Friday -
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WOW - I honestly can say that that was the best Friday I've ever had on No S, and I'll tell you why....(this will be a little lengthy but I want to remember exactly how I felt).....
First, I woke up feeling so uplifted from conquering yesterday's urges to turn to bad habits. You're so right
Milliem - it does give you a real boost when you see that you can actually do it.
Then, I went grocery shopping as I always do on Friday. I guess I should mention that usually, when I'm on No S, I shop with this thought in my mind...."Ok, it's almost the weekend....I have two days to get in every sweet urge I've had all week. Time to have FUN!" And I'll stock up on a bunch of sweets, way too much for one weekend. Then, it'll be a countdown for me.....how much longer till I can splurge. And then, the weekend will come and the inevitable binge will start and continue until Sunday night. I always wake up Monday morning feeling gross, disappointed in myself and look to the week ahead with dread, as I know it will be five whole days until I can eat that way again. (Even though at the moment I am disgusted with myself, I'm counting the days until I can do it again!!
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Anyway, this time I didn't have that feeling when I was shopping. It was no big deal that tomorrow was Saturday because I get a small treat every day. It hadn't built up over the week, and I was totally content. All the urges to binge are GONE. It's now Saturday, and it feels like any other day. What a difference!!
These mods seem to be EXACTLY what I needed. I've been content with no seconds. Usually by 4:00 I start to get the urge to cheat with a snack, so my 4:00 snack (usually a handful of almonds with a few triscuits and cheese) is enough to get me back on track. And then by the end of the day, after I've tucked the kids in, I'm usually feeling like I NEED a sweet, so I've been having a cup of low-fat ice cream every night. Once I have it, I'm totally content and have no urge to keep eating. (Another mild miracle)
At the beginning of this week, I also decided to take even more of the decision-making out of the equation and put a pre-determined plate in front of me at every meal. Breakfast is always my raisin bran (never get tired of it and it's filling to me). Lunch is 1/4 plate veggies, 1/4 plate fruit, and 1/2 plate wrap, sandwich, etc. Supper is 1/4 plate veggies (side salad in a bowl), 1/4 plate fruit and 1/2 plate whatever we're having for supper. That way I don't seem to overload, and I'm always getting in the veggies and fruit that I usually try to ignore, "because I can if I want to on No S".
With just 4 days of eating that way, I feel so much better. Even though I don't have the sweets taken away completely, I don't feel like I have sugar coursing through my veins all the time, but I also don't feel like I'm constantly struggling to get to the weekend, for that "release".
I know I can probably only get so far with weight loss with these mods. If I'm not losing after awhile, I might just decrease amounts before I change the mods. If I'm already gaining peace of mind, I consider this a good way to go for me.
Thanks everyone for stopping by. Appreciate your support!
SW (as of 3/25/13): 172 lbs.
CW: 171 lbs.