Dealing with my first FAILURE day

mel1974c · Post by **mel1974c** » Thu Sep 18, 2008 6:01 pm

I was going along nicely yesterday - my first day after deciding not to do my daily check-ins as diligently as I have been. Breakfast and Lunch were my usual N day meals. I had just finished a disappointing dinner. And then, it happened - I opened the freezer and saw the cookies that I baked on Saturday. I grabbed a glass of milk and 2 of the cookies. And honestly, I thoroughly enjoyed them.

And then it hit me - my first FAILURE in over 9 weeks on NoS.

I was disappointed in myself. Immediately I went into guilt mode. Why did I eat them? I failed failed failed. And I hate to fail. I had just arranged to pick up my wedding dress and scheduled my first fitting for March. I will never reach my goals.

I called my fiancee and told him what happened. And I found myself saying to him that it was 1 day and that I'd be back on track tomorrow. I know it wasn't smart, but I enjoyed them and will move forward without beating myself up. I have moved on, but feel that I need to be extra diligent today.

I guess what I am feeling is normal... right?

thanks, melissa

Deedee · Post by **Deedee** » Thu Sep 18, 2008 6:24 pm

Hey Melissa,
Relax - it was 2 cookies and a glass of milk! It's a minor slip-up on the road called 'life'!
You've got a great habit formed - and one that you'll get back to. It's interesting that the slip-up happened after a disappointing meal.

It's so important eat what really appeals to you - that one plate has got to count!

Take it easy - perfectly normal - enjoy the process -

D

mel1974c · Post by **mel1974c** » Thu Sep 18, 2008 6:27 pm

Thanks Deedee I really appreciate your encouragement!

I have that oldest-child-have-to-be-hard-on-myself mentality. I need to make that behavior an S!

Melissa

babyprrr · Post by **babyprrr** » Thu Sep 18, 2008 7:05 pm

I think two cookies is a very minor slip up. At least you didn't go crazy and turn it into a full-scale binge!

wosnes · Post by **wosnes** » Thu Sep 18, 2008 8:17 pm

I've never understood why we expect to be perfect.

gratefuldeb67 · Post by **gratefuldeb67** » Fri Sep 19, 2008 2:12 am

Please keep it in perspective Melissa and don't panic!
You are doing great!
I have one failure on average a week and I just move on..
Great to be strict, which you are obviously, but no need for guilt here.
Man now I want cookies! LOL

Have a nice day and be very proud of your nine weeks on habit!
That's amazing!
Love

Debs

howfunisthat · Post by **howfunisthat** » Fri Sep 19, 2008 10:54 am

wosnes wrote:I've never understood why we expect to be perfect.

Wow! What a statement! That just sums up my whole LIFE!!! I think I need to ponder that today....it just hit me like a ton of bricks!

Melissa,

Nine weeks and two cookies? 63 Days and 2 cookies? That's not even a chocolate chip every day! To say you're doing wonderfully is an understatement. You're BETTER than normal...you're terrific!

janie

mel1974c · Post by **mel1974c** » Fri Sep 19, 2008 5:12 pm

Thanks to everyone who posted. Your posts are very encouraging.

I have long had a fear of failure - a fear of abandonment that has caused it. Everytime I think I am over it, I realize that I am not. But , life is a journey not a destination and I am still moving forward.

I am over the cookie incident. Tomorrow is an S Day and I will eat the last remaining cookie in the freezer and enjoy it.

Again thanks to janie, debs, wosnes and babyprrr for your posts.

~melissa