Love these challenges! Fortunately, I've got my n days down (for now!) but need to be honest about s days. I'm handling food /party experiences better overall by eating slower and more mindfully on n days but s days still are a little willy-nilly. Doing a 5 s-events glass ceiling on s days to keep lots of freedom while maintaining reason.
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3-s day Both s days had more than 5 esses but I'm not beating myself up. A balance of Mindfulness and freedom is what I am striving for. 7 esses on sunday and although it's more than my goal of 5, I put the brakes on and I'm happy without deprivation. I also have two extra special s days so it's really hard to feel deprived.
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fail - all you can eat crab legs...too good to pass up. Had a WTH moment-halloween candy after dinner
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6-:D - this is definitely the hardest week yet. I'm very tempted by halloween candy. I had one red day already this week and I won't let myself have two!!
7-:D - made it through surrounded by tons of sweets tonight! Phew...one more day!
8-:D finally friday! I feel a little bingey for some reason and I know I'm going to eat some serious sweets tomorrow. I just want to enjoy while being kind to myself.
9-s day - 7 esses (exactly the junk I wanted)
10-s day - 3 esses - feeling much better about the coming week. Feeling like all the esses this weekend tamed the beast inside!!
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14-:D. weigh in 150 (-0.5)
15-s day my birthday!
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17-s day - let's just say not proud of the weekend.
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fail - had half a buttered corn muffin at my kindergarteners holiday feast. I wanted to try the homemade butter. In reality I didn't need to cheat to do it. Next time wrap it up to go!! Mark it and move on!! I will not have anymore Esses today because I want to practice one Ess a day. I did it!!
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23-s day - new plan - one ess a day. More moderation!! I know I'm going to have a hard time but I'm sure it won't last. I think I get anxiety worrying I'll pick the wrong ess.
24-s day
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fail ugh! What is happening!!?!
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fail another bad day. This is the worst i've been!
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fail baking got the best of me! I'm markig it and moving on.
28-s day Thanksgiving!
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fail ready for an N day! Lol!
30-s day - well, i think the idea of 1 ess a day got me all squirrelly. Not only did I NOT eat just one ess, I ate everything that wasn't nailed down. I was a bingey mess for the past week. I'm moving on to Dec with no s day limits. I just want to keep my habitcal green!