Everyday Systems

I've been in interested in NoS for a while and today I've decided to finally begin. Technically I'm beginning mid day, but really, why wait?

I actually feel sad right now - In a way I am giving up on the great dream of weight loss after years and years of futility. The endless days of calorie counting followed by evening binges. The daily promise that tomorrow, somehow, I will make myself behave and eat in such a way that my 30 pounds of excess weight will vanish overnight. The punishing work outs that my body just can't keep up with anymore (they're not helping with weight loss anyway).

My eating has become so tragically dysfunctional that at this point I just want to stop over eating and find out what normal is. This is my goal for NoS. It's the hardest thing to give up the dream of being thin. It's not that I don't think I could lose some weight with NoS - it's just that I'm facing the hard reality that I'm not suddenly going to wake up one morning completely unattached to food and able to calorie count myself to skinny.

I just want to feel hungry before a meal again. I want to go to sleep not stuffed. I want to be ok with my weight but not ok with mistreating my body with too much food.

I'm hoping NoS will guide me to a middle ground. Tomorrow will be my first official check in. This beginner post is just to commit myself and make a start.

Welcome! You already took the biggest steps.

Best wishes to you. I understand how you feel.

I think you are on the right path Penelope. Try to look at this very long-term, which is hard for us dieters. A year from now, think of how good you will feel & the peace and freedom you will have attained. That's what matters, not how quickly you can lose a bunch of weight, only to gain it back.