automated eating tracker

Counting carbs/calories is a drag. Obsessive scale stepping is a recipe for despair. If you want to count something, "days on habit" is a much better metric. Checking off days on a calendar would do just fine, but if you do it here you get accountability and support. Here's how. Start a new topic in this forum called (say) "Your Name Daily Check In." Then every N day post a "reply" to that topic as to whether you stayed on habit. A simple "<font color="green">SUCCESS</font>" or "<font color="red">FAILURE</font>" (or your preferred euphemism if that's too harsh) is sufficient, but obviously you're welcome to write more if you want. On S-days just register that you're taking an S-day. You don't have to do this forever, just until you're confident you've built the habit. Feel free to check in weekly or monthly or sporadically instead of daily. Feel free also to track other habits besides No-s (I'm keeping this forum under No-s because that's what the vast majority are using it for). See also my <a href="/habitcal/">HabitCal</a> tool for another more formal (and perhaps complementary) way to track habits.

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Fri Jul 26, 2019 4:53 pm

Thank you Candace for your compassion.

The crazy thing is - the experience I described was just one of many, many upsetting situations from my childhood.

Friday, July 26

122.8

Fasting Blood Glucose: 100

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT oil (blood glucose mid-morning: 107)
L: yogurt w/berries (blood glucose post-lunch: 117 1 hr)
diet coke
D: (will be) buttery garlic chicken w/bacon
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Octavia » Sat Jul 27, 2019 8:25 am

Hope the family get together went OK!

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Sat Jul 27, 2019 2:30 pm

Thanks Octavia! Actually heading out the door right now. I decided just to stay one night, so it will be a quick visit!

Saturday, July 27

122.2

Fasting Blood Glucose: 96 (coming down a bit after just a couple lower-carb days, phew)

Kind of a lot of health things on the mind - but I'll write about those next week.

Eating Today will be unpredictable
B: coffee w/milk, coffee/ collagen protein + MCT oil
L: bacon & gruyere eggs at Starbuck's, latte
D: salad and then popcorn at the movies, diet soda
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by lpearlmom » Sun Jul 28, 2019 7:25 am

Im glad you’re keeping it short. Hope it goes okay as well. 💜
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Octavia » Sun Jul 28, 2019 4:33 pm

Short is good! I have become the queen of the Flying Visit. The idea of a single ‘landlocked’ day brings me out in a cold sweat :lol:

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Mon Jul 29, 2019 3:02 pm

Thanks Linda and Octavia. The short visit was very uneventful emotion-wise, thankfully. :-)
The "Flying" Visit - ha!

Here's a good example of the dysfunctional conversations in my family (yes, my dysfunctions most definitely included):

Auto's Oldest Sister: "Middle sister is arriving tonight!"
Auto: "Oh, I'm leaving just as your "favorite" sister arrives!"
Auto's Dad: "Well, it's your own fault! You're the one that decided to take this CNA class instead of spend time with your sisters!"

Yeah. So that's how we go. I immediately regretted my own words to Oldest Sister - they were obviously unkind and from a place of my own insecurities. I texted her and apologized but haven't yet talked with her. And my Dad, I realize, is constantly making comments like the one above. I'm starting to realize that the Dad I always thought was so confident in himself is actually incredibly insecure too. We are a family of a wiggling mass of fears.

I've been specifically working on a few memories/issues related to rejection fears. The issue feels too big to fix at this point. As a comparison, I have made some progress on memories where I felt sadness.

During the day with my family, I got in touch a tiny bit with the anger I felt when my dad would criticize me. Growing up, that emotion would quickly be squashed under shame. So I thought it was kinda cool to see that my counseling is really helping me get to the "core emotion" hidden, in this case, anger. Expressing anger at my parents, particularly my Dad, was out of the question when growing up. That would have risked breaking my connection with a parent and no kid wants to do that! Thus, the inhibitory emotions of shame & guilt cover up the anger, so much so that eventually I didn't even feel it.

Monday, July 29

123.2

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen & MCT oil
L: cheese & salami (post - lunch blood glucose: 105)
D: chicken parmesan w/bacon, broccoli w/ranch
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Tue Jul 30, 2019 2:34 pm

Tuesday, July 30

123.2

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen + MCT oil
L: yogurt w/berries (post-lunch blood glucose: 107)
decaf coffee w/milk
diet coke
D: broccoli smothered in cheese + steak (post-dinner blood glucose: 100) :mrgreen:
sparkling water
91 days alcohol free.
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Candace » Tue Jul 30, 2019 5:06 pm

Giant salad sounds good.

Seems like you're doing really well!
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Wed Jul 31, 2019 2:13 am

Well, I ended up with broccoli again instead of salad. :-) But it was good too.
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8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by lpearlmom » Wed Jul 31, 2019 5:29 am

It sounds like a lot of passive aggressive stuff going on maybe? Im really impressed with your willingness to work through this difficult family stuff. So if theres a middle child does that mean theres 3 of you or is there some brothers too? I guess i assumed you had a really large family as I'm still trying to wrap my head around how you were left behind on more than one occasion. Im even more baffled by your mom going to sleep before you even got back home.

