automated eating tracker

Counting carbs/calories is a drag. Obsessive scale stepping is a recipe for despair. If you want to count something, "days on habit" is a much better metric. Checking off days on a calendar would do just fine, but if you do it here you get accountability and support. Here's how. Start a new topic in this forum called (say) "Your Name Daily Check In." Then every N day post a "reply" to that topic as to whether you stayed on habit. A simple "<font color="green">SUCCESS</font>" or "<font color="red">FAILURE</font>" (or your preferred euphemism if that's too harsh) is sufficient, but obviously you're welcome to write more if you want. On S-days just register that you're taking an S-day. You don't have to do this forever, just until you're confident you've built the habit. Feel free to check in weekly or monthly or sporadically instead of daily. Feel free also to track other habits besides No-s (I'm keeping this forum under No-s because that's what the vast majority are using it for). See also my <a href="/habitcal/">HabitCal</a> tool for another more formal (and perhaps complementary) way to track habits.

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by pinkhippie » Sat Sep 07, 2019 6:54 pm

automatedeating wrote:
Fri Sep 06, 2019 2:01 pm
Hi Ladybird! What in the world is the lurgy? Well, nevermind, I took the liberty of looking it up:
http://www.worldwidewords.org/qa/qa-dre1.htm
Ha! And I was even pronouncing it wrong.

INTJ :-) ? And Pinkhippie is INTP. And I am INFJ. Are we a forum of "INs"? Introverted Visionaries? Ha! And perhaps you read where I used to test as a "T" but since all this counseling I'm firmly an F! Double Ha!!! Actually, I really do think it's finally spot on - I think my upbringing and my coping mechanisms had me awkwardly always trying to deny my feelings. In fact, I think I'm kind of extreme with the F thing. I'm starting to pick apart why being around someone that is feeling upset so profoundly causes my system to go wonk-wire (I just made that word up). The advantage I suppose I have at coming to the "feeling" world so late in life is that I have my left brain skills firmly in place to keep me from joining a cult, for example. :mrgreen:

Friday, Sept 6
121.0
FBG: 98 (you know, this number has definitely improved since tightening up my eating. That said, it's still nowhere near what it was when I drank wine everyday. How's that for shite life luck...?)

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, handful walnuts + few bites yogurt
L: yogurt w/berries (2 hours post-meal BG: 108)
D: date night - french onion soup + steak gorgonzola salad
decaf coffee w/milk
fail - 2 keto peanut butter cookies that Sexy had made. I should have waited until tomorrow, but I was feeling weak about things.

Moving
taking it easy today. planning to swim with creator and go on after meal gentle walks.
went on a pretty long walk/jog w/HappyHerder after lunch and dinner.
14K steps

I'm feeling a bit put-upon by my family. I've been working so hard to be there for each of them, listen, not judge, be validating, etc. And I'm worn down. Creator in particular has been so needy the last couple of months. He sleeps in our bedroom a lot (he's 10 so this is pretty old for this behavior, but we are mostly fine with it if he needs it). He made a little nest in the corner that he comes and piles into. He is a very sensitive child and doesn't have a lot of friends. He really does have a huge zest for life - it's not like he acts depressed or unhappy - but he wants to be with me, and be touching me, and talking to me - so much of the time. Part of me suspects it is a "rebound" effect from my years of drinking in the evening when I would tell him to go upstairs (so I could drink in peace before bed, right...?!) and he didn't get the nurturing he needed from me. I view this as the universe's way of putting in kids a sensor that allows them to tell when there is an opportunity to improve an attachment. So I am going with it. Eventually, this kiddo will hit puberty and my window for this sort of repair from the childhood years will close.

This window has already closed with Challenger13, who is also very difficult for me to support, but for different reasons. Actually, if Challenger were my only one, I think at this point he and I would do OK most of the time. We are very similar in the way we think about things. However, my husband and I both were so dismissive of both boys (but Challenger moreso and for longer) at times (again, me partly due to drinking and partly due to my baggage), and so Challenger is quite closed off from his more tender feelings. A couple days ago he cried about something (not being able to make brownies after 9pm, if you're really curious), and I nearly jumped for joy (don't worry, I restrained myself). That is so rare for him to show that kind of vulnerability these days. My therapist keeps reassuring me that my changing behavior can still provide Challenger (and Creator) with better emotional strategies and skills, even though I flubbed up royally for most of their lives.

As parents, I know we do the best we can. I'm not beating myself up about this by laying it all out here (I hope it doesn't come across that way), and although I have moments of guilt and self-flagellation, I am working through them. I know that I can only do what I can to be a present, supportive parent that still provides firm, reasonable boundaries. (that's the toughest one when you are also trying to be empathetic - damn it!).
I think that, taken in total, the above paragraphs explain that, emotionally, I am giving my all with my family, and I'm just feeling worn out. It's like the way my muscles feel after lifting weights. It doesn't mean I'll never lift again, but I need to not stay in the weight room 24/7. LOL.

And lastly, the things I just shared probably are the source of the urges I had yesterday to drink wine as well as seek out some comfort food. I was able to ride out these cravings (a craving is not a command) without too much effort, but effort was definitely required. I wonder what feeling in particular leads straight to the "wanna sit on couch with wine". I have some work to do to pick at this idea, but in general it's something about feeling "enough is enough" or "everybody leave me alone" or "I just want to veg out" or "please god make everyone go away". This FASCINATES me - not the wine/junk food desires, but because I have hardly been around anyone!!!! I mean, yes, I've been back and work and socially a bit every day, but nothing like the number of people I'll be around once classes start up. Apparently even seeing a few people every day is difficult for me! Being alone all summer was like a balm to me. Now my introverted self is freaking out a bit and feeling sorry for itself and wanting to nurse a bottle of wine (or at least some ice cream!) when it finally gets home and can put its feet up.

