Alene's Check-in

Counting carbs/calories is a drag. Obsessive scale stepping is a recipe for despair. If you want to count something, "days on habit" is a much better metric. Checking off days on a calendar would do just fine, but if you do it here you get accountability and support. Here's how. Start a new topic in this forum called (say) "Your Name Daily Check In." Then every N day post a "reply" to that topic as to whether you stayed on habit. A simple "<font color="green">SUCCESS</font>" or "<font color="red">FAILURE</font>" (or your preferred euphemism if that's too harsh) is sufficient, but obviously you're welcome to write more if you want. On S-days just register that you're taking an S-day. You don't have to do this forever, just until you're confident you've built the habit. Feel free to check in weekly or monthly or sporadically instead of daily. Feel free also to track other habits besides No-s (I'm keeping this forum under No-s because that's what the vast majority are using it for). See also my <a href="/habitcal/">HabitCal</a> tool for another more formal (and perhaps complementary) way to track habits.

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Alene's Check-in

Post by alene1 » Tue Sep 17, 2019 2:07 pm

Good morning! I've been reading journals this morning and have been inspired by those who have been able to stay the course and be consistent with No-s for so long. I think that many of us struggle with hopping around from plan to plan, looking for the "perfect" one. Simple is good. Simple is sustainable. My hope for myself is to create consistency and normalcy, enjoy my food, and live my life! 3 good meals. Beginning today. Thanks to all for the inspiration. I love your calm voices of reason.

Food and weight and dieting is such a distraction from life!! Honestly, it makes me a bit heartsick to think of all the time and energy this has stolen from me over a life time. There are so many other things that are more valuable and interesting to spend my time and thoughts on. I am going to strive to put food and eating into it's proper place. More later, but all I have time for now. It's good to have a space to write.

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Post by automatedeating » Tue Sep 17, 2019 3:49 pm

Hi Alene! What a pretty name you have! I look forward to reading about your journey. Food is all about our insides, ya know? It is so not just a superficial thing to our lives.
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Post by lpearlmom » Tue Sep 17, 2019 7:57 pm

Welcome! Alene was the name of one of my best friends when I was growing up so gives me fond memories.

This is a great, supportive group of ppl. So glad you’re joining us!
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Post by alene1 » Wed Sep 18, 2019 1:53 pm

Automatedeating, thanks for coming by my journal. I've read some of your journal and you are one that has inspired me with your consistency! Thank you for the compliment. The nurse my mom had when she gave birth to me was named Alene. :) Yes, food and eating are really interesting subjects, when you think about all the joy and struggles it brings!

Lpearlmom, I'm glad my name has brought up fond memories! :) It seems like a wonderful group of people. Thanks so much for the welcome.

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Post by alene1 » Wed Sep 18, 2019 2:08 pm

Yesterday didn't go as I had planned. I should give some back story as I begin my journal. I have struggled with binge eating for many years, really as long as I can remember going back to my very early years. I've been fighting it and trying different eating plans all my life. I reached my goal weight of 145 in 2015 following a commercial, structured program, starting at 195. Today I'm at 181 or so.

I've come across a book recently that has really resonated with me, called Lean Habits. I believe with all my heart the only way to create good health is through creating good, strong habits - not following a diet. So her book, along with the No - S, really work together with the same message. She has recently started a podcast called Breaking Up with Binge Eating, that is wonderful. She also does a 6 month program of the same name. I'm planning to enroll when it's posted. She says when you're just beginning this journey to break up with binge eating, her 3-4 meals a day habit isn't the best fit. She says that 5-6 meals is best until you grow your emotional coping skills. So, I have been torn between wanting to do the 3-4 meals and following her advice. Unfortunately, trying to do 3 meals has made me feel very restricted and lead to binges, as happened yesterday. I have felt quite conflicted about what to do, as I want so much both to lose weight, and to stop bingeing. So I have been living somewhere in the middle, without a straight course. After yesterday, I am thinking I should add in that 4th mini-meal in the afternoon as a tweak to this program.

Today I'm going to plan for 4 meals. I think that's going to work better for me. I know that being in the middle with no clear goal isn't working for me. So, for now, 4 meals it is, and I will report how that goes for me!

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Post by Soprano » Wed Sep 18, 2019 6:06 pm

Sorry to hear about your binge eating. Lots of theories about it and solutions. Follow your instinct about how many meals. I would also suggest ensuring you choose meals you enjoy and take the time to enjoy the food.

