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 FINALLY just finished scanning in the last of the photos. What a project!! Whew! Now to start putting the video together. Painting nails and practicing with makeup tonight for my daughters Senior Prom which is tomorrow. Hair appointment in the morning. Savoring this time with her!!
 FINALLY just finished scanning in the last of the photos. What a project!! Whew! Now to start putting the video together. Painting nails and practicing with makeup tonight for my daughters Senior Prom which is tomorrow. Hair appointment in the morning. Savoring this time with her!! 

 Oh fun fun fun!
  Oh fun fun fun!


 
  ) and this weekend was different....more controlled. I found that treats that I planned on having just didn't taste as good as I thought they would. For example, the kids went to a discount store this week and brought home several boxes of poptarts. I saved one back for an S Day. Yesterday morning I decided to have them for breakfast. I toasted two. They honestly just weren't that good. I only ate one and was done.
 ) and this weekend was different....more controlled. I found that treats that I planned on having just didn't taste as good as I thought they would. For example, the kids went to a discount store this week and brought home several boxes of poptarts. I saved one back for an S Day. Yesterday morning I decided to have them for breakfast. I toasted two. They honestly just weren't that good. I only ate one and was done.  I just did not have the normal desire for sweets that I normally do on an S Day. I realize this may not be true for every weekend, but I'll take it for this weekend. There was even ice cream in the house, which I had no desire for.....and donuts. Never been a big fan of donuts though. I normally DO like ice cream though...especially chocolate moose tracks, but not this weekend. hmmm? Ok. this is the weird thing....it's actually a little bit sad to me that I didn't want it. WHY is that??? Hard to explain, but it's like something that has always been a pleasure and joy that I didn't want. I don't know...it's very hard to explain. Don't get me wrong I know it's a good thing, but at the same time there is a twinge of sadness. Just trying to be real here!
 I just did not have the normal desire for sweets that I normally do on an S Day. I realize this may not be true for every weekend, but I'll take it for this weekend. There was even ice cream in the house, which I had no desire for.....and donuts. Never been a big fan of donuts though. I normally DO like ice cream though...especially chocolate moose tracks, but not this weekend. hmmm? Ok. this is the weird thing....it's actually a little bit sad to me that I didn't want it. WHY is that??? Hard to explain, but it's like something that has always been a pleasure and joy that I didn't want. I don't know...it's very hard to explain. Don't get me wrong I know it's a good thing, but at the same time there is a twinge of sadness. Just trying to be real here! 
 
   
   
   
  
   
  
 ....oh and it's good to know that I am not alone, but NOT good to know that you all must endure this as well. ugh!
 ....oh and it's good to know that I am not alone, but NOT good to know that you all must endure this as well. ugh!  Here I am going along on the happy train feeling so very good about how I am doing and how I am feeling and WHAMMY clothes shopping. Wow. I was not prepared for it at all. It just left me feeling so bad about how I look. How far I have to go. How long this is going to take. etc. etc. etc. Lots of negative self talk going on. I even shed some tears on the way home. Ridiculous!! How can this happen so quickly? It left me feeling downright blue. I want to love my body as it is now. I can love it and still want to improve myself right? Is that possible? Surely it is. I'm not sure. But, that is what I would like for myself. I am generally a very upbeat person. I do like myself.....I know I am a good person. Would love to know what it feels like to look in the mirror and truly be happy with what I see. I know slim people that still don't have that. That is what I mean. I would like to truly be happy with my body now....this minute...just as I am. Ok, I am rambling, but I guess this is my little spot. So, I can do that here.
  Here I am going along on the happy train feeling so very good about how I am doing and how I am feeling and WHAMMY clothes shopping. Wow. I was not prepared for it at all. It just left me feeling so bad about how I look. How far I have to go. How long this is going to take. etc. etc. etc. Lots of negative self talk going on. I even shed some tears on the way home. Ridiculous!! How can this happen so quickly? It left me feeling downright blue. I want to love my body as it is now. I can love it and still want to improve myself right? Is that possible? Surely it is. I'm not sure. But, that is what I would like for myself. I am generally a very upbeat person. I do like myself.....I know I am a good person. Would love to know what it feels like to look in the mirror and truly be happy with what I see. I know slim people that still don't have that. That is what I mean. I would like to truly be happy with my body now....this minute...just as I am. Ok, I am rambling, but I guess this is my little spot. So, I can do that here.  
 