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I enjoyed this article - this man's journey is quite similar to my own blood sugar journey. Indeed, even the types of exercise that he does seem to be the same as what is best for my own blood sugar control as well.https://www.stuff.co.nz/national/health ... y-diabetes
Hi Auto! Funny all the IN's around here. I am actually an INFP, not an INTP, so I am a feeler as well. Lots of decision making based on my feelings. It makes my marriage to a T exciting! :)

The growth mindset book is amazing to me. It's really just all about how much of a difference our mindset can make in our lives. For example, believing that you can achieve things only because of your natural talent or abilities, versus believing that if you work hard, you can achieve great things. Fixed, you can never change your intelligence or abilities, and growth, you can improve your intelligence and abilities. How important it is to praise kids by not saying "you are so smart," But "wow you worked really hard on that, good job!". There is a lot more to it of course but I think that is the gist.

I really relate to trying to be a parent who is present, supportive and sets firm boundaries, and how difficult that can be. And giving your family your all emotionally. For example, I can tell right now that I need time to myself, yet my 10 year old wants to talk and I can't bear to tell her that I can't listen to her right now. So, I am sitting here listening to her when its the last thing I want to do. That is probably not the best... but its very hard to step back from what I perceive as my family and children's needs.

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Sun Sep 08, 2019 2:40 am

Oh gosh sorry I got mixed up about your type. INFP. :-)

Growth mindset is really fun to talk about, especially in my teaching/learning setting.

What you said about your 10-year old - that is such a hard balance! Being parents, we DO have to sacrifice our own desires many times in order to meet the needs of our children. And yet, if we overdo it, ick! That's NOT fun and can require a long time to recover. Longer than if we just take occasional and necessary breaks for self-care.
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Soprano » Sun Sep 08, 2019 7:00 am

Thanks auto, yes was thinking of getting a monitor :)

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Sun Sep 08, 2019 3:32 pm

Sunday, Sept. 8
121.4

Eating
B: coffee w/half&half
L: yogurt w/berries
1 cup bone broth
D: giant salad w/cheese & egg
dessert: keto bark + dark chocolate peanut butter (BG up to 123, then down to 100 after a nice walk)
decaf coffee w/half&half X 2

Moving
14K steps is the goal
walk/jog w/HappyHerder after lunch and after dinner
movement every hour
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by pinkhippie » Sun Sep 08, 2019 4:59 pm

automatedeating wrote:
Sun Sep 08, 2019 2:40 am
Oh gosh sorry I got mixed up about your type. INFP. :-)

Growth mindset is really fun to talk about, especially in my teaching/learning setting.

What you said about your 10-year old - that is such a hard balance! Being parents, we DO have to sacrifice our own desires many times in order to meet the needs of our children. And yet, if we overdo it, ick! That's NOT fun and can require a long time to recover. Longer than if we just take occasional and necessary breaks for self-care.
Oh goodness, no its ok you got mixed up. I wouldn't have even said anything, but I'm such an F, I Felt like it would be misrepresenting myself to go on as a T. lol :D

Yes I think as a teacher you could do some awesome stuff with growth mindset. I feel like all my great teachers really convey that. They love their subject and they let all the students know that they can learn this even if it seems hard. My networking teacher is like that. He says that its great if we are confused because that is a place that we can start to learn from and be enlightened.

Yeah parenting is a really hard balance. I sometimes wonder if MY parents put this much thought into trying to meet my needs and their own as I do or did they just not even worry about it. It seems like the older generation was less focused on that, but it could have just been my parents. I am glad self care if becoming a known thing and something that is more socially acceptable and not seen as selfish. :)

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Mon Sep 09, 2019 2:43 pm

An F and a T are very different people, right Pinkie!? As a newly certain "F", I am right there with you in the importance of this distinction! It's shocking that when I was 25, I was firmly coming out a "T" on that test, and now I am extreme on the "F". I think I molded myself into a T to fit my family of origin, and now the wild and expressive F in me is finally getting her day in the sun!

I hope your teachers are great this semester and all inspire and encourage you like your networking teacher! I taught my classes sort of "gradeless" spring quarter - it was quite the experiment (I did journal about it here). This fall I am continuing with the best nuggets from spring and some new elements based on student feedback. I'm looking forward to seeing these students thrive.

My mom has said to me on multiple occasions - "I never thought about stuff like you do" or "we just did stuff - got married, had kids, we never thought about it". The burden on parents these days to be all and do all for their kids. Whoa - our culture is so massively child-centric it is a little overwhelming in some ways.

Monday, Sept. 9
121.0

Eating
B: coffee w/half & half, 1/4 cup walnuts, a few bites of yogurt
L: yogurt w/berries
1 cup bone broth in the afternoon
D: cheeseburgers w/ all the toppings
decaf coffee w/half&half

Moving
It is POURING today. Summer is really just about over.... :cry: So it will be weird and not fun to walk/jog today but I'm sure I'll adjust. I broke my headphones last time I ran in the rain - so much for water resistant in the northwest.
I was able to get out for a fairly dry walk/jog after lunch.
Walk/jog after dinner
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Octavia » Tue Sep 10, 2019 9:09 am

...I had to do my jog-walk thing in the rain, too! I felt quite hard-core. :lol:

It’s true we are expected to be and do everything for our kids - I have memories when we’d take DD ice skating with friends on a Sunday morning, all go on the ice, then back to our house to make dinner for the friends. Now my own mother would not have considered going out skating, she would have protested that she had to make the dinner. It would have been one thing or the other. As for dad, he would have been pottering in his workshop or something. But modern parents must entertain AND cook! And we wonder why we get stressed...

