, not to lose much weight for a while. My number one goal right now is not to put any more on! Don't get me wrong, I have no desire to stay at the size I am, but I'm serene about the idea that it might take a few months to lose 10 pounds. I've done quick fixes before - and the thing I've learned about quick fixes is that they tend to be botched jobs.
T'other thing - I have no intention of using the word 'failure' in this thread. If I have a red day, I'll call it a red day. I'll try to work out what happened to make it a red day and record any conclusions here, but I'm not going to consider my progress in terms of good and bad. In common with a few folk around here, I've been reading 'The Willpower Instinct' by Kelly McGonigal, and one of the things she writes about is the danger of moralising our actions. We're either moving towards our goal or away from it. Moving away from my goal is not inherently 'bad' - it's just delaying the day that I get to where I want to be.
LOL, I think this is enough rambling for one post, so I'm going to sshh now. I'm going to start with a 21 day challenge so I'll be back soon to post about how it's going!