Eschano - you were absolutely right! I put my food into cron-o-meter (
https://cronometer.com/) and on the food I was eating minus the binges, I managed to get in about....1200 calories a day. When I calculated the BMR for my ideal weight (115 - gotta get into competition shape lol) at my current activity level, I found out I was supposed to be eating about 2300 calories a day.
No wonder I've been bingeing!
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I'm putting together my meal plan for next week, and I've had to add in a lot of extra food. My usual meals for the week look like:
- oatmeal
- pasta dish with salad (no meat, cheese, cream...)
- sandwich and fruit
In order to cram in all the calories I'm supposed to be eating in a day, a daily meal might look more like:
- oatmeal with berries, bagel with cream cheese
- pasta dish with salad, apple, vegan quesadilla
- sandwich, banana, chips
I mean, it's not the healthiest and it's pretty carb-heavy, but....well, I've gotta cram in a lot of calories or I'll go off the rails again and snack and snack and snack! This only takes me to 2200 calories anyway, but I don't actually know if I can physically eat that much...we'll see!
Hopefully this solves the binge issue...and if I put on a few, I'm not competing until August anyway, and I'd rather be a little heavier and
stick to the plan than binge and get heavier because I'm out of control. But if I've done the math right, this will put me at least on the path to maintenance!
But no more math from here on out. I just gotta get out of 'diet mode' and refocus on how to feed myself properly - if I'm hungry enough between meals to binge, I need to eat more at meals so that I'm not tempted to binge. A little hunger is okay, going crazy and raiding a cookie jar isn't.
I do hate having massive plates of food though
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I order food for the office when we have meetings. Earlier this week, I ordered a sushi platter for a lunch meeting (mmm veggie sushi!), and when it arrived I was like "oh man, I hope this is enough for everyone, there's only like two rolls per person..." and my boss said "no, it'll be fine, not everyone eats as much as you. 2 rolls is enough for normal people". I mean, I think she was trying to be funny especially since I'm skinny (though I do tend to binge a lot, I've been able to stay around 125 at 5'3" because of my training - I'm 128 now, thanks surgery lol), but still....felt a little embarrassed to be 'that girl who eats a lot' in the office.