Anyway, I get the abandoned stuff being hard. My mom used to leave me alone for hours on end and that memory is still painful after all these years. I love my mom and ive forgiven her but it still hurts. *sigh*

You’re doing great and having a lot of great insights. I think it’s so important to look at childhood trauma with our adult eyes so we can come to realize this stuff didn’t happen to us because there was something wrong with us but, more likely, because of our parents inability to give us what we needed for whatever reason. It’s hard to see that when you’re a child depending on these same grown ups for survival.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Wed Jul 31, 2019 2:04 pm

Thank you Linda! There are 4 of us kids in my family - girl, boy, girl, girl (that's me, the last one!)

You are so right on with your comments in the last paragraph. You sound like my therapist! :-) Hey, there's a thought for something you might enjoy at some point in your journey! I could TOTALLY see you rocking the therapy world. :-)

I had another great appointment yesterday. It makes such a difference to have a counselor that you can really start to trust. I say "start" because that has been the ultimate big epiphany. I don't "trust" anyone to not reject or abandon me. Working on it! I'm doing a type of therapy called "emotionally focused" and you can get the gist of it by reading (and rereading, as I've done, ha!) that amazing book I keep recommending: It's not always depression. And the best part is that I can already see fruit of my labor in my connection with my kids. Like actually and true almost immediate differences - we are connecting! It's amazing and I see it as my main life focus for the rest of the my life. For those of you that have been emotionally connecting with others your whole life, wow! It makes life that much sweeter. During my session yesterday, at the beginning, I could tell I was opening up more than normal because I get the shakes! I'm not kidding you! It's happened at other times in my life, too, like after an emotionally-laden conversation with a friend or something, and usually while walking (so I don't have to make as much eye contact). Anyway, apparently the mere act of sharing my emotions with another human terrifies me to the point that I tremble.

No wonder I love this forum so much. I get to share with others but without you all really "seeing" me for fear of the judgement that would ensue. Although even on here, once in a while I get this paralyzing fear that I wrote something that will make one of you stop liking me.

Wednesday, July 31

122.0

Last day of CNA labs - tomorrow I start in the nursing home for 5 days!

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen and MCT oil
L: yogurt w/berries (blood sugar pre-dinner: 91)
diet coke
D: Sexy has been making dinners for us a lot lately, and I just gratefully eat whatever he provides - tonight was chicken fake-fettucine (something he calls the "miracle noodle"/AKA Shirataki noodles) alfredo. It was delicious and incredibly filling!
decaf coffee w/milk
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Soprano » Wed Jul 31, 2019 2:14 pm

I can't imagine not liking you ever :)

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Wed Jul 31, 2019 3:45 pm

Hugs, Soprano. Thank you.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Candace » Wed Jul 31, 2019 4:09 pm

Soprano wrote:
Wed Jul 31, 2019 2:14 pm
I can't imagine not liking you ever :)

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+1
I haven't been around very long, but it's clear to me that you're one of the good ones.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Thu Aug 01, 2019 12:55 am

Ah Candace thank you too. The support on this forum really is something special.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by lpearlmom » Thu Aug 01, 2019 4:14 am

Oh I’m the baby too! I guess I was thinking more like 8-10 kids and maybe two cars. Anyway, I won’t dwell on it.

Ditto what everyone else said, you’re such a warm, supportive & all around lovely person. This forum wouldn’t be the same without you and I’m so happy you’re feeling comfortable opening up to us a bit. I know it’s really helped me to have a place where I can just be completely & totally honest. We don’t get to do that too often in real life. 💜
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Fri Aug 02, 2019 1:28 am

Linda, It's OK for you to dwell on it; I think I enjoy the sympathy! :-)
And the support from you and everyone else here really does emphasize how special this forum is to me! I definitely don't take it for granted.

Thursday, August 1

First day at the nursing home went great! I took lots of blood pressures and other vital signs and helped with feeding the residents. I enjoyed interacting with them so much more than I was expecting. I like that I can pat their shoulders or their arms and give them the care of touch. It surprises me. I thought that touching them would be the scariest part.

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein and MCT oil
L: yogurt w/berries, diet coke
D: date night! I got trout & double serving of broccolini, plus quite a few bites of Sexy's steak gorgonzola salad. :-)
I'm going to make a cup of decaf coffee w/milk in a bit, then head up to read Harry Potter with Creator and hopefully hit the hay early. Up at 4am again for day 2 at the nursing home.
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Candace » Fri Aug 02, 2019 2:00 am

Amazing work at the nursing home. Fantastic that you're enjoying parts of it more than you thought you would! I bet the residents love you too.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Sat Aug 03, 2019 2:26 am

Day 2 at the nursing home over! It went well but I am so tired. Getting up at 4am has definitely worn me out. I look forward to hitting the hay tonight and sleeping until I wake up naturally tomorrow.

Friday, August 2
Fasting blood glucose (at 4am): 104, holy crap!

