Most of my day yesterday went very well...but I ended poorly...so a RED day
I have been focused on reducing my "tasting" during cooking to just essential for the meal. And I did very well with that yesterday, even though I was starving when I got home. I started dinner early so I could eat! And the tasting while cooking was very minimal...in general a success.
However, an hour or so after I ate, my son came home from baseball practice and I started to fix him a plate for his dinner. Part of dinner was an excellent Greek salad but with watermelon. It was very good. I had my one full plate with plenty of the salad so I didn't have any seconds when I ate. But when my son was done with dinner, there was a little of the salad left over...and I knew it wouldn't keep. I tried to get my son or husband to finish it off because I just didn't want to throw away such good food...especially the watermelon, a really good first of the season watermelon. My son ate a little more...but I snacked!!! UGH!

I usually don't have an issue with snacking or seconds...but there I was eating watermelon and feta cheese out of the salad bowl in the kitchen. After several bites I finally got my act together and threw the salad away...but day ruined. Totally bummed...and totally my fault, my behavior...I knew what I was doing. It wasn't like half way through I realized what I was doing. Nope, there I was from the beginning...knowing not to do it and knowing to stop.
Since September when I started No-S, this type of behavior has not been much of an issue for me...I have no idea what happened last night. This is the first time that I decided to cook early and eat early...knowing that my son will have to eat later. Not that we always eat together every night...we try to but sometimes that just doesn't work. But this is the first time, I think, when I said...That's it! I'm starving...I'm cooking and eating early. Maybe that had some sort of off psychological effect? I was totally full and satisfied when I ate dinner, but maybe eating cues later in the evening when my son ate threw me off...I don't know. But I don't think I am going to purposefully cook and eat early again.
So the next question is...what do I do when I come home starving? Yesterday I wasn't starving until I was literally in my house after work...another psychological effect...classical conditioning maybe? So...I think maybe I need to set up a new routine for when I get home to reduce the association between home and dinner. It is getting quite warm here in the CA desert...maybe jump in the pool when I get home? Do a short meditation? Listen to a short podcast? I will experiment and see...
Tonight my son has a baseball game so we won't be home for dinner...we'll eat out somewhere which usually isn't that healthy but at least I have limited access to the food
Happy Hump Day
