Jane's Daily Check In

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Thu Apr 12, 2007 5:56 pm

After over 20 years of gaining (hating myself) and losing (liking myself) the same 30 pounds over and over and over I am here.

I am in the middle of losing 30 pounds again, so I have 15 to go. I was on a very strict 1200 calorie diet. I was finding myself looking wistfully at bread and wishing I had "enough" calories to have a sandwich. That's when I realized that I was going to fail again.

It's no no no until you lose weight and then I explode with a big YES and eat everything in sight!

So. now I am going to find my way to a reasonable level of eating and exercising.

I will live a healthy life!

Jammin' Jan · Post by **Jammin' Jan** » Fri Apr 13, 2007 1:10 am

Gaining and losing is very hard on your physical health, and probably just as hard on your mental/emotional well-being. I'm glad you found no-s. This is a great program and the people on the board are really supportive. Best wishes to you!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Fri Apr 13, 2007 2:10 pm

Thanks Jan!

My husband isn't sure this will work. We had a long conversation last night and I explained that I need to find a way to live my entire life, not just the times when I am losing weight!

Today is day one! I will post my SUCCESS later!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Sat Apr 14, 2007 4:17 am

Day 1: SUCCESS!

B: Luna Bar, Prunes, Raisins
L: Thai Beef Satay, Cucumber Salad
D: 2 soft fish tacos and a beer (light!)

AND NOTHING ELSE!!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Mon Apr 16, 2007 3:03 pm

Days 2 and 3: S days! Kept things somewhat under control, but ate cake, bagels, chocolate and those asian rice crackers. But I did do 2 hours of urban rangering yesterday!

Obviously I like my processed carbs! My husband says it's my Irish stomach-my stomach is the most settled when I eat bread, pasta and potatoes!

Plan for this week: keep on the No S plan, introduce shovelgloving and keep up with my son and husband!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Tue Apr 17, 2007 3:17 pm

Day 4: SUCCESS!!

Almost not a success-I was really fighting it yesterday, but I won! I was having a mental argument with myself.."This isn't going to be low enough calories" or " You can't do this". I realized that this is the key to my continuing yo-yo dieting!

I have never learned moderation! It's either feast or famine with me. I am looking forward to figuring this out!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Wed Apr 18, 2007 4:30 am

Day 5: SUCCESS!

Again, a bit of a struggle. Have had a wicked sweets craving all evening. The funny thing is that I am not a real sweet eater-I like my fat greasy and crunchy!

Instead of saying NO! to myself- I said "wait till Saturday and we'll see".

Until tomorrow!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Thu Apr 19, 2007 3:32 pm

Day 6: SUCCESS!
Yippee! Didn't choose the best foods for my platefuls, but I have to take time to acknowledge that it was only 1 plateful!

Starting to feel okay with this, not hungry between meals and I peeked-I've lost 1 pound!!

I think I will weigh myself at each 7 day mark until I get to my goal. Right now I am 5'5" and 163 pounds. I am shooting for 149, at the high end of the BMI scale for my height, but right for me and my age (47).

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Fri Apr 20, 2007 3:22 am

Day 7: SUCCESS

Did really well with my one plate thing today. Did go to sons school open house and eat some cookies. I might consider this a failure, but I am looking at this as success because I became aware of how unconscious this behavior is at times!

I guess I was distracted by Sandra Bullock-her step daughter attends my son's school-cool to see her in person. She was very nice!

On to battle another day!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Mon Apr 23, 2007 2:13 pm

Day 8: SUCCESS!!!

Days 9 and 10: S Days went a little nuts, but consciousness raising!

I am just amazed at this. This diet is pushing my buttons, really getting at the core of my long term weight issues!

Happy Monday everyone!

Jaxhil · Post by **Jaxhil** » Mon Apr 23, 2007 2:40 pm

Jane, welcome!!

It sounds like you are doing great!

You're first post cracked me up-I can identify!!

"After over 20 years of gaining (hating myself) and losing (liking myself) the same 30 pounds over and over and over I am here."

"It's no no no until you lose weight and then I explode with a big YES and eat everything in sight! "

Good luck! I know you will like it here-everyone is really helpful, friendly, and supportive.

