Linda's daily check-in

Counting carbs/calories is a drag. Obsessive scale stepping is a recipe for despair. If you want to count something, "days on habit" is a much better metric. Checking off days on a calendar would do just fine, but if you do it here you get accountability and support. Here's how. Start a new topic in this forum called (say) "Your Name Daily Check In." Then every N day post a "reply" to that topic as to whether you stayed on habit. A simple "<font color="green">SUCCESS</font>" or "<font color="red">FAILURE</font>" (or your preferred euphemism if that's too harsh) is sufficient, but obviously you're welcome to write more if you want. On S-days just register that you're taking an S-day. You don't have to do this forever, just until you're confident you've built the habit. Feel free to check in weekly or monthly or sporadically instead of daily. Feel free also to track other habits besides No-s (I'm keeping this forum under No-s because that's what the vast majority are using it for). See also my <a href="/habitcal/">HabitCal</a> tool for another more formal (and perhaps complementary) way to track habits.

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Post by lpearlmom » Sat Aug 24, 2019 3:17 pm

Yup the teen years are so challenging. Don’t get me wrong, they're some great things too. They are a lot of fun at this age when theyre not driving me crazy and it’s pretty cool to see them becoming little adults.

Auto: thank you. One thing give always try to do is own my mistakes with them. I feel like unspoken apologies are the things of unhealed wounds. And yeah i guess its pretty normal for kids not to have mastered gratitude yet. Why else have parents been telling the “i used to have to walk 20 miles in the snow to get to school each day” story for so long? 😁 i guess they're too busy trying to master this growing up stuff. (Thank you for the sweet compliment. )

I was too tired to post last night so here’s yesterday:

Day: 5

Fasted: 19/7 We went out to dinner so had to extend my window a bit. I really wanted something sweet when we got home so ended up extending it even longer. I noticed when i drink it makes it harder to stick to the plan.

Off days left: 14 but think I’ll have to take one today as i have a cooking class this morning.

Food:
Snack (2pm): smoothie, grapes, small bag of skinny popcorn
Dinner: lots of vegan food, glass wine, a sangria
Dessert: 1/2 cookie, couple bites ice cream, tiny bowl of chocolate covered gummy bears

Pounds lost with current regime: 0
Total pounds lost: 35

Body fat%: 30.3
Body fat lost: 0 and Ive gained like 7% since i stopped fasting. Crazy. :/

Mood: Sooooo much better. I can feel the depression finally lifting and life feels a bit less overwhelming. Thank goodness I've learned to just hang in there till it passes. Ive learned not to fall into total despair.

Hunger level: v high! Yesterday i woke up hungry and was starving by 2 pm. I know my body will adjust but can be tough in the meantime.

Miles walked: 5.3 woot!
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Post by lpearlmom » Sun Aug 25, 2019 7:01 am

Day 6

Ate way too too much! My mood started high but ended a little shaky. I was looking at old photos with sweetpea and had so many feelings. It was hard looking at that awkward little girl and then that beautiful young woman who had no clue how beautiful she was and then my kids when they were tiny and how bittersweet that all is and friendships that ended badly and friendships that just grew apart and so many missed opportunities and regrets. Moments I wish I could relive and others I wish I could redo. Life is just so beautiful and so horrible all at once. It’s just a lot.

Okay time to go to bed.
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Post by automatedeating » Sun Aug 25, 2019 3:14 pm

Oh, my. Looking at old photos is definitely no small undertaking! I often cry and then feel exhausted after such an endeavor.
I love this sentence best though -
that awkward little girl and then that beautiful young woman who had no clue how beautiful she was
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Post by lpearlmom » Wed Aug 28, 2019 6:04 am

So I don’t mean to be overly dramatic but am planning on taking a little break from this board. I just didn’t want my last post to be the one about the photos as that’s just too depressing so wanted to post one more time before my break.

I just cannot diet in any way shape or form anymore. I wish i could stick around and explore what that meant for me but this place is just so triggering for me. It’s such a great support system with so many awesome ppl but at the same time it’s still difficult for me to see ppl’s numbers, and their struggles to try to eat less. I think I just need to put aside any weight loss goals & turn off all the outside noise for a bit and figure out what I really want, need and can realistically do.


Anyway, best of luck to everyone on their journey and I so appreciate all the amazing support you've all given me. My plan is to check in about once a month.

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Post by automatedeating » Wed Aug 28, 2019 3:38 pm

Lots of love to you, Linda. Take care. I will miss you but very much understand that a break could be really good for you - just what you need.
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Post by Thisisnotabadidea- » Wed Aug 28, 2019 9:38 pm

I'm at a very similar headspace right now, I get you.

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Post by Octavia » Thu Aug 29, 2019 9:42 pm

Take care Linda, I hope you have a refreshing break and come back to us feeling happy and strong. The boards can be a bit like Facebook I guess - it’s possible to be triggered by all sorts of random stuff. Will miss your posts but look forward to hearing from you again soon. X

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Post by jenji » Thu Sep 05, 2019 6:31 pm

I hope you have a restorative break, Linda!
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Post by lpearlmom » Mon Sep 16, 2019 5:57 am

Thanks, you guys!

Well things have been a bit rough. I continue to gain weight and am definitely starting menopause. I had my first hot flash today and am having other fun symptoms. Also, dh got his blood work back and his results were not good. Its back to low carb and exercise for him. We also had a huge fight yesterday and we hardly ever fight. I think we needed to have ot though. We had to clear the air.