Good luck

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Post by automatedeating » Wed Sep 18, 2019 6:49 pm

I love Soprano's suggestion of finding meals you really love. I think that is absolutely key to sustainability.
Also, the 4 meals a day is a great focus. Consistency in the meal times and content is so useful for habit-building.
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Post by Whosonfirst » Thu Sep 19, 2019 12:23 am

Hi Alene, Welcome and I hope you find some sanity to your eating habits here on NoS. My son's family just moved over to your state from Portland in August. Beautiful area.

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Post by lpearlmom » Thu Sep 19, 2019 12:50 am

You can definitely adapt NoS to 4 or 5 meals. Like you said it’s just the consistency that matters. Maybe just use smaller plates? From my experience, most binge eating comes from restriction so following a plan that eliminates that feeling would be key I’d think. You can always progress to 3 plates later down the road when your bingeing has calmed down a bit.

Anyway, I hope you find a plan that suits you!

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Post by alene1 » Thu Sep 19, 2019 1:28 pm

Soprano, thank you for the encouragement to follow my instincts about how many meals to start out with. I have been fighting the natural eating pattern my body feels best at, and that doesn't make any sense, especially right now. Down the road I will probably be able to gently shift my patterns.

Auto, consistency is my word for the year. More and more I come back to that as the key to lifelong health and well being. Creating good habits and following them consistently.

Whosonfirst, I am already feeling so much more "sane" than I have in many times of my life. Finding the program I'm going to be joining has given me a lot of hope, as well as the encouragement of this wonderful group. I realized yesterday just how much I need that in my life! I got married and moved to a new area of the state that is much different, and away from all my local friends. I am really feeling that empty space of meeting with my women friends in person filled. I love Portland as well as my state! So much beauty. I love hiking and the outdoors.

Lpearlmom, you hit the nail on the head about restriction and binge eating. As soon as I start restricting the binge eating amps up. It's hard to set aside the weight loss, but I know over time I can put some focus on that gently.

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Post by alene1 » Thu Sep 19, 2019 1:45 pm

Yesterday went so much better! Food and eating felt really good. I have 3 meals, a snack in the afternoon, and what I call a "closer." A little something after dinner that ends the day of eating with enjoyment and pleasure. So technically 5 eating occasions. I try to have it shortly after dinner, and may end up having it along with my dinner over time. But I don't know. That's about following someone else's rules about what is best for my body. I will just have to see what my mind and body say about that! I want to eat in a way that brings me the the most joy with the least restriction needed for health and well being. Right now my focus is on consistency and not binge eating.

My other habit is to get into a consistent routine with my exercise. I really like to hike, walk, and do exercise dvd's. I was quite consistent in the summer, and generally am, but I'm a teacher and just started school so I'm adjusting to my new schedule and in the busyness of starting up the school year. My goal is 10+ minutes of some kind of movement every day. 5/7 days would be just fine. I'm trying to decide if I want my exercise time to be before school or after. I do love my early mornings in the classroom getting organized when it's nice and peaceful and no one there but me. :) I have two paraeducators that come in before the kids. I will probably need to be flexible about the exercise depending on the meetings I have.

I met with parents yesterday and really enjoyed seeing the kids. I teach special education preschool and some of my students are returning. So sweet! I love the little ones for their innocence and ability to help me be in the moment with them. They make me smile more than anyone else. :)

Thanks to everyone for the support here in my journal. I feel so fortunate to have found this wonderful group. I will be coming to visit journals soon when life slows down just a bit! Good day to all.

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Post by automatedeating » Thu Sep 19, 2019 3:48 pm

I want to eat in a way that brings me the the most joy with the least restriction needed for health and well being.
Bravo!!!
Also, I am in Washington state too. :-) And a teacher, although I teach adults. Preschoolers give me panic attacks. :lol:

Oh, and I just got a Versa 2 fitbit and it is lighting up my day. :-) I love my cute pink watch. Very fun gadget for exercise motivation.
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Post by lpearlmom » Thu Sep 19, 2019 4:34 pm

Great job with the eating! You have to find what works best for you, not someone else. I think that’s key!
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Post by Soprano » Thu Sep 19, 2019 9:21 pm

You've got this, sorting the bingeing first is important.

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Post by alene1 » Fri Sep 20, 2019 2:15 pm

Auto, a fellow teacher! I bet teaching adults is fun too. You made me laugh about pre-schoolers. :D They are a bundle of energy, but oh so cute!! I have a Fitbit too, and have for many years. I write down my daily stats too in my paper journal.

Linda, you are so right. It's all about what works for me!

Soprano, it's hard to put that goal first, but I know I'll just keep treading water, or worse, if I keep up this diet-binge cycle. It's the road to nowhere. Onward and forward I go, one day at a time!