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT oil
L: yogurt w/berries, diet coke
D: chicken alfredo w/fake fettucine again (Miracle Noodles/Shirataki noodles) and a giant salad
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Sat Aug 03, 2019 2:31 pm

My dentist is having me wear a pulse oxymeter for 3 nights in a row to check for sleep apnea. If I have it, he will modify my new bite guard to supposedly help keep my airway open during the night. I'll let you know the results, probably coming in a few weeks.

Saturday, Aug 3

122.6
Fasting Blood Glucose: 96

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT oil
L: yogurt w/berries, diet coke, some chocolate (post-meal blood glucose: 139)
D: ground beef with more of those Miracle noodles; I also added cheese and guacamole
decaf coffee w/milk
Sexy made some sort of keto brownies. They tasted like.... well, like they didn't have any sugar in them. So I had a scoop of ice cream with them. :-)
decaf coffee w/milk needed after that....
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Candace » Sat Aug 03, 2019 3:07 pm

Good luck with the sleep apnea experiment. My brother wears a CPAP machine when he sleeps. He says it's made a huge difference for him.

Getting up so early does sound extremely rough! I bet you're growing by leaps and bounds for doing this though. I hope you get good sleep and opportunities to decompress.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Sun Aug 04, 2019 1:38 pm

morning BP: 103/57
morning FBG: 104
weight: 122.2

Sunday, Aug 4

My fasting blood glucose has been at 104 twice this week, and the high 90's the other two times I tested.

As I brainstorm, I consider that the mild worsening of my blood sugar control could be attributed to the following:
*major loosening on the amount of sugar on the weekends in the past few months
*diet soda (yes, believe it or not I've read that it can worsen insulin resistance)

*not exercising normally (although I have been very active this summer, just not my normal long walk/jogs)
*stress of sleep deprivation
*stress of work in the nursing home (new experiences)

*Alcohol was probably muting my liver's gluconeogenesis in the early-morning hours, so now that I've quit, I'm seeing the full extent of my liver's capacity for pumping out sugar the wee hours, ignoring insulin for all its worth. :-)
*Are the sugars in my milk and yogurt too much for my body to handle at this point?

So those are my ideas. I have highlighted in GREEN the ones choose to improve right away.
Highlighted in BLUE are the ones that will fix themselves naturally within a week or so.
I have highlighted in RED the one that terrifies my if it were to be true and even has me feeling sorry for myself. I'm going to give this some time and not make any adjustments to my yogurt or coffee w/milk until maybe another month has passed.

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT oil
L: burrito bowl at Taco del Mar - cheese, double portion of ground beef, guacamole, onions, salsa, sour cream, cabbage, and lettuce
dessert 1: a low carb chocolate almond bar (another Sexy purchase). This one was actually really good! And it won't wonk out my blood sugar so I am so happy to have at least one excellent dessert option on my S days. I recommend it if you are interested: Dark Chocolate w/ Sea Salt Sugar Free Choc Zero w/Almonds. No artificial sweeteners or Sugar Alcohols. Quite honestly, I'm not sure how they made it taste so good.
The ingredients are: Dark chocolate, Soluble corn fiber, almonds, sea salt, sunflower lecithin, monk fruit extract, madagascar vanilla beans.
D: pizza on low-carb crust (another of Sexy's purchases).
dessert 2: 2 keto brownies w/whipped cream on top - the brownies actually tasted good this way.
decaf coffee w/milk

Moving
Jogged 2 shelter dogs (Millie and Zeuss)

And now to try to go to sleep early enough to get at least 6 hours of sleep tonight. :wink:
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by lpearlmom » Sun Aug 04, 2019 2:48 pm

Good for you for brainstorming and trying to think about this logically. I have heard the theory that sugar substitutes can cause an insulin response in some ppl. Doc seemed doubtful when i told him this but it may be worth considering.

Im sad for you too. You've made so many positive changes. It doesn’t seem fair. :(

I hope you figure out a relatively painless solution. Have you asked your doctor or want to wait on that?
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Candace » Sun Aug 04, 2019 4:06 pm

automatedeating wrote:
Sun Aug 04, 2019 1:38 pm
morning BP: 103/57
morning FBG: 104
weight: 122.2

Sunday, Aug 4

My fasting blood glucose has been at 104 twice this week, and the high 90's the other two times I tested.

As I brainstorm, I consider that the mild worsening of my blood sugar control could be attributed to the following:
*major loosening on the amount of sugar on the weekends in the past few months
*diet soda (yes, believe it or not I've read that it can worsen insulin resistance)

*not exercising normally (although I have been very active this summer, just not my normal long walk/jogs)
*stress of sleep deprivation
*stress of work in the nursing home (new experiences)

*Alcohol was probably muting my liver's gluconeogenesis in the early-morning hours, so now that I've quit, I'm seeing the full extent of my liver's capacity for pumping out sugar the wee hours, ignoring insulin for all its worth. :-)
*Are the sugars in my milk and yogurt too much for my body to handle at this point?