Im trying to figure out what to do about my weight. Im sure hormones our a big part of it but Im also thinking of going back to fasting. I wish so badly i had just hung in there and not been so hard in myself.

i just read through the last year or two of my thread and im feeling really bummed that i gave up fasting. I was doing so well with it for so long. I should have:

1) taken my weight fluctuations more in stride.
2) not told ppl i was actively trying to lose weight as i felt a lot of pressure
3) not based my self worth on my weight or even my attractiveness as nobody seems to be treating me any differently at my current weight.
4) stop seeking out external validation esp regarding my appearance. I noticed Id too easily get discouraged by what ppl did or didnt say re: my weight.
5) never given up clean fasting. I bet this had a lot to do with my weight creeping back up.
6) taken breaks instead of quitting when i was feeling burnt out.

Im going to try fasting again this week and see how it goes. I just need to put the brakes on the weight gain if nothing else.

I did a 5 hr window from 11am-4 pm today.

179.8 :(((
Break: grilled veggies, tofu, fruit
Snack: smoothie, pretzel bites, popcorn

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Post by automatedeating » Mon Sep 16, 2019 2:01 pm

Hi Linda!
I love that list you made for yourself. What I see from that list is that - a) you want to practice more self-compassion and take care of your body for your own self, not for others; and b) you want to take the things about fasting that have worked for you and find a way to take a break from it when you need one.
Experimenting and "failing" are so critical to learning what really works for us! Probably you have heard this quote before, but it resonated with me - "Learn to fail, or fail to learn". It's OK for us to try things and have them not work out. Taking risks is really living.
Sorry to hear about Doc's blood work. :-( That must be stressful for the family, too - I can see how that might have ended in a fight.
I hope you have a great week, and it made my morning to see that you had posted.
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Post by Kathleen » Tue Sep 17, 2019 12:41 am

Hi Linda,
Glad to see you back. I have found it helpful to go back and read what I have written in the past, just as you have. Hugs... this is really hard.
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Post by lpearlmom » Tue Sep 17, 2019 5:29 am

Auto: That’s a great quote. I guess it’s okay that I messed up. My biggest fear was gaining all the weight back and running into ppl but it really hasn't been a big deal.

Kathleen: Thanks! It is hard! :/

It kind of sucks that i have to start all over but sometimes you just have to pick yourself up and give it another go, right? At least I've still kept off the original 30 lbs. All my efforts weren’t wasted at least. I think i really let ppl get under my skin & i was convinced getting super skinny would protect me somehow.

I don’t know if i can lose the weight again and if I do I don’t know if I can not feel compelled to push myself too hard. Im the only one I need to please when it comes to my weight. I really need to hang on to that. I do know that Im ready to try again. Or at least that’s how I’m currently feeling.

Today went pretty well. My friend’s daughter got a new apartment so we helped her unpack and decorate everything. We had a really nice time although it was interesting to me that i still don’t feel 100% relaxed around them. Ive known them for about 2 yrs but It really takes me a long time to feel completely comfortable around ppl.

I really wanted a chai this morning so decided to do an earlier window but i shut my window by 4pm and it was fine. I cannot believe how high my weight is but still thing ive got a few pounds of water retention from hormones. Ive been feeling like im pregnant or something for the last few weeks eventhough im most definitely not. It’s strange to me how nobody really wants to talk about menopause. There just seems to be a lack of info out there but Im sure there’s some books I can read.

16/7.5
179.1 lbs
Break (830): chai with oatmilk
Lunch: veggie burger, zucchini fries w/ ranch
Snack: perfect protein bar, chai (way too much caffeine today!)

Exercise: walked dogs 25 mins

PS: sorry about my many typos in my posts. I do usually see them later but am usually too tired or lazy to fix them. I know all you teachers out there are shaking your heads (and red pens at me). ☺️
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Post by automatedeating » Tue Sep 17, 2019 1:12 pm

not shaking red pens or heads!!! I am amazed that you can type all that on your phone at all. When I only have my phone, I either don't check in at all or put very limited stuff.
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Post by lpearlmom » Wed Sep 18, 2019 5:12 am

Oh I know you’re not really but always cringe when i re-read my posts so just wanted to put it out there!

Today was good. I fasted 23 hrs with relative ease so I must have fasting muscle memory of sorts. I have to say it felt really good and much easier with the clear boundary of clean fasting only. Just like with little bites here and there between meals can easily become a slippery slope when doing NoS, consuming anything other than water, plain tea or plain coffee can lead down a similar road. Plus it makes you hungry and fasting is that much harder.

Im re-brain washing myself by listening to all the fasting podcasts again and I also got rid of all my Body Positive podcasts. Im trying not to judge it too much and realize this is just the road I need to take right now.

I don’t think ive talked about the online counseling that Im doing. It’s going okay but Ive already fored two counselors and am on my 3rd. I also took the option of medication help and had a phone consultation with a psychiatrist today. He was actually great and coukd really relate to him. Im pretty sure he was Jewish so that helps. Anyway, he prescribed me wellbutrin so hoping that’ll help. Im actually feeling a lot better but i still think it’s a good idea just to keep a handle on things.

I still keep thinking i need to get a job or something but I cannot figure out what to do. My problem is that I have a lot of good ideas but little follow through. Oh well.

