Last night was a
Failure, not necessarily epic by any means but still.
Alcohol was
Exempt
I started to get really really disheartened. I then began thinking about what worked for me in the past. When I was younger (hs & college) I suffered from a pretty severe eating disorder. What cured it for me (and I do mean cured, I went on for many, many years at a normal weight with no food issues at all. The only reason I am back with these problems is because a misguided doctor put me on a very restrictive diet for health reasons- which I believe now was unnecessary and damaging, it certainly didn't heal anything- I lost a lot of weight and began to think 100 pounds looked normal and therefore became once again obsessed with food, my body, dieting and bingeing) was to do 3 meals a day with no types of food restricted and recording these meals. So for now, in order for me to stick to my committment to doing this for one year I am going to make some modifications. I don't want to give up, I want to choose something I can do for the long haul.
So for now on, this is my plan:
*3 Meals a Day EVERY DAY (does not change for weekends) of Whatever I Want - Just Needs to be All in Front of Me Before I Begin Eating, No Snacks, No Seconds
*Will Not Force Myself to Eat if Truly Not Hungry at Meals (this happens sometimes for breakfast and occasionally for dinner- it really stresses me out to eat at these times & leads to overeating, so I will not do that anymore)
So that's it! Starting today
![Very Happy :D](./images/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif)
I am excited and feeling better, more confident. I am not concerned so much with WHAT I am eating, for now I am more focused on getting a handle on HOW I'm eating.
Also, will no longer be looking at weight as goal. My goal is now in inches:
Hips: to lose 2 inches
Waist: to lose 2 inches
Thighs: to lose 1.5 inches
The scale just drives me insane and there never is any rhyme or reason to it it seems.