Again, welcome, and here's to continued success!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Tue Apr 24, 2007 2:12 pm

Day 9: SUCCESS!!!

Wow! A breakthrough! Had my usual day yesterday-not the best choices (fast food lunch) but still adhering to the No S rules.

Went to a Boy Scout pizza party last night. I was starving and would have eaten the pizza box! I had 2 pieces of pizza and a nice slice of watermelon! Then automatic Jane said, "oh look, cupcakes for dessert!". Almost without thinking No S Jane said "What day is today? It is M-o-n-d-a-y. There is NO S in this day! Is that cupcake worth derailing 9 days of success?" And very fortunately the answer was no cupcake today, but maybe one this weekend!

So far, so good!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Wed Apr 25, 2007 4:43 pm

Day 10: SUCCESS!!!

Still not getting the food chemistry right--VERY hungry before meals! Gotta eat more protein!

Cementing the habit day by day!!!! Yipppeee!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Thu Apr 26, 2007 4:37 pm

Day 11: SUCCESS!!!

Went a little nuts on crackers (low fat) last night-But they fit on the plate!

Had a funny observation this morning-I have glucose intolerance and have been told that I need to eat small amounts frequently because I get the shakes and feel "weird" when I don't eat.

I have been experimenting with food and times that I eat. If I eat each of my meals in the traditional sense-Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner and IF I eat a nutritionally balanced meal-I don't get the shakes! And I don't need to eat between meals! I get appropriately hungry at meal times!

This is all very interesting! I am actually enjoying figuring this all out!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Fri Apr 27, 2007 12:01 pm

DAY 12: SUCCESS!!!

This is getting a little easier every day. Wondering if I am losing much weight-need to dial back the calories a bit, I think.

I get so tired of losing weight, but I know I can do it! :

Shovelgloved for the first time yesterday! With a broom-one step at a time!!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Mon Apr 30, 2007 2:44 am

Day 13: SUCCESS!!!

Days 14 and 15: S days! Had a lot of aggravation this weekend and ate candy! Not even my favorite! Well at least they were S days!!

Looking forward to a less aggravating week!!

Closing in on 21 habit forming days!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Tue May 01, 2007 2:46 pm

Day 16: SUCCESS!!!

But I'm not feeling it. I am GAINING weight! Of course I know why. I am following No S to the letter-no snack, no sweets, no seconds on non-s days AND eating way too many calories on non S days. I am also eating very high calories during my meals on S days.

I also know that saying that NO S is a failure is saying that I can't handle eating a normal, healthy diet. And the fact is at this point I can't and haven't consistently for the past 30 years. I love food and am a great cook. but rarely cook during the week.

I am 47 with 14 pounds to lose to be on the high end of "healthy" for my height. I have some health issues, but nothing major that would interfere with losing weight. I do Pilates twice a week for an hour, but don't walk much.

Soooo, I am proposing the following to myself:
1. Continue with No S
2. Eat SENSIBLE food that I enjoy
3. Walk 1/2 hour per Non S days, Continue with 1 1/2 hour Sunday walk.
4. Continue with Pilates 2 X week
5. Post food intake so that I (and everyone else) can see
6. Acknowledge that I am fighting a battle that I am going to WIN!!!!

Okay, enough babbling for today. Time to get on with the business of living!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Wed May 02, 2007 4:17 pm

Day 17: SUCCESS!!!

Still haven't implemented my revived plan, but sticking to the No S. Just feeling a bit overwhelmed right now. I will pull myself together!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Thu May 03, 2007 5:23 pm

Day 18: SUCCESS!!!

Still plugging along, still made poor dietary choices, but kept to the No S rules.

I am continuing the fight!!! Kinda funny for me that my 21st day will be an S day!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Fri May 04, 2007 3:36 pm

Day 19: SUCCESS!!!

More of the same, following No S and eating a bit too much. This is a real issue for me but I AM SURE I will conquer this!

No sense going back to the yo-yo thing. I have to make "peace" with myself and feed my body good food!

Day by day...meal by meal....I'm getting there!!!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Sat May 05, 2007 1:49 pm

DAY 20: SUCCESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this was Friday, soooo today must be DAY 21!!!!!!!!!