So those are my ideas. I have highlighted in GREEN the ones choose to improve right away.
Highlighted in BLUE are the ones that will fix themselves naturally within a week or so.
I have highlighted in RED the one that terrifies my if it were to be true and even has me feeling sorry for myself. I'm going to give this some time and not make any adjustments to my yogurt or coffee w/milk until maybe another month has passed.

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT oil
L: (will be)
D: (will be)
Brava to you for your approach, and especially for being vigilant of your blood sugar. I have no idea what mine is, and my dad has Type 2 diabetes. I bet if you can make some changes in the green areas, you won't even have to consider the red ones. I wonder if there's any other way to reduce your fasting blood glucose in a healthy way, without giving up the things in red? A Google search suggests that increasing fiber, drinking plenty of water, and exercising regularly may all help with fasting glucose. Maybe add a serving of beans, broccoli or similar sometime during the week? I hope it's not presumptuous to make these suggestions. Milk and yogurt are supposed to be good for you, and if you're used to eating them and maintaining a healthy weight, it seems like you should be able to keep having them!
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Mon Aug 05, 2019 11:12 pm

Linda - thank you for the sympathy (it is exactly what I needed, I think - a little permission to feel sorry for myself for a little while!) - I'm trying to eliminate diet soda altogether but there are some days (like today) when it just really hits the spot. But I think I'll get there. And my docs are generally supportive - maybe I'll get some new ideas soon.

Candace - good reminder about the great effects exercise has on my blood glucose control. I'm just too dang tired to run right now, but I only have 2 more days of clinicals and then I will aim to get back to my normal routine. It would be very encouraging if that alone brings my blood sugar down in the morning. I do get gobs of water already, and decent amount of fiber, but many days I forget my soluble fiber supplement. Also a good reminder - thank you.

Monday, Aug 5

123.4

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT oil
L: yogurt w/berries, diet coke
1 glass of milk after work as I wait for dinner
D: bunless cheeseburger (guac, pickles, onion, tomato, bacon) + giant kale salad
decaf coffee w/milk
P.S. Dealing with cravings tonight - not having the Diet Sprite crutch and the Wine Witch actually reared its ugly temptress head! Grrr.
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Soprano » Tue Aug 06, 2019 4:58 am

Have you tried sparkling water? Add ice and slice of fruit or even a drop of fruit juice :)

I find it very refreshing and feels more like a treat than still..

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Candace » Tue Aug 06, 2019 1:11 pm

Best of luck with the cravings. Big hugs. You're doing so much and making lots of smart moves to take care of yourself. It's really tough to keep everything in line all the time. Sometimes the lower priority things will take less precedence. That's okay. You've got a lot of balls in the air.

I admire the work you're doing now. But it sounds like it's a lot to add to your normal routine. I hope you get a little time to decompress soon.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Wed Aug 07, 2019 1:37 am

Hi Soprano - yes, I do like sparkling water, but it is not quite the sweet boom of a diet soda. But I didn't have any diet soda today, just sparkling water. Progress. It's like I substituted one addiction (diet sprite) for another (wine!). But working on it.

Thank you Candace for the kind and encouraging comments. Tomorrow is my last day of clinicals! After that I need to study for and take the state test, but otherwise I'll be done. I'll basically have 3 weeks off with my kids before they head back to school. My family and my parents and my brother will be at the coast for 2 nights. Another family reunion..... :shock:

Tuesday, Aug 6

123.0

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT oil
L: yogurt w/berries, sparkling water
coffee w/cream
D: turkey sandwich (pickles, guacamole, bacon, cheese, tomato) on homemade low-carb bread (Sexy made it - yes he is on some sort of kick, but I'll take it).
more sparkling water
decaf coffee w/cream

Did I mention that Sexy hasn't been drinking either? He stopped June 21st. He's been working out, eating homemade meals, and has lost 20 pounds since spring. He hasn't been this trim since college.

I had another amazing counseling appt. We worked on some 4th grade rejection issues. I had been doing some drawing and journaling about things and getting down to core emotions, etc. The counselor mentioned at one point that it seemed I've possibly found a "trauma network" related to this rejection stuff. What I do know is that this work is lightening my soul. I emerge from each session (by myself and then just once a week with him) having validated some long-dismissed feeling, and it is like having a healing river wash over me. Very practically, it's helping me interact better in my daily situations. Sometimes I need to steal away for a moment to take some deep breaths and sink into the core feeling and validate it (for example, disgust at the CNA teacher that was putting the students down) - Once I've acknowledged how I felt, I am able to continue on feeling free of the pull of my reactive and defensive self. This happens lots with parenting too.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Soprano » Wed Aug 07, 2019 4:16 am

I suspect most of us will always find something to be addictive to, the healthier the substance the better though.

Problem is defining healthy and I suppose any addiction isn't really healthy. Gosh life is so complicated sometimes..

Your self awareness is amazing. So pleased the counselling is helping :)

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by lpearlmom » Wed Aug 07, 2019 5:54 pm

So glad you had another wonderful counseling session. Oh that childhood stuff can effect us far and wide I know. It’s not easy to face these issues. You should be proud.