23/5
178.1 lbs

Break: skinny pop, watermelon, yogurt parfait, hummus , crackers.
Dinner: spaghetti squash casserole, sweet potato with black beans & guacamole
Dessert: small ramekin of kitty cat cookies and chocolate chips, coconut water

Wow, a lot of food

Exercise: 20 mins weights—upper body
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Post by automatedeating » Wed Sep 18, 2019 1:28 pm

You don't have TIME for any follow-through! Sheesh, all that driving around with the kiddos and basically holding down the fort because Doc is gone a lot.

Good for you for all these proactive steps - Wellbutrin, the psychiatrist, the online counselors (and good for firing the ones that aren't a good fit), changing up your podcasts, everything.

I have three (other) dear friends married to doctors and it's kind of like being a military wife in that everything has to come second to the "mission", ya know? And I don't mean that disparagingly about doctors; it's a tough field! But the result is that none of my friends have been able to commit to full-time work. It's just so hard for the family to find that balance. One friend in particular (also has her Master's in Physiology, like me) really really struggles with not using her training and her giftings (and her passions). There is no easy answer. I keep encouraging her to just do what she loves to do, but that is always easier said than done. My SIL found a job as a teacher's aide (even though she ALSO has a Master's degree - hers in social work with a teaching certificate) at her kids' school so her hours were perfect. So it does seem the wives have had to make a lot of sacrifices for the good of the family. That's not bad, right? But it is not surprising that you have this yawning yearning in you for something more.

I know I've said this before, but I could totally imagine you doing interior decorating consulting.
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Post by lpearlmom » Thu Sep 19, 2019 5:15 am

Auto: that’s actually really helpful to hear that this is common among drs wives. It’s true that we end up taking on pretty much everything else because of how much they work. I almost think that nothing’s going to happen till both kids are at least fully mobile. But it doesn’t hurt to think about my next move at least. Doc got called into work at 2am last night and didn’t come home till 8:30 pm tonight. Many days it’s just not physically possible for him go help me on the household front and when he is home he kind of just needs to chill. Oh and love the interior decorating idea but not sure if i have any talent for it.

Yeah the online counseling isn’t bad & the wellbutrin has helped me in the past. Thank goodness it doesn’t cause weight gain because i do not need anything else making it hard for me to lose weight.

Fasting is going really well (knock on wood). Im annoyed that Gin was so right about the clean fasting but it really makes a difference. It’s also important to not overthink it all to much. Intuitive eating doesn’t work for me normally but I can kind of just eat intuitively in my window which is cool. And i admit it, Fasting does feel great. It’s a bit of a natural high i think.

I think the problem was i really let myself get derailed by my friends comment regarding my weight. I was feeling so good & it just really threw me off. I was looking at a picture of me from last year this time and I looked great too. But her comment really hurt me and I was determined to lose enough weight that nobody could ever possibly make a negative comment about my weight again. That’s the point when i started pushing myself really hard and it backfired on me. I started binging and fasting started to feel really impossible. Thats when i started dirty fasting in an attempt to make it more doable but that backfired too. Then despite how hard i was trying the weight starting coming back on & it all just got out of whack.

I think maybe the answer is realizing that my body is nobodies business but my own. If im not talking (irl) about my weight and/or eating plan then maybe they won’t feel so free to comment on those things. I need to send the message that those things are private & not up for discussion. I do have one irl friend that i feel comfortable talking to about this stuff but that’s really it. I guess I just need better boundaries.

19/4.5
177.8 lbs

Break (3pm): skinny pop, green smoothie, couple bites of this and that.
Dinner: low carb spinach & feta quiche, carrots with dip, glass wine
Dessert: small ramekin of dark chocolate and kitty cat cookies, glass of almond milk

Exercise: 20 mins weights, 25 min walk the dogs

Im really having fun with the low carb cooking. The recipes im finding online are so nice and simple that its making cooking dinner less stressful.

Happy Scale: anyone use this? I love it. It gives you your average overtime and even weight loss projections. As long as im losing an average of .5 lbs/wk, im not going to tweak anything. Its all very reassuring. Im at .92/week currently.
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Post by Kathleen » Thu Sep 19, 2019 3:40 pm

Hi Linda,

Yes, I am using Happy Scale. I do like it.

OMG I so relate to your story. I am married to a guy who spent more than a decade traveling as a consultant, and he got into mergers and acquisition work. He'd leave Monday or Tuesday morning and return Thursday night and sleep all weekend. He got off the road last year, but it took a toll on him.

The problem with that sort of career is the husband doesn't see what you do. Kids, being teenagers and young adults, don't necessarily appreciate what you do. There is public pressure for a Mom to do something other than just be a Mom.

PLEASE don't listen. I just listened to the ending of the ABC democratic debate when Joe Biden said FAMILY is most important. You are doing the most important job of all, taking care of the next generation. What my kids have learned is that my highest priority is FAMILY. Tom's is FAMILY as well, but we have split duties. He takes care of income. I take care of everything else.

We are now reaping what we have sown. All our kids are doing well and enjoy visiting with us and talking with us. No drugs. No pregnancies (although I might like to hear of a pregnancy from our married daughter!).

Chin up!

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Post by lpearlmom » Fri Sep 20, 2019 4:33 am

Oh yup, I can see you definitely can relate Kathleen! There is a lot of pressure to do it all. I love being a sahm but I do worry what I will do if something happens to doc. I have irrational fears of living on the streets. I’ll figure it out, hopefully...