After 21 days I can say the following:
1. Lost 1 pound!!!!!!!!!
2. Gained a better understanding of my self defeating behaviors
3. Started eating like a normal person not a dieter

Still to work on:
1. EXERCISE!!!
2. PORTION CONTROL!!!

Yiiipeee!! Onward!!!

paulrone · Post by **paulrone** » Mon May 07, 2007 2:28 pm

Awesome!
You deserve a big pat on the back. How does it feel to be "normal" instead of a dieter?

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Mon May 07, 2007 2:41 pm

Paulrone-Thank you!! It is unusual to feel "normal" towards food. For many years I've either been dieting or gaining weight. This feels so much better!!!!

Day 22 was an S day. My S days this weekend were excess, but my good friends 50th birthday was worth it!

A new week and new chances to succeed!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Tue May 08, 2007 2:46 pm

Day 23: SUCCESS!!!

Still fighting! Had a very aggravating day yesterday. I am the treasurer for my son's Boy Scout troop (50 scouts) and last night's meeting was very trying.
At least I didn't eat after the meeting!!!!

Looking forward to Mothers Day weekend- gonna do lots of gardening!

paulrone · Post by **paulrone** » Tue May 08, 2007 4:07 pm

My son's troop is only 11 boys. I can't imagine 50. Someone would have to die. Most likely a disagreeable parent.

Is killing better than snacking? It IS in line with the no-S rules, unless we decide to include No-Slaying.

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Tue May 08, 2007 4:25 pm

Paulrone, 50 is a handful for a troop! My son has a blast though and only SOME of the parents think that BSA stands for "Babysitters of America". Most are pretty helpful and involved-it's a good troop!

My son is 13 (14 in August) and a Life Scout so we are pretty sure he will make it to Eagle!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Wed May 09, 2007 5:28 pm

Day 24: Success!

Today is Day 25 and I am still experimenting with WHAT to eat in the am. I get serious blood sugar issues. It's a toughie to find a meal that will fit the following criteria: I have to like it; I have to be able to eat it at work (I start work at 7 am); and it has to hold me until lunch. I had cereal and a banana this am and it is 10 am and I am feeling shaky.

More experimentation!!!

thtrchic · Post by **thtrchic** » Wed May 09, 2007 6:02 pm

Could you eat your breakfast a little later to hold you longer?

Also, I find oatmeal to work very well. You could have a glass of milk with the oatmeal and a banana? Or some nuts along with the oatmeal so you have protein to help hold you?

Julie

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Thu May 10, 2007 2:58 pm

Thanks Julie! I think the key is getting protein in there! I will continue to experiment!

Day 25 was success and I triumphed again over automatic thinking Jane. I was going for some Triscuits after dinner and stopped myself! Yay! Low fat Triscuits won't hurt much, but the HABIT will!

Another day, another chance for success!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Fri May 11, 2007 3:18 am

Day 26: SUCCESS!!! HOWEVER, I am super annoyed with myself. I only ate a plateful of dinner, but I could have done with 1/2 plateful.

Always have this fear in the back of my head of not having enough to eat. Yeah, I had some hairy family experiences as an adolescent when that was a reality. But I am now 47, financially and emotionally stable, but what gives?

Amazing how some of that stuff imprints itself in your brain. Well, never too late to retrain yourself. I was unable to touch my toes a year ago and perserverance and Pilates brought me a much more flexible body.

Just another kind of stretchin' to do!!!

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Sun Mar 29, 2009 9:01 pm

I don't even know how much weight I need to lose--but it's around 30 lbs. I turn 50 in a few months and I am DONE counting calories. Thought I would come back here because just eating sensibly on a regular basis is a challenge for me. I just eat too damn much!

I am back to no Sing! Fortunately today is an S day--starting slowly!

SavvyV · Post by **SavvyV** » Mon Mar 30, 2009 6:59 am

Just keep at it, one day at a time. You can do this! Like you said, it's never too late to retrain your brain. I have found it to be true that once the good habits are ingrained it will feel strange to go back to doing things the old way.

Jane · Post by **Jane** » Tue Mar 31, 2009 4:33 am

SUCCESS!!

and no Diet Coke!

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