Yesterday was a good day, with some real victories. I followed my eating pattern, even though there were some challenges that would have taken me off course in the past. I was out shopping for clothes - a great thing in itself because I need and want to feel put together and attractive in my clothes, even though I'm a bigger size than I would like to be right now. But I went after work and started getting hungry at dinner time. I decided to get a pretzel at the mall. It was sooooo good! In the past I would have "eaten cuz I ate." Because it isn't a food I would typically have allowed unless I was "off" a diet, my mind would normally go into binge mode, and ask, "what's next??" Bring it on. But I was able to talk it through, think about how my body was feeling, and decide that I would just call it my dinner. I was pretty full. I did have my evening snack, with some protein, because I could feel my body needed it. Not ideal of course, but being able to manage it without setting off the downward spiral felt wonderful! I even told my husband what I had for dinner. Typically I wouldn't have, because though he knows I struggle a lot with food I haven't shared the full extent of it. So, I feel really good about the day.

No exercise though. I may be able to squeeze in my 10 minutes this morning. Otherwise I'm going to get it in somewhere today! Maybe a walk at lunch.

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Post by oolala53 » Sat Sep 21, 2019 12:43 am

Good Lord, there can be a lot on a thread even when it's not very old!

I want to "weigh in" on the binge stuff. I was a big binge/compulsive overeater for decades. I observed as time went on that it was actually in the first three hours after a meal that I felt the most urge to start the random eating that would often lead to more. If I could get past that, I could actually go much longer (though there were some days in the first year that I ate rather early dinners.) The longer gaps between meals was crucial for me. And getting really hungry actually rarely led to bingeing because I was so determined to actually enjoy my meals. Not giving in to the habit/seduction of frequent food helped me turn a corner. I always knew I had a good meal coming. I DID drink decaf mocha in between, though. I just didn't want to chew. I had actually faithfully prepared three meals and two snacks- "healthy" ones for nearly a decade but eating that often never stopped me from bingeing. (At the beginning, I would "roll" the snack foods into adjoining meals, but after a time, I ate less at the meals, and it was enough.)

In any case, no matter how you start, you will end up adjusting as you go, in frequency and plate-content. Just about all successful maintainers adjust basic plans as time goes on.

I went through a lot of phases with No S and am in my most recent one now. Best wishes!
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Post by alene1 » Mon Sep 23, 2019 1:02 pm

Oohlala, thanks for coming by my journal and sharing your experience. We are all different, and as you say, it's going to change over time as we change and adjust to our new routines. So far for me giving myself permission to have those snacks has really taken away the feeling that I'm "falling off the wagon," which for me leads to binge eating. Having too many rules around eating is a trigger for me. That said, I've not been having a snack between breakfast and lunch, as I realize that my mind and body are generally okay with waiting and dealing with some gentle hunger in the morning. As you said, things will continue to change week to week and month to month. My first priority during this time is not to binge. I'm being really gentle with myself right now.

It was a good weekend. I followed my general meal pattern each day, and I got in a 30 minute cardio dvd yesterday. No binges for 5 days! :)

Today is the first day of school, and I know my relatively stress-free period of time (summer) is coming to an end. :wink: Mondays are also traditionally a day that I have binged. Getting back into the routine and just a general unsettled feeling transitioning from weekend to weekday. We shall see how it goes today. I have planned in the option for a morning snack today if I want it. Either for hunger or emotional comfort. I may also try a cup of English breakfast tea with cream and a little sugar. We shall see how it goes! I'm excited to see the kids.

Good day to all!

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Post by lpearlmom » Mon Sep 23, 2019 5:05 pm

Hope your first day went well and that NoS will help things during the school year. Love that you’re excited to see the kids. What grade?
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Post by alene1 » Tue Sep 24, 2019 1:49 pm

Hi Linda. I teach special ed preschool, so 3-5 year olds. It was a day alright!! :wink: :!:

Oh boy, it was quite a first day. Lots of chaos as we figured out which kids were coming on what buses, parents and sibling milling, a child crying. I didn't do well with the stress. We have a morning recess, and an afternoon recess, and I stress-ate at both times when my teaching assistants took them out. I just don't do well with chaos at all. I like calm and structure and this was anything but. I didn't expect calm and structure, but this was out of my comfort zone! It was the first day and I knew it would be hectic. I'm going to change some things up so that I have a better day. I will plan out my morning and afternoon snacks, and I will also have some things ready to use as calming tools. I did this last year too. My calming music will be turned on, and I can do some coloring in my adult coloring book with the gel pens I love. :) I am really going to focus on flowing with it instead of fighting it. Today will be better ..... I think!

