the first was in high school, I worked in the Galleria in Houston, I would eat maybe a crappy breakfast ... white toast with butter cinnamon and sugar, chocolate milk, lunch peanut butter crackers and pepsi... on the way to work somewhereis at 4 in the afternoon a HUGE BAR B Q beef po boy, potato chips and HUGE chocolate brownie, then when I got home from work, eat whatever leftovers from dinner, UGH! very awful period in my life .. I Can still remember the shame eating that po boy in the car driving to work.
The next one was after I sobered up, I would ritualisticly get 6 chocolate kreme filled dunkin donuts, 1/2 pound bag of M&Ms and 1 bag of Pepperidge Farm chunky chocolate cookies ...
I could actually eat all of that!
I could eat a box of Kraft Macaroni and Cheese for dinner by myself!
Lest I kid myself that this was part of some distant foggy past .. I wrote this down in my No S diet book when I finished reading it:
3/24/2008
started No S Diet at 1:58 pm
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B: 2 grande chai tea lattes, 2 chocolate iced donuts, 1 glazed donut
L: 1 cherry covered donut, 1 glazed donut, 1/3 cinnamon sugar donut, 2/3 maple iced custard fill bar
discovered and bought No S Diet book
D: snack chickpeas
Finished reading No S Diet book,
have been marking off my squares and not binging since then.
SO why do I bring this up ... because BINGING was my real problem the weight for me was/is a SYMPTOM of THAT problem.
and it is important for me to remember my personal priorities...
the inner cleanness, self-esteem, inner peace, satisfaction from not ever HAVING to binge again ... because for me, at this point. I think BINGING is a choice. It was not before I read NO S ... but for me NOW it is a choice,
and for THAT I AM TRULY GRATEFUL TO REINHARD FOR CREATING THIS WEBSITE, WRITING THE BOOK, AND SHARING IT WITH US ALL ... Oh and also regularly showing up on the boards to post!
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