Sbay301 Check in

sbay301 · Post by **sbay301** » Sat Jun 21, 2008 10:39 am

Completed my first week and have 7 links in my paperclip chain. Yes, I need an animate object to carry around to help. Adding to my link gives me a sense of accomplishment.

I have faced my scale fears and now weigh in everyday. I will begin to graph my weight so I can have a picture of where Iâ€™ve been and where Iâ€™m going.

This is the first â€œdietâ€ Iâ€™ve been on that I can see myself sticking to. Just enough rules to be helpful and just enough room to it make my own.

Woke up at 4:30 a.m. like a kid on Christmas. Itâ€™s my s-day!!!! Of course Iâ€™m not hungry yet so Iâ€™m going to wait to see what I want so that I make this day really special.

Iâ€™m planning on sticking to the 3 meals a day. I want to maintain that habit. However, I know I will have a dessert with lunch and/or dinner. Thatâ€™s just who I am.

blueskighs · Post by **blueskighs** » Sat Jun 21, 2008 5:44 pm

sbay301,

WELCOME!

the idea of carriying your paperclips with you is great! a tangible physical reminder!

Blueskighs

sbay301 · Post by **sbay301** » Tue Jun 24, 2008 2:45 pm

Monday results:

b- granola bar
l - frozen dinner - chicken & noddles
d- salad with cheese and turkey

workout - jog 3.5 miles

sbay301 · Post by **sbay301** » Wed Jun 25, 2008 2:36 pm

Tuesday Results:

Yesterday was a very tough day for me as I was tired and crabby due to lack of sleep. I wanted to eat all day long. However, I stuck with the program.

I had to tell myself "oh well" many times. As in "I want to eat the Reeses Peanut Butter Cups in the office refrigerator." "Oh well. I can't have everything I want." "But I'm hungry." "Oh well it's not lunch time."

b - cereal and coffee
l - frozen dinner - Beef & vegetables and apple
d - sandwich and banana

Eating the same items really helps when I want to eat everything. It also helps that I don't cook so there is no tasting and sampling. A package of granola bars is just that 1 serving. A frozen dinner is just that 1 serving. As far as making a sandwich, I purchase just enough slices of turkey and cheese to make it through the week for dinner. No fudging! Portioning cereal is not hard as I measure the cereal into a plastic container after I eat dinner so it's ready for breakfast the next day.

So, I made it through another N day and today (Wednesday) I don't have the need to eat - yet!

blueskighs · Post by **blueskighs** » Wed Jun 25, 2008 3:54 pm

Yesterday was a very tough day for me as I was tired and crabby due to lack of sleep. I wanted to eat all day long. However, I stuck with the program.

sbay301,

WAY TO GO!

I used "self-talk" a lot in the beginning, it is very helpful for talking us through the rough moments when we just "want to eat", I still use it whenever I need it!

Blueskighs

sbay301 · Post by **sbay301** » Thu Jun 26, 2008 3:02 pm

Blueskighs, thanks for your word of encouragement. You are so positive and uplighting.

Wednesdays Results:

b-Cheerios, milk, and banana
l- frozen Chinese dinner and apple
d- Turkey & cheese sandwich

I didn't work out as I got home late due to beauty appointment.

Feeling more in control but sure do miss my love, sweets! But as I said "oh well." Saturday is just around the corner. Really thinking hard about this weekend and how I will handle it. I feel I'm doing well with n-days and want to continue the trend with s-days.

Already have breakfast planned with a friend and I know we are going for pancakes on Sunday. So, I just need to decide what to do on Saturday.

sbay301 · Post by **sbay301** » Fri Jun 27, 2008 1:34 pm

Thursday results:

b- granola bar and coffee
l- Vegetable beef soup and apple
d-1/2 salad with cheese and chicken & 2 slices of bread (out to dinner with boyfriend/significant other - don't know what to call him)

BF/SO wanted to have dessert when we went back to his house but I said none for me and went to bed.

Friday morning:
BF/SO gave me 3 huge chocolate chocolate chip cupcakes for breakfast. They are sitting on my desk. I will take them home tonight and promptly put them in the freezer. Wait I can go stick them in the freezer now. Be right back.

sbay301 · Post by **sbay301** » Fri Jun 27, 2008 1:37 pm

Back from putting cupcakes in freezer!

Note to self (or anyone who will remind me): take yummies home tonight so that I may enjoy 1/2 of one this weekend.

blueskighs · Post by **blueskighs** » Fri Jun 27, 2008 2:33 pm

sbay301,

you are doing FANTASTIC,

great idea to get those cupcakes in the freezer NOW! I am learning to say THANK YOU SO MUCH, I will just put them away for later so I can really ENJOY them,

Blueskighs

sbay301 · Post by **sbay301** » Fri Jun 27, 2008 3:44 pm

Blueskighs thanks for the vote of confidence. I need all the support from this site that I can get.

I'm like a kid waiting for Christmas as I anticipate my S-day. Just need to make it through the day. Only X hours to go.

blueskighs · Post by **blueskighs** » Fri Jun 27, 2008 10:06 pm

Only X hours to go.

sbay301

on fridays, when I really want a latte, that is EXACTLY what I tell myself too!!!!!!!!!

Blueskighs

sbay301 · Post by **sbay301** » Mon Jun 30, 2008 2:41 pm

Well I made it through the weekend. I'm disappointed in myself for having a free for all. Total failure for this weekend. My passion for sweets took over and I indulged on both Saturday and Sunday.

I need a strategy for the weekends. I'm comfortable with my weekdays. So, I've decided for the month of July my goal is to work on S-days.

sbay301 · Post by **sbay301** » Tue Jul 01, 2008 1:57 pm

Monday Results:

Back on track.

b-Cheerios and banana
l- frozen dinner and apple
d- Turkey sandwich, banana and sugar free diet cocoa

I'm joining the July challenge of no red days and working on my S-day.

sbay301 · Post by **sbay301** » Wed Jul 02, 2008 2:07 pm

Tuesday Results:

b-Granola Bar & yogurt
l-frozen dinner - Beef Stroganoff, apple & 8 crackers
d- Turkey & cheese sandwich and banana

I'm really worried about Thursday and Friday and how I will handle food. Believe it or not I'm hoping boyfriend and I do NOT go out of town. It's simpler for me to stay on track when I can eat foods that are controlled portions - ie pre-packaged food.

So, if we go out of town I plan on bringing granola bars and apples which will give me some structure and can be considered breakfast.

I guess bottom line is that I don't trust myself, especially after this past weekend. I feel like I'm a bottomless hole and that no amount of food is enough.

I feel like I want too much.

Believe it or not this is my 20th day No S-ing. As I've written before, Monday throught Friday I do the Vanilla No-S. I haven't deviated.

The first weekend of No-S I did great. Had a special treat each day - no problem.

The second weekend of No-S I did fairly well also. Saturday lunch was a little big and had chocolate chip cookies as a dessert in the afternoon. Looking at my journal on Sunday I didn't have sweets, snacks or seconds.

My problem was this past weekend. It turned into a free for all. I actually gained 4.5 pounds when I weighed in on Monday. Needless to say I have felt terrible about myself all week and therefore I am dreading Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday.

Sooooo......what to do?

Yes, I'm frustrated and scared.