In other news, the program opened up called Breaking Up with Binge Eating, and I signed up. I'm really, really excited about being part of it and being supported in that way.

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Post by automatedeating » Tue Sep 24, 2019 9:48 pm

Alene - the Breaking up with Binge Eating program sounds like a fantastic support program! Good for you to find something like that and be proactive.

Good luck with remaining calm amidst the chaos of the beginning days! Bravo for planning your snacks & meals for tomorrow. Let us know how it goes.
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Post by lpearlmom » Wed Sep 25, 2019 4:50 am

I don’t do well with chaos either so I totally get it. Im sure things will calm down a bit. I used to teach preschool. I kind of miss it but it’s definitely challenging and I’m sure special needs has it’s own layer of extra challenges as well.

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Post by alene1 » Wed Sep 25, 2019 1:58 pm

Auto, yes, I think it's going to be so helpful! We start on Monday.

Linda, yes, my students are all in such different places and levels, so it's very difficult to give everyone what they need. But I just need to do the best I can and love them up, and teach them how to be good and kind people.

The saying, "best laid plans," is very fitting for my day yesterday! I went to our morning meeting and someone brought in a box of donuts. Ugh. Why? Really and truly none of us need donuts right after breakfast. Oh well. I can't change anyone but me! I had that feeling pop up, the fear of missing out feeling. I love donuts, and in the past I have said no thanks to the donuts, but then later come back and had more than one in secret. I was trying to avoid that, so I took one to my classroom. I ended up having it while I did my planning, and I wasn't hungry. It took me off my center and the sugar didn't help either I'm sure. It just led to a don't care kind of feeling and with the stress of the day I didn't have the energy to combat it, or even really try. Today is another day, and I am just going to remember the goal here is 6 eating occasions - 3 meals and 3 snacks. No judgement for what I eat, as that just backfires on me. Once I do that consistently I will move onto the next goal.

No exercise. I had an eye appointment after school, and didn't get home till 6. I will get in the flow soon! :)

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Post by automatedeating » Wed Sep 25, 2019 2:24 pm

Oh, my. First week back schedule "discombobulation". I so know that feeling.
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Post by alene1 » Thu Sep 26, 2019 2:13 pm

Auto, it's real!! Yesterday was much better though.

Yesterday definitely was an improvement. My routine is getting streamlined and the kids are getting more settled. I used some of my tools to soothe and calm myself during recess breaks. I turned on my music and did a little bit of coloring with my gel pens. It really gets me into the moment. I had my planned morning snack, a good lunch, and then the afternoon turned into a bit of a snack fest. I had a training after school that felt stupid and pointless to me. I really hate that feeling of being trapped with no choice but to stay there. One of the mom's had sent cupcakes for her daughter's bday, and I ended up having one when we got done with the training. Also had several servings of crackers. We went out to dinner and I ate reasonably, and no evening snack.

What went well:

~ I really didn't think about those cupcakes and wanting to binge on them as I would have in the past. That's actually pretty huge for me! I knew I could have one if I really wanted to at one of my meals or snacks.

~ I planned my morning snack and enjoyed it, using some of my soothing tools to get back to center.
~ I listened to my hunger and fullness at dinner and stopped when I was full.
~ I thought about having an evening snack out of habit, but I wasn't hungry so I went to bed.

So, there is progress there! Hoping today will be even better. :)

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Post by automatedeating » Thu Sep 26, 2019 2:24 pm

Excellent progress on the food planning front and managing the chaos! I suggest you bring your coloring TO the pointless meeting. Working at a community college, that is the only kind of meeting we have! I hate them! But now I bring my coloring and it takes me out of the intensity of the dislike. Hopefully your meetings aren't as soul-sucking as mine, but I still suggest the coloring! :-) Or just doodling - I do Zentangles and they are so awesome. I just use black pens for the doodles.
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Post by oolala53 » Thu Sep 26, 2019 6:58 pm

Isn't it a shame that so many meetings, which could potentially be useful, are not? And yet, as a high school teacher, I am still glad we came together periodically so that it didn't feel like we were all just separately pedaling our own race. And I was lucky that one of the small groups I worked with was congenial and usually productive.

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Post by alene1 » Fri Sep 27, 2019 2:17 pm

Auto, great idea to bring my coloring to the meeting, or at least some doodling. :) I'll look into the one you mentioned. Anything that helps would be awesome! I've noticed that same pattern of hating feeling trapped in lots of areas of my life, but particularly in my work life. Not having control.