Today went well. Sweetpea was in a mood this morning & when I got home I just really needed a break so I gave myself the morning off. It was very nice and I actually had a lot more energy in the evening than I normally do so i think it was beneficial.


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19/4

Break(3pm): chai , perfect protein bar
Snack: piece of lc quiche, couple bites of salad, grapes
Dinner: asian zoodles, cauliflower fried rice, 1/2 glass of wine
Dessert: yogurt, a couple gummy bears and kitty cat cookies

I can eat a lot in 4 hrs! Weirdly, Im just not that interested in alcohol lately. Not sure why but ill take it.
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Post by alene1 » Fri Sep 20, 2019 1:56 pm

Hi Linda. I'm so pleased for where you are in your journey! Wonderful freedom with gentle structure. I'm loving reading your journal!

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Post by lpearlmom » Sat Sep 21, 2019 4:31 am

Thanks Alene—it’s quite a rollercoaster ride! ☺️

Omg, fasting was tough today. I must be getting to the end of my glycogen stores—yay! My plan was to have a 3.5 hr window but after 3 hrs I felt done. Getting back in my fasting groove. 💜💜

Our cruise is in 2 wks and i feel completely unprepared. I don’t know what to bring.

21/3
177.5 lbs

Break: (4pm) 1.5 kind bars
Dinner: veggie burrito on lc tortilla, 1/2 glass wine
Dessert: 1 cookie and a handful of chocolate covered gummy bears

Exercise: walked dogs 🐕 25 mins
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Post by lpearlmom » Sun Sep 22, 2019 3:05 am

Today was interesting. I went to a campaign kick off and then Doc & I were supposed to go to a wine tasting afterwards but he couldn’t go at the last minute. I couldn’t find anyone to go with me and suddenly felt a little insecure about my social life. I guess i felt like i had more friends than i really do and i have no best friend right now which really bugs me. I’d always had a best friend till maybe 10 yrs ago.

Sigh... well the wine event ended up getting cancelled anyway and when i came home i was feeling a little wobbly. Just feeling like everyone was doing something more productive and/or more interesting than i was. My neighbor was at the political event and when i asked her to the wine tasting said she had to mow the lawn and clean the pool. Geesh, we hire ppl to do those things. I felt very lazy. Plus she’s a teacher and an artist and does a bunch of yoga. Also, shes always so kind and her hair always looks great.

I know i shouldn’t compare. It’s not like I actually would rather have her life or something. I think i just nedd a new hobby. I was so passionate about politics for awhile but thats kind of dwindled. I still do it because it’s important but its not quite so exciting to me anymore.

But funnily enough later I got a vm from mom telling me how proud she is of me and what a terrific mom I am. Really good timing on that because it definitely lifted my spirits. It’s all good. I think I’m just pmsing.

19/5
178.5

Break (2pm): large sf chai, several tastes of picadillo
Dinner: picadillo, ww tortilla, cauliflower rice, sautéed brussel sprouts
Dessert: large froyo, 1/2 cookie

Im really into the low carb, vegetarian cooking. It’s a fun challenge. Hopefully itll help with docs blood sugar. He’s doing a great job with his eating.
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Post by automatedeating » Mon Sep 23, 2019 12:13 am

That's so cool that you are once again finding some really good fun in the cooking arena. Lucky Doc! :-)

Re: your friend's vm about being a good mom.... yes! You are amazing and a role model to all of us on the forum. I bet you are going to be a rock-it grandma, too. Outta this world.

And sorry that I hate your friend with the great hair that never misses a chance to namaste you. JK! :lol:
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Mon Sep 23, 2019 12:13 am

And sorry that I hate your friend with the great hair that never misses a chance to namaste you. JK! :lol:
Lol auto! I like her a lot but yeah she’s a little too perfect sometimes. Like I don’t think I’ve ever heard her cuss. I don’t know. I’ve spent a lot of time with her but have yet to really click with her and it’s a little frustrating. I need a bff!

Anyway, I decided if I was feeling like I was boring, I should do something to change that so I took the girls to see some modern art today. It was amazing and really made me happy. I even got some cool glass hoop earrings that I’m probably going to wear nonstop for awhile. Then I took them to their favorite vegan hot dog place. I also bought the whole family tickets to see Fiddler on the Roof—yay! I’m officially a little less boring.

Omg, my weight is just not budging but I have to remind myself I’ve only been consistently fasting for one week. Got to give it time. I just cannot believe I have to do this all over again. It’s like finally reaching your destination only to slide back down to the bottom of the mountain the moment you reach the top. Sigh it’s okay. I’m wiser this time around and I’ll handle it all better. Right?

19/4.5
177.7

Break(2pm): vegan Tokyo hot dog, couple fries
Dessert: couple pieces of chocolate, piece of quinoa chocolate fudge cake , couple lf small kitty cat cookies

I really wanted a boba for dessert but the girls wanted to go home so I ended up trying to appease my tastes but nothing tasted right. Should have got the boba. That’ll teach me.
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What a lovely day with your daughters! I love it! An art museum, ahhhhh yes. Plus tickets to the musical? Hurrah!!! One of (everyone's) favorites, yes?!!!!

I was thinking I'd like to go to the ballet in Seattle.....
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Post by lpearlmom » Tue Sep 24, 2019 3:09 am

Ooh love the ballet. I bet Seattle has a some great shows!