First of all, a huge congratulations for the 2.2 pound weight loss! That's an average of a little over a half pound a week which is pretty typical with NoS. Building strong habits right now that will serve you long after the pounds are gone is what's most important. The strong habits are what will allow you to keep the pounds off without return. Two pounds a month really adds up over time!ZippaDee wrote:
So, had a great GREEN week. And then last night...Friday evening...I went shopping with my 18 year old daughter. It was awesome to spend some time..just the two of us. BUT, clothes shopping for myself was very detrimental to my psyche last night. NOT GOOD AT ALL FOR ME!Here I am going along on the happy train feeling so very good about how I am doing and how I am feeling and WHAMMY clothes shopping. Wow. I was not prepared for it at all. It just left me feeling so bad about how I look. How far I have to go. How long this is going to take. etc. etc. etc. Lots of negative self talk going on. I even shed some tears on the way home. Ridiculous!! How can this happen so quickly? It left me feeling downright blue. I want to love my body as it is now. I can love it and still want to improve myself right? Is that possible? Surely it is. I'm not sure. But, that is what I would like for myself. I am generally a very upbeat person. I do like myself.....I know I am a good person. Would love to know what it feels like to look in the mirror and truly be happy with what I see. I know slim people that still don't have that. That is what I mean. I would like to truly be happy with my body now....this minute...just as I am. Ok, I am rambling, but I guess this is my little spot. So, I can do that here.

Then after my pity party started in the departments store dressing room, I had my monthly weigh in this morning.
Month one: down 8.8 pounds
Month two: down 2.2 pounds
Honestly, I wasn't that thrilled with that. 2.2 pounds for a whole month of effort. BUT it IS 2.2 pounds!!! I'm going in the right direction! That is progress and I am building HABIT! YAY!!
I must shop for clothes occasionally. It's a necessity. I need to find a way to stop this from happening again.
That's my Saturday evening ramble.

 Mimi, what an awesome thing you have going on with clothes purchasing! YAY for you! That sounds like a plan!
 Mimi, what an awesome thing you have going on with clothes purchasing! YAY for you! That sounds like a plan!  
 
 I hope you are not discouraged - hang in there!
   I hope you are not discouraged - hang in there! Working today and then hubby and I are off to celebrate. We will be gone for the night...WHAAAAHOOOO!! Gotta get my bag packed.
 Working today and then hubby and I are off to celebrate. We will be gone for the night...WHAAAAHOOOO!! Gotta get my bag packed.  
 
 
  
  
  
 

 
  
   
  
 
 
 
  BOO! Here is the reason. At lunch I filled my plate and was eating and then decided probably half way through that my plate was not full. That's a fail! Sigh..... The good news is that what do they say? I didn't wreck the car over it! So, I will start again on Monday with day one. I have to be strict!
 BOO! Here is the reason. At lunch I filled my plate and was eating and then decided probably half way through that my plate was not full. That's a fail! Sigh..... The good news is that what do they say? I didn't wreck the car over it! So, I will start again on Monday with day one. I have to be strict! 
 
  
  
 
 
 
 
 So, let's get up to speed here...
 So, let's get up to speed here... 
  
  
   
  
  
 
 
  
 
 
  
  
  I am back on track this month. This is HUGE for me....and here is the reason. I am a school employee. So, during the summer my schedule is totally different than it is during the school year..obviously. I am home with my children during the summer. My eating has the potential to get way out of wack during the summer. Last time I did NoS I began in Oct. 2010. I did well with my habits for the first 8 months and lost 27 pounds. Then summer hit and I DID wreck the car. I fell into the black abyss throwing my habits to the wind. Gained back all of my weight between June 2011 and March 2012. The summer is when I lost it....not the weight, but my sanity.
  I am back on track this month. This is HUGE for me....and here is the reason. I am a school employee. So, during the summer my schedule is totally different than it is during the school year..obviously. I am home with my children during the summer. My eating has the potential to get way out of wack during the summer. Last time I did NoS I began in Oct. 2010. I did well with my habits for the first 8 months and lost 27 pounds. Then summer hit and I DID wreck the car. I fell into the black abyss throwing my habits to the wind. Gained back all of my weight between June 2011 and March 2012. The summer is when I lost it....not the weight, but my sanity.   And, I started to do it again this year, but I am aware and determined NOT to let that happen again!!! This month is going to be difficult!! We have two different vacations planned. One will last a week and we will be in a hotel. The other will be a 4 day camping trip. I'm going into Aug. with my eyes wide OPEN...this is me
  And, I started to do it again this year, but I am aware and determined NOT to let that happen again!!! This month is going to be difficult!! We have two different vacations planned. One will last a week and we will be in a hotel. The other will be a 4 day camping trip. I'm going into Aug. with my eyes wide OPEN...this is me  
   I am determined not to go down the same slippery slope that I did last summer. The focus is on HABIT HABIT HABIT!!! If I have a weight gain or stay the same during the month of Aug. so be it as long as I stay on HABIT that is the goal because I know that if I stay on habit the weight will eventually come off. Here's to a vanilla August...Here Here!
 I am determined not to go down the same slippery slope that I did last summer. The focus is on HABIT HABIT HABIT!!! If I have a weight gain or stay the same during the month of Aug. so be it as long as I stay on HABIT that is the goal because I know that if I stay on habit the weight will eventually come off. Here's to a vanilla August...Here Here!  
 No, I actually have many green or nearly green N days during breaks now.
  No, I actually have many green or nearly green N days during breaks now. Oh my, Zippadee! I could have written the above back in June when I had my own blood work done - same results and I had the same reaction. I did not want to go back to being an accountant - and that's what I felt like I was going to have to do. Instead, I took a few steps back, a few deep breaths, and seriously looked at the situation. As you and Oolala pointed out, it's not about vanity anymore...it's my health.My cholesterol ratio is actually good...in the low risk category. My overall and LDL is slightly elevated and my HDL is good. Doc would like my LDL to go down. I will attempt to make some changes in what I am eating and add some exercise on a more regular basis. My exercise has been sporadic. In my early years my weight loss efforts were mainly for vanity reasons, but the past several years my efforts have not been for vanity reasons. It's about my health and how I feel....looking better is an extra! My cholesterol is down since 05, so continue what I am doing with some tweaks will hopefully continue the downward trend.


