I think your fear (or actually
putting on weight if you 'let yourself loose' on S Days) is legitimate: legitimate not in terms though of NoS, but in terms of giving information on the way you feel about your body & your eating: slightly out of control it seems to me, with a fear that you can't trust yourself to make good choices.
By the way, 'being slightly out of control' regarding eating is something most of us here on this forum know from bitter experience, so don't take it as criticism
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I'm just pointing out something that's useful for you to know in regards of how you are with food.
And that's where NoS will really really help you. Because that 'out of control' issue is exactly what it helps you with, if you let it by giving it time...
Because the reality is, if you really want to lose those 20 lbs quicker, then very simply you'd be making healthier choices on S days too. After all what's stopping you? (NoS certainly isn't). So again, my long way of saying a simple thing is--NoS will be able to help you with the 'out of control' way of eating, if you just trust that it will & follow it properly. As I said, nothing stops you from eating anything you want on S days really, including super healthy / low calorie food if that's what you wish. But if you're following NoS and one S day you find you eat more cake or whatever, then that's fine as you're within NoS, so less of a chance that you'll go even more overboard & continue overeating on Monday.
Hope this long-winded post makes sense!
Restarting NoS (after going back & forth over the last 4 years) in November 2013.
GOAL: to lose 10 kilos.
HAVE ACHIEVED SO FAR: 1.6 kilo