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Tue Sep 10, 2019 2:45 pm

Octavia - agree on all points. I feel so tired suddenly thinking about parenting. I've tried so hard, and then sometimes I get this overwhelm of fear that now I've just allowed these children to run wild. Sigh. Not really in the mental space to think about this today.

So restless. This was a common issue in the first couple months of No Alcohol. Month 4 was the easiest, but upon reflection, it was also my LEAST busy month. And now, holy shite, everything is starting to roll. ***revving engines in the background***

OK ladies, how about this topic: no longer coloring my gray....!!!!!! Yes, contemplation has ensued. I'm thinking I could get a pixie cut (I have long, brown, curly hair) and let the gray grow out. Then grow my hair long again if I feel like it. I don't think I would have remotely considered this option if it weren't for quitting alcohol and spending the summer in therapy. I guess if I hate the gray I can always go back to coloring it. But for golly's sake, I spend $100 every 7-8 weeks on my hair...... I talked with hubby about it last night. He never tells me what he really feels if it's negative but I actually did get a sort of enthusiastic support from him. I don't think he was faking. He's quite gray himself, but as we all know, that's just sexy on Sexy. :roll: :lol:
I think I have a LOT of gray. Like maybe 50% at this point. You know, gray hair is in with the young things these days. Ha! I bet my hair lady will freak out. Maybe she should freak out. Maybe this will be remembered as Auto's last sane month. And then she cut her hair and embraced her gray.

Tuesday, Sept. 10
FBG: 98

Eating
B: coffee w/milk
L: yogurt w/berries, walnuts
D: big tuna fish salad w/cheese on top
1 cup bone broth, 1 cup decaf coffee w/milk

Moving
Feel like a slug today. But I will try to move. :-)
Update - Sexy and I had the best day! We went to the casino! Played slots together, then went on a long hike with HappyHerder. Then we took Creator and a friend of his to the Y to swim together. Great day considering it started out sluggish.
I'm already at 16K
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by pinkhippie » Tue Sep 10, 2019 7:15 pm

automatedeating wrote:
Tue Sep 10, 2019 2:45 pm
Octavia - agree on all points. I feel so tired suddenly thinking about parenting. I've tried so hard, and then sometimes I get this overwhelm of fear that now I've just allowed these children to run wild. Sigh. Not really in the mental space to think about this today.

So restless. This was a common issue in the first couple months of No Alcohol. Month 4 was the easiest, but upon reflection, it was also my LEAST busy month. And now, holy shite, everything is starting to roll. ***revving engines in the background***

OK ladies, how about this topic: no longer coloring my gray....!!!!!! Yes, contemplation has ensued. I'm thinking I could get a pixie cut (I have long, brown, curly hair) and let the gray grow out. Then grow my hair long again if I feel like it. I don't think I would have remotely considered this option if it weren't for quitting alcohol and spending the summer in therapy. I guess if I hate the gray I can always go back to coloring it. But for golly's sake, I spend $100 every 7-8 weeks on my hair...... I talked with hubby about it last night. He never tells me what he really feels if it's negative but I actually did get a sort of enthusiastic support from him. I don't think he was faking. He's quite gray himself, but as we all know, that's just sexy on Sexy. :roll: :lol:
I think I have a LOT of gray. Like maybe 50% at this point. You know, gray hair is in with the young things these days. Ha! I bet my hair lady will freak out. Maybe she should freak out. Maybe this will be remembered as Auto's last sane month. And then she cut her hair and embraced her gray.

Tuesday, Sept. 10
FBG: 98

Eating
B: coffee w/milk
L: (will be) yogurt w/berries, walnuts
D: (will be) beef salad bowl/spaghetti for kids (now that this item is back on the menu, summer must truly be over - it is a staple during the school year.
(will have) 1 cup bone broth, 1 cup decaf coffee w/milk

Moving
Feel like a slug today. But I will try to move. :-)
automatedeating wrote:
Mon Sep 09, 2019 2:43 pm
An F and a T are very different people, right Pinkie!? As a newly certain "F", I am right there with you in the importance of this distinction! It's shocking that when I was 25, I was firmly coming out a "T" on that test, and now I am extreme on the "F". I think I molded myself into a T to fit my family of origin, and now the wild and expressive F in me is finally getting her day in the sun!

I hope your teachers are great this semester and all inspire and encourage you like your networking teacher! I taught my classes sort of "gradeless" spring quarter - it was quite the experiment (I did journal about it here). This fall I am continuing with the best nuggets from spring and some new elements based on student feedback. I'm looking forward to seeing these students thrive.

My mom has said to me on multiple occasions - "I never thought about stuff like you do" or "we just did stuff - got married, had kids, we never thought about it". The burden on parents these days to be all and do all for their kids. Whoa - our culture is so massively child-centric it is a little overwhelming in some ways.

Monday, Sept. 9
121.0

Eating
B: coffee w/half & half, 1/4 cup walnuts, a few bites of yogurt
L: yogurt w/berries
1 cup bone broth in the afternoon
D: cheeseburgers w/ all the toppings
decaf coffee w/half&half

Moving
It is POURING today. Summer is really just about over.... :cry: So it will be weird and not fun to walk/jog today but I'm sure I'll adjust. I broke my headphones last time I ran in the rain - so much for water resistant in the northwest.
I was able to get out for a fairly dry walk/jog after lunch.
Walk/jog after dinner
Thanks!
hah yes there are some major differences between T and F. I used to actually wonder if I was J and even test that way but I think its because a J is more what we are supposed to be in many ways, and I was trying to mold myself into something I was not. Now I embrace my (P) Perceiving side.

