It is officially one month since I last posted and have completely lost my way with No S. I feel very ashamed and embarrassed to have to admit to gaining 5-6lbs over the past few weeks.
I'm not exactly sure why I decided to take a break from No S. No S definitely improved my mental state but I suppose I just started to feel like I wanted to be able to eat like a 'normal' person again. I know that 'normal' is subjective but I remember a day when I felt fed up because I felt like going to the shop for a chocolate bar but couldn't because it wasn't the weekend. I just thought 'why shouldn't I be able to go buy a chocolate bar if I want to?!'. Also I wasn't losing any weight on No S but that is very likely down to my large plates and excessive S days. I suppose it's also annoying because although I've always been very health conscious, I've never had to really watch what I eat and I don't know what's changed.
Perhaps it's linked to having my second child (almost 3 years ago now) because I think it's been since then that I started to progressively gain weight. Or maybe it has to do with me becoming a stay-at-home mom and being at home (around food) more often.
Whatever the reason, I am now at the heaviest weight that I can remember (excluding pregnancy and immediately after) and it's not good. My clothes are tighter and I'm having to choose what clothes I wear based on how much it conceals my tummy (always where my weight shows the most). For the record, I'm just over 5 feet tall and am now weighing about 112-113lbs. My norm for the past few years has been about 105-109.
So what to do now? I'm going to give No S another try. But this time I'm going to pile my plates high with yummy salads and veggies rather than with pasta and bread. I daresay I may struggle with no sweets during the week as this was always my biggest downfall. Actually that's one thing I really disliked when I was on No S (which is my fault, I'm not blaming the system) - I hated the frantic, crazed feeling I would start to get on Thursday evening until Friday midnight when I was desperately waiting for the weekend to begin so I could eat sweets. I hated that desperate feeling. Not sure how to address this. Do I just wait it out and wait for time to hopefully cure this or should I make a mod to help me get through the tough times, at least initially? Considering allowing myself a few squares of 80-85% dark chocolate to help me through it. But then I know that vanilla No S is the ideal...
Enough talk, just time to get back with the program. Just wanted to get my thoughts down and my head in order. And what better time to re-start then at the beginning of the weekend!
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