Oh dear, Rosebud really pissed me off on the drive home today and I snapped at her. I grounded her too which she deserved but i wish i hadn't lost my temper. I hate fighting with Rosebud. She’s very stubborn so it takes awhile to get to the makeup stage. I ended up stress cleaning for like 2 hrs which was good. Doc had little projects/messes all over the house and it was really stressing me out. Now it’s all clean and Rosebud and I did work it out!

I really wasn’t hungry but ate anyway because I didn’t want to be too hungry tomorrow. I think my wellbutrin is helping. It seems to kind of cut through my ADD and helps me able to feel less overwhelmed.

21/3.25
178.5 lbs Grrrrr....

Break (430): a few veggie chips w yogurt dip
Dinner: a cabbage roll & cauliflower mash
Dessert: couple pieces dark chocolate

Exercise: 25 min walk 🐕; few laps in the pool
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Post by alene1 » Tue Sep 24, 2019 1:54 pm

I'm loving reading your journal, Linda! We have a lot in common. I've experimented with IF a lot too. I'd love to talk about the body positivity community sometime with you. Finding the balance of wanting to be healthy but not letting your self esteem rest on your appearance. So much to discuss there! Hope you have a great day.

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Post by lpearlmom » Wed Sep 25, 2019 5:22 am

Alene, glad you’re enjoying it. I feel like i must sound like a crazy person which might not be far off but it’s just all that internal stuff that goes on that nobody really sees. And yes I really struggle with dieting AND wanting to be body positive. Thin privilege is such a huge reality in our culture and it’s really hard to stop chasing the dream of the thin ideal. I honestly don't think i can stop wanting to be thinner so i might as well just go for it. That’s kind of where im at currently though. What are your thoughts?

Today went well. I noticed that my mood sets the tone for the rest of the house. If I’m positive and happy and patient everyone else kind of calms down. I was purposely just kind of over the top kind and positive with the girls today and it definitely rubbed off on them. They blew off stuffing that would normally get to them and they got along really well.

I went to my LD mtg and it was great to be with some friends. I gave my one friend a really cute present for her new grand baby and she was practically in tears. It made me feel really good. I finally got my period—kind of—which i think helped to lift my mood. I know how you all love when i talk about my cycle so ill be sure to keep updated on that. 😁

The wellbutrin is definitely helping with my foggy thinking and I'm able to complete tasks so much easier. It is giving me a little anxiety but maybe that'll go away.

17/4
176.3

Break (130j: salad, veggie sushi, watermelon 🍉
Snack: large chai (plus some of the girls ☺️)

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Post by lpearlmom » Thu Sep 26, 2019 4:38 am

Uneventful day for once. The cooler weather has calmed everyone down and we’re all in better spirits.

23/4
174.9 lbs Finally some movement. Let’s see if things continue this way.

Break (4pm): popcorn, smoothie, olives, couple of veggie chips
Dinner: spaghetti squash w/ marinara sauce & “meatballs”, grilled salad
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Post by alene1 » Thu Sep 26, 2019 2:03 pm

Linda, I can pretty much guarantee we all have that crazy stuff running around in our brains. :wink: It's so freeing and helpful for ourselves and others if we share it though. It really does make us realize that we're not alone in our internal struggles. I believe in body positivity, and think that women, and some men too, are very hard on themselves. So many of us have suffered through most of our lives chasing that ideal. It's just so sad to think of all the energy and life that was stolen from us in this pursuit and fixation. I feel determined not to chase it. But I still want to be thinner, and I believe I can get to a healthy weight over time. But I'm not willing to diet anymore to get there. I want to focus more on being happy and healthy, and creating habits that will allow my body to release this extra weight over time. I very much still want to be a smaller body size that is more agile and fit and that I enjoy being in and dressing. :D I guess truth be told I don't believe in the concept of health at every size. I don't think very overweight people are healthy in mind or body, at least for the long term. Usually health problems catch up with you over time. Living in a very large body is difficult in so many ways, and it's hard to thoroughly enjoy all that life offers if it's difficult to move. My opinion.

I'm glad the day was a good one for you! Yay on your weight moving down. How is the fasting going? How's the hunger level?

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Post by lpearlmom » Fri Sep 27, 2019 5:41 am

Alene, I could talk about this stuff forever. I do support the ideas behind HAES but with the reality check that not everyone is going to be able to make peace with their larger bodies. I don’t know if you listen to Food Psych podcast at all but she talks a lot about weight stigma and how that is a large factor in making fat ppl unhealthy. The stress of weight stigma along with not getting good medical care contributes largely to health problems. Fat ppl are afraid to go to the doctor and when they do go, theyre often told to lose weight no matter the health issue instead if addressing the problem. I could go on, but it’s complicated and everyone’s got an agenda so we just have to figure out what’s best for each of us i guess.

Hectic day today. Just going non-stop and lots of little things went wrong all day—forgot to turn on the dishwasher last night, forgot to put the trash cans out this morning, sweetpea got paint on our new carpet etc. Nothing major though and the girls were being sweet. Ive just got so much to do this weekend. I really need to learn not to overbook us. It always stresses me out.