Wow teaching a grade less semester sounds very interesting! I might need to go look for those journal posts. So far I have great teachers. My programming teacher, I have had for 1.5 semesters now so I feel very comfortable around him now...well MORE comfortable. It's very easy to be intimidated when a teacher knows so much about the subject that you are trying to learn about. :) My networking class is great because it feels like we are all in it together, trying to figure this stuff out. It's nice when you have a class full of enthusiastic students AND an enthusiastic teacher.

So... onto hair. :D

Well I have some gray in my hair and I don't plan to dye it. I dyed my hair all the time when I was younger and now I just can't stand it. It's too much work and maintenance. I think natural gray looks awesome, and if you have curly hair I think a pixie could look great. I contemplate pixies, but they are also maintenance because then you have to cut them all the time to keep their shape. It's why my hair is just pretty blah and shapeless right now. I wear it in a bun 99.5 % of the time so it doesn't matter. :D Can you tell I don't like maintenance? lol

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Octavia » Wed Sep 11, 2019 4:55 pm

To grey or not to grey is a very personal question...but it sounds like a fun adventure for you right now, something new and exciting. You might find all sorts of new colours suit you! Also, it would be practical and easy to care for! You might feel really liberated. And if not, you can change your mind and go back to colouring it!

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by jenji » Wed Sep 11, 2019 5:53 pm

My hair has big streaks of gray now. I like it, yet I will be doing some new stuff professionally, and several people have suggested I straighten it and color it to project a certain look. I hate my hair straight. So I am not taking that advice to heart. My grays and my curls are coming on this adventure.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Wed Sep 11, 2019 8:42 pm

This grey hair thing is so controversial! I've been reading a bit about it and I realize I'm making quite a statement (whether I mean to or not) by forging this path.

Pixie - I am not into maintenance either! I think, like Octavia said, it feels freeing for me to try this route. And right - I can always change my mind and color it again! One of my sisters is FREAKING out - she is working it working it to talk me out of this. She is so upset that it will make look old. She's 10 years older than me and I almost wonder if having her younger sister look old is affecting her OWN self-image.... hmmmm. fascinating.

Jen - you are amazing. Proud of you! I don't have a "public" image to worry about, but I can imagine the pressure on you is greater than that of my friends and family. You do you!

Wednesday, September 11 (always a somber moment to write that)
120.4
FBG: 100

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, then a croissant breakfast sandwich (got the weird low BP again and had to drink salt water - caught it early enough this time that I avoided the fainting, thank goodness).
L: yogurt w/berries
D: beef bowl salad / spaghetti for kids
decaf coffee w/half&half

Moving
Not too much today. Heading out for a walk and then swimming with Creator.
Also walk/jogged after dinner.
Running problem!!! I've been getting side aches on my jogs! I think it's from going after eating (which is my goal for the whole blood sugar regulation idea) - but HappyHerder wants to RUN and so I get a sideache!!!
14K steps now.

Jury Duty Tomorrow!!!
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Candace » Wed Sep 11, 2019 9:38 pm

That's pretty interesting about the decision whether or not to color your hair. I'm not ready to embrace my gray, so color it is for me. However, about a year ago I stopped paying a salon colorist to do it, and now do it myself using eSalon. It's a bit awkward at first to do it oneself, but the results are really good, and I get a bit better at it every time I do it. It is pretty darn cheap, too. I've even done my own highlights a couple of times, and the results are (again) really good, at least as good as the salon. I'm doing a "plain vanilla" darkish brunette with a little copper in it, and my hair is naturally ashy brown a shade or two darker than the color. I have maybe 50% gray in my center part, and maybe 20% gray or less most other places on my head. I only wish I had a coloring buddy to trade favors with. It would be much easier to do someone else's and then have them do mine. I'm happy to chat about it with anyone who is curious. There may be a referral possibility but I don't care about that.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Thu Sep 12, 2019 1:48 pm

Candace! It's amazing how this discussion gets people going. I was totally in your camp as recently as my last hair appt (about not being ready to embrace my gray). I'm not really sure what's come over me. I get it that my decision is not for everybody (and maybe it's not even for me), but seriously - my sister is being so weird!!! She says I'll look "faded and worn out" and "OLD" and how can I want to do that in my 40's... it's tough! I thought she'd let up eventually, but she still sends text messages communicating her panic that I'm so willing to give up, in her mind, my youth.

The weirdest part is I get excited at the prospect. I've had alternating very short and very long hair over the years (currently in a very long stage) - getting a pixie cut is fun to do occasionally. It grows back! :-) In fact, I get way more compliments when my hair is short (that has always surprised me). And by cutting it all off I can basically zoom through the part where I let the gray grow back in. Anyway, I'm rambling. It is totally fascinating to me how important hair is to all of us as to our identity, and how having a loved one change hair can be disruptive to our own identity (clearly my sister is strongly affected by my contemplation). For me, this change is about being my true self. The lower maintenance, the less money spent, the quick and easy hair do, the vulnerability and transparency of showing my students that yes - some women DO go gray in their 40's - it's not the end of the world! These things are all the true me. My husband will still love me, my kids will have to deal (yes, that's a probable difficult transition for them, I get that), but we can get through this.

I think getting older is incredibly difficult for us to embrace, as well. My boobs are smaller and saggier now, I seem to be wrinkling at a faster rate than I expected, my skin tone is not even like it used to be, my hairline has a bit of recession in one spot, my neck skin is getting saggy. Yuck, right?! But it is me. On the bright side, my physical mobility is better than it's been since my 20's. My weight is happy and healthy. My joy in most things is much greater than a decade ago. I didn't want to face aging in my 40's, but here it is. It's not like I don't wish I looked amazing, but I am OK with not looking amazing. The journey. And I realize I have one more sentence bubbling up...... I feel peaceful and joyful on the inside. When I think of me with gray, I see myself with a big smile, an open heart, and a comfort in my own skin that I've been waiting for my whole life. A zest and a vibrancy that won't be held back.

