
But when we looked in the reflective wall of the lift on the way up to the restaurant, it was true: we aren't the same size, but we are both on the same scale now. And maybe she is right.
I'm certainly comfortable with what I weigh and how I look, despite being about 8-9kg (18-20 pounds) over what the BMI says my top weight should be. (Mind you, I was comfortable 50 pounds ago). But this isn't about losing weight anymore (if it ever primarily was) - it is about living this way, enjoying food, living somewhat mindfully, etc, etc. I'm not trying to lose weight - if it happens as a side effect, that's good, but I know its slowing down. I'm not running to lose weight but because I enjoy it, like going a little further and faster each week, feeling the high.
I don't want to be any particular weight now - the issues with that are all really consumer and availability issues: the really cool clothes are just coming into my reach, and I would like to be able to buy button-through shirts easily. Although, as my sister pointed out, that is what vests and cardigans are for.
So that's where I am at the moment
