Starting day 208.5

I'm baaaaack · Post by **I'm baaaaack** » Mon Jul 14, 2008 10:43 pm

Here's hoping a wiser me is back to this website. The first time I was here I did my 21 with one hand tied behind my back but I didn't lose any weight. I didn't gain any but I didn't lose any either. I was attracted to the diet because it was so simple. 3 meals, no snacks, no sugar, no seconds except on days that start with S. How simple is that?? I did what I think a lot of people do in the beginning. I made extra large meals because I might get REALLY hungry and then what would I do???? I hit the weekends like a starving person and had to eat everything in sight before Monday. And I didn't exercise.
Instead of giving myself time to adjust, I started tweaking the diet. I added snacks, played with the S days, obsessivly weighed myself. I still didn't exercise and started telling myself I was a failure. I got very introspective and the scale decided if I had all the answers or if I would never again succeed at anything. By the time I was keeping track of days on and off and how far off, micromanaging the rules, listing what I ate, listing my weight and every thought that entered my head, I realized I was back on a diet again and I was obsessing about food again. Finally, I needed to back off and get some perspective.
That was a while ago and now I am back. I never found anything I liked better than this.
I want to do the rules and only the rules.

3 meals, no snacks--If people in third world countries can survive all day on what I eat at one meal, I can survive getting a little uncomfortable if I only eat every 3-4 hours.

No sugar--Tough one for me. Sugar has always been a reward in my world but it has not been my friend. Even when I was on No S, it was not my friend on weekends. I've read all there is about the effects of sugar on the body and I still will have a rough time with this one, I think. But, hey, nobody said it was easy, just simple.

Seconds--not a problem. Easiest of the 3 for me.

So what is the plan this time around? Don't have one. Follow the rules. Find ways to make food move way down my list of priorities during the day. Move more. Be more patient with the process of change. The only days I will record what I eat will be S days so I will be holding myself somewhat accountable and be more aware of any huge excesses.

That's it.

I can't make up my mind about my lifetime addiction to THE SCALE!!!! (Cue the pipe organ music). Cold turkey, don't weigh at all? I can't see that happening. Weigh everyday like I do now? Like that has been working for me so far. Weigh once a week? That is so discouraging when the weight goes up or stays the same and it is such a high and so encouraging if it goes down. While lurking here, I see a lot of people losing hope when the scale doesn't cooperate but there really is no point in this or any other program if there is no weight loss. I am a slow loser and impatient so I can't really see myself waiting for my clothes to get loose. I think for now, I will coninue to weigh and record every day and summarize a monthly trend. (Spoken like a true accountant).

So if anyone sees me getting crazy again, let me know. OCD is always more obvious to observers than to the person obsessing and acting compulsively.

Wish me luck!

I'm baaaaack · Post by **I'm baaaaack** » Tue Jul 15, 2008 11:13 am

Monday was a good day. Felt good to be back.

I'm baaaaack · Post by **I'm baaaaack** » Wed Jul 16, 2008 3:26 am

Tuesday was good and it was a rough day at work. I am proud of me.

I'm baaaaack · Post by **I'm baaaaack** » Thu Jul 17, 2008 5:07 am

Wednesday was an S day because of a party we hosted for a gardening group. It was a fun night. I did better than I thought I would.

I'm baaaaack · Post by **I'm baaaaack** » Fri Jul 18, 2008 1:15 am

Thusday. Few issues but that's OK. Learning is valuable. Deep breaths. One day, not a total failure.

I'm baaaaack · Post by **I'm baaaaack** » Sat Jul 19, 2008 12:33 pm

Friday. Inner ear issue all Thursday night and all day Friday. Very dizzy. $3000.00 worth of tests and there is nothing they can do. Really sucks. Feeling low and scared. Did good but had a dessert. On to Saturday.

blueskighs · Post by **blueskighs** » Sat Jul 19, 2008 9:28 pm

$3000.00 worth of tests and there is nothing they can do. Really sucks.

GEEZ! That is AWFUL! I don't know anything at all about such matters, and I am sorry you are having to deal with this

Blueskighs

I'm baaaaack · Post by **I'm baaaaack** » Sun Jul 20, 2008 1:13 pm

Thanks so much for the thoughts. Helps to know someone heard. I am slowly starting to get used to it. I have balance exercises to do that help somewhat. Found some help on blogs. Drink lots of water, no caffeine, stay as calm as possible. And last but not least let time pass. It eventually gets better. Good days and bad days.

Saturday is an S day. I said I would write down what I had to avoid mad binging.
Had cereal and toast for breakfast. While we were at a farmer's market, the battery of the car died. While we waited for our daughter to come and give us a jump start, it got quite late for lunch so my husband and I snacked. We shared a large apple and some peanuts. Then we had a Hardees 1/3 pound burger and split a strawberry shake around 3PM. While watching TV later I had popcorn, a handful of chocolate chips and a rootbeer ice cream bar. Lots of carbs and no vegetables. I thought I had done quite well til I wrote it all down. lots of mindless eating going on I think. Tomorrow, I will write it down as I go. Might make better (and fewer) choices.

I'm baaaaack · Post by **I'm baaaaack** » Mon Jul 21, 2008 4:07 am

Sunday. S day.
Breakfast-My husband, daughter and I were going to an art fair in the park. I made brunch. Omelets, whole wheat toast and fruit. All organic.
The art fair was great and we enjoyed it very much but it was incredibly humid. We met my sister and her husband there. (He makes gorgeous items out of wood with lots of inlay work). We asked them to supper after the art fair.
Then we went home and had a salad with chiabotta bread and iced tea.
I also had a rootbeer float bar and a few chocolate chips.
We had home made egg rolls, rice and stir fried vegetables for supper. We finished with ice cream and raspberries.
About an hour ago, I had a handful of taco chips. Done for the day. Again more than I needed. Will have to work on the weekend extravagances.
On to Monday.

I'm baaaaack · Post by **I'm baaaaack** » Sun Jul 27, 2008 12:12 pm

Last week went well. Some weird stuff but I'm learning and not mindlessly eating so often.
Saturday- Fruit and slice of toast. Then off to farmer's market and shopping. We met my brother-in-law at the farmer's market and after shopping with him for a while, we stopped for a chai tea and scone. Yummy. Then we went to his house to see his flowers and ended up helping him set up a fountain. Got really hungry. Before my husband Tom and I went grocery shopping, we split a salad topped with tuna at a fast food place we like. We shopped and shopped (looking for ceramic tile and carpeting) and we actually ended up buying some (27 boxes of tile is very heavy). By the time we unloaded tile, groceries, packages etc. I had to make a cake for my daughter's birthday tomorrow, make supper, and water the whole yard which takes about 45 minutes. We had tacos and salad and fudgesicles.
This seems like a lot of food but it really wasn't especially considering how hard we worked. For an S day, I am pleased with this day.

Tomorrow we are going to see "Batman" and take my daughter to supper.

I'm baaaaack · Post by **I'm baaaaack** » Mon Jul 28, 2008 10:45 am

Good Birthday for my daughter.

I had 2 eggs and toast for breakfast with some fruit.
Then I a couple of tacos for lunch.
We went to the movie and I had some popcorn.
Suupper at the restaurant, I ordered chicken piccata and ate half. I had cake for dessert. I think I am pleased with the day.

On to Monday.