Thursday, September 12 -- JURY DUTY today! :-)
121.4
FBG: 98

Eating
B: coffee w/half&half, handful of walnuts & a bit of yogurt
L: yogurt w/berries
decaf coffee w/half&half
D: salmon cakes - ravioli for kids
fail - had 2 of hubby's buttercream treats.

Moving
walk/jog after dinner
13.5K steps
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Lizzy6 » Fri Sep 13, 2019 12:24 am

I loved reading that last post. I appreciate your positive attitude. I am 43 and I have started noticing the effects of aging. I hope to be at peace with it all too.

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by ladybird30 » Fri Sep 13, 2019 2:38 am

My 60's are the best decade of my life.
Three meals a day - not too little not too much, but just right

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Soprano » Fri Sep 13, 2019 5:16 am

I'm a natural blonde and 55. On 3 or 4 occasions I have had highlights but am going grey naturally and disgracefully. I'm fortunate in that there is still a lot of blonde even if it is more ash than strawberry these days :)

Give it a go!

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Fri Sep 13, 2019 2:33 pm

Lizzy - I know we can grow from this discomfort and come out stronger for it. I already feel so much different than even 6 months ago. And interestingly, NoS has been my partner all along this long route. It provides the routine, the habits that allow me to eat food without spending excessive energy on food. Then I have energy to focus on the living of life. Also, success with NoS gave me confidence to approach other areas of my life that I wanted to change.

Ladybird - yes! I love hearing that!! I want your kind of mobility, exercise, and social connections when I'm in my 60's!!

Soprano - lucky duck! Blondes luck out in youth with the head-turning, then in middle age with the barely-noticeable graying! :-)

Friday, September 13
121.4
FBG: 91 (two possible reasons it is lower than normal: 1) ate very few carbs for dinner - I just wasn't hungry for a salad; and 2) I went running after dinner for about an hour. Evening exercise is usually shorter & gentler. Anyway, this is encouraging to see such a reasonable FBG.)

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, walnuts, bit of yogurt
L: yogurt w/berries - BG only up to 109 after this. Nice.
decaf coffee w/half & half
D: 1 piece of pizza and some dark chocolate -- fail. Blood glucose up to 145 within an hour. I had been toying with the idea of a free-for-all S night but my blood sugar spike brought me back to reality. Of note - this was a first where I had a very direct correlation between a headache and a blood sugar spike. I've had this happen many other times after eating sugary stuff, but I don't always have the readings to confirm the spike.

Moving
Aiming for after lunch and after dinner walks
Argh, I'm feeling so lazy today.

So how do I "treat" myself if food treats mess with my blood sugar? If I have trouble moderating alcohol? I can see why people might shop or something to get a rush. But maybe what I really need to do is some sinking into the change triangle to figure out what's making me antsy today.
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Sat Sep 14, 2019 3:08 pm

Saturday, September 14
122.2
FBG: 97
Morning BP: 123/72

Eating
B: coffee w/milk, handful of walnuts
1 cup broth
L: yogurt w/banana slices
coffee w/milk
D: salmon & green beans
dessert: keto pecan ice cream
1 cup broth

Moving
Pretty low key. Did some yard work and joined a subscription service called "Nutritious Movement". I liked the sound of that! :-) I worked through the first video called "Adductor Madness" (it was not mad at all, very gentle alignment series)
*evening walk - got to 15K steps. Mainly I'm focusing on moving every hour, actually every 30 min.

Last night I went on a long walk/jog with HappyHerder. I put away my podcast and just tried to sink into what was making me so antsy. What I came away with is not pretty to admit: I felt angry - resentful, put-upon, "woe is me", and a variety of other self-pitying and frustrated feelings about being expected to take care of my kids. Not pretty to put down here. I hate making lunches for them; fixing meals is anathema to me. Funny, because I was JUST talking to a co-worker and she was going on about how feeding her family well is her "thing". It makes her happy, fulfilled, etc. Maybe the way reading to my kids makes me feel. I also felt resentful that Creator has been sleeping in our room so much. Definitely hampers my sex life! I also felt irritated and put-upon that they always want me to listen and talk after 9pm (which is when I basically turn into a pumpkin - or maybe closer to the truth - a brain-dead zombie minus the appetite). And then I felt like the world is against me that kids need to talk so much at night and I am not a night person. Not only do they want to talk, it's very challenging to listen to their rude thinking and irrational plans. I have to bite my tongue repeatedly to avoid calling them giant fools and meanies. Lastly, I hate having to get them out the door and ready for school; drive them to and from every activity under the sun at every hour of the day; drive back to a place I was just at because I had promised one of them a specific kind of fast food that is only in one part of town.

I'm especially angry that I'm NOT able to enjoy my kids the way "good" moms do. My precious little popkins, the time goes so fast, they'll be gone before I know it, it's not about me it's about them - yada, yada, yada. Why do women always tell me this? When you see someone with a puppy, do you say, "enjoy this time because they'll be old and needing extra vet care before you know it?" Or to someone with brown hair, "enjoy your color because you'll be totally gray before you know it?" And, btw, they give this advice unsolicited! It's not like I even said all these frustrations. I might be hugging one of the kids, laughing, and enjoying myself, and then the woman (often my mother) will have to remind me I better enjoy this time because soon it will be gone (and the implied message is that I'll always regret my (mis)use of my time and wish I could go back and live in this phase of life perpetually). Oh, my. I just felt another big rush of anger as I typed this. Probably because I realized the cycle. My mom felt all these things - I'm almost sure of it. But denied it all.