Btw, what about stevia sweetened diet sodas? I know some theorize it has less of an insulin effect. I found this video interesting: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=lSJvIu5jRNw

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Wed Aug 07, 2019 11:50 pm

Linda - I followed that link and now I think I know how I'm going to spend my time after dinner! LOL, watching more of those 2 fit docs! I put it on 2X speed and zoom through. These self-experimenters are my kind of people! :-)
I appear to be one of the people that doesn't have the metabolism to deal well with artificial sweeteners!

Thanks Soprano for the compliment about my self-awareness. 8)

I finished my CNA class! I'm so thrilled about my accomplishment and I'm so glad I did this! I have so many ideas for bringing these ideas into my classroom.

Wednesday, August 7

122.6

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT oil
L: yogurt w/berries
decaf coffee w/cream
D: fried tilapia "breaded" with pork rinds (Sexy again). Giant kale salad
(will have) one more decaf coffee w/cream after dinner

I have three glorious weeks of vacation to spend with my boys.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Candace » Thu Aug 08, 2019 12:55 am

Wonderful stuff! I wish you the best of times during your vacation. Congratulations on your accomplishments!
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by lpearlmom » Thu Aug 08, 2019 2:36 am

Glad you enjoyed the video. Thought it might be up your alley!

Yay for vacation and for finishing your class! Enjoy your time with your boys.
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THE 100 DAY ALCOHOL - FREE REPORT

Post by automatedeating » Thu Aug 08, 2019 3:37 pm

THE 100 DAY ALCOHOL - FREE REPORT

122.2
Fasting Blood Glucose: 99
Morning Blood Pressure: 105/67

I really do think that giving up alcohol is why my morning blood glucose has gone up (although I'm hoping it's relatively temporary). It's well-described that alcohol lowers fasting blood glucose, but I don't think it's worth it for me to drink wine at night just to get better numbers. I'm not sure what the future holds with alcohol and me, but right now I am not inclined to break my streak.

Reflecting on my time without alcohol, here are some observations at this point in the game:

1. I sleep better.

2. I NEVER wake up nauseated, or anxious, or guilty, or with insomnia at 3 in the morning! And this was common before quitting.

3. I DO unfortunately wake up with headaches more now (ironic, isn't it)? At this point my working hypothesis is that I grind my teeth more when I am alcohol-free. And I just finished wearing a pulse oxymeter three nights in a row; my dentist is going to download the data and see if there's any sign of sleep apnea. So take-home here - quitting alcohol may have unmasked more health things that I am now attending to.

4. My kidneys don't hurt any more (it's a dull ache in my lower back, usually right side), which may or may not be related - my kidney function has not improved on paper, but it's nice to have the aches go away.

5. I had to go back in my NoS game because quitting alcohol left a void that I was tempted to fill with ice cream and candy, etc. Some days I gave in more than others, especially at the beginning. I switched to using diet soda to satisfy the cravings, but then realized I needed to avoid that becoming a pattern. So now I'm using the diet soda only for those days when I really need it. No more free for all.

6. My weight has been a little less stable since quitting alcohol. I think lots of water shifting around, plus some over-the-top S Days and some not-so-great N Days. But at 100 days out, I'm thrilled that I didn't gain a ton of weight. On the Coach.me app, some of my buddies there have lost tons of weight since quitting. That's not me, but I was at a healthy weight to start, so that probably explains it! :-)

7. Quitting alcohol propelled me on a new phase of my life as far as spiritual and emotional growth goes. I started seeing the therapist specifically to stay alcohol free, and anyone reading here knows that my therapist and I talk about my childhood, and my parenting. All excellent progress. I feel more equipped and capable of meeting the emotional needs of my children. And everyone I care about, actually.

8. Similar to above, the same practices that are helping me attune to my family and friends are helping me in daily events when I get triggered - at work with a colleague or boss, etc. Again, I feel more competent and stable and less likely to be reactive when I feel unexpected emotions.

9. I have been reading SO MUCH MORE. I got a Kindle Paperwhite and I pay for Kindle Unlimited - I read fun books (Witches Reign by Shannon Mayer for anyone looking for a romping good time) - I read self-help books (It's Not Always Depression by Hilary Jacobs Hendel), and I read psychological thrillers or whatever literary fiction is most highly recommended. Additionally, I upped our family's Audible subscription and I have been listening to books while driving this summer (the class I was taking put my in the car for a couple of hours a day). Now that the class is done, I think the listening will be on my walk/jogs in the morning.

10. I am cleaning my house more, taking care of my yard more, and preparing for work days the night before. In general, getting the kids to and from all their various places is just easier now. I don't feel resentful about our schedule anymore. I feel like I have so much more time in each day.

11. I'm filled with excitement about the future. I loved my CNA class this summer, and now I'm considering whether to take a sabbatical at work to get my M.A. (medical assisting). Another idea bouncing around is to get another Master's Degree, this time in Medical Nutrition (Arizona State has a fully online degree). Not sure yet which direction to go, but I'll be pondering these ideas over the next couple of months (the sabbatical application is due in October).

