I miss my Guru Larry...
I feel like I will die when I don't see him often enough...
Last weekend I couldn't attend class due to my first day of my period..
The week before there was the blizzard and class was cancelled...
The practice at home is very fulfilling in it's own way, but it's just impossible to put into words the magic that Larry brings to my practice and my being!!!
Yoga is a big time therapy and coping mechanism for me when I am stressed... I am scared when I don't go, about the outcome of my life... All the "What will be's?" start to take over...Yet when I go, I realize that, with mindfulness, every moment is a perfect moment... And I just tap into a strength and peace of mind which I never had before...
It has become apparent that I need to figure out how I can eventually join the gym Larry is at... I wonder if a gym membership could be gotten through some insurance plan? Probably not, but who knows...
Yoga is my therapy.. Larry is only available on Sundays, and even though I do look forward to expanding my practice one day to include classes with the Ashtanga teacher, who is hailed as "the real deal", one day a week with Larry is just not cutting it for me now.. I may sound melodramatic when I say I feel like "I will die" if I'm not with Larry, but I'm not being melodramatic in the least..
My Souls longing for Peace and personal meaning really was answered when I found Larry's class... At the moment, there just isn't any substituting that for me... Spiritually, I do feel like I am less alive, and definitely more alone and sad...
This is different than longing for a lover or a friend...
This is much more profound for me...
I am not the only person who feels that this is a very unique instructor..
He really has a following..
Truly a magnet for positive energy!
He only teaches one day a week at the Yoga place by my home, and that's not enough.. At the club he has five classes a week, so it's flexible enough for me to pick and choose days and I would probably go two to four times a week...
I've gotta make this happen...
Maybe if I get money back this year from my taxes I'll use it to join the gym.. I can't see myself trying to get a job there again.. I'm moving in a new direction altogether with my massage life and it's not going to be backwards... I am even considering taking some crap job for a few months, just to make that extra "luxury" money... I know I would go to the classes, so it wouldn't be a waste.. And it's more than a luxury to me..
I feel it's a deep necessity...
Please send out your good vibes to the Universe for the manifestation of this plan!!! It would cost a lot, but it's worth it!
Meanwhile, at home, I have managed to stretch out my neck and shoulder sufficiently the other day, and I am fine with getting back to more vigorous asanas like Wheel and Sihrasana (headstand)
I better start stretching my hips too.. They have been neglected for the past few weeks..
Have a lovely day friends!
Peace out and in
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