Holy shite! Is this what comes out when I let myself FEEL my feelings! That is a pile of poop! I'm sorry you all had to wade your way through it. This is where some woman that's always wanted to have a baby - or worse, someone that has LOST a child - gets to lambaste me for being an ungrateful bitch. Honesty sucks. But the angry woman can't yell me out of my own state of mind. Maybe give me a guilt trip, but not fix the underlying feelings I fell prey to.

So I tried to just sink into these negative feelings and not run away from them (up to the defensive corner of the change triangle, in case you like the change triangle like I do).
https://medium.com/@hilaryjacobshendel/ ... 8400866060

It wasn't pleasant, and I was surprised at the multiple waves of anger that came out. All those other words - frustration, resentment, put-upon, hating - they all basically are anger. Lots of anger. It's directed at my kids, my mom, other mothers, but also at the universe in general.

And trying to defend against feeling that anger? Made me eat pizza yesterday! "Eating pizza" became the dopamine hit that helped me avoiding feeling my anger.

After my walk I was in a calmer state. It is not a pretty thing to feel/admit these ugly feelings toward one's own children. It's not their fault they need me. I'm the parent - I am the responsible party in this gig. I can't just not do my duty because I resent it.

So a few things I need to do:
1. come up with a plan for food. The kids' school has hot lunch W & F, which of course I sign up for, but they still need their snacks. So I'm on for M,T, and Th lunch, and snacks for all the days. Our local grocery sells subway sandwiches and other quick lunches. I'm going to start either stopping there on the way to school, or picking up their lunches Sunday at the store. Yes, I would RATHER drive to the grocery store to take care of their food needs than make them lunches. And they can pack their own snacks. The 13-year-old should pack all his own food but he often just doesn't take anything in those cases.

2. gently have a conversation with Creator about when he can/cannot sleep in our room. I was thinking maybe he can sleep in there on the weekends, but not weeknights. I just have a feeling he'll get his anxiety bouts when I try to get him to stay in his own room if I push too hard. I need Sexy's help on this topic, because I feel VERY guilty about making a boundary about this, I think because of his history with anxiety. I've always prided myself on having an open floor space for kids in my room. :-) I think it's because MY parents never allowed me in their room, and I have vivid memories of as child after a nightmare or freaky night-time thoughts, standing outside their bedroom door with my body pressed against their door and hoping to feel comforted by knowing they were in the room behind that door. Very sad memories. OK, let's be clear here - there is no way that my kids would feel like that. They've had annoyingly free access to our room their entire lives.

Driving kids to and fro is also horribly annoying to me, but I already try to work carpooling, Sexy helps, and I try to curtail outside activities. So. I just need to have lots of good podcasts ready for these drives.

Honestly, as long and self-pitying as this post is, there is plenty more I felt angry about! Holy cow! I literally am thinking of additional things that pull up frustration in me (helping with homework after 8pm the night before it is due, for example, while I am trying to read and someone needs urgent help....). It's like I need one of those signs, "procrastination on your part does not constitute an emergency on my part."

At this point, I think we can all be thankful that I only have 2 kids, and probably we all understand why numbing out in the evenings with wine was my go-to for the past 10 years..... :roll: I promise I'll keep going to therapy. 8)
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Soprano » Sat Sep 14, 2019 5:31 pm

Big hugs Auto, you are not alone with those feelings about parenthood and good for you voicing them.

I would definitely start to set boundaries around the bedroom.

Haven't got time for more now. Out with my son!


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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by pinkhippie » Sat Sep 14, 2019 8:42 pm

Auto,

Hair brings up so many things for people! Its really interesting. And aging too. I really struggled with that when I turned 40 and I was working with a bunch of 19 and 20 year olds. I bought all the face creams and anti aging stuff that I swore I would never be sucked in by. It was not pretty. But, I think I have mostly come out the other side. I am not supposed to look like a 20 year old because I am not 20! I have had 3 kids and this body has done lots of stuff and that is great! Our society just kind of seems to worship youth especially in women so that is tough.

I REALLY hear you on resenting having to make the food for the kids. It is my LEAST favorite part of being a parent. My kids all have different eating issues too and it is super stressful. I always make a weekly meal plan and I hate it with the passion of 1000 burning suns because it always feels like there is no way I can think of enough meals to fill a week. So something I did a few weeks ago that made a huge difference, was I sat down with a blank calendar and just worked my way through a meal plan for 4 weeks. Then I labeled the weeks 1-4 and posted it on the bulletin board. This has made a huge difference. Also, I want my kids to be healthy but I planned a lot of easier quicker meals for my own sanity. Sounds like you have a good plan for dealing with food for yourself and your family.

It sounds like you have had lots of good ideas about how to take care of yourself and setting boundaries. You can't be the best mom you can be if you aren't meeting your own needs and its good to model to your kids boundary setting and taking care of your needs. In my opinion anyway.

Also moms need to be more supportive of other moms! We need to be able to be like "hey parenting sucks sometimes" and have other moms (and dads) be like yeah it does! It's so weird how taboo this is in our culture.

I think its so great how you are realizing and voicing your feelings of anger. I think that is a form of self care that women often neglect.

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Dalia negra » Sun Sep 15, 2019 8:57 am

Auto, I feel very identified with you regarding the issue of children.
I only have one girl, but she constantly demands my attention and I feel very mentally exhausted. I surprise myself with thoughts like yours and then I feel very guilty for having them. But I think that is also part of motherhood and that it doesn't make us worse mothers. I hug you in the distance and support you.