Thursday, August 8

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT
L: yogurt w/berries, a latte with a friend
D: fish fried in pork rinds
decaf coffee w/milk
Month/Year-BMI
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by jenji » Thu Aug 08, 2019 4:30 pm

Great assessment of what has changed for you with the alcohol-free habit. I am so proud of you for the therapy, and I am inspired. I am making a big life change with my work, and I think that therapy would be good for me, too.

I know that exercise has a big impact on blood sugar, although I am not knowledgeable enough about resting blood sugar to know if it carries over to that. I suspect you know the answer to that. Either way, it sounds as though you anticipate exercise returning to your routine soon.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Candace » Fri Aug 09, 2019 12:45 am

WOW. Just wow. I'm just floored by your first 100 days! The list goes on and on. Amazing! I hope you give yourself a big pat on the back and do something enjoyable to mark the occasion.

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Fri Aug 09, 2019 1:52 pm

Thanks Jen! It feels pretty great, actually. I already went on my walk/jog this morning! So yes - hopefully back in the regular exercise saddle. :-) And I totally absolutely think therapy is great for pretty much everybody. I do think this time I'm making much more progress because the particular counselor I'm working with is very good at helping me with my major trouble spot (which is actually feeling my feelings rather than just trying to "observe" my feelings from the thinking throne of my brain, haha). I've been to counselors in the past and I've ended up just giving reports and managing to still keep my actual feelings at bay. And having feelings in FRONT of another person is just terrifying for me - so vulnerable. Anyway, sorry to ramble there but I think it's great that you might go. My insurance covers most of it so I only have to pay $30/session, which is excellent. I will be very interested to hear about your job changes. I know you have been very busy with your non-profit, and a lot of the work has been in the evenings. So I will be curious to hear about any changes!'

Candace - thank you! I really am proud of myself. What's also funny is that I started therapy to get support to stay alcohol-free, and yet we NEVER talk about alcohol. It's as if both my counselor and I know that the alcohol was just something I had to swoop aside so I could experience my feelings instead of numbing them. The alcohol was just a distraction to my living.

Friday, August 9

121.8
Fasting Blood Glucose: 103

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT oil, bacon
L: yogurt w/berries
coffee w/milk
D: low-carb homemade pizza (yep - Sexy), followed by a few tortilla chips w/artichoke cheese dip, then I couldn't resist and tried his new low-carb dessert (which was good, it was sort of like a brownie). Too much food tonight.
decaf coffee w/milk

Moving
walk/jog w/HappyHerder
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Sat Aug 10, 2019 1:58 pm

Saturday, August 10 - S DAY

122.8
Fasting Blood Glucose: 104
Then I went running and it went UP to 111. :|

Eating
B: coffee w/half and half, keto bark (chocolate w/almonds)
L: tortilla chips w/artichoke cheese dip, low-carb dessert w/whipped cream, Doritos, another - different - low-carb dessert made by Sexy - pumpkin cheesecake. today is a grand taste-test of his strange sugar-free options. They are actually pretty good, but I am not normally inclined to eat foods that try to pretend to be other foods.... he is more interested in that approach than me. I think I will just not complain if he is doing the cooking. :lol:
decaf coffee w/milk
D: carne asada on a giant salad with the obligate guacamole. :-)
bone broth (trying to start having a cup of this every day....hard habit to get into for some reason. I am neutral about the taste. That's probably why.)
one more piece of keto bark

Moving
walk/jog w/HappyHerder
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Candace » Sat Aug 10, 2019 10:28 pm

Keto bark sounds yummy.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Sun Aug 11, 2019 2:14 am

Yeah, Candace it is surprisingly amazing. I would pick it over a regular almond chocolate bark.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by 3squaremeals » Sun Aug 11, 2019 6:22 am

Yum that keto bark sounds good. I love making my own chocolate bark and adding lots of yummy things like coconut, dried cranberries, pepita's, nuts etc.

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Sun Aug 11, 2019 1:11 pm

3Squares - I am not surprised you make your own chocolate bark. :-) You are quite the baker/chef/candlestick maker. :lol:

Sunday, August 11 - S Day

123.6
Fasting Blood Glucose: 105

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen + MCT oil
dessert 1: 2 brownie-type desserts
L: bacon, eggs, & 1/2 an English muffin
dessert 2: strawberry sundae from costco
D: keto bark, pumpkin cheesecake
decaf coffee w/milk
(will have) bone broth after dinner

Moving
walk/jog w/HappyHerder
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by lpearlmom » Sun Aug 11, 2019 2:26 pm

Omgosh congrats on a 100 days!! 🎉🥳 That is amazing and your list just blows me away. So much good has come from your alcohol free days. You definitely should feel proud as i know how hard you had to fight to get to this place. I love that you just dont give up.

Great plan on not complaining as long as sexy is cooking. How nice! Interesting that alcohol doesn’t really come up during your counseling sessions. I remember how surprised i was that food and weight never came up when i was in therapy. I guess sometimes the stuff we focus in is really just a symptom of larger issues.