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175.1

Break 12pm (lunch w friend): big salad, piece of bread
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Post by alene1 » Fri Sep 27, 2019 1:56 pm

Linda, I could discuss it forever too! I totally agree with all you said. I've listened to a lot of the Food Psych podcast, read the F*ck it Diet, and belong to some of the FB groups for intuitive eating and body positivity. I realized I came off as very judgemental in my last post. Didn't mean to! I just think it goes too far, and I don't agree with the eat anything you want free for all. So many people are gaining so much weight, and then it is so difficult mentally. I just know for me that that road isn't the one I want to be on. The whole issue is complicated and multi-faceted. I just know I want to feel my best and be happy and healthy.

Sorry about the paint on your rug! I hope today goes smoother.

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Post by lpearlmom » Fri Sep 27, 2019 5:22 pm

No not at all and sounds like we are in the exact same place. I have done all of the above too and reached the same conclusion basically! We are probably in some of the same fb groups! 😃
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Post by lpearlmom » Sat Sep 28, 2019 5:46 am

Oh dear, I’m so mad at myself! I had a huge chai on Thursday even though i could tell it wasn’t going to end well and now I’m having a horrible reflux episode. It’s terrible timing too because we are supposed to go to dinner with friends tomorrow night and then Sunday is our cookbook club. Not to mention next week we leave for our cruise. 🤦🏼‍♀️

I don’t know how Im going to be able to enjoy all the festivities and it really sucks. I decided i just need to stop kidding myself about caffeine. The only amount i can tolerate is zero. I just need to be a grown up about this because it’s just not worth it. I did however find a good caffeine-free drink i can have at coffeehouses—steamers. It’s just frothed milk with a flavored syrup. Today i had oat milk with hazelnut flavor and it was delicious. They’re quite small so doesnt add up to too much sugar really.

Too bad i didn't discover this earlier! I really hope I magically feel better tomorrow.

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174.5 lbs

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Dinner: nf plain yogurt w pb & honey

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Sorry to hear about the reflux, hope you feel better before your dinner out and especially your cruise!

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Post by Octavia » Sat Sep 28, 2019 2:09 pm

A quick hi from me. Haven’t been posting for a little while - you know, unmotivated about No S-related stuff, stressed at work, got a cold, really enjoying breaking No S rules, blah blah! Anyway I’m relating to a lot of the things you’ve said recently Linda. Especially those feelings of insecurity when faced with a person who looks great while mowing her lawn and cleaning her pool and is too busy to go to a wine tasting with you. Ugh!

Interesting that your determination has returned, to try IF again with a fresh attitude. Perhaps it’s part of the natural rhythm of life, we need breaks to gather our strength. And try again. I think I’m being a bit like that right now. I suddenly felt under-nourished and tired of making a daily effort to eat less. I needed a break. And maybe to come up with a fresh plan. I read a bit of Kayla Cox’s book today, and one thing that stuck out was the fact that she realised she had to figure out her own plan. After all, that’s what all the diet gurus had done, whom she’d consulted over the years. Even Reinhardt invented his own plan! Maybe we should, too? Something that works with our own strengths and weaknesses, lifestyles, health troubles. I’m certainly thinking about this at the moment.

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Post by automatedeating » Sat Sep 28, 2019 4:12 pm

For what it's worth, Octavia and Linda - I think making our own plan is really what we all here are doing - it's just that we all haven't necessarily found the "magic" plan, so we use these threads as our tracking of various experiments until we find what works.
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Post by lpearlmom » Sun Sep 29, 2019 2:21 pm

So good to see you here Octavia! I agree about making one’s own plan. I guess thats what we’re all trying to do to some extent or another. I know it’s crazy that I'm doing IF again but i was gaining weight with no end in sight without it. Also, when i went back and read my thread, I realized how happy i was fasting till the very end. I was trying to lose weight too fast than was comfortable for my body and it rebelled. Im hoping i can take what i learned and do a better job this time. I think you were smart to take a little break. I wish i had taken a small break sooner instead of waiting till i felt completely burnt out and then quitting altogether. I also gained all the weight I’d lost on IF. If i had just taken a week or two off, id probably have only gained a few lbs. Lesson learned (hopefully).


Anyway, yesterday was interesting. My reflux is miraculously a lot better—yay! We went out with our friends and Im trying to pinpoint what bothers me so much about my one friend. On the one hand, shes a very kind person. She's so kind to my kids and when my mom was watching our house she had her over for dinner. On the other hand, I always feel bad about myself after Im with her and i don't really know why. For one thing she never compliments me even though Im always complimenting her on stuff. Shes the type that will say “you cut your hair” and leave it at that. Or like last night I was showing our friends my new purse and she said “I like yours” to our friend next to us. A little thing but she does that all the time. I also feel like she tries to act like she’s got this special relationship with our husbands. She used to work for mine and now works for our mutual friend’s husband. She’ll gleefully tell me how our friend is so jealous of her spending time with our friend’s husband, but i can tell she enjoys it. She’ll also go out to dinner with our mutual friend & husband without me and then post pics on fb.

It’s a lot of little stuff but just always leaves me feeling worse when I'm with her. On the other hand she can be very kind & thoughtful. I think i just won’t be the one to make the plans anymore. Usually she’ll text me “we should go out to dinner soon” and ill be the one to set everything up. If she wants to initiate & set up something, ill probably go and maybe just not sit next to her. I don't think i want to completely give up this friendship. I also adore her kids and our hubbys get along so that’s something to consider as well.

Anyway my weight was a new (current) low yesterday but not sure it’ll stick. I didn't eat much the day before because of my reflux. It’s on a general downward trend though so that’s good. Plus I have a plan for If/when it stalls. I have a list of small changes i can make every time my weight goes below 1/2 lb per week average loss.