 
  
 
 Anyway, went out to eat at a buffet and I had a small ice cream cone. It was not worth a red. I could have sat and visited without it. Do not need to eat just because I am in a celebatory mood!!
 Anyway, went out to eat at a buffet and I had a small ice cream cone. It was not worth a red. I could have sat and visited without it. Do not need to eat just because I am in a celebatory mood!! 



I understand totally! I was so wishy-washy-half-heartedly doing noS for a year and a half and gained back the 26 I'd lost. Stomp on those brakes and get back on track. I did and it took me 7 months, but I am back to where I was and trying to stay determined to not go wishy-washy again. We can both do it!!! Actually I think I may start a challenge again since I have had more faiures than successes lately...ZippaDee wrote:I have been struggling the past several months. I guess you wouldn't even call it struggling because that would indicate some kind of effort. And honestly I haven't been making much of an effort at all.
 So, been thinking....I have been a member on here since June of 08. I started this check in thread in Oct. 10. I have made two good efforts at NoS since that time. My scale is currently not working, but I would estimate that I am about 10 pounds lighter that I was in Oct. 10 the first time I started NoS seriously. Instead of being totally and completely frustrated with myself (which I want to be!!) I will focus on the positive and be happy that I am still 10 pounds lighter than I was then. And, at this time make a conscious decision to put on the brakes, as renew says, and move forward from here. Since 08 I have not attempted any other diets....just NoS because I KNOW that this is not about making the food behave it is about making ME behave. I need to get this figured out so that I don't keep doing this back and forth thing. I do NOT want to "fall off the wagon" again! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!! Ok, ok...not gonna go there....to that totally and completely frustrated state (even though I want to!!)
 So, been thinking....I have been a member on here since June of 08. I started this check in thread in Oct. 10. I have made two good efforts at NoS since that time. My scale is currently not working, but I would estimate that I am about 10 pounds lighter that I was in Oct. 10 the first time I started NoS seriously. Instead of being totally and completely frustrated with myself (which I want to be!!) I will focus on the positive and be happy that I am still 10 pounds lighter than I was then. And, at this time make a conscious decision to put on the brakes, as renew says, and move forward from here. Since 08 I have not attempted any other diets....just NoS because I KNOW that this is not about making the food behave it is about making ME behave. I need to get this figured out so that I don't keep doing this back and forth thing. I do NOT want to "fall off the wagon" again! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!! Ok, ok...not gonna go there....to that totally and completely frustrated state (even though I want to!!)  
  

 GREEN!!!!!  Will count this as day 1. My goal is 21 days straight. My biggest struggle is right after work until dinner. From 3 to 5 or 6ish. I am aware of this and will continue to fight through it!
 GREEN!!!!!  Will count this as day 1. My goal is 21 days straight. My biggest struggle is right after work until dinner. From 3 to 5 or 6ish. I am aware of this and will continue to fight through it!  
  