Youve come so far these last several months. I look forward to watching your journey progres. Keep up the great work! 💜
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by oolala53 » Mon Aug 12, 2019 10:06 pm

I sure have missed a lot, but will jump in any way.

I took a webinar recently on dealing with past negative influences and it seemed to me that the teacher/therapist (he deals mostly with addicts) implied that the most important work to be done is on this side, meaning with oneself. So even if the others don't make much of an opening, healing can happen. But as someone who hasn't even considered going to visit an older sister for a few years, even though we've had good telephone conversations and some visits at her children's, I get how sticky it can feel. Why can't they just think like me and do it my way?????

And I didn't have such obviously negating experiences, though you might not know that by the levels of fear, shame, anxiety, etc., I do contend with. I can get offended just like that! But I"d say from my meditation/Buddhist exposure that we don't have a lock on all that, though apparently the Dalai Lama has been shocked by the level of self-hatred Westerners reveal to him. But fear for this mortal self /identity has been around for the ages, it would seem.

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Tue Aug 13, 2019 12:33 am

Thanks Linda and Oolala! I sort of swing from feeling some pride and joy at my progress, to feeling overwhelmed or despairing at where I am at; this is particularly more likely to occur if I begin ruminating on the mistakes I've made as a parent.

Monday, August 12

123.4
Fasting Blood Glucose: 107

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/cream, caesar salad w/beef strips
L: yogurt w/berries
decaf coffee w/collagen protein + MCT
D: caesar salad w/beef strips
chicken broth w/cream

Moving
Long walk/jog w/ Happy Herder - discovered a new set of trails not too far from my house!

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Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Candace » Tue Aug 13, 2019 1:34 am

I hope you're enjoying all the exercise, especially the new trails!
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Soprano » Tue Aug 13, 2019 12:13 pm

Don't ruminate on parenting mistakes, I've been doing a bit of that lately!!

I'd love to have some of my time again to do it differently but we can't and have to accept that and get better going forward :)

Like all of us you did the best you could at the time, no one can ask more....

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Tue Aug 13, 2019 1:54 pm

Candace - the new trails are so exciting! I love having new routes for my morning walk/jogs - and if I can be in the woods for most of it, I am a happier and healthier person.

Soprano, thank you. No more ruminating for either of us! :-) We can put that energy into forging greater connection with our children right now. Today. Whatever life stage they are at.

Tuesday, August 13
Heading to the beach for 2 nights!

123.8
Fasting Blood Glucose: 95

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT
L: (will be) yogurt w/berries, hopefully a latte
D: (will be) grilled hot dogs at the beach (driving day)
hopefully decaf coffee w/cream
possibly a s'more. :-)

Moving
Walk/jog w/HappyHerder before taking him to the boarding kennel!
Month/Year-BMI
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Candace » Tue Aug 13, 2019 2:57 pm

Enjoy, enjoy, enjoy the beach!
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by lpearlmom » Thu Aug 15, 2019 2:13 am

Gosh, i so get the guilt over your children. I was such an emotional wreck when my kids were young and it’s hard not to feel badly about it. I did a lot of inappropriate yelling & lashing out. I think it was a combination of sleep deprivation, hormones and generally feeling overwhelmed. Doesn’t excuse it of course but ive learned to forgive myself. And my kids seemed to have come out of it okay although i do blame myself, at least partially, for Sweetpea’s anxiety issues but that could be partly genetic too.

Anyway, the really important thing is that we’ve hung in there and tried to do better and be better for them. We’ve consistently provided food, shelter, education and the knowledge that they are loved. We’ve had many a sleepless nights worrying about their well being because we care and want with all our hearts a happy & fulfilling life for our babies. That is love and they can feel it in their bones no matter how many times we mess up. My girls have thrived and so will your boys. You are a good, thoughtful and loving mom. So forgive yourself because what your kids want most is a happy momma. 💜
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Fri Aug 16, 2019 4:15 pm

Thank you Linda. I love how you said "they can feel it in their bones". That gave me shivers.

Candace - beach was great! And family issues (parents/brother) were minimal to non-existent. I made sure to keep busy and focus on the kids (both mine and niece/nephew). That really helped, I think. Did lots of biking, playing in the waves, and went walk/jogging both mornings. Beautiful beach weather for the Northwest.

We got home late last night and I am not going to bother/try to list what I ate on vacation. I'd rather spend time journaling and preparing for my therapy appt tonight.

OK, so....

Friday, August 16
124.4
fasting blood glucose: 107

Eating
B: coffee w/ half 'n half, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT oil
L: yogurt w/berries (my blueberry bush this summer has been incredible - probably 10 pints or more - and my ever-bearing strawberries have STILL been producing, even in August!)
D: fried fish w/veggies
decaf coffee w/half and half

Moving
walk/jog w/HappyHerder!!!!!! Tired but will do this! Yep.