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Sun Sep 15, 2019 4:27 pm

Soprano - thanks for always being supportive and accepting me despite my flaws! And the bedroom - sheesh, yes, need to fix this fast.

Pinkie - thank you for sharing so much! I love what you said about aging - about your struggle and your growth in that area. I want to be like you!
Re: food - I love your idea about planning for the entire month!!! I do one week at a time and really I'm just repeating a lot of things. So you have a calendar on a bulletin board? I use "google keep" for my menu but sometimes I wish I had something physical to look at. And thanks to you too for accepting me despite me admitting some not-very-pleasant feelings about being a mom. It means a lot. The support on this board never ceases to amaze me! We ARE women supporting women! (and Who's and Over43 are our token guys, haha).

Dalia - I think it's great that by admitting my uglies, I find that others have similar uglies and I am not a horrible person. Bringing our shame into the light helps heal it, I think. Hang in there with your daughter. How old is she? Oh! I just saw on your thread she is 9! And my Creator is 10! They are so fun at that age but never stop talking to us! Even my 13 year old gets going, going, going when he tells me about his video games.

Sunday, September 15
122.0
FBG: 98

Eating
B: coffee w/milk & half&half, handful of walnuts
1 cup bone broth
L: yogurt w/berries & banana slices
decaf coffee w/half&half
D: fried chicken and green beans
decaf coffee w/half&half
dessert: keto bark + dark chocolate peanut butter

Moving
still working to move every hour. read a blog about a lady that got rid of chairs, couches, regular beds. ha! she's crazy but it is a smart way to get more mobility into the days! I'm doing her exercises for a month or so - Nutritious Movement
Also plan to just go on my regular walk/jog today and get over 14k steps
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by Soprano » Sun Sep 15, 2019 5:06 pm

I'm on the way home now after spending the weekend in London with hubby, son and his girlfriend. Son is now 25 and living and working in the City he's doing really well and I am so proud of the man he has become.

We've all had a fantastic time together.

However life has not been smooth and perfect.

This was the child I worried would never learn to read and now devours books.

I have never known a fussier eater and many times he drove me to the brink with his refusal to eat what I had cooked which a week ago he loved but whilst still fussy is a healthy eater.

I despaired at the time he spent on the computer in his bedroom but his social skills and confidence in public are fantastic.

No he's not perfect now anymore or less than the rest of us but I believe because all of our parenting actions were out of love whether with hindsight were right or wrong we've come out the other side and still got a bond.

Just hang in there, enjoy as many moments as you can and don't stress the mistakes and bad thoughts.

Hope this helps.

It's all a phase and will pass :)

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Mon Sep 16, 2019 2:12 pm

Thank you Soprano! Sexy and I really are doing the best we can, but we are not perfect, our kids are not perfect, their teachers are not perfect, their friends are not perfect, their friends' parents are not perfect, their coaches are not perfect. Hun, you'd almost think that nobody's perfect and we just need to accept people the way they are! :lol:

Monday, September 16 (hair appt. is Thursday afternoon!!!)
121.6
FBG: 95

Eating
B: coffee w/half&half, handful of walnuts & a bit of yogurt (BG 102 1 hr after)
1 cup bone broth
L: yogurt w/berries
D: Sexy made us roast beef sandwiches on keto bread (BG 1 hr: 95; 2 hours; 95 - oh yeah baby)
1 cup decaf coffee w/half & half

Moving - lots of goals today.
Nutritious Movement video
(will) clean 15 min
clean Master Bathroom
walk/jog w/HappyHerder
walk after lunch
move every hour at least 250 steps
hang on pull-up bar every time I walk by it. :-) No joke, just hanging is making me sore.
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by jenji » Mon Sep 16, 2019 5:48 pm

I love cooking, yet even I have felt truly oppressed (not joking) by the lunch/snack packing. No one gets it unless they have to do it every day. My boyfriend didn't get why I'd be so angry when I was reaching for my backup, last ditch lunch option, PBJ, and I found out at the last moment that he'd eaten the last bit of peanut butter or bread for a midnight snack. I started labeling peanut butter "Do not eat!" and he was getting triggered with some disordered guilty eating habits. Not fun. Thank goodness my kid now eats school lunch, and I just throw some snack money at her. (She's in high school.) I heartily endorse anything that allows you to offload those duties. Can Sexy take over for a year of lunches?
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by lpearlmom » Tue Sep 17, 2019 6:23 am

I am not all caught up on your thread but wanted to say, i also really dislike making lunches for my kids. When they have school vacations thats the number one thing im excited about—not having to make them. Now Rosebud gets school lunches and sweetpea is happy if i throw just about anything into a brown bag for her so it’s finally getting more manageable but ugh, i get it!
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Tue Sep 17, 2019 1:10 pm

Jen and Linda - I am not alone! :-) Thank you for both validating my frustrations. Our shared humanity makes it so much easier for me to do the work now. That is pretty cool! I'll be chuckling while I pack.

2 days until gray hair reveal. :shock:
update - just for fun today I chopped 6 inches off my hair, so now it is a cute bob above my shoulders. Hubby said he really likes it this length (meaning - please don't chop even more). But I am chopping even more. All of it so that only my natural color (or lack thereof) shows. I told him I welcome his feedback and I'll grow it out again to whatever length he likes.