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 I had to fight for this one, but fight I did!! Did it! Turned down chocolate at work today.
 I had to fight for this one, but fight I did!! Did it! Turned down chocolate at work today. 
 GREEN!  We had a two hour fog delay this morning. SOO nice! So, I got on my exercise bike and pedaled for 30 minutes. This is big since I have not exercised in a few months. Now, if we could just have another two hour delay tomorrow I'd be set!
 GREEN!  We had a two hour fog delay this morning. SOO nice! So, I got on my exercise bike and pedaled for 30 minutes. This is big since I have not exercised in a few months. Now, if we could just have another two hour delay tomorrow I'd be set!  
 On Wednesday I had my first red day in 22 days....I ate one of those beautiful decorated Christmas sugar cookies. THEN yesterday I had a planned S day because of our school Christmas party, which was originally supposed to be today (Friday). It was changed to Thursday because of threatening weather for today. As of now it looks like we will have school today. I am going to FIGHT hard for a green day today. Then I have the weekend and then Christmas eve and Christmas, which are planned S Days for me. This could get dangerous!! I originally planned to have this weekend N Days because of the two planned S holiday days. Rethinking if I should do that still? Probably so! Sigh.... Today will be GREEN. I really need it to be!
 On Wednesday I had my first red day in 22 days....I ate one of those beautiful decorated Christmas sugar cookies. THEN yesterday I had a planned S day because of our school Christmas party, which was originally supposed to be today (Friday). It was changed to Thursday because of threatening weather for today. As of now it looks like we will have school today. I am going to FIGHT hard for a green day today. Then I have the weekend and then Christmas eve and Christmas, which are planned S Days for me. This could get dangerous!! I originally planned to have this weekend N Days because of the two planned S holiday days. Rethinking if I should do that still? Probably so! Sigh.... Today will be GREEN. I really need it to be! Back to work/school tomorrow. One thing I have decided to try to do is toss the scale. No longer judging my success by that. Last time I got on it was the first day of winter. Plan to weigh again around the first day of Spring. Got this idea from Oolala and think I will give it a whirl. The first time I gave this No S a real good effort began on Oct. 13, 2010. Since then I have been on track and off track several times....sometimes for months at a time! The good news is that during this time, I have not gone back to weight watchers! That is a biggie for me! I now weight 11 pounds less than I did in Oct. 2010. So, I am tending towards the right direction instead of the other way around. Going to continue to work on Vanilla No S for the next year. I'm am also going to try to get in 15 minutes of some kind of physical activity 5 days a week! Gotta start somewhere right?!
 Back to work/school tomorrow. One thing I have decided to try to do is toss the scale. No longer judging my success by that. Last time I got on it was the first day of winter. Plan to weigh again around the first day of Spring. Got this idea from Oolala and think I will give it a whirl. The first time I gave this No S a real good effort began on Oct. 13, 2010. Since then I have been on track and off track several times....sometimes for months at a time! The good news is that during this time, I have not gone back to weight watchers! That is a biggie for me! I now weight 11 pounds less than I did in Oct. 2010. So, I am tending towards the right direction instead of the other way around. Going to continue to work on Vanilla No S for the next year. I'm am also going to try to get in 15 minutes of some kind of physical activity 5 days a week! Gotta start somewhere right?!  
  
 Ready to dig in my heals put a fence around the rules and just do this thing! Had my first green day yesterday in quite a while! Gonna have another today.
 Ready to dig in my heals put a fence around the rules and just do this thing! Had my first green day yesterday in quite a while! Gonna have another today.   My most difficult time is right after work at 3pm. Not because I am particularly hungry, but because it is a HABIT for me. New habits is what this is all about right? So, I plan on fighting through these urges day after day until it gets easier.
 My most difficult time is right after work at 3pm. Not because I am particularly hungry, but because it is a HABIT for me. New habits is what this is all about right? So, I plan on fighting through these urges day after day until it gets easier. 
 
  


 
  to day 6
 to day 6Good on you, Zippadee Do Da!!! It takes a lot of courage to stick to your convictions!ZippaDee wrote: I just kept telling myself "Ive put a fence around the rules and it is not an S day so I will not snack...that simple" And I did not partake!
i really like that idea, i will not snack, that simple!ZippaDee wrote:Snow day went well on Friday. Even though we didn't have school my son still had his basketball game, which proved to be the most challenging part of my day. I sat between my husband and mil who were both eating popcorn. I absolutely LOVE popcorn. And I was hungry because the game began at 4 and we stayed til 7:30 (there were actually 3 games that night JV, Girls Varsity and Boys Varsity) eating supper after the game. I just kept telling myself "Ive put a fence around the rules and it is not an S day so I will not snack...that simple" And I did not partake!
ONWARDto day 6
 trying to always have that attitude when that little voice comes up really does take practice
  trying to always have that attitude when that little voice comes up really does take practice 
 
 
 