Oohlala, I agree with you about meeting with colleagues. I really enjoy when we meet for other reasons. I have a great team, and they are very supportive and helpful. This would just have been better done on our own computers, as it is a self-guided tutorial. I actually love learning new things that will be helpful to me as a teacher. I don't like doing things, "just because," or because someone else deemed this a good idea. :lol: I'm kind of a rebel that way.

Well, yesterday was so much better. Yay!! I had my 3 meals and 3 snacks, and didn't really need to use my stress-management techniques much. I am noticing a new willingness to have smaller snacks and see how that feels. I still have such a fear mentality about not enough and being hungry. I think those feelings will begin letting go as I know to my bones that it is all my choice.

I am missing my exercise so much. I have been so tired all week that it just isn't happening. But I love the connected feeling I have with my body when I exercise. Otherwise I start feeling like a head walking around without a body. :wink: I need to get to Trader Joe's this weekend and get stocked up with my lunch and snack fixings for the week.

No kids on Friday, as it is a prep and meeting day. We call Thursday, "first Friday." It truly is! Good day to all.

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Post by lpearlmom » Sat Sep 28, 2019 5:31 am

Yay for first and second Fridays! I bet once you fully trust that you'll be getting regular meals and snacks, a lot that food anxiety will go away for you.

Sounds like you’re starting to get in your groove a bit! Enjoy your weekend!
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Re: Alene's Check-in

Post by alene1 » Tue Oct 01, 2019 1:40 pm

Good morning. I've had a good couple of days. I started my program and so far I'm enjoying it. It feels good to have a group of people who are all working on the same thing. It also feels good to have the support of the two coaches who truly understand binge eating and all the "stuff" around it. Mondays are almost always a binge day for me. But, I made it through yesterday! I also have a pretty bad cold so that is another factor that can make me tired and cranky and in, "don't care," mode. I laid down and rested all evening and slept pretty well, so that felt good.

Here's to a good Tuesday ahead!

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Re: Alene's Check-in

Post by lpearlmom » Tue Oct 01, 2019 10:48 pm

Yay! So glad you are getting support. It makes such a difference.

I know bingeing doesn’t feel good. I’ve come to think that bingeing is our bodies way of getting what we need when we over restrict but that’s probably too simplistic. Does this program have an overriding philosophy or is it a more multifaceted approach?
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Re: Alene's Check-in

Post by alene1 » Thu Oct 03, 2019 2:04 pm

The program is multi-faceted. It's just beginning so I don't have the big picture yet. Right now we're focusing on creating a regular meal and snack pattern to stabilize and decrease binge eating. I will keep you posted! I have to say that the format isn't the best for me personally. There are so many posts and reading about other people's food issues can be triggering for me. Things I've already worked through or am making progress on and then I get mentally dragged back to not a great head space about them. There are people there who are still wanting to lose weight in this phase, even though it's about stabilizing, maintaining, and decreasing binge eating at this point. So, not perfect, but I will try and make it work for me. I'm more a small group, one to one kind of person. I will have all the email lessons and the podcast though if I just need to step back and use those.

I'm also struggling with the feeling of rules of any kind, or someone telling me what to do - like create a meal and snack schedule. I have such a feeling of push-back and rebellion around rules about eating. They are totally flexible about the schedule and have you pick it according to what you feel will work best, but it still feels like something I'm "supposed" to follow. I need to work through those feelings too. It felt better when I just listened to the podcast and the recommendation and did it on my own. There is so much mental stuff around these food issues!

Yesterday was a struggle at times. What went well:

I just had the one afternoon snack, even though it was early and it included urgent-feeling stress eating. After dinner out for work I thought about binge eating, but didn't. I had a protein bar in the car and ended up eating that even though I wasn't hungry. I thought about going to the store to get more food, but I couldn't think of anything that sounded that good. I could feel the fullness in my stomach and there just wasn't a strong drive there. I really feel like allowing myself all foods has helped so much with this. In the past I think I would have gone to the store and used the opportunity to get and eat forbidden foods.

No exercise all this week. I have a pretty good cold going on, and I'm low energy. I'm on the mend though so hopefully I'll be back to my usual self here soon. I am expecting my first grandchild somewhere around the 24th and I need to make sure I'm healthy!

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Re: Alene's Check-in

Post by automatedeating » Fri Oct 04, 2019 3:09 am

How exciting! First grandchild!!!!

I am starting to see a trend on the boards - I think the changing of the seasons, with the changes in weather, schedules, and all the colds that come with it - are causing people to lose solid grip on habits and routines right now.

But your eating program sounds useful, although I get how reading through the posts can be triggering and difficult. I found that with an alcohol forum I am part of, and recently I have limited reading other people's questions for that very reason.
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