Tuesday, September 17
122.8
FBG: 94

Eating
B: coffee w/half & half, handful walnuts & bite of yogurt
L: yogurt w/berries
D: 4 deviled eggs (8 halves, lol) + big salad with guac & cheese
decaf coffee w/half&half

Moving
hanging from bar
nutritional movement exercises
walk/jogging after lunch and dinner
moving every hour

15 min cleaning
zone - living room & entry

Got a Versa 2! It arrived today and I had fun setting it up. Can you even imagine all the fun graphs for HR and sleep I can have my students do? LOL.
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Wed Sep 18, 2019 1:36 pm

Wednesday, September 18
121.6
FBG: 88
morning BP: 114/69
Pulse: 67

Eating
B: coffee w/half&half, bone broth, handful of walnuts & a bite of yogurt
L: yogurt w/berries (2 hours post meal - 114)
decaf coffee w/half&half
D: steak + green beans (pre - meal 105)
decaf coffee w/half&half

Moving
Hanging from bar
Nutritious Movement video
Lots of steps
swimming with Creator
walk/jog after meals

Tomorrow is the big day. Super super short pixie cut + Gray Reveal.
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Thu Sep 19, 2019 2:35 pm

Thursday, Sept. 19
120.6
7am FBG: 101
Morning BP: 103/67

Eating
B: coffee w/half&half and milk
1 cup bone broth
L: yogurt w/berries (at work potluck)
D: roast beef sandwich
decaf coffee w/half&half

Moving
Hung on bar
Nutritious movement exercises
walk/jog after meals
15K steps

Cleaning - been keeping track of this over on coach.me but maybe I'll start here too.
(will) clean for 15 min
(will) spend 15 min in zone - Master Bedroom

Hair appt after work today.
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by lpearlmom » Thu Sep 19, 2019 4:11 pm

Okay finally had a chance to read back on some of your thread! I love that your embracing your gray. My neighbor did that recently and she looks great. I bet you will inspire other ppl to do the same and your sister can go take a hike. Your body, your choice.

As far as your tough day with your kids. I hope you know you are normal, normal, normal. All of those feelings are so normal. I could have written that exact post a few years ago. Mothering is exhausting! Sometimes feeling resentful about that makes perfect sense. Also, I’ve always hated when ppl tell me to “enjoy this time because it goes so fast”. Why do ppl say that? It does nothing for me but causes me stress!

Just to give you a little hope, things will get easier. I had that kid that slept in our room forever too and now I just give her a quick kiss gnight whenever I’m ready to go to sleep and that’s it.
It’s heavenly!

Anyway, I think it’s amazing how far you’ve come. I know it’s not easy feeling all those difficult feelings but you’re doing great.
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by alene1 » Fri Sep 20, 2019 2:02 pm

Good morning. Had a chance to read just a bit of your journal. Your honesty is so very refreshing. There is so little of it in this world of trying to look good from the outside. You inspire me to share more openly. I know that I struggle in life with wanting to show only the parts of me that I deem acceptable - both in body and personal characteristics. Being vulnerable opens up the door to such wonderful intimacy and sharing.

I like the way your journal is organized. Very tidy and consistent. :) What is nutritious movement?

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by oolala53 » Fri Sep 20, 2019 6:57 pm

Feeling a little overwhelmed to try to catch up, but wanted to say hi. Onwards to fall.
Count plates, not calories. Three a day. 9 years & counting
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Jan/12-26.8
Mar/13-24.9 Stayed at +/- 8-lb. for three years Sept/17 22.8 (but more fluctuation)
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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by automatedeating » Mon Sep 23, 2019 12:04 am

Thanks Linda! My gray is pretty wild!! I am way more gray than I had even realized! My family and friends are most shocked by the short length, I think - I practically got a buzz cut. Remind me to never tell a young mother "enjoy this time - it goes so fast!" maybe I could just tell people that their children are beautiful and fun to watch and leave it at that.

Alene - thanks for stopping by my thread! This thread is definitely a huge part of my "therapy"! I am more motivated to type regularly here than in a purely private place. If only Reinhard knew that this forum is vastly more than just about food. :-) Nutritious Movement is my newest mobility program. She has 30 min videos that are primarily about mobility and alignment.

And hello Oolala!

Sunday, September 22

Home from Ashland, OR! I flew down to watch "All's Well That Ends Well" at the Shakespeare Festival. :-)
Stayed with my oldest sister; we had a very relaxing time and the flights and travels were smooth. We also saw Downton Abbey - it was so excellent!!

Quick Food Recap:
Friday
B: blonde flat white latte, egg bites from Starbuck's
L: tortilla soup and some chips w/salsa
D: popcorn, diet coke
Lots of good walking

Saturday
B: hotel hot breakfast - 2 hard-boiled eggs, 3 pieces of bacon, coffee w/half&half
L: decaf coffee w/half&half
D: Japanese restaurant - beef & veggies, avocado salad
dessert: apple cider, chocolate chip cookie
Lots of good walking

Sunday
B: hotel hot breakfast - scrambled eggs w/asparagus & mushrooms; 3 sausage links, lots of coffee w/half&half
L: nothing
D: yogurt w/berries (yep, it was the first thing I fixed when I got home, haha)
Apparently our Keurig is broken so I guess I won't have decaf coffee tonight..... maybe I'll have chocolate for dessert
desserts: chocolate bark, taste testing two different kinds of chocolate almond bars.
not so much moving! I can't seem to get off the couch now that I'm home!
Month/Year-BMI
8/13-26.3; 8/14-24.5; 5/15-26.2; 1/16-26.9; 9/16-25.6; 8/17-25.8; 11/17-26.9; 3/18-25.6; 8/18-24.5; 10/18-23.8; 1/19-23.4; 2/19-22.7; 3/19-22.1

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Re: automated eating tracker

Post by lpearlmom » Mon Sep 23, 2019 5:32 am

Ooohh wish i could see your hair. I bet it looks great!! Sounds like you had a great time. So hsppy to hear!
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