Yesterday:

19/8
173.3 lbs

Snack (1pm): cup of oat milk, small bowl spaghetti squash
Dinner: grilled artichokes, grilled cauliflower, green salad ,and zucchini noodles w sauce and cheese, 2 glasses wine
Dessert: chocolate torta

Okay, off to get ready for our cookbook club!
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Post by lpearlmom » Mon Sep 30, 2019 5:08 am

Went to our cookbook club Brunch and had fun but im officially burnt out on other ppl. Can’t i just hang out with my dogs? Other ppl take SO much work! It’ll be nice to go on the cruise and get away from everyone for awhile.

13/5.5
174.2+lbs

Break (11am): all kinds of southern brunch food—grits, cornmeal waffles, collards, sweet potato pie...
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Post by lpearlmom » Tue Oct 01, 2019 5:17 am

Boy i sounded grumpy last night. I worked things out with my friend so i think we’re okay. I just overthink everything i guess.

Today was pretty good. Both my girls have been a bit emotional lately. Sweetpea is still having trouble at school and had a little breakdown last night. There’s a whole group of kids that just won’t even talk to her. She dreads going to school and im not sure what to do about it. It’s not like they’re out right bullying her but it’s more like a passive aggressive thing. I emailed the school and asked them to call me but not really sure what to say. I guess I’ll just ask if they have any ideas on how to make the situation better. *sigh*

And Rosebud told me she was just feeling sad for no apparent reason. Poor thing. I know how that is so I just gave her lots of cuddles. Hoping it’ll pass. As hard as it is seeing them sad, it’s so much easier to handle than when they’re angry. Maybe because women are taught they’re not supposed to get angry.

Anyway, lots to do this week before our cruise. Hopefully the government will still be intact when we return.

24/3
173.3

Break (430): yogurt parfait, handful nuts
Dinner: bowl of cauliflower soup, low carb quesadilla, watermelon
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You sound tired and needing some TLC yourself!! I think this cruise will be so great for you! Are the girls going too?
I think I asked once before about the dogs while you're gone.... you have a housesitter come stay normally, right?
Also, so nice to hear you got some relief from the reflux.
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Post by lpearlmom » Wed Oct 02, 2019 4:43 am

Omg, that’s definitely the case. Im exhausted. Today was another emotional rollercoaster with the girls. I’m too tired to go into it but I think we’ve finally worked it all out for now. Thank goodness tomorrow is late start. We can all sleep in an extra hour. 🙏 Then we judt have to get through Thursday and Fall break will begin!

Auto: yup, we are taking the girls and our moms. But we decided to splurge and get the girls their own room. That should make for some peace and quiet. Our neighbors daughter (she’s 25) watches our dogs and house for us. They love her and i trust her completely. It just means i have to make sure the guest areas are ready and the frig is clean etc.

I don't have the energy to go into everything that went on today but I’ve never been so happy to get into bed.

20/4
173.5 lbs

Break: (330) oat milk steamer, biscotti (so good)
Snack: cheese stick
Dinner: veggie burger w portobello bun, zucchini tots
Dessert: banana “ice cream”

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Oh, I so feel for you with the kids' emotional roller coaster. It takes such a toll on us as parents! I truly truly never understood - despite decades of hearing people joke about having teenagers.
I just never imagined that I would take all of it so personally and it would be the same kind of agony WE had in high school!!!!! (duh, right? but I didn't know...)
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Post by lpearlmom » Thu Oct 03, 2019 4:59 am

Thank you auto! I know, it’s so hard. I was just so so grateful for a zero drama day! And i got pretty much everything done that was on my list. I did ALL the laundry, cleaned out the frig, dealt with some last minute cruise stuff and even made dinner and took Rosebud to her piano lessons.

Tomorrow is grooming day—wax, nails, hair and even the dogs are getting a bath.

Im really glad the first day on the cruise is an at the sea day. I just want to Chillax.

21/3
171.3 lbs (heading in the right direction)

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Post by alene1 » Thu Oct 03, 2019 1:34 pm

Linda, teenagers are hard! How old are your kids? I have to say I am very glad to be past that point and able to enjoy them again. :) It will all be worth it when they're grown and you can enjoy more of a friend to friend relationship with them. I'm glad yesterday went so well! Where are you cruising? That will be a wonderful break for you.

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Post by lpearlmom » Fri Oct 04, 2019 6:29 am

They’re 14 & 16 so we are in the thick of it. Ive learned the less i say the better. When i do that they often come to their senses and apologize on their own. Im also having to learn to let go a bit. They really so not like to be coddled.

We’re going to cozumel & Yucatan. Im excited but getting ready is so much work! I hope it’s all worth it.

My reflux is back because the Starbucks lady accidentally gave me the wrong drink and it had coffee in it. 2 sips was all it took. Im so upset because i really do not want to go into this trip not feeling well. :/ im praying it’s better soon.

18/7
171.5

Break 1 pm: pumpkin spice steamer
Dinner: quesadilla

Wow I didn’t eat much today.

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Post by Octavia » Fri Oct 04, 2019 8:55 pm

Hope the reflux settles soon, Linda.
Have a great weekend.
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Post by lpearlmom » Sat Oct 12, 2019 3:09 am

Thanks Octavia! It took a few days but was fine during the trip.