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Sat Aug 17, 2019 2:28 pm

Saturday, August 17

124.2
S Day!

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT
L: IHOP with Creator after school shopping - crepes w/strawberries (blood glucose up to 135 after this whale of a meal)
D: fried rockfish and steamed broccoli w/cheese
dessert: one of Sexy's newest sugar-free desserts w/a scoop of ice cream; sugar-free almond chocolate bar

Moving
walk/jog w/HappyHerder
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Candace » Sat Aug 17, 2019 4:50 pm

Hooray for S days! Today couldn't have come too soon for me.
53 year old female. Height 5' 5.5". Goal: 145 lb. Stretch goal: 140 lb.
Weight 6/14/2019: 155 lb.
8/3/2019: 151 lb.

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Sun Aug 18, 2019 2:47 pm

S Day Sunday! :-)

Sunday, August 18
124.4
Fasting Blood Glucose: 112

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT, bacon, eggs, and 1/4 of an apple
L: yogurt w/berries, latte
D: homemade pizza, 2 choc chip cookies, 1 brownie-type dessert w/whipped cream
decaf coffee w/ half and half

Moving
walk/jog w/HappyHerder, climbing w/Creator
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Mon Aug 19, 2019 3:33 pm

Monday, August 19

123.8
Fasting Blood Glucose: 102

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT oil
L: yogurt w/berries, a couple slices of apple
D: giant kale salad w/bacon bits & cheese
decaf coffee w/half & half

Moving
(will) walk/jog HappyHerder

PersonalLearning
Inspired by a few books, I reached out to some old friends via email this morning.
I've been reading so many books I am sure I have missed listing some key ones.
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Octavia » Mon Aug 19, 2019 4:24 pm

Hi Auto,
I’ve not been around for a while, but have been thinking about you, and my other good friends here on No S! First, belated congratulations over your amazing alcohol-free streak. I felt so inspired to read about all the benefits you’ve racked up. Especially the one about feeling there’s more time in the day to get things done - feeling less resentful about all the commitments in your busy life. I think I related very strongly to that. What’s particularly wonderful is that you’ve managed to keep No S going, while having all this other stuff to think about!

Many of us seem to be going through phases of reflection, dealing with pain from our past. I’m the same right now. I recently discovered The Anxiety Guy - podcasts by a guy called Dennis Simsek. His website is called Anxiety Exit. Now at first, I was very put off by his slightly poor use of words. He’s not at all grammatical, and sometimes his sentences don’t quite add up, as if he’s rambling off the top of his head. So it took me a while to realise that this guy really has something to say, and he goes a bit deeper than many anxiety experts, without making you feel as if you need a lifetime of Freudian therapy. I’ve started to realise how much shame and fear I hold within, how much lack of trust of my own decisions. But one thing I’ve noticed, across many of us on this board, is how we have made sure that our children have been better equipped for life, better supported than we were ourselves. We’ve managed to turn our negative experiences into benefits for our young ones! We should all be proud of this. :)

Now. If only I could stick to No S and lose a bit of weight. :lol: Rolls up sleeves.

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Candace » Tue Aug 20, 2019 1:51 pm

You are doing so great, auto! Your glucose was down yesterday and -- have you eliminated the diet soda? Wow. Fantastic.

How much do you think tracking your food and your numbers helps you? I've always read that a food log is one of the most important contributors for those who are successful. I find it a bit of a chore but I think it helps me.
53 year old female. Height 5' 5.5". Goal: 145 lb. Stretch goal: 140 lb.
Weight 6/14/2019: 155 lb.
8/3/2019: 151 lb.

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Tue Aug 20, 2019 2:18 pm

Octavia - thanks for that shout-out for The Anxiety Guy! I really enjoy podcasts on my walks.

Candace - I have pretty much eliminated the diet soda, but I'm not sure what is going on with my blood sugar. That 107 and 112 have literally been the highest fasting values I have EVER seen. A year ago, eating pretty much this same way, my fasting blood sugars were often in the 80's. I know there are many factors that could be involved - in fact, I've even wondered if my meter is off (it's a new one, so it certainly is possible that I didn't calibrate it properly or something). I've made an appt to get my A1C measured - that is an excellent way to gauge blood sugar averages over the past 3 months. That will help me decide if I really have a problem here. So I continue to try not to freak out, but it takes effort.

As far as journaling, it is my saving grace. I definitely was on an upward creep weight-wise (well, quitting alcohol threw me so off my eating game), and I think weighing daily (and my app graphs it) was able to help me avoid gaining a whole bunch of weight, which I promise you I could FEEL my body want to do. It was as if my set-point went back up 15 pounds when I wasn't drinking anymore. I sort of think things are settling down, but I remain vigilant. So journaling here is absolutely key to my success, and also to my peace of mind. I do some journaling on a private document, but this forum is where I often "put things together", and try to articulate where I'm at. My private journal sometimes looks like a hurricane of words and confusing images.

Tuesday, August 20

122.6
Fasting Blood Glucose: 103

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, coffee w/collagen protein + MCT
L: (will be) yogurt w/berries
D:

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Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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