We got back yesterday and wow, we had such a fun time! I was worried it wouldn’t be nice enough because I heard carnival isn’t exactly high class but we loved it. Doc and I got a suite and it was spacious and beautiful. We really loved having a balcony and it was a good place for the whole family to hang out. The girls had a small interior room but they were just happy to their own room. My mom & mil shared a room with an ocean view which was perfect because it had 2 wash rooms.

The food was delicious and we really looked forward to our nightly dinners. It was fun having the same table and waiters every night. They got to know what drinks we liked and made sure we had vegetarian food. Everyone talks about how much you eat on a cruise but I really didn’t find that to be true. We skipped breakfast every day and only had a light lunch. I did gain 3 lbs but I think that was mostly from all the fancy drinks as well as the nightly desserts.

We also got a lot of exercise by taking the stairs everywhere and both our excursions were very active. We did a lot of walking in Mayan ruins and some swimming through caves. It was so beautiful and my mom did great keeping up with us (she’s 80!). I’m super proud of how well o got along with my mil. Usually I let her get on my nerves and get all snappy with her but this time I just blew everything off. I just wanted her to have a good time and I think she did.

There was of course plenty of cheese factor but we just ignored that and enjoyed the nice parts. We loved to walk out on the deck at night and look at the stars and vast ocean. We also enjoyed having drinks in various spots (we got the drink package) and we also went to the spa a few times. I even got something like Botox. I never thought I do it but I decided to try it and omg what a difference it makes. I haven’t told anyone yet. They all think I just had a really good facial, lol.

Anyway, I’m so happy everything went so well and I’d love to go on another cruise at some point. Now it’s back to reality and I’m definitely doing a little comfort eating as I’m adjusting to the daily stresses of life. I did have a revelation of sorts as I realized how crazy it is that I spend my day’s trying to complete as many to do list tasks as possible. I decided I needed to add some things to that list that I can look forward to like spending time reading by the pool, watching a good movie or taking a bubble bath. I really need to make time for more pleasurable activities. What’s the point otherwise right? I’m trying to tell myself I’ll get to things when I get to them instead of stressing out over everything.

19/4.5
173.5

Break (3pm): bagel with cream cheese, yogurt, handful of cashews, grapes
Dinner: 1.5 veggie burgers on piece of sourdough, cheesey Brussel sprouts
Dessert: chilly cow, almond milk steamer
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Post by automatedeating » Sat Oct 12, 2019 3:35 pm

Bravo for an AWESOME trip! I couldn't be happy for your trip report! Everyone got along, your outings sound AMAZING (Mayan ruins are a dream trip for me), CAVE swimming (radical!!!)? Did you mom do the cave swimming too? I want to be that fit when I'm her age!!!!

And so glad the waiters were nice, the food service was excellent, you had a balcony, oh my gosh I want to give you a gladness hug.

Welcome back but I love your epiphany about having some self-care items on your daily list.

Smiles and hugs!
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Post by lpearlmom » Sun Oct 13, 2019 2:32 am

Thanks so much auto!! Was exactly what i needed. Money well spent for sure.

Today went well. I took Rosebud to her volunteer work and instead of trying to use that time to run an errand, I hung out at the bookstore and drank tea while reading. Well, actually i researched skincare products. Not sure why im so obsessed lately but hey it was fun.

Then i came home and relaxed a bit with doc before going to the store. I made a big dinner for us. Sweetpea’s bf and bff were over too. Im really enjoying cooking in a simpler way which is they way i think home cooking should really be. If you look at books like the Joy of cooking, everything is quite simple with a few special occasion meals thrown in.

I had a really hard time fasting today but did make it to 19 hrs. I was so hungry that i feel like i overcompensated by eating too much. Hopefully ill get back in the swing of things soon.

19/5
172.3

Break (3pm): pumpkin spice steamer, biscotti
Snack: beyond burger patty, grapes
Dinner: grilled veggies with yogurt dip, fried cauliflower rice with kimchi
Dessert: couple squares of dark chocolate, skinny cow ice cream sandwich

Walked dogs 🐕🐕
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Post by lpearlmom » Mon Oct 14, 2019 2:35 am

Ugh, ate too much today. Oh well, i guess that’s what weekends are for. I had a nice day just doing a few things around the house. I also spent some time by the pool playing sudoku (my latest obsession). The weather is finally cooling down and was really a beautiful day.

Tomorrow Rosebud goes back to school so it’s back to driving all day! Oh well at least I dont have to deal with them fighting in the morning since the Sweetpea has another week off.

19/5.5
170.5 (yay!)

Break(2pm): grilled veggies, couple handfuls of trail mix, 2 pieces of low carb bread w cream cheese
Snack: 2 apples
Dinner: artichoke, baba ganoush , veggies
Dessert: 2 froyo bars
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Post by lpearlmom » Wed Oct 16, 2019 5:57 am

Oh dear, today did not go well. I think there was a little wtf going on due to my frustration with my weight being up. I know Im being super impatient but ugh, ugh, ugh. It feels really unfair that this had to be so hard. I guess im feeling a little sorry for myself but back on the horse tomorrow.

Part of me wants to do something extreme to compensate for today’s indulgences, but I know that’s a recipe for disaster. IF worked for me before, i just have to stsy the course and be patient, right? Hopefully.

17/9.5
173.6 😢

A lot of food.

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Post by automatedeating » Fri Oct 18, 2019 1:16 am

Hugs to you, Linda.
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